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Sometimes, when we’re going through challenging times, we may forget our Soul’s multidimensional: development, growth, progress, strengths, abilities, skills, talents, and everything else that we are and share with interconnected Life.

And that’s okay, as long as we remember to bounce back, and simply do our best to Be fully present, and Be our authentic/WHOLE, Full-Potential, Multidimensional, True Self (Divine/Spiritual)/self (physical selves).

Within this physical world, Being spiritual (especially unconditionally loving) and/or doing spiritual work can look like many different ways.

And these ways depend on various beliefs and belief systems, to include religions and the very broad spectrum of Spirituality in general.

Throughout 13 years of diving deep into inner and outer spiritual work, I felt like I didn’t quite fit into this world’s labeled boxes regarding spiritual work.

And this morning, I realized, with further CRYSTAL CLEAR CLARITY, that I’m not meant to be limited by any physical world boxes.

I trust that my belief of not being and doing enough in this world stems from comparison with society’s rules and expectations—what the so-called “normal” is supposed to be like, even within Spirituality.

However, after reflecting and pondering, I realized more than ever before that I’ve been contributing to this world throughout my entire life, from the core foundation of Being, deeply caring, and generously sharing.

Even my mother once told me, that I would sometimes say unusual things that typical, very young children don’t know, let alone say.

And from childhood throughout adult, I’ve interacted with many people from around the world, while Being fully present with them in a genuinely caring way (a form of deep healing just with one’s unconditionally loving vibrational frequency).

I trust this is why many (especially strangers) have felt very comfortable in my presence, and shared their personal stories—to include their deepest secrets—while often weeping, crying, or even hysterically bawling.

And I would simply hold space for them, though I wasn’t aware of the spiritual phrase called “holding sacred space for another” (something I learned a few years ago in my late forties).

I was often this way while in the Army as well, which is why many soldiers often came to me with their personal stories, beliefs, perspectives, passionate dreams, concerns, and/or problems.

I’ve noticed more than ever before, as I’ve traveled throughout this world—to include my trips within the last few years—I continued to share much Full Presence, active listening, any helpful information (especially NEW information/Light 🕯️), and Unconditional Love.

I have been a personal witness too many human smiles, laughter and/or tears—to include tears of sadness, release/healing, relief, disbelief, and joy; and many have thanked me, and even asked for a hug (or I would initiate one, if I sensed that they were comfortable with it).

And I have no doubt, that this is Being Living Wisdom as I walk the Earth.

And it’s not only this particular Earth reality that I’ve been sharing, but within many dream state, Earth: parallel realities and alternate realities, as well as many otherworldly realities that includes angelic and spiritual realms, E.T.s from various star systems, cartoon characters, and aliens.

As I’ve mentioned before within this blog, this includes teaching strangers—to me in this reality, though I know them in other realities—what I’ve learned in this particular world reality, which is amazing to me.

And there are probably many others who do the same as well—whether they recall their dreams or not—especially those who have been expanding their individual and Collective Consciousness (i.e., Starseeds, Lightworkers, Darkworkers, Workers of Oneness, Blue Ray, Indigo, Earth Angels, etc.).

I also noticed throughout my travels, that I often interact with Mother Nature’s creatures as well, which I have no doubt is another form of sharing much unconditional love.

Wherever I go, animals (and even children) are often drawn to me (though not always).

I have noticed a pattern—that I shared with my husband—that animals are drawn to him even more, whether one of our pets, his clients’ pets, or wild animals in nature during his almost daily hikes (especially javelinas, 🦌, coyotes, 🐇, 🐿️ , and once a bobcat that walked by our fairly new house, that would’ve been exciting to witness 😃).

I’ve been sharing with him about animal Spirit guides, so I let go of reminding him since I trust that he’ll look up whatever interpretations he’s drawn to if he’s interested.

Years ago, while visiting Angel Valley in Sedona, a black cat gently approached me, and sat down in front of me while I was filling out their paperwork.

Perhaps this cat sensed that I have two cats as well 😸, to include a female black cat 🐈‍⬛ named Shadow, and a younger, male, tabby cat 🐈 , named Leo.

So I paused writing, and enthusiastically said, “Well hello there!” while gently petting.

Right before heading out of this building, I felt like asking the elderly lady owner her cat’s name.

She smiled a gentle smile, and replied, “Quan Yin.”

To hear this name was a delightful surprise, because it was a perfect puzzle 🧩 piece to that particular series of Divine synchronicity.

Within that timeframe, a Korean-American, younger, female roommate at my first spiritual retreat in Sedona (a few years ago or so), shared that the psychic that stopped by, had informed her that she is the reincarnation of Quan Yin.

This tickled me, because she was a hard-core smoker and drinker of hard liquor; plus, she cursed like a sailor! 😆(sometimes I curse too 🤭, and enjoy occasional 🍷 )

However, she had a big heart, and was very authentic, honest, and even child-like at times with her deep and sincere emotional expressions.

So those reasons alone could support this psychic reading in whatever degree and whatever ways, so I congratulated her.

Whenever animals show up, I also thank them for showing up as animals spirit guides, that have messages for me that perfectly match my situations during those moments.

Sometimes, when animals and I cross paths, they could use my assistance; so I help them in whatever ways I can.

I took photos and videos at times, which I intend to share via my YouTube channel.

This includes me hearing a desperate calling, a nonstop meowing of a little kitten that was hiding under a car as I was walking back from a beach (where I sat on the black rock foundation that met the ocean, and was simply fully present in a meditative state).

This was while I was in Brazil, and there were many scrawny, stray dogs and even cats.

So I went to a nearby grocery store, bought some bowls, food and water; and the tiny kitten devoured the wet food.

(will add kitten video link here after turning into a YouTube video, and share this related section of this post as well).

My heart went out to this tiny kitten, but at the same time, I knew that I had to let go of feeling so sad for it, because it’s not beneficial to worry about any situation that we cannot change or control.

Before I left, I also left a bowl-plate full of dry food, since it probably lasts longer than wet food.

I went back the next day, with some wet cat food and water, but the kitten was no longer there, or anywhere along that street and under other cars that were parked there.

I even meowed many times 😸, just in case it worked, but there was only the sound of raindrops 🌧️.

From a fear-based perspective, I had a feeling that the kitten may not survive that long in such a harsh environment, to include many (probably starving) stray dogs.

However, from an expanded perspective, I felt grateful, that at least I had the opportunity to provide it with possibly one of its last meals, that it seemed to enjoy.

I also chose to trust that this Universe will support this kitten, if it had the desire to continue living this version of its life.

After all, even our once stray/semi-feral cat Shadow 🐈‍⬛, used to be a kitten who hung out at the model apartment (an elderly lady neighbor shared this story before my husband and I adopted her).

Shadow not only survived as a kitten, but THRIVED.

Because our apartment complex had many male feral cats that were very territorial.

So, if this tiny kitten in Brazil happened to pass away, its FREE Spirit would move on to another adventurous Life experience within this Universe/Multiverse/Omniverse.

I also saw vultures in Brazil, and before these new experiences, I had never seen vultures anywhere within human communities.

They were usually in small groups, lined up on top of stone walls, seemingly having their own telepathic conversations, like…

Vulture Jack: ”Hey Bob, what have you been smoking’ lately? Why did you convince us to let that tiny kitten go. So out of character man. She was such an easy meal!”

Vulture Bob: “I think the Cosmic energies—the merged Light & Unconditional Love Frequencies—are further opening our minds and hearts; I felt deep compassion for the tiny one, who just started experiencing Life.”

Group of Vultures: “Who ARE you?! 😳🤯😵‍💫Where the hell’s Bob?”

One day, I noticed a single vulture—perhaps Bob who preferred some solitude time to deeply commune with his Soul—hang around a neighborhood dumpster; he then jump into it.

When it came back out with nothing, it was obvious that it was hungry, so I bought some wet dog food from the nearby grocery store.

Vultures are known to eat just about anything—especially dead and rotting carcasses —so I found it hilarious that it sniffed the wet dog food, walked off, and then jumped back into the dumpster. 😂

By the way, I will also add the YouTube video link here once it’s published.

Also, there were a couple of stray dogs that refused to eat the packaged, wet dog food as well, probably thinking, “I’d rather starve than eat this 💩!” (though a few others did, probably because they were starving).

So I wondered what was in the wet dog food that was so bad, that those dogs and the vulture absolutely refused to eat it.

Many pet food have been recalled even within the United States, due to toxic ingredients that are present in them.

So I’ve learned that rather than buy cat food or dog food in certain countries—where there are no options to buy good quality pet foods—to just set aside scraps of not heavily seasoned food (like grilled meat) that animals can eat.

And then give it to them when I see them while out and about, the way I did for ravens and crows that I often saw while living in Flagstaff and Sedona.

Anyhoo, I fully trust that simply Being Fully Present, and interacting with Life, and sharing various forms of Light and/or Unconditional Love IS the core foundation of my Life Purpose.

And everything else—to include various creative projects, hobbies, and ways: like this blog, YouTube videos, artwork, poetry, open-mic comedy, dancing, cooking, future online course(s) and book(s), etc.—is an extra bonus.

I’ve also shared many reviews for decades for many physical and online businesses, to include restaurants.

I would mostly thank the servers by their names—and sometimes even managers and owners—and publicly share their wonderful qualities.

Granted, within a year or so, I deleted all reviews from various online platforms—after leaving them available for others to read for a long time—so that I can practice Being neutral within this world.

I noticed that I was inclined to write negative reviews as well, which caused me to continue being triggered by some rude people, and also kept me stuck playing the disempowering, non-beneficial, individual and collective blame game.

However, thanks to a recent experience in Sedona—where I currently and temporarily reside—I was able to see the bigger picture of how a negative review can hurt a business that’s been providing excellent service and tasty food.

From one perspective, if the manager, owner, and/or staff is HABITUALLY (KEYWORD): unfriendly, unprofessional, rude, unsanitary, discriminating, uncaring, ignoring, etc., plus the food is substandard, then it’s completely understandable for a restaurant to receive a negative review.

But if this isn’t the case, and someone happens to have an off day, then it’s non-beneficial to write a negative review.

Although I had let go of the need to write positive or negative reviews, I did so recently. 

I shared the following 5 ⭐️ review for the only food truck in Sedona, AZ, Momo’s Kitchen:

My husband and I have enjoyed Momo’s Kitchen since 2018, so almost 6 years.

And the staff—Edwin, his mom-like aunt (Momo), and Kenny—have been consistently very kind.

My husband shared a 5 star review years ago, but I’m writing one as well, since it baffled us to notice two recent reviews about the staff being rude, which seems completely out of character.

This isn’t to invalidate what these customers experienced, but I feel that everyone can be ALL aspects (positive and negative) to varying degrees, and depending on various factors and circumstances.

However, if someone is habitually very kind for almost 6 years, and happens to have an off day or two, 1 star ratings for their business doesn’t represent well.

Also, a recent negative review mentioned that Momo’s is more rude to Koreans.

They stated in Korean, “한국인에겐 더불친절합니다”—though this part wasn’t translated into English, so I’d like to add that I’m Korean, and this has been far from true.

We’ve enjoyed everything on their menu, especially the beef bulgogi, fried mandu, japchae, and their refreshing and delicious red bean dessert.

Thank you very much 🙏🏼 Momo’s staff. We have recommended your food truck to many people over the years, and will continue to do so.

And our visiting family members, friends, coworkers, acquaintances, clients, and work customers, have all shared how much they’ve enjoyed your delicious food.

Wishing you all many uplifting blessings, to include: Profound Wisdom 🐢🦉🐋, Inner & Outer Peace 🕊️🦌, Gratitude & Appreciation for Life 🌼, Great Health 🌲 , Joy 🐬🐸 (to include Humor 🐵), Inner & Outer Freedom 🐎🦅, Every Stepping 👣 Stone of Soul 🕯️ Success, Highly Beneficial Major Transformations 🐍🪲🐛🦋 on All Energetic Levels (Mentally🌞, Emotionally 🌚, Physically 🧬, Spiritually 🪷, and even Financially💰💰), Prosperity Consciousness ☘️ (especially BEING Wealth Within 🥰 FIRST AND FOREMOST) and Unconditional Love 💗 (for the self/interconnected 🕸️ Life 🌳).

❤️🧡💛💚end of above review🩵💙💜

[shared a Korean version of the above message as well, using Google Translate]

For both of the above and below reviews, I’ve been incorporating much Light and/or Unconditional Love frequencies in the conventional and unconventional messages.

I also shared the following 5 ⭐️ review for Amazon this morning:

Review by Angelo’s wife Barbara
Mulantis 🐮🐯|🕊️🐲|💖

Title of Review: Super Adorable, Perfect Happy Face & Great Reminder to Integrate Our Inner-Child’s Happiness (+ 4 photos)

I placed this little Buddha in front of our gorgeous Quan Yin figurine that we recently purchased via Amazon as well, and they go great together.

Quan Yin of Compassion & Mercy 💗—The Mother Goddess 💖 of Many Earthly Names, but ultimately The Nameless ✴️—is a great reminder to Unconditionally Love the self/others/interconnected 🕸️ Life 🌳🌼 within this world 🌏🌎🌍 and beyond ♾️…

and the Baby Buddha is a great reminder to deeply heal 💔❤️‍🩹🥺🫂🥹 and integrate 🌚🌝🌓☯️✡️ our inner-child’s happiness 😃into Life 🌳, and often BE child-like 🤗, free-spirited 🪼, pure JOY 🐸.

The Baby Buddha figurine is well-made, and it looks exactly like the image, but a darker gold color, which is actually closer to the appearance of pure gold, so it worked out perfectly.

This figurine caught my 👁️🤩🥰 not only because of the super joyful facial expression…

but also because of the ancient, universal, profound symbolism of the lotus flower 🪷, to include the so-called “DARK” 🌚 (like the mud) MERGING🌓 with LIGHT 🌝 (like the sunlight 🌞) as ONE 🌅, through the growing process 🌱🪴🌿🪷 of this resilient flower (like humanity’s Soul Evolution).

In addition, the color GOLD reminds me of the Cosmic 🌌 Teamwork 🌠 of…

The SUN 🌞 & DIVINE MASCULINE 🚹/MIND/GOD/LIGHT (KNOWN)/SOUL/YANG/FIRE 🔥ENERGIES…

plus the color SILVER reminds me of the MOON 🌙 & DIVINE FEMININE 🚺/HEART 💓/GODDESS/DARK (UNKNOWN)/SPIRIT/YIN/WATER 🌊 ENERGIES.

Thank you so much 🙏🏼 to the creator(s) and team Amazon!

May you experience many uplifting blessings 💖, and even blessings in disguise 💝 that contains much wisdom 🐢🦉🐋.

❤️🧡💛💚end of above review🩵💙💜

So the popular saying within Spirituality of “spreading Light & Love” doesn’t necessarily have to be within certain niches of spiritual communities, but can be widely shared with humanity in general (which our world needs more of).

And I trust that even when it comes to open-mic comedy, integrating humor, profound wisdom and unconditional love—without going overboard with wisdom and love, like coming off as preaching or tree-hugging (though I love 🥰 trees🌳🌲🌴)—is a very effective way to expand or individual and Collective Consciousness, and deeply heal and transform 🐍🪲🐛🦋 as Souls.

I once watched a talented, funny, and spiritual, comedian perform, part of a collection of events.

At one point, he shared something to the effect that a company like Netflix wouldn’t bother with someone like him, because he often transparently shares content relating to spirituality and the hidden truths of corruption within world; and that he prefers not performing for such large companies anyway.

But that didn’t sound like the truth, but more like a kid who didn’t get what s/he wanted, so instead says, “Well, I didn’t want that anyway.”

I feel that we can Be a greater individual and Collective VOICE by Being flexible wherever we are and whoever we’re with.

And when we have opportunities to play in the so-called “Big League” of Comedy, why not do our best to integrate into the much larger Collective?

One can cleverly incorporate spiritual wisdom— and the unknown truths about corruption—without coming off as some “woo woo spiritual fanatic” who got lost in the deep end.

As a matter of fact, an increasing number of “normal” non-spiritual comedians have been doing this as well, though mostly not about truly hidden corruption (just the obvious ones).

This comedian even admitted that he had gone through a long phase where he had a very strong need to basically inform many strangers of sudden and random truths to help them to wake up.

Though I understood where he was coming from, that also reminded me of fanatic, religious people who aggressively try to recruit strangers into believing what they believe.

Like I’ve mentioned before, one guy (of dozens) approached me while I was grocery shopping.

Without a shadow of a doubt, this causes many people to not walk, jog, or run…but SPRINT the hell away from clingy, hard-core recruiters.

I’ve even tuned into this rescue mode at times, but discovered (once I became more aware) that I didn’t like how I was radiating fear-based energies, like: ENERGIZER BUNNY ON CRACK, desperation, anxiety, manipulation and control.

And sure enough, after hearing about some of this comedian’s childhood, it made sense why he (like many within humanity) felt such a strong need to change the OUTER WORLD FIRST.

Because we go into CONTROL MODE when we DON’T FEEL SAFE.

When we do feel safe WITHIN OUR INNER WORLD, we no longer have a need to control OUTER WORLD.

And I’ve learned that there’s a difference between SHARING and SHOVING IT DOWN another’s throat.

I’ve also witnessed another spiritual comedian do a set that was about 90% a spiritual lecture.

And because I, too, have caught myself doing this before, I deeply appreciated him mirroring 🪞 this to me, because that’s not the type of open-mic comedian that I prefer to be.

When he shared a bit about everyone being either a narcissist or empath 😳🤣—which again, is an extreme example of placing people in not necessarily accurate and limiting boxes 📦 —I shared with him one day, a gist of the expanded perspectives of the “narcissist & empath” energy dynamic that I shared within this post.

That way, we’re not causing further division within humanity with the “this vs that” blame game and ongoing of conflicts, battles, and wars.

This includes preventing unaware and even gullible people, especially couples, leaving the open-mic comedy believing that one of them is a full-blown narcissist 😄 (though the tendencies could be true to varying degrees).

I haven’t felt like doing open-mic comedy for a while for two reasons, to include feeling as if another local, open-mic comedian—whom I had trusted, and even recommended him to be accepted by an annual talent show in Cali as well—had tricked me/played me as a fool/mistaken my kindness for weakness (that’s ultimately on me).

When he got bumped the last minute at the talent show (for a political reason)—that’s part of a 3-4 day, annual spiritual event in California—I ended up giving him my spot because he was very upset.

He said that a large group of friends came all the way to California to support him at this talent show.

I had sensed his manipulation, but then thought that no one had come to support me—my husband usually does, but he was taking care of his clients—so if the roles were reversed, I would deeply appreciate it if someone had given up their spot for me so that my supporters wouldn’t feel like they had wasted their time, energy, and money.

Granted, if I was in my early to mid 60’s, I would want the younger, late 40’s friend to have the opportunity to be in the spotlight.

He even vented that he couldn’t believe that the elderly man (in his 70’s)—who got him bumped the last minute—would do that to him since they were somewhat friends.

This elderly man was friends with the owners and judges for decades—and even sat at the table of judges after his performance—which explains why he got away with reading off of index cards quotes from his book.

The rest of us were required to submit a video—except the guy I recommended to a Coordinator, who waived it (a form of political game)—and were reminded several times to memorize and REHEARSE REHEARSE REHEARSE our performances.

So I realized that even within the community of Spirituality, who organize major events, there exists political games, discrimination, injustice, and so-called corruption.

He said that this elderly man had his own spiritual speaking platform within his business, so it wasn’t fair to take a rare opportunity from someone like him.

But as I’m typing this, I realized that the same applies to me (that he apparently wasn’t aware of as well).

He, too, has a spiritual business, but yet, I didn’t and still don’t (though that will change in 2024).

So though he believed he was mistreated, he didn’t realize he had done the same to me.

So I can learn from this to Be more Aware so that I don’t end up projecting onto others whatever non-beneficial thing I say and/or do to others.

I had suggested to him to express how he felt to this elderly man; he reluctantly agreed, but then called back and said that this elderly man didn’t care.

When I offered to talk to one of the coordinators—the one who agreed to let him perform without sending in a video like everyone else (since she trusted my recommendation of his talent)—he passionately asked if I could do so. 

And when I informed him that she agreed to replace me with him, he started bawling.

So I was glad I did at the time, though part of me felt like I had dropped a great opportunity for myself to share my own talent with many people, that included profound wisdom mixed with humor, authenticity, and unconditional love.

During his open-mic comedy performance, he was mainly about advertising his cool, spiritual words he created for products to sell, like t-shirts.

Though that overall nice, talent show coordinator said that she owes me one—for volunteering to get replaced the last minute—I wouldn’t return there even if someone paid me.

They supposedly represented Spirituality—hence, people came from around the world—but they were more concerned about politics, and kissing some old fart’s ass (who didn’t even seem close to spiritual); plus, they didn’t lead by example.

What was strange, was that even though this new “friend” had thanked me multiple times—and said that he owes me one for helping him—he basically acted as though he didn’t know me in front of his friends, before the talent show started.

I initially thought he was embarrassed of me, and/or he was too old to appreciate fashion—since he’s in his 60’s and dresses very plain—because he looked at my outfit and said, with a serious facial expression and tone, “You look like a teenager” and walked off.

Regardless of his criticism, I loved my stylish (but not teeny boppy) ensemble of vibrant colors, and I even received compliments from two, female strangers that day.

However, when I much later shared this part of the story with a Soul sister-like girlfriend, feeling that perhaps I made him uncomfortable…

she immediately and confidently shared that he never told his friends that he got bumped, due to his strong pride (which matched his narcissistic tendencies that I realized later).

And had he introduced me to them—and a conversation had started—it could risk them finding out the truth.

Her insights felt SPOT ON because they were instantaneous knowing/intuitive, and her words FELT true to my heart.

We also agreed that most people—with some degree of integrity and honesty—would’ve probably said (to their friends), something to the effect of, “I want you guys to meet my new friend Barbara. If it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be performing tonight.”

But he only talked to me briefly after his performance, while we were at a good distance from his friends, and it was only about him.

And I hadn’t thought of this before, but he never asked me how I felt about giving up my spot, or any form of sympathy, let alone deep empathy.

About a week or so after the event, he texted and invited me to lunch at an Indian restaurant.

He stated that he wanted to thank me for giving up my spot to perform open-mic comedy at this talent show, and to also talk about our potential, creative project idea he had.

But after ordering various items, he didn’t show an ounce of willingness to even dutch pay.

So for the first time in almost 50 years of my life— since I grew up learning that if you invite someone out for a meal, you definitely pay (or Korean custom of trying to pay the bill first because you want to treat a friend)—I calmly and assertively said to another (him), “Let’s dutch pay,” to which he appeared surprised, but then agreed unenthusiastically. 

But later I noticed an increasing, obvious pattern of narcissistic tendencies while we were planning to do an open-mic comedy project together.

Even during our trips to various hotels to talk to managers about our project, most of the conversation was a one-way street (him talking, just like our conversations).

And even most of the hotel staff showed very obvious, nonverbal cues that they were not comfortable with his presence after about 5 minutes into the conversation.

And that’s because he was very charming and confident at the beginning, just the way he was when I first met him, and brief times afterwards at open-mic comedy places.

However, his true colors gradually, and even quickly, revealed themselves.

At one hotel, he asked the manager a question, and then cut her off soon after she started talking.

When we left that particular hotel, I told him that I had to share with him something that he may not want to hear, but it’s beneficial for everyone.

He actually thanked me, though his words didn’t match his facial expression.

I trust that he truly wasn’t aware that he was doing that (like others who have varying degrees of narcissistic tendencies, even to the extreme).

Soon after these experiences, I realized that he’s only about his own “spiritual” business, which is fine, but not when it involves habitually stepping on and using others in the process, while acting like it’s teamwork and co-creation.

Because I was so used to what great teamwork looks like while in the Army life (most of the time)—to include working with all branches within the military—I had high standards about that.

I even learned from personal experiences, especially during deployment, that many (not all) Special Forces guys are like a different kind of human species (or maybe they’re starseeds or full-blown E.T.s in human form).

These BAD@$$es seemed to effortlessly go above and beyond with who they are, and what they do, especially teamwork.

So it baffled me when the majority of the civilian people I worked with in Sedona—known as the “Mecca of Spirituality,” where I worked 10 different jobs (but no more)—were the polar opposite ends of this spectrum (besides a a couple handful of wonderful Souls).

And I also wasn’t expecting the so-called new friend that I chose to trust—who seemed so spiritual—would not be a team player as well.

So since I had let go of this unhealthy relationship, I didn’t feel like returning to the open-mic places in Sedona with my husband (to avoid possibly running into this guy again).

We wished each other well only because of a manipulative text that he had sent, and I wasn’t being authentic and transparently honest at that time due to wanting to hurry up and get him out of my life.

But the truth is, it would be a blessing not to ever see him again.

I’m no longer disappointed in him, because I understand that one is this way due to one’s state of mostly fear-based consciousness, but I just prefer NOT to be around those that habitually don’t feel light to my heart.

But I’m reminded that we can all choose to reinvent ourselves and change at any given moment; so if he truly did, then congrats to him.

But even if he didn’t change much, or at all, that’s none of my business, that’s his responsibility; and it doesn’t matter that I cross paths with him again or not.

I had never fully expressed and publicly shared these experiences, but I have no doubt that it’s healthy, healing, and transformative to do so.

We can all learn from this. And I’ve learned various Life lessons, especially who NOT to be and what NOT to do, especially for my own physical/spiritual business(es) in the future.

But I also have no doubt that I can embrace and integrate a healthy degree of his selfishness energy, as well as his very aggressive approach to growing his spiritual business.

Why? Because it’s needed in this world of businesses, especially not throwing away one’s opportunity for someone who doesn’t give a rat’s ass about truly caring for others.

He had asked me not to tell anyone about what happened between us (regarding the talent show and his project idea)—because he knew what all he said and did was shady—but I eventually chose me this time, over him.

And I choose to BE UNAPOLOGETIC about sharing what needs to be freely and fully expressed, and even witnessed by others.

A very wise older woman—who once gifted me an authentic, Native American drum set (that her close friend had never seen her do for anyone before)—shared with me that my stories need a WITNESS 👁️👀.

After all, such ways are often an unhealthy pattern…and I’m more than likely not the first or last to experience these red flags 🚩.

When he told me that his girlfriend in Sedona suddenly left him, I intuitively and strongly knew why—that it was definitely him, though I don’t know her—before he further revealed narcissistic tendencies.

Thanks to him (a blessing in disguise), I’m mastering how to better recognize and handle so-called others who happen to show narcissistic tendencies to whatever degree (and this includes myself as well, since it’s beneficial to check ourselves often).

Like many—especially those of us with a dominant empath aspect—I’ve wanted to run FAR AWAY from narcissistic people, and it’s COMPLETELY understandable.

I even stopped calling my mother in Korea for about 6 years, after I asked her to no longer be verbally and emotionally abusive over the phone, but she went off on me anyway, like she habitually did.

I only reconnected when I was informed by my cousin that she had a “stroke” (it was stroke symptoms).

Granted, soon after I arrived in Korea, she had her second set of stroke symptoms, along with new heart and liver issues (hence, was hospitalized for a week, though she gradually became healthier).

And since I was her only (adult) child, I chose to be there for her in case she passed away.

However COMMA I’m at a state of Consciousness now where I fully welcome the narcissist energy, or any other negative energies.

If we happen to cross paths when necessary, so be it, though I won’t actively seek to be around it (though my mother has been an exception).

And even throughout my last, long trip in Korea, I maintained strong, healthy boundaries with her, and expressed all that I needed to say (unlike ever before), what all she needed to hear, and what my relatives needed to witness.

And this worked out for everyone in the end, though there was a lot of head butting in the process.

Even my once more passive aunt and uncle stood up to my mom, after they witnessed my refusal to take her daily, bullying bullshit to everyone.

There were times I used the communication style of gentle kindness, to include explaining to her that manipulating and controlling others is not love, though she justified that’s why she was doing so.

I then shared with her about Unconditional/True Love (for the self/others/interconnected Life), and how it’s also interchangeable with FREEDOM.

Once, she deeply looked into my eyes with such a Soulful, slightly teary-eyed, innocent look.

There were times when I used the assertive communication style—expressing respectfully, kindly, confidently, tactfully, and yet sternly.

And there were even times that I went full-blown, ape-shit, CRAzy, aggressive communication style—somewhat matching, yet, exceeding her own vibrational frequency—since I was intentionally using the neutral tool of anger energy, rather than allow it to uncontrollably take over the whole ship.

And whenever it got to this INTENSE stage, the facial expressions of my mom and relatives were priceless.

They had never seen this side of me, since I was the habitually obedient, “good”  daughter (though often called by my mom as having a “bad personality”).

This inner volcano 🌋 EXPLOSION 💥🔥🔥🔥was as if an IMMENSELY POWERFUL PRESENCE OF SILENCE ❤️‍🔥briefly COMMANDED the new space after the storm.

I once ROARED (in Korean) something to the effect of, “IN ALMOST 50 YEARS THAT I’VE KNOWN YOU, YOU HAVEN’T CHANGED ONE BIT!!! AND HUMANS BENEFIT FROM CHANGING FOR THE BETTER; and my mom was speechless (a rare moment).

The morning before I left, my mom—who continued to check off on practically all of the blocks of a very selfish and abusive narcissist—broke down crying genuine tears (like I hardly ever seen her cry).

She then apologized, and said she needed to change for the better (for the first in almost 50 years of my life that I heard her say that).

She also added that she wanted to attract more uplifting experiences in Life by Being more uplifting —since I had shared about manifestation as well—which revealed to me that my words hadn’t just gone in one ear👂and out the other.

Like I’ve mentioned in a related post, I gently replied to her to only change for herself, and not for others, including me.

Within the broad spectrum of Spirituality, it’s usually frowned upon to express aggressive energy and anger energy at all.

But I have no doubt that there’s a time and a place for every energy aspect that’s ultimately neutral.

And when used wisely and with a love-based intention, can be very effective and highly beneficial for everyone involved.

The key is NOT to misuse or abuse such energies.

I’ve seen more than enough ‘mostly calm, cool, and collected’ spiritual teachers suppress their anger at times, and it would seep out in subtle to obvious ways, to include:

patronizing or condescending remarks…

judging, criticizing, and ridiculing the Collective Ego (due to hating their own individual egos, and/or acting as if they don’t have one, though we all do to some degree—unhealthy ego or healthy ego—since we’re both individual & Collective Consciousness)…

as well as ‘not so funny, but containing a tad mean streak’ sarcasm.

Anyone one of us can experience our “negative” emotions uncontrollably take over the ship, if we suppress them, rather than express them in healthy ways.

I’ve learned that it’s NOT about avoiding the negative, wrong, bad, or even evil—in a fearful, disempowering way—but embracing whatever SHOWS UP in the inevitable nature of physical worlds, that comes with the package deal 🎁💝of OPPOSITES/CONTRASTS/DUALITY//POLARITY.

And last but not least, I have no doubt whatsoever, that during theses energetically accelerated times, ANY business—plus person, place, thing, leadership, etc.—that is NOT Heart-centered, will meet its DOWNFALL in Divine perfect timing in order, slowly, gradually, quickly, and even RAPIDLY.

And now that I have expressed this story—along with my insights and wisdom learned—I actually feel lighter.

And I have a strong feeling that I will be returning to perform open-mic comedy whenever and  wherever I feel like, and not have the need to be concerned with who’s there or not.

Second reason for pausing open-mic comedy:

I especially wasn’t motivated to do anything open-mic comedy related the past several months while my mom wasn’t doing well, and after recently finding out that my closest aunt passed away from cancer.

However, I’ve embraced my mourning phase, that may not be complete, and that’s ok.

And as the well-known saying goes…

”This too shall pass.”

UPDATE below (in pink font) added day after, on 12/6/2023:

This morning, I asked/thanked Source (Goddess & God)/Universe/Multiverse/Omniverse for showing me what Light Language card is most beneficial for today (and possibly longer).

As I’ve shared in other posts, I’ve been using Light Language cards created by Jamye Price from Sedona for 2-4 years or so (lost track of time). 

It’s the “COSMIC CONSCIOUSNESS ASCENSION DECK,” and I’ve had many experiences that matched practically every single card that I chose.

Blew me away, so I shared some of these experiences with Jamye (via comments), since I have no doubt that they’re helpful feedback for her.

She’s one of the handful of people I’ve crossed paths with in Sedona—though energetically with her rather than in person—who seem to truly represent the deeply spiritual, unconditionally loving, and profoundly wise Soul.

Though I’ve never personally met her before (perhaps one day), I’ve been FEELING her vibrational frequencies that she habitually radiates via these cards, her newsletter, and her YouTube videos, though I only read or watch them whenever I FEEL guided to from within.

Anyhoo, as I was shuffling as usual, a card popped up much higher than others.

It was “SIRIUS INITIATION: BALANCE,” which perfectly matched this section of the post published yesterday.

Because whether it’s the “empath & narcissist” energy dynamic, or the “Special Forces level teamwork & no teamwork” energy dynamic, both are extreme polar opposites.

Granted, I trust that all that these elite level guys do, absolutely requires extraordinary teamwork, since their brother-like team members’ lives are at stake, as well as their own.

But within the civilian world, it’s healthy and beneficial NOT to have super high expectations of teamwork for most and many people who have not had high-level training (or perhaps they did receive it, but don’t give a rat’s ass).

Nonetheless, to have unreasonable expectations for such situations only causes a lot of stress for the self/others.

The best thing one could do is to lead by example, and teach others through showing what exceptional looks like.

This can inspire others to emulate what type of leaders they would like to be—just the way a handful of amazing, true Leaders inspired me while in the Army…

Or, this can trigger others due to their own insecurities, resentment, envy, jealousy, and even hatred; ultimately, NOT recognizing their Golden Shadow aspects (that all aspects, to include positive ones, exists within all of us, but dormant in most).

But I’m reminded that we’re not here to control others, so all we can do is our best (and let the dominoes fall however).

It was also a great reminder to Be Balance & Harmony—not in a 50/50 kind of rigid way, but like ebb and flow, just as Jamye had mentioned (with more details of profound wisdom, that I won’t share here, since you can buy your own damn card deck 😜).

I trust this card—one of various spiritual tools that I use daily—helped me to re-tune into the profound wisdom that I was already aware of from past experiences, but had forgotten about.

In addition, I haven’t bought crystals for myself in a long time […] CONTINUING IN NEXT POST (link at bottom of this post)

When I expand my perspective even further—to SEE with CLARITY the BIGGER picture—I recall that the infamous dance of the so-called empath and narcissist energies show up in Divine perfect timing and order to benefit us.

Like ALL other aspects, these energies exist within ALL of us, though we express them (or not) to varying degrees.

Empaths have a tendency to be too giving to others while neglecting the self.

And narcissists have a tendency to be too selfish (different from self-love), and not giving (of various forms of love) to others.

Both energies are extreme opposites that are not healthy and beneficial.

So without labeling anyone an “empath” or “narcissist”—to end the “name calling” and “blame game”—we can shift our perspective into a beneficial one.

So the next time narcissistic energy SHOWS UP, I now trust in my multidimensional abilities—that includes expanding my perspective—to silently express (the way I’ve done, at least, once before):

“Namaste Soul brother/sister, thank you for reminding me:

that I’m neglecting my own well-being, needs and/or desires…

thank you for reminding me to have healthier boundaries…

thank you for reminding me to Be my own best friend, to assertively, confidently, and tactfully stand up for myself, to NOT betray myself, and/or to Be Self-Loyalty…

thank you for reminding me to unconditionally love myself more…

❤️🧡💛end of above update💚🩵💙💜

Recently, I received an email from one of the TEDx Talk organizers on the East coast, who was willing to do a zoom call for applicants from the past.

He gave us the opportunity to ask any questions, so I participated Since I wanted confirmation of what I had heard from one of the spiritual events in Sedona.

I asked if there are any restrictions to what one can talk about within the subject of Spirituality.

I asked—and I didn’t mention this during this group zoom call—because a few well-known, metaphysical speakers at the event have shared that TEDx Talk doesn’t allow one to go deep into spiritual wisdom.

I was informed that it is true, but as long as one can back up what they say with some confirmations, and isn’t way out there.

This is completely understandable, because within the broad spectrum of spirituality, many of us can go DEEP down the cosmic rabbit hole, that the majority of humanity probably won’t be able to relate to in any way, shape, or form.

Plus, just like any group or organization of people, there are those who may express spirituality in inaccurate, unhealthy, non-beneficial, and even harmful ways.

For instance, shadow work has been known to be misused and/or abused by many, to include saying things like, “That’s all your stuff, not mine!” from someone who’s not willing to even look at their own negative version of shadow aspects.

But The 7 Essene Mirrors teaching provides extra mirroring of relationships that doesn’t automatically mean others are reflecting only negative aspects.

Anyhoo, I also asked if the idea of merging humor with profound wisdom and unconditional love is welcomed or not for TEDx Talks.

And he enthusiastically replied that it is, and that it wouldn’t be boring, since they’re looking for something different due to one too many common subjects and themes. 

And he also reminded me to ensure… and I finished his sentence for him: to ensure it’s not too “woo woo” and even science-backed (to include relating to vibrational frequencies), practical, and highly beneficial for many people.

I really appreciated that this TEDx Talk organizer seemed to have integrity, and mentioned that he doesn’t believe some TEDx Talk coaching programs that charge a lot of money to people, without a sincere intention to help, let alone follow through with their promises.

He also seemed authentic, honest and genuinely kind, to include truly desiring to help others.

The day after the zoom call, he also offered to help our small group to prepare for a possible, future TEDx Talk, which was a delightful surprise.

So we’ll see how that goes.

I had let go of this a while back, after investing in the Thought Leader TEDx Talk coaching program, and pretty much after the crickets had checked out shortly after I submitted my application to various places.

Although a part of me wondered if I had been duped, I eventually took full responsibility for my decision—rather than play the infamous blame game—because ultimately, I chose to trust and take a risk. 

And one of the things I’ve learned from Peter Sage—and his (partial) USM (switched to) EMF & EMT courses——is that we can learn from both negative and positive investments.

I chose not to continue the EMT, mainly because of how he HABITUALLY (KEYWORD) showed up—more left brain centered, arrogant, aggressive, hypocritical, and overly competitive (during EMF & EMT zoom calls). 

Though he was the opposite during USM and his recruiting videos—very enthusiastic, charming, humorous, uplifting, empowering, and inspiring.

He has his own positive qualities and strengths, like everyone else—that I learned from as well (and grateful for)—but the negative too frequently outweighed the positive.

And I no longer had a desire to represent him and his brand that increasingly felt questionable, gloomy 🌫️ and draining.

I realized—via the Divine gift of CONTRASTS within DUALITY/POLARITY of physical world—that I much preferred to be around those who are HABITUALLY (KEYWORD) more: Heart-centered, confident and humble, assertive, leading by example, and competitive in a healthy and teamwork kind of way.

In addition, though the whole TEDx Talk application process seemed hopeless, it actually led to the current TEDx Talk opportunity; so eventually, a blessing in disguise.

[UPDATE for paragraphs right above, added on 12/7/2023: Arthur sent an email with links. After I clicked on the first one that basically offered a small coaching class, I noticed there was a catch, though he stated in the intro email—and during the recent zoom call—that there’s no sales pitch.

His initial class is $795, which is completely understandable, since he (like everyone of us) deserves to make money for his own invaluable presence, focus, energy, time and contributions.

But it would’ve been nice if he was transparently honest about it; his words didn’t match his email link (which again, I had trusted).

So I basically replied to him that I had already invested a lot of money with Thought Leader—who provides coaching for TEDx Talks—and that my priorities are to NO longer invest in coaching programs (or anything else related to YouTube ads), and to pay off my remaining bills.

I trust that whoever or whatever business, company, corporation, etc. is deceptive or CORRUPT, will experience their DOWNFALL ☄️☄️☄️in Divine perfect timing and order—slowly, gradually, quickly, and even RAPIDLY.

And not as a form of punishment, but to WAKE UP ⏰/11:11 as Souls, and remember that what we do to others—whether positive or negative—we ultimately do unto ourselves (like Entanglement of Quantum Physics)]

I have a strong feeling that more puzzle 🧩 pieces are coming together in Divine perfect timing and order. [even blessings in disguise, like the above update]

I had read numerous angel number messages regarding this uplifting blessings showing up, as well as animal spirit guide messages, dream state messages, certain tarot card readings, and other messages from interconnected Life/Spirit/Soul/Source/Universe/Multiverse/Omniverse.

After completing this post, I did the usual, quick search for the main word that I FELT would represent well.

And today, it was the word, LIBERATING, and both the image at the very top, plus the one right above above, felt like perfect choices for this post.

I’ve been seeing a lot of pigeons lately, in front of our house, as well as hearing ravens, and I thanked these animal spirit guides for their helpful messages and great reminders.

From a personal perspective, the above artwork reminds me of Teamwork of 2 halves of the same 1 Cosmic Coin.

This is similar to the currently healing and transforming version of the feminine and/or masculine energies that exists within all of Life.

AND/OR the already healed and transformed version of The Divine Feminine (like the ocean in above image) & Divine Masculine (like the land in above image) energies that exists within all of Life.

Though it can appear as though the raven has helped, or even rescued, the caged pigeon, it can also be true that the pigeon gave the raven the opportunity to experience being a helper or rescuer.

Image by Ria Sopala from Pixabay

Update

Continuation post, “Loss, Extreme Fears, Shangaan & Purpurite Crystals, Opposites, Dreams & A NEW Kind of Special Forces”