Note: This post is a continuation from the recent post, “Being Honest with Self, Embracing True Feelings & Sacral Chakra Signals.”

As usual, my husband, dog and I enjoyed our nature journey yesterday morning, where I walked and they did interval runs.

In the late afternoon, I felt like swimming at our community pool, not only to get some extra exercise, but to have fun. I trust that being around nature earlier in the day inspired me to do so.

I’ve learned/remembered that water is very healing overall (and not just for drinking), especially for our sacral chakra.

In the recent past, I allowed my logical mind of my fearful ego self (wounded inner child) to persuade me into discontinue swimming that I started enjoying shortly after we moved into our new apartment complex.

Although the fearful thought had crossed my mind several times, due to having read a few readings that stemmed from fear-based beliefs, I admitted to self yesterday that the fear of the negative effects of chlorine in swimming pools is indeed what was preventing my ego self to be at ease with the idea of swimming.

I was able to deeply empathize with self, since no one wishes to experience harm to their physical bodies. However, looking back to when I was a kid, I didn’t worry about things like chlorine in the pool, or anything else for that matter; I just wanted to have fun, and I just did so without thinking too much about it.

Though the times that I did swim in the public swimming pool at Osan AFB (or off post Korean pools) did contain chlorine, I’m still alive and well to this very moment.

I also realized that I’ve more than likely been exposed to plenty of other “toxins” throughout my life, like the majority of human beings, but I’ve managed not only to survive, but to thrive despite all the “bad” stuff of life, so have many so-called others.

So why, in my early forties, am I being so paranoid about all the toxins in life? Because society say so? If we’re meant to live and just Be, then so shall it be.

Yes, it’s wise to be discerning and cautious (rather than very fearful) about how we go about our lifestyle on Earth—not misusing and abusing our bodies—but why not also trust in our Divinity within that it’s okay to simply enjoy our lives without constantly looking over our shoulders to see what else is out to get us?

If I had a natural body of clean and safe (i.e., not infested with stinging jellyfish or sharks) water near my home to swim in, I would choose it over the man-made swimming pool.

However, since the nearest beach or ocean is several hours away, the next best thing is our community swimming pool.

It’s like when I grew up mostly in Korea—South Korea for those who are not familiar with that part of the planet—had we had purified water, I would’ve preferred it over boiled water; however, it was what it was.

We do the best with what we have at whatever moment and just trust—with unshakable faith—that “we’re always at the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing” (a Pleiadian teaching).

So I suppose even the fearful belief of potential jellyfish and sharks within a body of water can cause us to tune into such a reality. Afterall, like attracts like according to the Universal Law of Attraction (i.e., fearful beliefs attracts related fearful occurrence).

While swimming yesterday with my husband, we had a great time just Being free-spirited…the way we were when we were kids. He even taught me how to swim on my back, which I need more practice doing.

When I had self-taught myself how to swim as a kid—by watching other kids—swimming backwards was something that I didn’t explore much because I wasn’t able to see where I was going, and I didn’t want to run into people; so I was grateful that I had this golden opportunity.

Lately, even while walking, I noticed that my lower back and sacrum area still hurts; however, I noticed that while swimming, my back didn’t hurt at all! ^_^

I know that it took a few weeks to sink in, but I realized that my lower back pain led to my choice to swim more often, which would give my body a chance to move with the flow…exercise with minimum impact….be balanced by communing with the water element more often…and to enjoy my essence of free-spirited self.

The day before yesterday, I went to the pool and bathed in the sun’s rays for about 20 minutes or so while lying on my belly.

I chose to trust that the powerful cosmic rays of higher frequencies of Light and Love would surely help heal my lower back in Divine perfect timing and order.

I also trust that this sun bathing was a warm-up step that would lead me to fully enjoying the purposely available pool.

As usual, I also did some sun gazing earlier that day, thanking Father Sky/Sun for always being present for us, on a daily basis, with much unconditional love. Note: Read important message at bottom of post regarding Sun Gazing. 

I also referred to the sun for the first time as bah-bah-rah (like my first name Barbara) because it now reminds me of two things.

When I was in high school back in the early nineties, I stopped by my first boyfriend’s home—like a 4-5 story building that included their family, Chinese Medicine business—and witnessed my half-Korean/half-Chinese-American boyfriend call out to his father, “Bah-bah!” which I later learned means father in Chinese.

Not too long after that day, his very old father passed away, and my heart went out to my boyfriend, who had already lost his mother years ago.

However, despite “tragic occurrences” in his life at such a young age, I highly respected and admired my boyfriend’s ability to be such an overall, positive and strong person, though I have no doubt that he had his deeply sad moments behind closed doors.

For me, that day was the first and last time I saw the unknown, friendly-looking old man, but I trust that I was meant to very briefly witness his peaceful presence from a short distance, as well as the significant word that would remain within my long-term memory.

So almost three decades later—WOW, that makes me feel ancient—after learning/remembering the meaning of ra, which is the ancient Egyptian sun god, the sound bah-bah-rah reminded me of, “Father Sun,” which I trust was amazing Divine synchronicity (as opposed to mere coincidence).

I was meant to hear that former word, bah-bah, that exact moment, as well as remember it to be used at a later time. In addition, communicating to the sun with the name bah-bah-rah (like Barbara) reminds me of communicating to another aspect of my highest self, making the bond more personal and unified rather than “separated” as “I and them”which is how we often perceive everything in 3D consciousness.

SHINY OBJECT!!!

Yes, the sparkling, bright sun can surely be an unavoidable topic; however COMMA let’s return to the topic of extremely power, yet, lovingly gentle water.

Prior to swimming yesterday, I asked the Undines of the Elemental Realm—extensions of my Goddess-Self within—to assist me with purifying the pool water, thanked them, blessed the water as Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within, and silently shouted, “All aspects and extensions of Goddess-Self within…let’s enjoy swimming!”

I’ve read that the Elemental Realm prefers to show up to us when they feel like it, and I completely understand and respect that choice.

I’ve already requested to meet them one magical day—again, in Divine perfect timing and order—so I trust that it will be so.

I chose to only ask once since, to me, it doesn’t make sense anymore to keep asking for the same assistance over and over again; and it is my intention to apply this choice to all other areas of my total Being.

And yes, I chose “believing before seeing” rather than the other way around; afterall, even quantum physics has shown us that there is much to our physical reality that it unseen and unknown to the limited, physical mind and eyes.

As of now, I just act as if the elemental realm—along with all other aspects and extensions of Divinity within me—are already around me, though I’m unable to see them yet with my physical eyes; and I communicate with them whenever I feel like it.

Often times, when I’m out and about, and I feel a cool breeze envelope my body, I thank the Sylphs of the air element for their thoughtfulness and unconditional love since they seem to always arrive at the perfect time—when it starts getting a little toasty.

Once in a blue moon, when I’m completely relaxed and not expecting anything, I notice what appears to be transparent energy waves flowing around me as I feel subtle, inner-body vibrations. 

Every now and then, whether I’m inside my home or outside, I see something tiny swiftly fly by me that I strongly sense isn’t an insect. Other times, I sense that they are insects.

Then I thought pops into my mind that it may have been a fairy or something similar in nature which makes me smile.

Even when I’m in the magnificent presence of a tree(s) and/or lovable birds, butterflies, dragonflies, etc., I telepathically send a, “Namaste” to them, and act as if their seemingly dancing leaves, and/or graceful flying presence, are waving back at me with much excitement.

Yesterday morning, while out on our nature journey, I heard for the first time an unfamiliar, loud, and harmonious chirping sound. 

When I looked to my right and above, I noticed a black and white bird flying by that I didn’t recall ever seeing before. At that moment, I was instantly reminded of our outer reality reflecting our inner reality, and was grateful to nature spirit guides within me for mirroring back to me a black and white, yin and yang-like symbol of Balance and Harmony, which I trust was the state that I was in during those moments of inner peace.

Two nights ago, I also had a dream of three, black wolves who turned into three male beings, which is the first time that I recall seeing more than one wolf in my dreams. But that’s another post, which I will connect to an old draft about a wolf and dolphin within a swimming pool dream that I had a while back , as well as how I trust that they’re related to my recent water experiences and the healing of my sacral chakra. 

Recently, twice in the middle of the night, I felt something noticeably scratch the top of my foot, and I woke up yelling, “YAH!” which is like, “Hey you!” in Korean.

In the past, I would’ve been scared of the so-called unknown happening in the dark of the night, but ever since I did some reading about the elemental realm—which I trust was meant to be—I released, transmuted and healed some more fear within me. Afterall, whether of Dark or Light, I trust that ultimately, they’re all parts of the whole/The One within us.

So it was understandable that at both those moments, as soon as I woke up, I strongly sensed that the scratch (or another form of wake up call) was a personal gnome that was assigned to me since birth…like a guardian angel, which I also trust exists and wrote about in the post, “Dream of Little Angel Alerting Outside of Window.”.

Sure enough, both times that I had this bizarre experience of being woken up in that particular manner, I had to either go to the bathroom real bad, or I was very dehydrated and needed to drink some water. When I realized this, I expressed my gratitude to my higher selves.

Once, I woke up in the middle of the night because I heard some male voice clearly and gently whisper, “Bobbie.”

When I woke up at that time, I saw one of the frequently appearing sacred number codes on the bedroom clock, intuitively sensed that it was an extension of Divinity within—perhaps an angel, Archangel, or Ascended Master/member of Galactic, Celestial and/or Universal Family of Light—thanked higher self for sharing Light and Love, and went back to bed.

Two nights ago, I went to bed with a disposable heating pad on my lower back. I had placed it on my back around 6 p.m. without calculating the time.

Apparently, math is not yet my forte, though my earthly Asian-American, female background would typically say otherwise.

When I realized afterward that the heating pad lasts for eight hours, I decided to just wear it to bed though the warning label stated that it could cause burns. I had a subtle feeling that my Goddess-Self within me would look out for me. Sure enough, a miracle occurred.

I woke up in the middle of the night and had an urge to look at the clock, which happens often—and I notice sacred number codes such as 11:11, time ending with 22-55, sets of 2:22-5:55, etc.,)—and I noticed that it was early 2 a.m., and I instantly and intuitively knew my instincts were spot on.

I thanked my Beloved with deep gratitude for waking me up on time—perfect timing—to take off the heating pad. I had no doubt that the lesson included a reminder to always trust in Divinity within me, despite outer appearances and earthly labels.

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Note: Research sun gazing prior to practicing, follow your own inner guidance, and ensure that you slowly build up the length of time in which you do gaze. In Divine perfect timing and order, you will be able to effortlessly stare into the mid-day’s brightest sunlight without your eyes drying out, or even experiencing brief phases of eye discomfort or slight pain. Prior to starting this practice, I chose to trust in Divinity within me that I wouldn’t go blind, and that my physical eyes would adjust accordingly as long as I follow my intuition every time and not go overboard. In addition, at some point, you will be able to see a light pink aura around the sun, and sometimes even magenta in color. I’m no so-called expert at sun gazing by the way; I’m just sharing from personal experience after learning from other spiritual teachers, as well as following my own inner guidance. I trust that sun gazing helps us to absorb the cosmic rays, which contain much Light (information/ancient knowledge/wisdom) and Love (most powerful force throughout the omniverse) frequencies…ultimately, from within.

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Update

1/21/2016

Sciatic Nerve Pain: A VERY informative, helpful, uplifting, empowering, and inspirational personal story relating to another woman’s sciatica challenge, something I’ve been experiencing for a few months now.