Just in case anyone else is interested (besides myself), the following is the reason why I chose my Twitter name, @Mulantis9999 :
I learned/remembered from Bashar (channeled through Darryl Anka) that the ancient people of Lemuria referred to themselves as the people of “Mu.”
While reading about Lemuria and Atlantis in the book, The Emerald Tablets of Thoth – The Atlantean, I learned/remembered that ancient Lemuria was a very materialistic society that ultimately met its downfall, and ancient Atlantis was a highly spiritual and technological society that also had to temporarily end due to the potential misuse of its powers by “others.”
Note: Image on right above found next to link => www.systems-sense.com (thank you)
I also learned/remembered how Lemuria was connected to Japan, and other countries, and that the great city of KEOR was connected to Atlantis, among other things.
While reading the rhythmic flow of words of wisdom in the book mentioned above, I was reminded of my own life, and how I had often wished that Korea and Japan had formed a truly peaceful relationship with one another, and not just on the surface for the rest of the world to see.
Anyone who’s aware of the history between Korean and Japan—among other countries that had experienced much suffering from having been severely oppressed by a once aggressive country—deeply understands the negative impact it can have on people to this day.
Being half Korean and half Japanese myself, I often experienced outer and inner conflict for being who I am—like an ongoing, seemingly never-ending war between the duality of “good” vs “evil” outside of me and within me.
I learned what it was like to be hated and to hate others; and I trust that these disguised blessings/life lessons have led me to the path where I can begin to finally re-member to unconditionally love self and others at the deepest level of my being—as who I truly am.
So when I decided to re-enter the Twitter world—which was initially to reconnect with a mystic friend whom I had never met before, but respected and admired—I decided to create a Twitter name that would remind me to reunite the dark and Light of my inner and outer world, just the way I’ve been referring to myself as being biologically Japorean (i.e., Japanese Korean) throughout my blog, and in this physical reality.
In addition, my Korean last name (from my mother) is Mun (pronounced moon), which contains “Mu” and also reminds me of Mu (the “Motherland”)/Moon/Yin and all the “darkness” in my life that had helped me to gain much life lessons/wisdom, especially through my intense relationship with her.
Despite the seemingly unfortunate situation of having to be raised in a very unhealthy environment throughout my childhood, my mother unconsciously (i.e., her ego self not being aware) taught me some of the greatest lessons in life by being very controlling and abusive (physically, verbally and emotionally).
And those lessons were for me to let go of the excessive need to help others—while neglecting self—and to also let go of needing to control everything in my life (both cases, too much feminine energies). Another lesson was for me to incorporate more masculine energies (e.g., self-worth, assertiveness, confidence, etc.) in my life that I had lacked.
Had her presence not been so shockingly “in your face” kind of controlling and aggressive (again, too much feminine and too much masculine energies, rather than a balance), I would have never learned anything from the experiences/gifts/disguised blessings.
My Japanese-American biological father’s last name—which didn’t end up on my birth certificate due to him leaving when I was six months old—has the letter “Su” at the beginning (Sugi), which just now reminded me of the Sun/Yang.
I didn’t realize this then, but later learned that he was the epitome of the extreme end of masculine energies within him—basically, way too much masculine energies, and practically nonexistent amount of feminine energies (e.g., having no remorse for past hurtful actions: excitedly bragged about throwing Vietnamese soldiers off a plane during an interrogation in the Vietnam War).
Thanks to my husband’s persistent search for my biological father while I was deployed, I had the opportunity to experience a miraculous reunion with my father in my mid-thirties; however, I no longer stay in touch with him due to his lack of genuine interest and feelings in general.
Despite the seemingly unfortunate situation, my biological father unconsciously (i.e., his ego self not being aware) taught me one of the greatest lessons in life by being a very obvious, glaring, so-called “narcissist.”
And that lesson was for me to incorporate more self-love (masculine energies) into my own life, which I was lacking. Had his presence not been so shockingly “in your face” kind of selfish, I would have never learned anything from the experiences/gifts/disguised blessings.
I also find it interesting that my grandmother’s first name was Sun Hui (pronounced sun hee) and my grandfather’s last name (whom my mother and her siblings received their last name from) was also Mun; again, reminding me of the sun/yang and moon/yin.
I no longer believe in coincidences—but rather, Divine synchronicities—so I trust that’s there’s purpose behind these signs that were meaningless to me before, due to my inability to see beyond the outer surface (with eyes of Christ within).
It’s as though the names are symbolic of masculine energy/yang manifested in a female body (my grandmother, Sun Hui/sun) and feminine energy/yin manifested in a male body (my grandfather, Mun/moon), which explains why my grandmother hardly ever expressed her feelings, and why my grandfather had often suppressed his feelings through the use of alcohol, gambling, smoking, and a mistress.
Of course, there are much deeper reasons behind why they all were the way the were, but those stories have already been shared within this blog.
Then there’s the next generation, where it was feminine energy/yin manifested in a female body (my mother, Mun/Mu/moon/yin), and masculine energy/yang manifested in a male body (my biological father, Sugi/sun/yang).
Spirit had given Yin and Yang the opportunity to experience what it would feel like to live in a certain type of body (both male and female).
My mother had an excess of feminine and masculine energies, which explained why she had a strong urge to control others, and and was also very aggressive, especially to me throughout my childhood and most of my adulthood.
My biological father had an excess of masculine energies, and hardly any feminine energies, which explained why he was what most family members, to include myself, have observed as “narcissistic.”
So what is the great lesson to be learned from this? I trust that the great lesson is to recognize the subtle clues in life, to trust my intuition and the Divine synchronicities, and to experience a realization.
Both of my parents had an excessive amount of masculine energies, the way most of humanity did throughout human history. However, my mother had an excess of feminine energies, while my father had very little.
So where does that leave me? I don’t have enough masculine energies (self-worth, self-esteem, self-love)—although I’ve been improving—and still more (but no longer excessive) feminine energies.
Both of my parents had unconsciously reflected back to me (like a mirror) to incorporate more masculine energies within myself (self-love) by showing up as the extreme opposite. They were basically holding neon signs, but I was too blind to see them.
In addition, by my parents having the extreme opposites of feminine energies within them, they had unconsciously reflected back to me to Be Balance of the feminine energies within myself (love for others).
I can either label such insights as my wishful, fantasy-like thinking, or I can trust that I’m meant to come upon this inner-wisdom, and to intuitively (not logically) know from my integrated Mind/Heart that I’m to learn/remember to rise above the ongoing battle of the two energies, and to finally heal, transmute, integrate and balance the masculine and feminine energies within me, transforming them into the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine Energies/Consciousness merged with Spirit/All That Is (aka God, Goddess & Divine Spirit/All That Is)…creating Trinity/Divine Child/Divine Human/who we truly are.
I now realize that this was all part of the Divine Plan that my soul was aware of before I was even born, which was perfect for my soul evolution, although it didn’t appear anywhere perfect to me throughout the majority of my life.
To experience what felt as though the darkest of darkness came from my own biological parents was a major wake-up call (11:11) indeed. I had formed a deep, yet false, belief that if my own parents didn’t love me unconditionally, how can I expect myself or anyone other to love me unconditionally.
I had often wished I had never come back to life ever since I was informed by my mother that my parents, doctors, and nurses all thought that I had died right after birth because I didn’t initially cry after being spanked several times; and I was the “color of wood.”
I had once asked my mother why she described the color as “color of wood” as opposed to brown, and she told me that that’s how one of the doctor’s described my skin color.
I wondered why that had happened. Was I so stressed in the womb as a breach baby—with my mother in labor for three days—that I shit myself, and basically drowned in my own mini pool of feces?
I recall reading about how babies can end up swallowing their feces water due to stress, and thought (as my judgmental ego self), “What a gross and horrible experience.”
But then again, when I was in my crawl phase–while not being supervised by my mother until too late—I had apparently stuck one of my own poop balls (that fell out of my loose diaper) into my mouth, and then made a face that expressed my dislike of it.
I wrote a very short post about it called, “Exploring” or “Explore” when I first started blogging. I can now see how that story is beneficial to my healing, and how it’s interconnected to this story.
Like the old saying goes, “Shit happens,” so why stress over it, or feel traumatized by it? Yeah, I probably drank some poop water, but at least I don’t remember what it tasted like. 🙂
Anyway, I later realized (in my early forties)—better “late” than never 😉 —that I was meant to come back to life right after birth because my soul chose to, and I AM Worthy of Life, purpose and experiencing unconditional love; our worthiness and purpose are part of our Divine birthright, and Unconditional Love is who we truly are…our essence.
By remembering to unconditionally accept and unconditionally love ALL aspects of self, the way our Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within—God/Divine Masculine, Goddess/Divine Feminine & Divine Spirit (Father GOD Mother GODDESS)/All That Is—does with all of Life, we can then fully unconditionally accept and unconditionally love ALL aspects of others as well.
Also, I chose the number 9999 as part of my Twitter name because the angel number 9999 reminds me of the following:
- Completion: healing, transmuting, transforming, and integrating of the fearful ego self/personality self that we portray to society/wounded inner-child/unhealed masculine energy/consciousness with shadow self/feminine energies into Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine and merging with Divine SPirit/All That Is = Trinity
- Goddess (Divine Feminine Energies/Consciousness) returning and regaining of Divine power
- The meaning of Angel Number 9999 (from the website, ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes) that I often use as a guidance tool (I follow my intuition first and foremost)=> The recurring number sequence of 9999 is a message to ‘Lightworkers’ to keep their light shining brightly.
For me, the above message not only refers to “Lightworkers,” but also Workers of Oneness (which includes Darkworkers who do what they do best to fulfill the Divine Plan), Rainbow Warriors, Starseeds, Indigo adults and Indigo children, Crystal and Rainbow Children, Shamans, various other Healers, and basically any soul who’s willing to fulfill the Divine will within them—that most highly benefits all interconnected souls throughout this Universe and beyond (Unity Consciousness)—to the best of their ability in every present Moment of Now while following their path of excitement (even to the smallest degree), which informs us that we’re in alignment with our Divinity within/our life purpose.
After typing the last word in the above paragraph, I noticed Angel Number 344 on my laptop clock, and I turned the meanings of it into positive affirmations, to include I AM statements.
Ex. I turned one of the messages within the link above—“Know that the work you do is of great value and your determination and persistent efforts have manifested many blessings in your life”—into the following:
I Know that the work I do is of great value and my determination and persistent efforts have manifested many blessings in my life.
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Added January 28, 2015
As I briefly reflected on this experience yesterday evening—after having published this post—I gained an insight that I had never thought of before, which I trust is from my Divinity within.
The thought that suddenly, yet silently, popped into my mind, was that the phrase, “color of wood,” and the “coming back to life” experience, were meant to remind me at some point in my life—when I was ready for the teacher to appear—about the symbolism of the Tree of Life.
When I googled, “meaning of tree of life mysticism,” (since I haven’t been religious for a while) I clicked on a link that I was drawn to => Kabbalah: The Universal Tree of Life by the website, Gnostic Teachings.
The following paragraphs are sections of the reading/link above that highly resonates with me, although I haven’t studied much about this topic: Note: Sometimes, when I come upon a reading, I only read certain sections that highly resonates with me, and leave that space; basically, following my intuition and only tuning into what I care to experience at the moment.
The Kabbalah is a symbol which expresses the structure of creation. Understanding the Tree of Life, one can understand the structure of the universe around us and within us, for it maps the macrocosm and the microcosm and everything in between. However, this understanding cannot be derived solely from reading books and attending lectures.
There are two kinds of Kabbalists: intellectual Kabbalists and intuitive Kabbalists. The intellectual Kabbalists are black magicians. The intuitive Kabbalists are white magicians. – Samael Aun Weor
The intellect is a tool that is useful when placed under the service of the Spirit. But when the intellect seeks to control the Spirit, the intellect becomes destructive. Therefore, the intuitive Kabbalist is the one who learns through the experience of the consciousness. The intuitive Kabbalist learns directly, without opinions or theories. This one seeks a radical Intellectual Culture: a comprehensive knowledge of esotericism that is qualified by direct investigation […]
In synthesis, the intuitive Kabbalist studies the writings of the great masters, then investigates to find out for himself, and accepts what he directly experiences as true. Until then, the writings and opinions of others remain as opinions.
kabbalah the tree of lifeTo approach this level of comprehension, it is necessary to know how to utilize the consciousness through Self-observation and meditation. When the mind is stable and quiet, the Voice of the Spirit can be heard; it is the voice of the Intuition, and the revealer of all true knowledge.
