In one of the online courses I’m currently taking—Peter Sage’s “Ultimate Self Mastery” course—he compares our subconscious (that creates 95% of our reality) with an elephant; so when I saw this image (on right), it was perfect for this post.

Why? Because it represents taking what feels so HEAVY—from our inner and outer worlds—and making the load lighter with Light (uplifting information) and Unconditional Love for the self/Self, which then refills our inner cup/Heart, allowing it to effortlessly overflow to interconnected Life within this world and beyond. 

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I recently had a vivid and very bizarre dream of being pregnant, though I’m currently not, haven’t had any more children in over two decades, and haven’t had a desire to be, especially since I’m in my late forties, and the mere thought of it makes me very tired.

This dream is memorable because I was being pregnant self at one moment, and the next moment, I was observing self from another point of view, where I saw a pair of hands and the top of a head from inside my vagina open it up and push its way out.

I started shouting, “Help!” a few times to a small group of people in front of me, who strangely appeared to be just hanging out, rather than being supportive family members and a team of doctors, a midwife, and nurses during labor.

Next thing you know, they brought a “baby” girl to me, who was practically the size of me and in the fetal position. I tried to breast feed her, but hardly any milk came out, and I could tell she was somewhat frustrated.

I felt bad that I hadn’t properly prepared for her, and made a couple more attempts, and some milk came out.

At another point—don’t know for sure if it was related to the above mentioned dream—I was walking outside at night in what appeared to be a plaza (outdoor shopping center).

It was pouring rain, and I had a very heavy baby on my back; though I wasn’t able to see the baby, I saw the baby clothes around the leg area. S/he was so heavy, I almost fell back a few times, and did my best not to since I didn’t want the baby to get hurt. 

Upon waking up, I did do some dream analysis using my intuition and various dream interpretations from online.

However, I became so tired of such dreams that I didn’t fully understand, though I desired to since dreams are communications from our subconscious.

I noticed that one too many of these inner and outer world messages can be overwhelming, unless we choose not to be overwhelmed by them. 

I could literally spend an entire day doing dream analysis for many earthly and otherworldly symbolic dreams just from one night and morning, as well as blogging about it (like I’m doing right now).

But I’m realizing more and more than none of these things have seemed to help my current life (at least from a human perspective), though I have no doubt that it’s been helpful in the spiritual worlds.

So this will more than likely be my last blog post for a while.

Perhaps because I chose this new lightweight/Light mindset, this morning, I had a vivid dream of happily interacting with my adult daughter, her daughter/my grandchild, and my mother in Korea.

This was the first time that I ever had a dream of four generations of females within my family (possibly symbolic of having finally healed ancestral wounds, since I’ve had so many of these dreams for months; hence, often feeling very tired upon waking up).

The various spiritual communities, within the very broad spectrum of Spirituality, teach that you receive whatever—whether it’s unconditional love, different forms of abundance, success, etc.—by often sharing your value with others.

I have often shared unconditional love with others throughout my life (in many ways), and not always because I wanted something in return, but because it FELT right/light/true to my Heart.

So even though I have generously shared an abundance of value with this world, my outer world continues to mirror to me that whoever I am and whatever I contribute is never enough (perhaps reflecting back to me a core belief that I’m not enough no matter what).

This includes some angel number messages that keep encouraging me to contribute even more to the outer world, and the super ambitious Peter Sage and his “Ultimate Self Mastery” online course that seems to want more and more,

I highly respect and admire that Peter teaches important and helpful topics that stem from his desire to expand our individual and Collective Consciousness, to include believing that we’re enough.

But yet, I’ve wondered at times (due to what I strongly sensed) if he truly believes he’s enough, since it seems as though he doesn’t have enough, hence, needing to have very pushy sales tactics, and to continuously convince his students to buy even more products, like online events, upgraded online courses, and even sales positions within his company. [UPDATE added on 9/16/2021: While watching Day 1, so far, of the 2 Day Elite Mentorship event with Peter Sage in Bulgaria, I was blown away with the depth of helpful information and profound wisdom; so I was wrong about him doing this for the “wrong” reasons, since it’s one of the most beneficial teachings I’ve ever encountered.]

[Update in this lime font only added on 9/11/2021: I realized that the “super aggressive sales” aspect, that’s been showing up as multiple others, is one of my shadow aspects that resurfaced in my reality again, giving me another opportunity to embrace and integrate it into WHOLE self/Self, rather than continue to judge and reject it, so that I can bring this extreme aspect in balance with its opposite aspect of “not selling any value that I have to offer” that’s been me for too long. The other day, a 3rd grasshopper jumped in front of me, and instantly reminded me to take a LEAP IN TRUST/FAITH/CONSCIOUSNESS. Soon after, while driving, a red car pulled in front of my husband and I, and the license plate included 888, which instantly reminded me of Prosperity Consciousness, and various forms and non-forms of abundance and wealth on all energetic levels—mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual. So this morning, after checking in within (again), I decided to GO FOR IT, take a RISK,—explore Peter Sage’s seemingly unbelievable offer of EMT (Elite Mentorship Trainer), which includes an upgraded course and new tribe of EMF (Elite Mentorship Forum)— and Be a Witness to the possibilities and probabilities of Life. Also see next related post at bottom of this post.].

I found out today, with some searches, that even Tony Robbins, and other similar peer groups (like his buddies) have many negative vetted reviews via Trust Pilot for these fear-based, greedy@$$ actions that take advantage of many vulnerable people.

I, too, have experienced this with one of his best buddies, where I bought his book, was invited to check out his website, did so, but then wasn’t given the option to close out about 10 tabs of extremely pushy sales tactics, so I just closed the website; I then received a text message, and I replied to never text me again. And because of that experience, I never even read Tony’s friend’s book (his name escapes me but it sounds Italian). 

It made me wonder, since Tony (and perhaps others like him) already established, a solid “good” reputation within society for helping humanity—especially with the help of famous people like Oprah, who interviewed him—he no longer had the need to live up to that shiny image, and believed he could get away with doing the opposite; if this is true, then it’s ultimately his loss.

Spiritual teachers, or life coaches, like Victor Oddo (whom I watched and enjoyed many of his YouTubes videos) and Aaron D. (recently watched some helpful videos) have both mentioned Tony Robbins several times in their videos.

Mentioning someone you respect and admire is fine, but they seemed to place him on a pedestal—something that Peter Sage taught was unnecessary and not beneficial to us, and he calls it the “pedestal trap.”

This vibe reminds me of the follower aspect more than leader aspect.  But I can understand it because there’s been times I was like this too.

I love them both like younger, souls brothers, but if they bring him up AGAIN, I’ll more than likely be done watching them as well, since it’s getting old, and it’s not inspiring to me.

I have no doubt that Tony Robbins has his own positive qualities like everyone else, but I haven’t been impressed with him ever since I saw two videos: one of him disrespectfully grabbing the top of some scrawny guy’s hair while making a point in front of a huge audience, and the other where he shared a very messed up story about how great it was for a lion to betray the sheep family that raised him since he was a cub, since it was his nature. 

Granted, at the end of the day, I realize that there’s no need to allow these types of outer world, fear-based energies to shake my inner foundation, since they WILL meet their DOWNFALL in Divine perfect timing and order (as I’ve witnessed many times)—not as punishment from a higher power, but because we’re all interconnected, and whatever they do to harm others, WILL circle back to them. 

So whether it’s the angel number messages (from Sacred Scribes) that may seem to stem from conditional love at times (ex. “we will basically love and support you if you continue to live your soul purpose”), aggressive sales tactics from various companies that seem to stem from extreme greed, or any other outer world expressions that FEELS HEAVY as times…

when I come from a Full Presence/I AM state (of Being more than enough NOW), I can then simply take on board what FEELS right/light/true to my Heart, and disregard the rest, without being negatively affected by such energies that don’t stem from Unconditional Love.

Because the truth is, I am/I AM Enough NOW and every moment from this point.

Even if I died today of a sudden heart attack, I can be a peace knowing that I’ve done more than enough, with not only my heart-centered efforts to contribute to our individual and Collective Consciousness with my full presence/vibrational frequency, but with going above and beyond with sharing my greatest gift with many throughout my life, which is my Heart.

So it really is time to unconditionally and fully love myself without being concerned with all the outer busyness.

I recently started asking self, “What would someone who loves themselves do?” (a very helpful exercise recommended by Teal Swan in at least a few of her YouTube videos; and I gave it another try, since I discontinued years ago due to being “busy” with 9 to 5 jobs that I didn’t truly resonate with). 

So this important question, along with the profound wisdom I gained from the video below (that I was drawn to), I was inspired to finally relieve this heavy burden of needing to still figure things out, and to bring about balance and harmony within my inner and outer worlds, to include conflicting aspects within, a wide spectrum of earthly and otherworldly dream messages, positive and negative synchronicities, relationships, tribe/peer group, community, circumstances, society, etc.

I reached a point in my life where I’m exhausted from trying to deeply understand, know, have compassion for, communicate with, work with, and integrate various aspects of whole self/Self.

I choose to take what’s seemingly complicated and chaotic at times, and simplify them by not caring so much about all the busyness of both my inner and outer worlds.

And just making that intention alone FEELS so incredibly light/true within.

I AM whoever and whatever I choose at any given moment, and that makes me FREE to just BE authentic without the human labels of right vs wrong, good vs bad, light vs dark, etc. 

I even communicated to WHOLE self/Self that we either fully live from now on, or just die, because the latter may be a better option than merely surviving—within a fear-based, separation consciousness and poverty consciousness state—especially in this non-impressive world (with the exception of children and Mother Nature/Earth).

I also decided from this point forward, I will only be referring to WHOLE self/Self as Beloved Self, rather than the myriad of earthly names/labels that I used to refer to various aspects and extensions—Soul/Spirit/Higher-Self/Source/God/Goddess/Inner-Child/Shadow Self/Ego Self/Animal Spirit Guides (Animal Totems/Power Animals)/Angelic Realm/Ascended Masters/Galactic and Universal Families (e.g. Arcturians, Pleiadians, Sirians, etc./Elemental Realm/Prime Creator/Divine Mother Goddess/etc.

I shared the following comment for this life-altering video, “Do You Know Who You Really Are? | Sadhguru Answers“:

Thank you so much Sadhguru for Being so authentic, Fully Present, unconditionally loving, refreshingly honest, and profoundly wise, and sharing your deeply heartfelt and powerful message that’s immensely liberating and helpful.

I felt the pain in my heart space, and then wept.

You really uplifted me today, since I was losing hope for self and our current world, that seems to be continuing to spiral down with fear-based corruption—perhaps mirroring the downfall of the chaos within, that’s being transmuted and healed.

This is the most amazing expression about ‘who we are’ I’ve ever experienced. Continue Being a Divine, invaluable gift to your full-potential, Multidimensional, WHOLE self/Self/humanity/interconnected Life within this world and beyond. You are deeply appreciated.

Update

9/11/2021

Next related post with additional insights, “Super Aggressive Seller Ignites Super Passive Anti-Seller“

The following is an excerpt of the above post:

So I learned that it’s not about being overly aggressive with sales–making others uncomfortable and/or taking advantage of their vulnerability—but it’s also not about the unwillingness to sell what can help more people.

There’s a beautiful balance and harmony of the two extremes—like all other extremes transforming into their exalted states—and I have no doubt that highly evolved Beings like you, Jamye, are LEADING BY EXAMPLE of how these aspects can play together as a unified, beneficial team that highly benefits self/others/interconnected Life within this world and beyond.