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I shared the following comment for video, “5 Things You Should Know About The FULL Moon (October 20th, 2021)“:
WOW, this is hands down one of your most POWERFUL messages, thank you so much Victor. What an immensely SPOT ON, deeply heartfelt, and inspirational message that unbelievably matches my past, present, and future, all in a beautifully wrapped gift package.
The best analogy that I can think of when it comes to your Spirit-inspired and channeled messages, is that it seems that I leave “home” to visit other locations (i.e., other Soul teachers, online course, events, etc.), but often end up returning to what most deeply FEELS like Soul’s Home (i.e., perhaps Soul Family).
Day before yesterday, I had an unbelievable and somewhat embarrassing, new experience. I sporadically enjoy some red wine in moderation, but that day, after going through a rough phase, I apparently drank more than usual while doing dishes and listening to music.
My husband told me that when he arrived home from work, he saw that I was stumbling a bit, and then I sat down at the dining room table, started bawling, and then shouting at God and Goddess how upset I was at them (for an extended amount of time, for over an hour before I passed out), NONE of which I was able to recall. I asked for helpful details of what I expressed (to better understand this aspect of self), but he said he doesn’t recall.
All I remember is one moment I was doing dishes, and then the next moment I was in bed—in the middle of darkness, silence, and stillness—needing to go pee.
So I got up, relieved myself in the bathroom, and then checked out the time on the thermostat; and sure enough, there it was…the oh so familiar 1:11 (which often reminds me of the Presence of the Divine Goddess, as well as endings and new beginnings, though it could have other interpretations that I’m not aware of as well).
I’ve noticed 1:11 (or 111) many times for almost a decade, but the few times that this number sequence stood out in the most intense and eerie way (having a strong emotional impact), was when I got into a minor car accident while working at Red Mountain in Sedona.
It was pouring rain at night—something that I noticed often shows up in my outer reality whenever intense emotions build up within—and I was driving these young adults (going through their healing program) from one location to another.
I refused to listen to the gradual messages from Spirit within that “IT’S TIME TO GO NOW”—showing up as everything that can go wrong will go wrong (i.e., negative synchronicity)—and these experiences went from very subtle to IN YOUR FACE INTENSE (which I shared the details a while back, to include these young, rich guys blowing up the toilet, somehow in and outside of the toilet, and then laughing about it, while this older lady coworker and I cleaned it up).
Well, when the accident happened—and fortunately no one from either vehicles were hurt in any way—I immediately noticed the license plate number that included 111; and I intuitively and instantly knew that meant ‘The End’ of this phase that I was desperately clinging onto out of fear of letting go.
Why? Because I was so exhausted from jumping from one job to another, seemingly following my inner guidance/Heart/intuition/passion/breadcrumbs of excitement, finding, yet, another job in Sedona that seemed really interesting at first, getting fully trained, going above and beyond, and then leaving because I cannot take working there another day at some point.
I wondered if I was repeating self-sabotage by going from one job to another, giving my all, then end up leaving it all behind.
I wondered if I was meant to take some of the hell on earth experiences that came with whatever job–rather than leave what no longer resonates with me—in order to spiritually grow. It was so confusing, which explains all the inner conflict.
I even communicated multiple times to ALL aspects and extensions of full-potential, Multidimensional, WHOLE self/Self—especially Goddess/God/Higher Self/Angelic Realm/Ascended Masters/spiritually evolved Galactic and Universal Soul Families (like the Arcturians, Pleiadians, Sirians, etc.)—something to the effect of, “Guys, just so you know, it REALLY helps us to be a TEAM on planet Earth (and other realities). And in just case you’re not aware, in this particular physical world, it does NOT help when one’s resume shows many short-term jobs that were not meant to be seasonal. In addition, money is a very helpful, neutral tool here that I’d like to make an abundance of while doing what I love. I’ve asked for assistance many times regarding my Soul Path, Divine Life Purpose, Soul mission, etc. that’s in alignment with Spirit within, and I’ve thanked you ahead of time.”
And I recently communicated to WHOLE self/Self, “I don’t know how much I have left in me, but lately, as you already know, I’ve been feeling extremely drained, depressed, and hopeless—especially with these extremely “dark” and intense dreams that I don’t even feel like blogging about anymore because they’ll traumatize others. [Deleted due to comment being too long: No more reading angel number messages, no more getting excited about synchronicity, no more caring so much about whatever, no more dedicating myself to something and going above and beyond every time, no more caring about messages from animal spirit guides, no more asking for assistance, to include teamwork…I’m almost DONE with EVERYTHING.”]
Well, the only way I can make sense of a total of seemingly 2 failed civilian jobs in San Antonio and Helotes TX, 9 failed jobs in Sedona, and the current, similar situation, though not the typical 9-5 job (Peter Sage’s USM, EMF, and EMT, details below) is the following:
A) I truly suck @$$ at following my inner guidance/Heart/intuition/passion/breadcrumbs of excitement, and everything I’ve learned about this subject, from my personal experiences and from others, is useless (which doesn’t necessarily FEEL right/light/true to my Heart—plus I often experiences series of Divine Synchronicity, to include number synchronicity that supposedly mirrors alignment with Higher Self within—though I could definitely fine-tune trusting my Heart when it comes to the relationship department)
OR…
B) Yes, when it comes to physical/spiritual work, I actually do great at following my inner guidance/Heart/intuition/passion/breadcrumbs of excitement, finding jobs that are initially interesting (where I can share my gifts with others), getting fully trained, going above and beyond (leading by example), and then leaving in Divine perfect timing and order, because I was only meant to be at those jobs for a season (the latter of which you talked about in this video).
I noticed that the Pleiadians may have been right; wherever I go, I have a tendency to assertively say things others don’t feel comfortable expressing (though they know the truth), I SHAKE THINGS UP, I make uncomfortable sudden changes (in self/others/companies/environment), and often end up burning bridges (and then kicking myself in the @$$ at times wondering why I’m like this; but perhaps they’re outer reflections of letting go of the old and outdated). But like the Pleiadians mentioned, it’s the starseeded soul’s rebel-like, “Systems Buster” aspect within us.
The female owner of a spiritual retreat company I worked for in Sedona once shared in a meeting that she sensed the presence of the Destroyer aspect of the Mother Goddess shaking things up.
This stemmed from a lot of unnecessary drama that was happening within this shiny on the outside, “spiritual” company that was about healing others, though the main problems stemmed from the owner’s habitual words, behaviors, and actions, that she was willing to admit.
However, the Manager (who was much worse) wasn’t willing to change her non-beneficial, fear-based ways, and continued to create friction within the staff.
We ended up intensely butting heads one evening because I finally build up the courage to tell this very aggressive woman the most difficult observations, I stormed out stating, “I don’t nee this $h!+,” and she got fired the day after. I then went through a phase of feeling guilty that I got her fired, but had to let go of that as well.
When I saw a former staff member weeks later, this nice older lady informed me that I had shaken things up there and flipped it upside down. I didn’t bother to ask for a further explanation, since I probably have a bad reputation within the Sedona employment community as “the one to NOT hire.”
Like I mentioned, I explored multiple jobs, and even stayed in most for 1-3 months, even though I experienced some MAJOR RED FLAGS. Well, I’ve been going through a similar pattern (though not the typical 9 to 5 job), and after typing the above insights, I feel much closer to the answer of what I need to do next. By the way, I typed what’s below before I typed the insights above.
I had to delete the details below because this comment was too long to post.
[I will share them in another post with additional stories]
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