The following is a comment I shared for the very short video message, “Greatest Tip To Success – Teal Swan“

Side Note: By the way, I usually like to add an image that matches the theme of the post, as well as do a grammar check and spell check; but I don’t feel like it today, since I prefer to continue doing the “7-Day Healing” online course with Artie Wu, followed by Peter’s Sage’s, “Ultimate Self Mastery” online course”—both of which I shared details about in recent posts—and then rehearse for open-mic comedy for 8/4th at Stir Crazy Comedy Club in Glendale (if a spot’s available, and if I feel like it), and perhaps at Sedona’s Oak Creek Brewery before then). UPDATE added same day (in this gold font section only): I noticed that I was in a bad mood after publishing this post earlier today, so I honored my feelings, and realized I could balance simulating my mind (not just do self-help and healing work online courses) with my intuitive and creative Heart; so I exercised a little, and then danced with and without an ankh sistrum to some uplifting music (to include ancient Egyptian music), and afterwards, washed and prepped my new, gorgeous wigs I’ve been collecting since a few years ago. And I found myself effortlessly feeling excited and happy again.

Thanks so much Teal. From one perspective, this seems spot on. Since 2017, I sensed that there were opposing energies within, when it came to working at various jobs in Sedona. I finally realized—after hitting rock bottom, due to being drained from a total of 9 mostly hell-like jobs that didn’t end well—that I ssseriously need to make decisions from a harmonious, whole state, rather than allow my ego (male energy) continually do what it knows best (to survive and even thrive on this planet from a fear-based state), and then have my female energy within sabotage each job because they don’t FEEL right/light/true to the Heart most of the time.

From an expanded perspective, I’ve met a handful of wonderful souls, learned various life lessons (especially how to better handle very challenging triggers via honest and tactful communication with self/others), and gained some profound wisdom from them all, so I’ve let go of regret, but it’s definitely time to Be FULLY true to whole self/Self. I’ve been doing my best to embrace, integrate, heal, and communicate with all the aspects within—to include incorporating shadow work, inner-child work, and dream work—so that we can merge as One, Be an awesome team, and fully enjoy our life together. So I’m going to trust that my efforts will be well worth all the focus, energy and time invested, in Divine perfect timing and order. I watched, even rewatched, and took notes for many of Teal’s YouTube video messages, and I trust that they’ve been highly beneficial, though I haven’t mastered them yet. Recently, I basically went back to the drawing board (so to speak) from before the fall of 2017 (when I started working at Sedona); and that was a new hobby that I had started in San Antonio, TX that stemmed from actual excitement (while downloading ideas from within, and EFFORTLESSLY creating sets) and passion (performing in front of a large crowd, despite some fear), and even being approached by the club manager that I had good material; and he even introduced me to a Phoenix comedy club manager, who suggested that I perform there once I move to Arizona (looking back, both of these managers providing feedback were examples of doors opening due to being in alignment/following my joy). So even though I sporadically did several sets in Flagstaff, Sedona, and even the Phoenix area as a hobby upon moving to AZ (but then paused for a while), I felt heavy pressure to hurry up and get a “money paying” job, since my husband had just started at a new real estate company in Sedona, and didn’t have any clients yet. So I’m glad I’m typing this away, since it’s providing me with further, crystal clear CLARITY as to why I’ve been repeating this unhealthy, and to be honest (mostly unhappy) pattern of “The Twilight Zone Jobs in Sedona That Don’t Resonate with True Self” (example series of negative form of synchronicity due to NOT being in alignment with True Self). I’ve been practicing to fully let go of the need to play the blame game, and take personal responsibility instead. I’m not going to blame myself either, since I did my best—at that state of consciousness I was at—to utilize all the skills, talents, and abilities that I’ve had throughout my life (to include military and civilian jobs). If it was solely about making lots of money (i.e., only my ego’s security reasons), I had opportunities to get very high-paying contractor jobs ($89,000 a year or more plus bonus pay)–that was related to my Cryptologic Linguist/Analyst or HUMINT Collector Analyst jobs in the Army—but I have no interest in going back to that life again. So I’ve been communicating with whole self/Self lately, to ensure that I’m not doing what I’m passionate about—creating sets and practicing for open-mic comedy (that I actually have FUN doing)—JUST for the hopes of this hobby turning into a paying career (because it may or may not), but because I TRULY LOVE it; and if I truly LOVE it, then everything else will fall into place in prefect timing. I have no desire to bulldoze the fearful aspect of proceeding with this idea, but the excitement seems much stronger than the fear. But then again, I noticed that the more I rehearse, the more confident (and less fearful) I feel. I did communicate to the fearful aspect(s) of self that we don’t have to do anything we don’t truly feel like doing anymore, but to let me know in a very obvious way. So we’ll see how this all plays out. I did notice that ever since I decided to go back to the drawing board, my husband started getting more clients—which has taken the load off of wanting to contribute financially (since I quit my 9th and last Sedona job this past May)—and I’ve noticed more positive series of synchronicity showing up. Often times, all of this feels so overwhelming to the point that I just want to sleep and never wake up again. However COMMA I’ve been doing my best to maintain optimism about interconnected Life within this world and beyond.

Updates

7/29/2021

This morning, while creating a post about the bizarre dreams I had—“Intimate Dreams Revealing the Merging of Once Opposing Aspects Within WHOLE Self“—that perfectly matched this post (that I published yesterday), I came upon an old post that was such a great reminder for the above, and the following is a related excerpt from “The Unfolding Mystery from the Unknown/Dark Aspects Within“:

After that incident, I intuitively trusted that, for this phase of my life, I wasn’t meant to have a car and continue to apply for more jobs–that some claimed I was over-qualified for—but rather, I’m meant to stay home and focus on spiritually evolving self and mystical career (as unconventional as that is).

I’ve received plenty of angel number messages throughout the years not to be concerned about financial matter, and it’s been very challenging due to society’s conditioned belief that I should be working at a regular job or career like normal people do as a responsible, contributing citizen.  

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However, I continued to choose to trust Spirit’s guidance within that all is well in my world despite outer, “negative” temporary circumstances.

In addition, I’m still here, so I’ve apparently had everything that my soul needed at every moment—for its highest, interconnected benefit—though my doubting ego self didn’t agree a times.

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