Note: The key words or phrases within my dream are shared below in pink, and my personal dream interpretations, as well as those from various websites (that resonate with me), are shared after the dream story
Note: Image on right found next to link => The Inquisitr/”Black Hole Photo By 2018. Space. Lawrence Arboleda”
This morning, I woke up shouting, “AHHHH!!!” while feeling as though my heart was about to explode from the extreme pressure that was built up from within.
The lava-like, intense emotions of fiery anger and helpless sadness—that resurfaced from the fear-based depths of my being—was so powerful, that even after waking up, I could feel its very present, lingering energies.
As I laid in a fetal position with my eyes closed, I did my best to recall the details of this nightmare-like dream. I then watched a story unfold before me as though I was able to revisit those seemingly elusive moments.
My current husband was leading me to an unknown location within a house or apartment, and the ambience was dark gray, silent, and lifeless.
We arrived at a white washing machine, and he pushed it aside, revealing a jagged hole in the wall that was a little smaller than the washer itself.
When I peeked inside, I noticed a little girl who appeared around five years old, playing in the dark, prison-like, small room.
I couldn’t tell if she was Asian, Hispanic, or both, but she had black, straight hair that was shoulder length, and she didn’t seem scared all by herself.
My heart sank as I watched her play alone, seemingly oblivious to her surrounding. At one point, she got up and walked towards a nearby blackboard.
She then picked up a white chalk and started drawing a series of tiny circles side by side—about half the size of her small palms.
At another point, it was as if the chalkboard automatically erased by itself in a blink of an eye, because now there were a series of letters across the entire board.
She was writing something under the letter Q—which reminds me of Queen (Holy Spirit/Divine Mother Goddess) or quiet the mind (meditate more often)—and I said something to the effect that conveyed she was on that letter.
I think I was trying to interact with her, and she was giving me a symbolic message.
At another point, my husband and I were in a practically empty living room with the same dreary ambience. He was comfortably sitting on a long couch that could seat at least four people.
I noticed that the covering on the couch was blue and somewhat shiny, like tarp. As I looked around, I noticed a door that connected the small room (that the little girl was in) with the living room; so I asked the male being who looked like my husband if the girl was allowed to come out to the living room.
He explained that she often didn’t listen, so he had to put her there. I asked how long she was in there, and I think he said a couple of years; I started feeling anger bubble within me.
At another point, I noticed another little girl with light brown, long hair who appeared around five years old as well. She approached us and said something to the effect that she wanted to find her parents who left her behind, and she was very determined to do so.
At another point, I was lying in bed next to this male being who looked like my husband. As I thought about the little girls, I was reminded of my own daughter at that age.
In this dream state reality (symbolic and/or an alternate reality), I was very worried that someone was doing this to my own daughter, which terrified me because I didn’t know where she was.
I started crying and shouting in agony because I felt so helpless. And at one point, the male being basically told me, in an annoyed tone, that I could stop now since he was going to set the little girl free.
Right before he was about to head out the door, I grabbed him by the front side of his shirt, and expressed through my clenched teeth, “You better, or I’m going to skin you alive and eat you.”
Once he left, I suppose I continued crying and shouting, because that’s how I woke up. I’m going to trust that I was releasing all the remnants of the deeply repressed (during childhood) and suppressed (during adulthood) built up anger and sadness that I had experienced, but didn’t express in a healthy way.
I initially wondered if I had tapped into my husband’s inner world where he’s been suppressing his inner child; but then I recalled Teal Swan teaching(at a NYC event) that all the characters that we dream of are ultimately playing out various aspects within us (i.e., the bigger picture), which highly resonate with me.
I have no doubt that both concepts can be true since…
- there are seemingly countless possibilities and probabilities when it comes to earthly and otherworldly parallel or alternate past/present/future realities—all simultaneously occurring in the NOW from a multidimensional, expanded perspective where time and space are irrelevant
- when we simplify the most complex, all aspects and extensions within us are parts of our whole, Source Self—aka Higher Self/Soul/Spirit/God/Goddess/I AM Presence, etc.
- when I broaden my linear, 3D perspective, I realize that, ultimately, it’s about the expansion of both our individual and collective consciousness.
Below are some dream interpretations for the key words within my dream (click on key word or phrase in bold to open link in another window).
From website Dream Moods:
The emotions in your dream are usually never disguised. This means that the feelings you experience in your dream are not symbolic of something else, but rather they are reflections of your true, honest feelings. Such feelings may have been suppressed during the day and are being expressed in your dreams where your defenses are down. Feelings expressed in dreams can help you deal with depression, guilt, and other complex emotions.
Negative emotions tend to occur twice as often as pleasant feelings. Fear and anxiety are the most commonly expressed emotions in dreams, followed by anger and sadness.
Your dream house is symbolic of the Self, while the rooms inside the house relate to various aspects of the Self and to the many facets of your personality.
Though I wasn’t dreaming about being in a fetal position, I wondered what it was symbolic of since I’m often in this position right before going to sleep, and the following is from the reading, “Fetal Position dreams meaning” by website Dream Dictionary Metro Eve:
“Wearing your heart on your sleeve.”
The following is from the reading, “The Origins of Wearing Your Heart on Your Sleeve“:
To defer to a classic idiom: It’s a day to wear our heart on our sleeve. We use the phrase casually, to mean exposing our true emotions, making ourselves vulnerable and letting it all hang out.
From the website Urban Dictionary:
People who wear their heart on their sleeve express their emotions freely and openly, for all to see.
Regarding the part of my dream where “my current husband was leading me to an unknown location within a house or apartment, and the ambience was dark gray, silent, and lifeless,” I have my personal interpretation that he was guiding me into the “dark”/unknown/subconscious.
In this physical reality, I have a belief that my husband is really good with directions, but I’m not—the latter old and outdated belief (which I’ve intended to fully release) stems from my mother often telling me throughout childhood and adulthood that I wasn’t good with directions; and that’s why she had to guide me everywhere; which I realize was her fear-based need to have control over me and protect me).
I also sensed that the male being who looked like my husband (symbolic of my fear-based male energy of ego self), locked up (oppressed, repressed, suppressed, and neglected) its opposite shadow self (the other side of the same coin) that was considered unknown, dangerous, unacceptable, unapprovable, unlikable, and unlovable by this patriarchal world.
On the bright side, this old, outdated, fear-based individual and collective ego consciousness and energy is in the process of being transmuted with the most powerful Light/Love Frequency (the merged, Divine God/Goddess energy).
From website Dream Moods:
Hallways
To see a hallway in your dream symbolizes self exploration. It is the beginning of the path that you are taking in life. You are going through a transitional phase and journeying into the unknown. It also signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life.
Washer
To see or use a washing machine in your dream suggests that you need to resolve issues of the past in order to be able to make a clean, new start for yourself.
From website Dream Book :
Walls symbolize obstacles and boundaries. If a wall stands in your way in a dream, there is a barrier obstructing your progress in real life […] To dream about a hole in a wall indicates that you are breaking through obstacles and overcoming your limitations. If you continue on your present course with confidence, you will succeed in rising above your problems.
Regarding the little girl who appeared around five years old, and was playing in the dark, prison-like, small room, and didn’t seem scared all by herself:
I often played in my room by myself during childhood, and the only times I recall feeling afraid was when I either hid in my room, or was sent to my room, whenever my parents fought.
I strongly sensed that the little girl was also symbolic of the collective, female, inner child that has been oppressed (as Divine Feminine energy throughout the ages), repressed (during childhood), suppressed (during adulthood), and neglected (even now).
Regarding my inner child drawing a series of circles on a blackboard:
The following is from dream dictionary website Find Your Lucky:
To dream of a blackboard symbolizes knowledge, wisdom and recall of matters, topics and important memories for your life of work or familiar.
The following is from the website Dream Moods:
There is a lesson to be learned from this dream. You may feel that you are being put to the test. Consider what is being written on the chalkboard.
The following is from the website, Dream Interpretation:
To see a white chalk in a dream means that you will take support from an educated person [Perhaps from the Master Teacher within/aka Spirit?]. A colourful chalk in your dream represents that you will take a job offer or partnership offer from a person whose environment is broad [Okay Spirit within, so discontinue searching for a 9 to 5 job since the chalk was white instead of colorful?? Well, you need to help me out financially in others ways then; I’ve been putting forth effort in various creative ways, now it’s your turn to help a sister out. As you’re already aware, I’m very tired from trying to figure all this out—especially when it comes to following my path of joy while also putting forth effort to make money, since it’s still a very helpful tool in this physical world].
The following is from the website Dream Dictionary Metro Eve:
Chalk
To dream of a chalk represents new ideas, brainstorming, or noticing something new. You may be figuring something out or trying new ideas.
A circle ultimately reminds me of Spirit—aka Holy Spirit/Source/Prime Creator/Creator of All Creation: Crop Circle 6666/Divine Mother Goddess/Monad/Alpha and Omega—though it also reminds me of wholeness and completion. Perhaps the straight line of circles is symbolic of Spirit manifesting itself in linear, physical realities.
I don’t always resonate with the interpretations from the website, Auntyflo, but once in a while I do, and I discern which messages to take in (or discard) by following my inner guidance first and foremost (the Master Teacher within), regardless of what I’m reading, watching, or listening to. from outer teachers.
The following are non-consecutive sections from the reading, “Uncover Hidden Dream Meanings” by Auntyflo:
You should be aware of the fact that these elements in your dream will carry the most relevance to your daily life as it is spirit who is trying to communicate with you.
Any type of symbol in your dream is a method of communication to the physical world and the way in which our world reflects the spiritual plane. A circle in your dream represents the Universe […]
In your dream you may have…
Only seen a circle or a series of circles that was not part of an identifiable object […]
Positive changes are afoot if…
The circles were all completed.
The circles were all linked together […]
Detailed dream interpretation…
Most often, a circle represents certainty, completion, and reliability. If you dream of a complete circle, your life has fallen into place or everything is about to fall right into place. You are in a good place in your life, and everything is where it should be. Your natural life cycle is right on track, and your dream is reminding you to be strong about your convictions and to enjoy your life as it is. You are also likely experiencing spiritual entirety.
From website Dream Moods:
Living Room
To dream that you are in the living room represents the image that you portray to others and the way which you go about your life. It is representative of your basic beliefs about yourself and who you are. [So perhaps my ego self wants to portray an image that it’s comfortable (symbolized by couch) fully and truly expressing itself when it’s still suppressing certain emotions (a facade that’s symbolized by the blue, tarp-like cover that doesn’t seem to belong on the couch] Alternatively, the living room is indicative of your freedom and space. This is the boundary between your personal self and your public self. Objects that do not belong in the living room denotes the various aspects of your life that are invading your personal space. [Perhaps my ego self keeps my shadow self locked up in the small room, and only allows it in the living room (symbolic of my ego’s freedom and space) during certain moments that it deems safe to come out and play].
Couch
To see or dream that you are on a couch represents rest, relaxation, laziness or boredom. It may also mean you need to clear you mind and thoughts.
Blue
Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness. Perhaps you are expressing a desire to get away. The presence of this color in your dream may symbolize your spiritual guide and your optimism of the future. You have clarity of mind.
Regarding the other little girl with light brown, long hair—who appeared around five years old as well—who approached us and said something to the effect that she wanted to find her parents who left her behind, and she was very determined to do so.
I trust that this lost aspect of my wounded, inner child felt that my own parents had abandoned me—my bio father who left my mother and I when I was six months old, and my mother who had my Koran grandmother raise me from six months to three years old while she sporadically visited from far away; this is understandable since her work location was at a distance, and she was doing her best to make a living for us.
The following is from the website, Dream Hawk:
There are many associations you might have with bed – rest, sleep, unconsciousness, sexual pleasure, relationship, dreams, escape from the world into sleep. Try to define what feelings or attitudes are involved with the bed, and ask yourself where they apply to your waking life.
This is an important symbol to understand. It often shows exactly what you are doing in the subtle areas of relationship. So can link with your close relationships, intimacy – an intimacy in which the qualities of the other can become part of you and a blending take place. Such a blending is not only that of you and another, but your known and presently formed self with what you hold within and latent.
But a bed is the place you sleep, so in a spiritual sense might be depicting your sleeping self, the parts of you still unconscious and not awake to who you really are and the issues needing attention in your life.
The bed also obviously relates to sexual pleasure, rest. the holy place in which we meet oneself and or another person deeply and passionately. But it can also suggest desire to get away from the world, to withdraw into oneself, to be passive […]
Sometimes it represents sleep and meeting our unconscious – or torture – because in bed we may be tortured by insomnia, worries, physical pain [True].
Regarding the section of the dream, “In this dream state reality (symbolic and/or an alternate reality), I was very worried that someone was doing this to my own daughter, which terrified me because I didn’t know where she was”:
I have no doubt this fear stemmed from my past worries about my toddler children when I joined the Army. Though I trusted my first/ex-husband to take care of them while I was gone—since he loved them very much, and I had no other family members or friends to turn to for support—I often felt much sadness.
Even while standing in formation during basic combat training, I sometimes experienced uncontrollable tears flowing down my face, and was unable to wipe them off since we weren’t allowed to move in the military position of attention. I shared various stories about my children and the Army within this blog as well.
Since I was gone for almost three years—Army schools and being stationed in Korea where you can’t take your family—it was understandable why my children wanted to live with their dad, whom they become emotionally attached to while I was away, and was only able to visit annually.
Despite the seemingly “negative” memories, I’m very grateful that my children grew up in an overall very healthy and happy environment with my ex-husband, his wonderful wife, their children together, and their extended families (all loving people in their own ways). My children, who are adults now, continue to Be amazing in many ways, and I will always love them.
Regarding the section, “I started crying and shouting in agony because I felt so helpless. And at one point, the male being basically told me, in an annoyed tone, that I could stop now since he was going to set the little girl free.
Right before he was about to head out the door, I grabbed him by the front side of his shirt, and expressed through my clenched teeth, ‘You better, or I’m going to skin you alive and eat you.'”:
This part of my dream seems to be symbolic of my ego self giving in to setting its shadow aspect of self (inner child) free, not out of pure willingness, but to avoid annoyance.
So the “dark”/unknown/feared aspect of the Mother Goddess (the “destroyer”, or more accurately Transmuter/Transformer/Master of Alchemy, of that which no longer serves/benefits, like warrior Goddess Sekhmet)—the opposite side of the same coin being the loving, joyful, nourishing Mother Goddess, (like Goddess Hathor)—grabbed the ego aspect by its front shirt to let it know who’s ultimately in charge.
And that it better set the inner child free, or She will “skin” the ego alive (symbolic of removing the outer barrier that’s preventing true emotions to come out and express) and “eat” it (symbolic of consuming, transmuting and integrating the fear-based ego aspect into the whole, complete Self).
So now I wonder if this overall dream message is conveying that:
- my fearful ego self had high-jacked my whole being, and was comfortably running the show, and Spirit within had enough BULL$h!+, and put an
end to the childish, young, immature, male energy game; basically saying to it that it’s time to Be the whole, full-potential, loving, wise, and powerful Divine Masculine God energy/essence/consciousness that it truly is - it’s time to unconditionally love self more often, pamper self more often, follow my joy more often, and allow my free-spirited, inner child aspect to come out and play and/or freely create whenever she feels like it, rather than setting limits.
Note: Images above found next to links => 1 ) Crystalinks , 2) Goddess Inspired – WordPress.com and 3) Eden Saga
By the way, yesterday evening, I was drawn to watch the video, “How To Heal Your Heart & Find Your Purpose In Life: (with SPECIAL guests)” since I’ve often enjoyed Victor Oddo’s videos.
I have no doubt that what they all shared—especially the important reminder to unconditionally love our inner child—triggered me at a very deep level; hence, I had this dream today.
The following is a comment I shared for these loving souls:
What a delightful surprise!! ^_^ First of all Victor, thank you so much for sharing this beautiful, bundle of invaluable gifts. I’ve already shared dozens of detailed comments for your videos, about how amazing you are, so I won’t repeat them here. But thank you again for sharing, yet, another soul-igniting, encouraging, uplifting, empowering, and inspirational message.
Ryan, thank you so much for sharing your very helpful personal experiences (experiential knowledge/profound wisdom) and suggestions that deeply moved me. You radiate such a powerful vibrational frequency that reminds me of the very deep, calm, healing, and soul-soothing ocean at sunrise.
Leeor, thank you so much for the great reminder of unconditional self-love, being in alignment, and realizing that one deserves the best in life by simply Being. I also respect and admire that your brought up a very important reminder when it comes to connecting with, pampering, and deeply healing our inner-child, as well as remembering to be free-spirited and playful.
Gavin, thank you so much for the great reminder of how powerful our beliefs and emotions are, how beneficial it is to unconditionally forgive self and interconnected others, and the importance of following our path of joy that leads to prosperity on all levels of our being—physical, mental, emotional, financial, and spiritual. I really resonate with your words to welcome the self first, fill your cup, and then uplift others.
Candice, thank you so much for your authenticity, refreshing honesty, vulnerability (an empowering strength), sparkling essence, personal stories, wisdom, and an abundance of other helpful suggestions, especially bringing our innate power to life, beneficial nature and plant medicine, showing through our words and actions how much we truly love ourselves, going with the flow, etc..You are a very strong woman, and lovable and loving soul.
Aaron, thank you so much for sharing your heartfelt personal stories that I was able to relate to at the depths of my being. I’m also grateful that you brought up a very important point of “whatever we don’t complete, we repeat.” And I agree, the key if to fully embrace all of our emotions (our inner compass that reveals our authentic state at any given moment) and feelings (language of the soul), and integrate them into our whole being for deep healing, transmutation, and transformation on all energetic levels of our being—physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. Also, thank you for all your other helpful suggestions, especially about setting our intention which gives direction.
This video is definitely worth watching again. I deeply appreciate all of you guys and the loving gifts that you share with your Multidimensional self (earthly and otherworldly physical selves)/Self (Source: Soul/Spirit within, aka Higher Self), interconnected humanity, Mother Earth, merging worlds, our Galaxy, our Universe, and beyond.
Mulantis ^_^
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