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This post is part of the post series:
- ”Integrating: Emotion of Disgust, Hopeless Humans, Justice for Whales & Murderer Aspect Plus Dream of Malachite Canyon, Goddess Hathor’s Head & White Cow“
- “The Divine Masculine/God Essence in Various Forms & Dream on New Moon Day: Insects, Bugs & Translucent, Violet Snake Head Coming Out of a Cup” (most recent)
In Divine perfect timing and order, we may cross paths with special Souls who inspires us to Be more of our True Self, and to share more of our invaluable gifts.
Yesterday and today, a wise being named Ari—a writer of New Earth Consciousness within the Medium app—IS this obvious blessing (shared comment/message towards end of this post in this color font); and before her, there were others.
Side Note: Yesterday, I published a post titled, “Embracing Chosen Ones: Authentic, Brave & Bold Trailblazers.”
However, today, I reverted this to a draft post since it contained three of Ari’s quotes from her reading, “Why Are So Many Offended By The Term ‘Chosen Ones’?”
Though I gave credit to her, I didn’t realize I shouldn’t share her quotes until today, since she gets paid via the Medium app.
Speaking of making money while doing what we love, I’ve been in the process of preparing for a creative project that involves all energy levels—mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual—to eventually make passive income from my Heart & Soul’s passions .
Though this blog has been free for 13 years—with the readers’ option to donate—I mostly didn’t mind that since:
1) it’s mainly been for my loved ones to immediately access—as well as other Souls who could benefit from it—just in case they ever feel like tuning into this space, that may be helpful to them in some way
2) though the main purpose for this blog has been a focus on my own journey of deep healing and transformation on all energetic levels—mentally, emotionally, physically (via once dormant, spiritual DNA activation), and spiritually—I trust that, ultimately and energetically, this can instantly, and automatically help others as well
3) my basic, financial needs and wants have been taken care of by the Universe via various resources, to include:
– my VA retirement pay
– my husband’s Broker & Realtor commissions (that he’s been sharing for helping him out with: his website in the past, his clients, and with sharing with him whatever I learn on my spiritual journey—merging physical and spiritual worlds from inside and out)
– some unexpected resources that show up in surprising ways (example: a check from a former insurance company 11 years ago that stated they had miscalculated and were refunding me, which I shared in a post a while back)
To be transparently honest, there were times in the past that I felt bothered by the idea, that by sharing so much publicly (and even freely), that certain others may use it against me, and even possibly steal my stories, insights, wisdom gained, perspectives, ideas, etc., and use them as their own.
But when I chose to snap out of fear-based state, and expanded my perspective—to a multidimensional, love-based one—I realized, that ultimately, there’s nothing to lose from a Unity Consciousness perspective (only from separation consciousness of “self vs others”).
And even from separation consciousness that includes the individuated from THE WHOLE individual, there’s only ONE of any of us, that no one can replace.
So so-called others can verbally attack and/or steal whatever from us, but they can never truly harm and/or steal the essence of who we truly and fully are, that’s way beyond this physical and material world.
And last but not least, ultimately, what matters most, is that highly beneficial message(s) are shared with as many interconnected Souls as possible, even if it means from others (but NOT in a twisted, misrepresented, misinformed, and/or disinformed, fear-based way that’s: toxic, corrupt, unhealthy, non-beneficial, recruiting, controlling, forced and/or manipulative).
Speaking of which, I noticed on Amazon Prime yesterday something that caught my attention due to the topic.
So I tuned into this vibrational frequency channel titled, “Desperately Seeking Soulmate: Escaping Twin Flames Universe.“
But after watching the preview, I chose not to waste anymore of my invaluable focus, energy and time, since it was very obvious that it was filled with toxic version of drama, and the corrupt version of Spirituality.
I had shared various blog posts in the past about the obvious to subtle existence of corruption, even within the broad spectrum of Spirituality (like world religions), to include some (but not all) “spiritual” positions and businesses.
I mostly experienced this personally, though I’ve also learned this from many others.
Just like everything in Life, there always seems to be a HUGE mixed bag of extreme opposites, and the many shades and hues in between.
And this includes many people misunderstanding, misusing and/or abusing the sacred reunion relationship known as Twin Soul or Twin Flame, unfortunately, an earthly label that’s been smeared beyond recognition.
As I’ve shared before, I trust that this sacred reunion relationship is about learning (as a human) and re-membering (i.e., embracing and integrating) as a Soul to Be WHOLE within FIRST AND FOREMOST, unconditionally loving Self/self. Enough said about this.
It’s about taking full responsibility for our lives, rather than expect others to fill whatever VOID we have within.
And it’s about deeply appreciating, feeling completely comfortable with, and enJOYing our own Full Presence—our core vibrational frequency state/our true essence—without feeling lonely though alone.
Because only then can we be with others in an unconditional way, rather than expect them to be, believe, say, behave, and/or do a certain way.
It’s ultimately about Souls who need to remember our greater version of ourselves—our Full-Potential, Multidimensional, WHOLE Self (Divine Self/Spirit & Soul)/self (physical self, to include human and/or E.T.).
Therefore, even if I were to suddenly pass away at any given moment, I would’ve at least shared my last Heart’s gifts 💝.
This doesn’t mean it’s not a good idea to invest in creative projects, start a business, and make money, but why not do both that’s highly beneficial for self/others?
I’m reminded that the more we share with one another, especially uplifting and beneficial new information (Light Frequency) & Unconditional/True Love Frequency (for self/Self/interconnected Life this world and beyond), the more we automatically and instantly impact and expand our individual and Collective Consciousness (regardless of our distance, even from a Universe away: via Entanglement of Quantum Physics).
This reminds me that now that I’m back in the States, I can share more in various, enjoyable ways, without draining myself, and definitely NOT becoming a workaholic again.
I think I had shared this story before, within this blog, but I’ll do so again since I recently dreamt of this person (for the first time) who had freely shared with me invaluable and memorable experiences.
This young, free-spirited, rebel-like homeless man in his twenties is very wise beyond his years—what is known as an Old Soul, who more than likely gained wisdom from many earthly and otherworldly lifetimes.
As a matter of fact, his vibrational frequency—and very deep eye contact—has FELT like E.T. in human form (though he could very well be a starseed incarnated in a human body/vehicle).
I’m still not sure exactly what type, though I’m leaning towards a version of a Gray E.T. (there are various kinds), due to similar new encounters with this type of E.T. within that timeframe, within that particular series of synchronicity.
Granted, I may never find out, which I haven’t lost sleep over, though slightly curious (will explore within my project).
Jeremy once approached me at Kava Bar in Sedona—where I used to sporadically perform open-mic comedy about a handful of times (and I may return one day).
In a gentle, yet bold manner, he confidently shared a section of an animal spirit guide book with me, where I also picked The Otter Spirit guide card, that perfectly matched that timeframe (details in that post, though don’t recall title since stories within story).
It was from an anonymous author—an obvious and authentic shaman—who was profoundly wise in her/his seemingly wild and pure-hearted expressions.
I trust that this author/Master Teacher & Master Healer—whose vibrational frequency FELT like a Native American—gave this very empowering, inspiring, and invaluable, yet free, gift to humanity and beyond.
And it wasn’t important to her/him that people knew his name; it was about the helpful messages.
Granted, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with revealing who we are as we share as well.
Both are perfect within Divine Wisdom, where EVERYTHING is perfect as IS—as obvious blessings or blessings in disguise—despite temporary outer appearances, man-made labels, and circumstances.
Anyhoo, despite being an Old Soul, Jeremy isn’t an ancient one, so he still has room to grow and evolve more on all energetics levels—especially deeply healing emotionally—but so do many of us on this planet.
He left Sedona, AZ sometime in early spring of this year to Cali, and though he asked, and I chose to send him money once while he was there (to help him in a new place), I decided NOT to disempower him via enabling, by continuing to be a financial support system.
Jeremy’s more than capable of manifesting money on his own (like the rest of us), due to his high level of Multidimensional intelligence, wisdom, abilities, skills and talents.
If someone like me—who had experienced much traumas, to include culture shock and a great need to adjust to a new life in my late teens through early twenties, due to mostly living in Korea beforehand—could make it on my own during my youth, then so can he and others.
Plus, he had also shared stories of his increasing manifestation abilities that felt true.
I hope he reads this post since I had shared with him this blog; it was an invaluable, non-material gift.
Granted, while he was still in Sedona, I had gifted him a care package that I had put together—many small things he could use, to include peppermint essential oil (in case he gets a headache, or for other areas of pain), bandaids, toothbrush & toothpaste, wipes, gloves, a hat, scarf, socks, and much more.
He may have believed that my discontinuing to help with more money after he left was a heartless gesture, but I had shared generously from my heart, to include material gifts like money and homemade meals for him and his homeless friends.
My husband and I were even willing to lend space within our apartment’s tiny, outdoor, storage room (at the time; moved since) for his bike (as requested), before he decided to take off.
I just realized that there were remnants of guilt that I had carried—due to his disappointed vibes the last time we communicated about the last money I would send.
But I have helped much more than what most people have, because it must be extremely difficult to be homeless, especially when the weather gets cold (also my own projection, since I hate very cold weather with a passion).
And he even said that for two years while in Sedona, no one had cared about and helped him as much as I did.
So I fully release feeling bad or sad about this matter.
I REALLY wanted to help him in various ways because he’s around the age of my adult children.
A while back, a loved one once shared his own fear of possibly becoming homeless, which many within humanity have—to include myself (see insights further below in same font color paragraphs)—due to society’s strong, collective conditioning that stems from poverty consciousness.
At the time, I shared some wisdom with him, though I don’t recall what exactly; but I have no doubt that this journaling has helped to deeply heal, integrate, and transform these related fears.
In addition, I know what it FEELS like to be a young adult, on your own, and without any support system in outer world—mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually, AND financially.
When I suddenly quit a job—after being harassed by wannabe gang members (and I stood up for myself, though the owner sided with the customers; story in post titled, “Rage”)—I was jobless for a month, and wasn’t able to make the next month’s room rent of $300.
So I ended up turning inward, which was my spiritual support system.
Soon after, I tuned into an interview to work as a secretary for a Korean-American family company in Annandale, VA.
I, too, still have remnants of this “possibly becoming homeless” fear, which is very healthy and highly beneficial to explore; because suppressing various forms of our fears will continue to have power over us.
I just realized more than ever before another main reason why I haven’t left a long-term relationship that’s been mostly unhealthy, unhappy, and even abusive and toxic many times, with confusing inclusions of positive times that can sometimes be true changes (or not).
And I saved into my phone yesterday this poster quote (below) that explains why in a nutshell, and I’ve shared something similar in this blog a while back (granted, I would replace the word “demon” with non-beneficial aspects):
“You can leave a toxic relationship but if you don’t heal what attracted you to them, you will meet them again. The same demon, just in a different person.” TheMindsJournal
Granted, gradually and noticeably, this relationship improved the past few years—especially this year of 2023–as I dived even deeper into shadow work, and The 7 Essene Mirrors (the latter even more deeply these days).
Recently, I’ve been learning additional, important information about various types of unhealthy relationships, as well as the signs and symptoms, and ways to heal from them.
Knowledge is truly is empowering, and ignorance is definitely disempowering.
Examples of childhood and/or adulthood traumas—besides from the well-known, general abuse (mental, verbal, emotional, and physical)—including:
enmeshment, parentification, emotional incest, love bombing, narcissism, gaslighting, stonewalling, codependency, lack of full presence, lack of emotional support, lack of honesty and trust, lack of accountability, insincerity, toxic communication, passive-aggressiveness, silent treatment, triangulation, etc.
The posters below are some I saved to remind me while I make a plan (and the first two posters I highly resonate with since they’re neutral rather than judgemental; click on image to view much larger version):
Because if we don’t know what we don’t know, how can we effectively help ourselves, let alone others?
At the same time, like I shared with my husband, other family members, and a few friends, and others, all of us ultimately have ALL neutral aspects within us (positive and negative), that we can be to varying degrees, at any given point.
So transparent honesty with self—and NOT just continually playing the popular BLAME GAME—IS how TRUE TRANSFORMATIONS will happen within both inner and outer worlds.
And the degree to how honest we are with ourselves, will determine how honest we are with others.
So I shared this new information this afternoon—11/27/2023, as I’m updating this post with further insights—and we had another argument that I finally recognized, with CRYSTAL CLARITY this time, as a never-ending, repeating pattern and vicious cycle that includes some positive times.
Continuing from previous story:
THIS PARAGRAPH EDITED: Anyhoo, I just realized that BOTH Jeremy (and I) needs need to pull his OUR head heads out of his OUR ass asses, and realize that he’s WE ARE more than capable of creating a NON-homeless (and NO LONGER homeless-fearing), empowered version of himself OURSELVES.
Even if that means temporarily getting a job(s) where he can save enough money to get a roommate (who’s a good influence) .
Granted, he did mention working odd jobs here and there to make money, but they would be very brief.
But regardless of the details, it’s his responsibility, not anyone else’s.
I shared stories within this blog of how I made it on my own, to include working 15 hours a day without a day off for two straight weeks (at a new job) when I was 19 years old. So there’s no excuse.
I truly wish Jeremy the very best in Life, which I have complete faith that he has the potential to not only survive in this world, but THRIVE.
I now fully trust that all is well in his life, since this dream FELT peaceful and joyful.
I trust that he’s continuing to flow with his VERY STRONG Self/self, and BRAVE, BOLD and FUN adventures, as well as life challenges that comes with the package deal of physical worlds (Earth School & playground), that includes duality/polarity that can be extremely difficult and painful at times.
Jeremy once shared a very heartfelt story, where he deeply bonded with a stray cat near a wooded area next to the main road.
That cat ended up saving him from harassment by the police (something that he and like others apparently experienced often, and he was pissed about, and understandably so).
But if it’s true about the police habitually harassing homeless people, then they need to be aware that E.T.s are known to take care of their own kind when absolutely needed.
Therefore, it may not be wise to continually bully otherworldly beings or Beings (and even human beings who have their own otherworldly support system).
I can only speak for myself—and many like-minded others have apparently experienced this as well—but otherworldly Beings have been there for me when I needed their support the most, to include but not limited to: WHOLEy-Holy Spirit/Great Spirit/The Mother Goddess, Higher Self/Selves: Goddess(es), God(s), Ascended Masters, Angels, Archangels, E.T.’s from various star systems (Starseed Soul Families), Animal Spirit Guides, Elemental Realm, etc.
Once, Jeremy and I got into a heated argument over him being habitually stuck in angry, victim mentality over the police.
And after refusing to continue listening to his repeating complaints without creative solutions—to include shifting to empowering, expanded perspectives of Victor Mentality—I assertively, borderline aggressively (raising my voice as well since he wouldn’t back off) told him an abundance of what he initially didn’t want to hear.
Because that’s true helping via honest sharing.
It’s NOT about easily agreeing in order to rescue from the brief, unpleasant moments, to make it more warm and fuzzy comfortable.
It’s NOT about people pleasing either.
Sometimes, or often times, true friends will tell us what we may not want to hear, but are confident that it’s highly beneficial.
I shared the following message for Ari’s reading, “Things We Should Avoid After A
Spiritual Awakening”:
Thank you again Ari for another helpful reading, especially about releasing rescue mode, which I realized I was in at times throughout my own journey.
I also noticed that the omega chart of consciousness, like many other spiritual tools, is still a tool nonetheless; hence, it can help our logical minds better understand, but our complex emotions, feelings and states and levels of consciousness (like everything else in Life) don’t always fit nicely into earthly labeled boxes 📦.
I’ve noticed in the past that many have used this chart to show others how high they are in their state or level of consciousness (spiritual growth/evolution)—the former that we’re habitually in/our core vibrational frequency, and the latter that we visit (consciously or unconsciously)—which is the collective mind’s way of separating (part of separation consciousness), measuring, calculating, comparing, understanding, and even competing (in healthy or unhealthy ways).
So many within humanity, especially “spiritual” people, do their best to only (or more often) be (in public) the “positive” aspects, to include only: peaceful, calm, emotionless, egoless, wise, kind, compassionate, grateful, giving, etc.; however, often times, there are hidden “negative” aspects that have been suppressed deep within.
And if one shows or expresses any negative thought, emotion, and/or feeling, they’re made to feel less than, and less spiritual, because their level of consciousness is lower now, which is a MEGA LOAD of doo doo.
Also, that’s why the “High Vibes Only” saying—that’s been floating around the spiritual communities for years—that probably started with good intentions, has been more harmful than helpful to many.
We need to express our sadness to release, heal and transform, especially throughout the important mourning phase after a loved one’s death.
It’s okay to feel anger to snap out of depression, and/or to eventually recognize a repeating pattern of triggers (blessings in disguise).
It’s okay to tune into hopelessness when Life becomes unbearable, though it doesn’t benefit to become lost within the so-called darkness.
So I trust that what matters most is allowing ourselves to truly Be authentic in every moment—to tune into any (ultimately) neutral aspects of Full-Potential, Multidimensional, WHOLE Self/self in the present moments while Being Full Presence.
Even the energies of fear has its beneficial moments, though not meant to take over the entire ship, since our Divine Self is the Captain.
It’s more beneficial to express our “negative” emotions and feelings in healthy ways, rather than deny them and cover them up.
An older woman who used to be a neighbor almost a decade ago, once said that she NEVER gets angry, which I instantly and intuitively knew wasn’t true; her seemingly calm and confident expression was a facade.
In a nutshell, as a Christian, she didn’t allow herself to be any “negative” aspects in public, due to her strong belief that society frowns upon “wrong,” “ bad”, and even “evil” aspects, which is understandable.
But when we suppress our unhealed parts of ourselves, and related thoughts, emotions and feelings—ex. via depression pills that only cover up the problems, and overeating of comfort food and other addictions (and in her case, 3 loaves of bread within a week as well)—these negative energy aspects don’t go anywhere, but boil and stew from within, like lava.
Then the “negative” emotions eventually seep out in indirect ways, to include passive-aggressive ways, and/or explode in out of control ways, like a volcano (or going postal in the extreme).
I wanted to share this with her at the time, but intuitively knew she wasn’t ready to be receptive to this new information/Light. She was strongly set in the old and outdated ways.
So as challenging as it was to refrain, I let it go (rescue mode that is).
Granted, I’ve been following my inner guidance/Heart for most of my adult life of over 30 years (and probably during childhood as well), and intuitively shared with others much full presence and helpful information whenever it FELT right/light to do so (after actively listening to their stories).
And to my delightful surprise, it often worked out well, to include many others throughout the world thanking me, and/or weeping, crying, and even bawling, though many were complete strangers.
Thanks to your message—and the breadcrumbs of joy that followed afterwards—I just further realized the difference between the need for rescue mode (that stems from fear-based energies, especially limiting beliefs, need for control, ulterior motives, manipulation, unaware motives with good intentions, desperation, and/or anxiety)…
and simply and generously sharing with others from the state of merged Heart/Mind (that stems from Unconditional/True Love & Light/Vibrational Frequency Uplifting Information).
That’s why the typical, often aggressive, religious recruitment doesn’t FEEL light, but rather, quite HEAVY, making one want to SPRINT the other way.
But even within the very broad community of Spirituality, it can feel this way too; and I know, because I have experienced both ends of the spectrum—on the giving and receiving end of this rescue mode, draining energy.
I choose to trust that whoever’s meant to benefit from this LONG@$$ message will.
So I intend to fully release any remnants of judgment towards myself for sharing, yet, another lengthy message, that’s usually frowned upon by this world (since our society is often about instant gratification, to include short posts).
I’m still learning, healing, integrating, growing and evolving.
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