Image by Rowan Morgan [(AKA The Lemurian Phoenix)] from Pixabay
For the creative, vibrant, and gorgeous artwork above—of a mandala, sacred geometry and a kaleidoscope—I trust that I was intuitively drawn to it because it reminded me of change, growth, balance and harmony.
The color red reminds me of our physical self, the color violet our Spiritual Self, and the pastel pink the Unconditional Love that’s the rainbow 🌈 bridge 🌉—within our center Heart Chakra space—that merges the two seemingly separate as The (inseparable) One.
The following is a comment I shared for the YouTube video, “How Discipline Leads To Happiness“:
I have no doubt that it’s TIME ⌛️to balance ⚖️ DISCIPLINE—not via 50/50, but with DISCERNMENT and INTUITION—rather than become lost within EXTREME DISCIPLINE (like my past Army life and excessive left brain-centered academic studies), and LACK or ABSENCE of DISCIPLINE (recent past).
Thanks to this helpful message, I realized I had swung the pendulum of discipline to the extreme, polar opposite, from high school through my late thirties, when it came to highly disciplined academic studies and the INTENSE, EXTREMELY DISCIPLINED, and VERY HECTIC Army life.
However, during the last two years of my Army life—and even the first year of continuing higher education at UTSA after leaving the Army—I experienced various red flags 🚩 that I could no longer ignore.
Both overly left brain-centered systems were broke; and I intuitively and strong knew that I had to leave both.
However, it was very challenging for my deeply ingrained, society-conditioned, mostly logical mind to accept the new changes.
I was fast-tracking in my Army career—making the rank of Sergeant First Class (grade E-7) within a decade—and I had a 4.0 GPA while attending this university.
I did have mixed feelings, because a part of me felt that I feared possible failure after reaching a high level.
But other parts of me could no longer ignore the resurfacing corruption within my last unit—that happened in my first unit (where I was raped)—as well as the misinformation and disinformation from some professors at this university, to include (but not limited to):
the ongoing patronization and ridicule of people who believe in E.T.s, UFO’s, and aliens, the insensitive teaching about babies who cry too much should be ignored and left alone for hours, and that ancient structures were only built by humans.
So I made impulsive decisions to leave these outdated institutions that didn’t teach about important intuition, emotions, and honoring our true feelings.
It was only after these decisions that I ended up finally open to receiving professional therapy for many childhood through adulthood traumas, heartbreaks, heartaches, pain, hardships, and suffering (that I’ve been taught, especially by my parents and the military, to continue suppressing).
A popular phrase within the Army was, “SUCK IT UP AND DRIVE ON.”
And though I intuitively knew to help my Soldiers—whenever they came to me with various personal issues—and felt comfortable being vulnerable (to include crying behind closed doors), I wasn’t able to be as gentle, deeply understanding, compassionate, and empathetic towards myself at times.
Because my ego self—like many within humanity—had also been deeply trained to believe that I was to only dedicate myself to OTHERS (while neglecting the self).
Individually and collectively, we’ve been taught to only GIVE GIVE GIVE to others—since that’s the right and loving thing to do as a “good” person—while NOT being taught about the importance of unconditional self-love as well.
Unconditional/True Love is UNLIMITED, and is meant for both self and others, NOT just others.
So it didn’t matter how exhausted I felt from the workaholic mentality of the military—to include 15 hours per day for 3 months, without a day off, while deployed in Iraq.
It also didn’t matter that I had sporadic back issues, from long ruck marches carrying almost half my weight in various things; a “disciplined” soldier didn’t go to sick call (like a weak person) to get it checked out, but simply take pain killers, and drives on.
And it didn’t matter if one didn’t get enough sleep, since there was always the option to drink a lot of coffee, and even take energy pills (which really messes up one’s body).
It didn’t matter if females were sexually harassed or assaulted, because they were more than likely responsible for these things to happen (to include asking for rape, and they need to just move on).
So yes, even too much DISCIPLINE can be very harmful, and even EXTREMELY DANGEROUS to one’s wellbeing (and to others).
The day I chose to leave the university, I sat in my car wondering if I had made a mistake.
I intuitively felt like looking up in front of me; and to my great surprise, I saw dozens of monarch butterflies flying around within a large, circular area.
I was deeply moved, and thanked Spirit within.
I also learned about the Monarch Butterfly Animal Spirit Guide—and many other animal totems and spirit guides I had dreamt of—and grew to trust in MAJOR CHANGES 🍂🌱 and TRANSFORMATIONS 🐍🪲🐛🦋.
However, within 13 years of deep inner work (after leaving both the Army and university)—and especially the past several years, I ended up SWINGING THE PENDULUM TO THE POLAR OPPOSITE EXTREME, where I became less and less DISCIPLINED when it came to physic self, though very disciplined when it came to learning about spiritual matters.
I discontinued exercising—even dancing that I loved since childhood—and lost interest in projects I had started.
I even discontinued eating mostly healthy recently, though before, it was like an 80/20 disciplined way of eating—mostly healthy while treating self at time with moderation (since many strict diets are known to fail).
I fully trust that I’m continuing the process of remembering (as Divine within), and learning (as physical self) to dance with the Cosmic ebb and flow of interconnected Life—and while Being the Captain of the ship/WHOLE Self/self (as Unconditionally Loving, Profoundly Wise, and Powerful Self)—WITHOUT becoming STUCK in the EXTREME, POLAR OPPOSITE SIDES.
Thank you so much 🙏🏼Teal 🦢 for sharing this very helpful video message, that includes some expanded perspectives, analogies, and examples—that I combined with my own personal experiences/experiential knowledge/wisdom and intuition—to reach a HARMONIOUS state, both within INNER & OUTER WORLD.
❤️🧡💛💚end of ⬆️ comment🩵💙💜
Right after publishing this post, I was reminded of a related YouTube video I had created years ago:
“A Seal & Orange UFO Dream Leading to Invaluable Wealth.“
While watching it again, I cried tears of gratitude 🥹, since it was a Soul-igniting, deeply heartfelt reminder.
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