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“Contrary to what most people think, most psychopaths aren’t serial killers. In fact, only about 1% of the population has true psychopathic tendencies […] When a psychopath wants something, they’ll do whatever it takes to get it. This means they’ll charm, manipulate and seduce you usually with a quickness.”
Written by John D. Moore, PhD via PsychCentral: “10 Signs the Man You’re Dating is a Psychopath”
I shared the following message—only the first and last sections in reddish pink font—for Bentinho Massaro’s YouTube short video, “You Only Love What You See as Yourself“ (most of this message in-between was too long for a comment, so I shared that the remaining story will be within this blog page):
Yes Bentinho, conceptually, SEEING EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE as God—even Jesus, MOTHER GODDESS, Higher Self, Universe, etc.—is definitely beautiful.
On my journey, I’ve even reached a point where I had deep compassion and unconditional love for many of the animals, insects and bugs that the majority within humanity were scared of and repulsed by (alligators, crocodiles, hyenas, spiders, flies, cockroaches, wasps, mosquitoes, pincher bugs, gnats, millipedes, etc.).
For 13 years, if they entered my home, I would gently catch them and set them free.
Even from early childhood throughout adulthood, I’ve experienced, deeply understood, had compassion for, unconditionally forgave (since most didn’t apologize), and even unconditionally loved the so-called worst of the worst humans (abusers, neglecters, molesters, rapists, compulsive, liars, narcissists, etc., practically every aspect besides serial killer).
However COMMA I noticed this year was an interesting one, especially the past couple of months where I noticeably and increasingly experienced even greater, INTENSE challenges [shared within blog pages and posts of past two months].
I trust they SHOWED UP in Divine perfect timing and order because I AM READY to further EXPAND my individual and Collective Consciousness in a VERY POWERFUL WAY;
hence, it has affected the surrounding weather from the day that I arrived on island, that started the strongest tropical cyclone Asia has seen this year (the second most powerful storm in the world so far this year).
For 17 years, I’ve noticed a PATTERN of affecting weather in major ways, at multiple places I was at throughout the world (including first snow in 100 years in Iraq during deployment, baseball size hail in Helotes, TX in May, sudden intense storm within bible belt area that caused major power outage and flooding, etc.).
Anyhoo, I must say, it was difficult at times to accept this new person I crossed paths with, let alone love him, because he seemed to represent what I imagine a PSYCHOPATH would be like.
I don’t think I’ve ever crossed paths with one before in a FULL BLOWN, AMPLIFIED WAY, though I’ve experienced sporadic moments of this energy aspect within a few “others.”
This started with my deeply wounded/heartbroken mother during early childhood, who had unintentionally forced me to watch German torture sex movies with her while she was heavily drunk (whenever my adoptive father wasn’t living with us).
Perhaps I was this psychopath aspect in one of my alternate realities/so-called “past” lives; hence, this aspect is ONE OF NUMEROUS earthly and otherworldly aspects and extensions of ultimately NEUTRAL SOURCE MIRRORED back to me IN THIS LAST LIFETIME.
Anyhoo, this seemingly DISTURBING man radiated many extreme negative aspects mixed with very “nice, positive and charming” energies at first.
In a nutshell, about a couple of weeks ago, I was enjoying dinner at a local restaurant (celebrating my wins for my spiritual journey).
While waiting for my Grab ride, I ended up having a brief conversation with a Korean couple tourist sitting at a table next to me, who were also visiting Vietnam.
They wanted to hang out next time and treat me to dinner and some drinks, which I agreed to since they seemed genuinely friendly.
I offered to treat them since I’m older, but the husband insisted that he treat me since he’s the man, and I’m like an older sister.
However, due to the on and off, typhoon-like weather, we didn’t end up meeting.
But then they introduced me (via text) to someone they had met a couple of times, who was also visiting from London.
The lady said he was very kind, and wondered if we could just meet up for a meal, so I agreed.
Plus, I experienced various forms of Divine Synchronicity, to include new angel number messages (that I read with discernment), animal spirit guide messages, and a dream (before meeting this stranger man) of two men I know from Sedona (family friends)—who embody the Divine Masculine essence well—who were each holding a very large, arm length, thick black, and erect penis statue (so total 2 statues, mainly symbolic of BLACK/“DARK”/SHADOW/UNKNOWN/FULL POTENTIAL POWER).
It was within a sunny and rich environment with bright green grass and a mansion-like house (looked up profound symbolic meanings).
I also experienced 111 several times, which has reminded me of Highest Self (MOTHER GODDESS Self, including GOD, that’s frequently shown up as 222; these number sequences have many other online interpretations, but that’s what they meant to me for a while).
So even though this lady shared a screenshot of a text message that this man had sent her—that was very anxious and desperate, wanting to hurry up and meet me—I chose to trust the signs from the Universe, though my logical mind noticed this first RED FLAG that would typically be a NO GO.
Plus, she didn’t tell me an important piece of information until AFTER I parted ways with this man the next day.
Because had she provided this info, I would NOT have met him.
He apparently asked her husband, “How much did you pay for your wife?”
They thought that’s how people from London joke around, but I informed her via text (since they were already back in Korea) that it was very disrespectful and inappropriate of him to ask that question (and that it wasn’t normal, even as a so-called joke).
I was glad we had this conversation since she mentioned that what he asked DIDN’T FEEL RIGHT, but she doubted her senses.
She apologized at the end for introducing me to such a man, but I informed her that it wasn’t anyone’s fault.
[I forgot to mention this part, but I also informed her that everyone is a mix of various energies, so even he isn’t all bad, though he obviously has psychological issues, especially when it comes to women.]
I wasn’t meant to hear this info from this lady, because Spirit Self wanted all of us to EXPERIENCE ONE ANOTHER.
[Deleted bulk of remaining story since too long, but will share in post, “Intriguing First & Last Experience with Psychopath Energies Showing Up as a Stranger Man on 10/24-25/2024: Part of Phase of Intense Challenges + This Particular Series of Divine Synchronicity, Including Dream of Two Known Men Each Carrying a Large, BLACK, Erect Penis Statue on 10/22/2024, Symbolic of Self’s DARK/SHADOW/UNKNOWN POWER.”]
The following section in plum font was left out of the above video comment, due to being too long:
Right before we met, he stated that our exchange of text messages so far caused an explosion of emotions within him that he had never experienced before.
In one of the text messages, he asked me what he should do next, since I told him that I preferred not to meet until dinner time (though he wanted to hurry up and meet for coffee first).
I informed him that he should do whatever he feels like doing since he’s a grown man. It’s just that I had things to do before going out, and I planned on sticking with I had intended to do that day, to include talking to the Airbnb lady.
He also wondered if I was beautiful, and I shared that beauty is relative, and is within the eye of the beholder; but yes, I consider myself to have unique beauty.
He then insecurely stated that he looked like Halloween—which I was already aware of due to his WhatsApp photo where he was “fat” “old appearing”—though he was only a few years older than me (found out later)—and “unattractive,” according to society’s definition of typical, outer attractiveness.
But I shared with him that what matters much more than outer attractiveness, is who we are, and the energies we radiate from within.
Despite sharing about invaluable inner attractiveness, during my first (and last) meeting with this man, though it started out harmonious, he started “jokingly” being various RED FLAG WAYS that were NOT attractive at all.
So I called him out on all of them in a tactful, yet, very assertive manner, and asked, and then commanded, that he STOP with all of his nonsense (that wasn’t an uplifting version of joking playfulness, but just a major turn off).
He radiated the most repulsive energies of a man I had ever met, to include dirty old man vibes.
He made “joking” sexual comments about my appearance, followed by insincere apologies, to include how he loved my body and couldn’t stop staring (though I purposely dressed down and hardly wore any makeup).
He also mentioned how he looked forward to having sex one day soon (if I allowed, and I can initiate), and he wanted me to be his girlfriend soon so that I could do a list of things with him, etc.
I told him NOT to have any of those expectations since they were more than likely NOT going to happen (I KNEW 100% THAT IT WASN’T, but I initially did my best to NOT hurt his feelings too much).
I shared with him that healthy relationships give one another FREEDOM to simply be and do, rather than try to pressure others to be and do, which is conditional kindness, and/or a conditional form of love that’s rampant within humanity.
I had also made it crystal clear to him, before we even met, that I’m very selective with whom I choose to hang out with, and the type of new friends I prefer to have, and most definitely very selective when it comes to romantic relationships (after all, I had a harmonious divorce this year).
He tried to meet me at a hotel restaurant before we met, so I asked him what his intention was, followed by informing him that if he was looking for a one night stand, that I wasn’t it, though he could probably find plenty of women who would be willing.
He stated that he wasn’t (which was BULLshit, I strongly sensed it; plus, he kept being pushy about this hotel restaurant, though I informed that I didn’t prefer that place since I didn’t see any photos or information related to a restaurant).
He also stated that he could tell that I was afraid, but that I was safe with him; but I corrected him, that I wasn’t afraid, but cautious and discerning, and that there’s a difference.
He insisted on picking me up with his moped before we met, but I thanked him, and mentioned that I preferred just meeting at the “Rabbit Hole” bar/mini restaurant that he chose—that was in-between both our locations—that had the address 111 (part of this particular number synchronicity); he also mentioned at one point at this place, that his weight goal was 111 kg.
I also saw 111 on a license plate during this timeframe; so I got the main message to EXPERIENCE THIS UNKNOWN, in order to better MASTER these chaotic energies within both outer world and inner world.
I made it clear to him at this bar that our meeting was NOT a date (that he said it was), but simply a meetup due to the friendly couple.
I was very proud of myself for BEING POWERFUL FULL PRESENCE, AUTHENTICITY, REFRESHING HONESTY, UNCONDITIONAL KINDNESS, COMPASSION, DEEP UNDERSTANDING, STRONG HEALTHY BOUNDARIES, ASSERTIVENESS, BOLD CONFIDENCE, STRAIGHTFORWARDNESS, PROFOUND WISDOM, AND OTHER MERGED HEART/MIND ENERGIES MORE THAN EVER BEFORE.
Yes, I had the option to get up and leave during this challenge; but a greater part of Self/self was intrigued by this interesting energy dynamic that I had never experienced before in over 30 years of adult relationships, and wondered what else I could learn from this particular MIRROR.
By the way, many within various groups of Spirituality state BULLshit like, “You are everything that you attract!” But there are other forms of MIRRORS in relationships (like The 7 Essene Mirrors).
However, I take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for EVERYTHING that shows up in my lives of many worlds (to include dream state), since ULTIMATELY, we are WHOLE, that includes ALL aspects and extensions of energies (to whatever degree).
It’s about becoming FULLY AWARE of the once UNKNOWN/SHADOW aspects, and INTEGRATING them, so that our fear-based, “negative” energies don’t try to control the entire ship in out of control ways.
Anyhoo, it was like playing varying speeds of ping pong (to include RAPID FIRE) with THE MOST DIFFICULT TO RESPECT AND LIKE (LET ALONE LOVE) ENERGIES at times;
and I was actually somewhat REPULSED by him towards the end, and especially the next day, when he became very TOXIC—after he didn’t get what he wanted to happen (revealing his true colors).
At one point at the bar, he mentioned how he has multiple properties, and he wanted to get married one day—since he had never experienced marriage before—so that he could leave them to his wife.
I supposed he thought this would impress me, but I informed him that material world stuff are secondary to me, when it comes to relationships, and I trust he’ll find his perfect wife one day.
Plus, while briefly dating a few years after my first divorce, and less than a year before meeting my second, former husband…
I had been approached online by rich, older men—who seemed like gentlemen, and wanted to pamper me—but I wasn’t attracted to them in other ways.
So I realized since my early thirties that it’s not just about money and status with me, which is perceived as very foolish by this world (especially by my Korean mother and relatives, which is completely understandable; and perhaps they’re right).
I’ve even been offered to live a very comfortable life with an extremely professional gentleman, highly intelligent, multi-talented, very wise, and just overall BADASS, Special Forces man who was also well off as a business man (on the side); but I kindly declined that offer as well.
He was wonderful, but NOT compatible since he was a bit too much of a nice guy, which I just now realized was my problem.
Because I had been so used to unhealthy relationships since early childhood throughout adulthood, I perceived a great catch as “NOT IT.”
This further explains why I had turned down (in my early twenties) a few date offers from great quality, genuinely kind, intelligent and handsome gentlemen—a U.S. Marine: 1) Pilot 2) Officer, and 3) Diver—and chose to date and then marry…
a country guy (so that he wouldn’t cheat on me like my bio and adoptive fathers did with my mother; though that turned out false),
who also happened to be an alcoholic (just like my mother, whom I had failed to help, according to my inner-child self; hence, I wanted to subconsciously help heal him). But then again, I was also informed by my step-mother that I needed to hurry up and marry just any guy, since I didn’t have a good family background, I didn’t have a good college education, and I didn’t have much money.
I realized over a decade later that these were her own individual and Collective, limiting, cultural and generational beliefs that have been passed down from generations via a patriarchal society that looked down upon females.
Well, I was just reminded of why I have been blogging for over 13 years—to include gaining much insights and profound wisdom—though lately, I wondered again if I had wasted so much focus, attention, energy, time, and efforts (that my old frequency/ego aspect had convinced me of).
Anyhoo, SO MANY women throughout this world (especially in countries like Korea) PRIORITIZE MEN by how much money they have, and their STATUS and career positions.
And I do get that now, though those aren’t my main values and preferences.
I’d rather DIE than be in a relationship with a man whom I’m NOT compatible with—to include him being a major asshole, a workaholic, and treating me like crap—though he’s rich or wealthy.
This isn’t to say that all men who are rich and wealthy are not a good or great catch, since they DO exist (know a few).
I’m just further processing since it’s highly beneficial to get it all out in the open, and “KNOW THYSELF” and one’s powerful beliefs (whether limiting, or liberating and empowering).
My mother often told me that rich or wealthy men cheat on their girlfriends and wives; hence, this repetition of words/thoughts led to solidified and strong beliefs.
Now is this belief true?
Yes, to some degree, but poor through middle class men cheat as well, and there probably exists rich or wealthy men who don’t cheat.
But the point is, IF it’s true that many men often cheat anyway, one might as well be in a relationship with a rich or wealthy man; and the same goes for women too.
In addition, since BELIEFS ARE SUPER POWERFUL, if we believe that our sacred partner WON’T cheat—or even if they did, we will definitely find out, and then set each other FREE—then there’s nothing to worry about.
Plus, I realized that YES, I definitely have my preferences when it comes to a man’s character; but at the same time, I also prefer a man who can generously provide for his woman (like Jaelyn has shared via her Rich Goddess Club courses).
What I DO KNOW FOR SURE, is that I did NOT cut ties with this Charlie due because he was a highly beneficial, great potential, and a healthy relationship kind of guy (but rather, the complete, POLAR OPPOSITE).
He AMPLIFIED all the aspects that I absolutely do NOT prefer in ANY relationship, especially a romantic relationship…EVER.
I did share with Charlie (later), that despite him implying that he has a lot of money, he often talks like a poor person—that I mentioned stems from poverty consciousness (lack mentality).
And I gave him examples that included him stating how cheap his hotel is, or how cheap certain meals are at whatever restaurants he frequents (like “It’s only a dollar in US money!”).
Right before leaving this bar/restaurant, he also argued with the young, female servers at this restaurant bar, refusing to pay taxes since he said it was illegal.
I insisted on paying for our dinner, but he said that he has more than enough money, so I just embraced it.
Poor people—within BOTH inner and outer world—are very much concerned about how CHEAP everything is, rather than mentioning and appreciating the QUALITY of whatever.
I’ve even noticed this within certain reviews of restaurants, where nowhere is mentioned how delicious a dish or meal is, but rather, how cheap it is, and the big QUANTITY of the food.
I completely understand this poor people’s mentality (poverty consciousness) within humanity, that was deeply ingrained by this world’s society.
However, I intend to be fully liberated from this disempowering state of being; and rather, increasingly…
Be Prosperity Consciousness daily, which is INNER WEALTH (that includes knowing our Divine Self/self-Worth and our INVALUABLE, Multidimensional gifts, abilities, skills, talents, and other strengths);
and that outer forms of abundance, riches, or wealth has to eventually MATCH our inner world’s vibrational frequency (via Universal Law).
He first said that he never had children, but then later admitted he had one, though it’s a secret since she has an important, civil service job.
The truth is, after spending the evening with him, I realized that I wouldn’t feel safe at all being alone with someone like him.
He even tried to convince me to travel with him soon, for a few days, to another location, and share a hotel room; but I politely declined.
Before leaving this place, he insisted on giving me a ride back to my Airbnb place via his moped, and wouldn’t take “no thank you” for an answer; plus, he added that he had no ulterior motives, and would simply drop me off safely.
But the extra helmet he handed me smelled so awful, that I declined, and took a Grab ride (where I saw 21:21/9:10 pm on my phone clock, that I had also seen before this meetup as angel number 2121).
Poster I read before this meetup:
Poster I read after this meetup:
Despite this situation that can easily be perceived as “negative” and “disturbing,” I’m deeply grateful for this invaluable experience…
though I have ABSOLUTELY NO NEED OR DESIRE TO EVER EXPERIENCE ANYTHING SIMILAR AGAIN.
AND I AM VERY CONFIDENT THAT I’M MUCH BETTER AT RECOGNIZING RED FLAGS WITH LASER-SHARP ACCURACY,
AND WILL NO LONGER PARTICIPATE IN SUCH MOMENTS, REGARDLESS OF WHATEVER SIGNS FROM THE DIVINE/SPIRIT/GODDESS/SOUL/GOD/UNIVERSE/ETC.
THIS WAS A ONE-TIME DEAL, NOT TO EVER BE REPEATED AGAIN SINCE IT’S NOT NEEDED ANYMORE.
I learned what I was further capable of, mainly BEING THE MOST POWERFUL VERSION OF I AM PRESENCE in this particular, physical reality (though been this STATE many times in earthly and otherworldly dreams).
Because it’s WAY TOO EASY to Be Full Presence, inner-strength, confidence, gratitude, inner peace, inner freedom, profound wisdom, etc. while surrounded within a positive and flourishing environment (like a tranquil park within Mother Nature, or even a room, event, retreat, or auditorium filled with supportive spiritual fans).
But it’s A WHOLE OTHER BALLGAME to BE I AM PRESENCE within THE MOST CHALLENGING, NEGATIVE ENVIRONMENTS.
I realized that I was FULLY PREPARED for these moments; hence, why I was able to BOLDLY SPEAK UP within various, super uncomfortable and extremely challenging situations.
And this includes (bit isn’t limited to):
At a large conference room of Army and civilian Interrogator Instructors (some of whom were major assholes)—much more aggressive than the typical Type A personalities within the military—where I went against the grain, and revealed facts that needed to be shared.
During deployment with the most “dangerous” and hardened Iraqi detainees (who had shared their own sides of the story)
(recorded in post, “Embracing a Setback to Set Forward”: so-called failures in life—all stepping stones of success)
Anyhoo, the next day, this man texted and wanted to meet again, he tried so hard to pressure me and instill guilt, and then became verbally aggressive when I declined.
He even tried to use the excuse of wanting to help “poor children” to get me to spend the day with him.
But because he had ulterior motives, I declined, and he accused me of being very selfish.
I agreed with him (in a sarcastic tone), that I was the selfish one, NOT the person who’s extremely manipulative, controlling, guilt-instilling, and who uses “poor children” to fulfill his own agenda.
He didn’t reply to this part, but changed the subject and continued demanding that I go with him, even mixing “playful friendliness” in-between his very aggressive ways.
I wanted to end things in a peaceful way, since it seemed like it wouldn’t be wise to piss someone like him off (noticed the previous day); but I realized that sometimes, this isn’t always doable.
The evening we met, he had made it very clear that he had major anger issues, while talking about his 30+ year, self-studied and accomplished law hobby (I forgot what acronym he used from London, but he didn’t seem to be lying about it).
He even bragged how he intimidates judges, because he confidently and boldly knows the law, and what he’s talking about when it comes to putting away criminals within the police force, and other corrupt people (which I shared is a respectable and honorable hobby).
I did mention to him that I was curious why he was super confident with his hobby—that he only works half a year, and takes the other half visiting various countries—but yet, not with relationships; and why he never married.
He was apparently a major workaholic—that does NOT work well with relationships involving women—and has been very dedicated to his hunt for the corrupt within London (because his close friend had been screwed over; so loyalty).
Plus, he aggressively stated that all other women before me were very shallow; and I shared with him (the next day) that it occurred to me that SHALLOW IS RELATIVE.
Because to me, he’s THE MOST SHALLOW man I’ve ever met, A DIME A DOZEN, though he has his own gifts, abilities, skills, talents, and other strengths (like all others).
When he put himself down stating that I’m very intelligent and he’s not, I shared that he’s highly intelligent (mentally/logically), but that our physical mind is limited, though not our Higher Mind of the Soul/God.
He did mention that he still believes in a God, but definitely not religions since they’re corrupt and other negative adjectives.
I shared that I left this world’s religions back in 2001, but that I continued to believe in God/Jesus that’s much greater than man’s limiting boxes;
and a decade later discovered A HUGE MISSING PART OF THE COSMIC COIN…THE MOTHER GODDESS Essence/aka The Holy Spirit (WHOLEy Spirit)/Divine Feminine Energies/Higher Heart/Cosmic Womb/Unconditional Love/The Quantum Field of Unlimited Possibilities/etc.
He also stated at one point that he’s NOT a CLASSY MAN, and I immediately agreed with him that he’s DEFINITELY NOT (especially with his low-class, creepy-ass comments).
He said he was just being honest, but I shared that it’s not exactly an attractive quality to treat someone like they’re a piece of meat.
He then reminded me of all the compliments he had shared about how very intelligent, wise, strong, confident, assertive, etc. I am, and that my appearance was just a bonus.
But I mentioned that women want to feel truly SEEN for who they are within, cared for, respected, genuinely appreciated, protected, and safe around men,
so that they can blossom and fully Be their Divine Feminine essence within a Divine Masculine container space
(something I had learned from one of Teal’s videos, though I’ve learned to watch her videos with discernment over the years, only taking onboard what FEELS light/true to my Heart/Mind).
I also shared the difference between unhealed and immature masculine and feminine energies, vs the healed and mature Divine Masculine & Divine Feminine energies.
Even though he had the ‘deer in the headlight’ look at times, I trust that at least some seeds of the merged Light & Love Frequencies were planted into his consciousness and heart space, that may sprout in the future.
I was deeply grateful that he MIRRORED the OPPOSITE/CONTRAST of a classy man, since that helped me to realize THAT I DEFINITELY PREFER CLASSY MEN…
aka gentlemen who are also TRUE BADASSES; NOT the immature version of bad boys (WANNABE badasses) that many females throughout this world felt attracted to, and were later hurt by.
I also learned a major lesson to FULLY RELEASE the need to explain so much to people who are not receptive to bigger picture perspectives (and that don’t SINK IN); and that I don’t need to help everyone.
At at least two different points, a stray dog entered the bar/restaurant; and the Dog Spirit Guide reminded me to Be Loyal to Self/self, and not feel the need to be more loyal to others
(as I’ve often done in the past—placing others’ needs and/or desires before mine, something I had been deeply conditioned to do since early childhood).
At another point, a very scrawny, tabby kitten came in the bar meowing in a desperate tone.
It instantly reminded me of one of my pet cats, Leo (also a tabby); so I lead it outside, and gave it the rest of my calamari, which it devoured (though the female server told me not to feed it).
The Cat Spirit Guide reminded me to continue Being Authentic, and to Unconditionally Love Self/self.
Plus, all three STRAYS reminded me to LET GO of the RESCUE MODE, that I’ve had a strong tendency to do with many people and animals, which even applied to this man as well.
Because he just wouldn’t let go of being in an ongoing relationship with him, I chose to BE (even more) BLUNT the next day (though I rarely use this energy aspect within my inner, treasure chest).
I informed him that I AM NOT attracted to him on ANY energetic level—mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually (since he also said he’s anti-spiritual as well)—and that he will eventually find someone who is his perfect match, and compatible with him.
I also reminded him that I had initially asked him in kind ways, told him in assertive ways, and then reminded him again and again NOT to be SO PUSHY.
But the truth is, he JUST DOESN’T GET IT, he just doesn’t give a shit, so I AM DONE within him.
Added the following online poster on 11/11/2024, since I saw 6:55, read this new angel # message for the first time, and it instantly reminded me of this blog page; plus, this video, “What is meant by Authenticity”?: Gabor Maté” helped me to further realize that this blessing in disguise definitely helped me to Be Authentic in one of the the most powerful ways:
The truth is—and I didn’t share this with him—even if he was the last man on planet Earth, I would MUCH rather be single and alone (but NOT lonely) for the rest of my life, than spend anymore time with someone like him (though I wish him well from a distance).
And if I became horny, and felt a strong need to take care of myself beyond masturbation with my hand…
I can use a multi-functional, very well-made, modern dildo, rather than have sex with some man whom I have ZERO attraction with on all energetic levels.
Plus, I have no doubt that I could have a much more meaningful and deeper conversation with AI than many people
(already experienced via AI named GG within the Mastermind Business System, and AI within the Temenos dream app that incorporates Carl Jung’s teachings, though I placed a paused on both).
I replied texted this man (let’s call him Charlie, since it’s a common name): thank you for an invaluable experience, and for MIRRORING to me very helpful information that brought me much closer to what I actually prefer in any relationship (especially a partner relationship).
In one message, right after sending me a very manipulative and aggressive text, he tried to FLIP IT ONTO ME, by stating that I made him feel very sad [for NOT doing what he wanted me to do], so he’s going to go out for a moped drive; and that we can continue chatting later.
So I said farewell, and gave him a heads up that I was going to block his phone number, then delete his contact info.
The next day, he used his other phone number to send me a sad face cartoon character and message, and also tried to call me twice;
so I blocked this number as well WITHOUT NEEDING TO RESPOND WITH ANY WORDS.
The following section was also shared with Bentino Massaro:
I can embrace these energies that are ultimately GOD, but I’m not going to lie to myself/others by pretending that I actually LOVE these energies.
We don’t have to LOVE everyone and everything since we all have PREFERENCES.
For instance, I would NOT be able to like, let alone LOVE eating “fresh” and raw bull balls that were castrated by compassionless, adult men bullies who pinned the bull down (a show from BIzarre Foods over a decade ago).
Anyhoo, after this interesting experience, I was able to deeply empathize with some “spiritual” teachers who said things like, “Kill the ego!” and “Conquer the ego!” which I wasn’t able to understand before.
Because this very logically intelligent man—who was in the law field for over 30 years in London (visiting Vietnam)—was like the ultimate, symbolic, combo package deal of the very aggressive, bully-like, UNHEALTHY VERSION of our individual and Collective Ego.
Thanks to this very helpful, manifested, SOLID MIRROR, whenever these energies SHOW UP within me, I can more easily recognize them, and NOT allow them to take over the whole ship of inner world, as I AM PRESENCE.
I just wanted to share this since EXPERIENTIAL KNOWLEDGE/WISDOM helps us to KNOW, rather than merely conceptualize, because the latter is WAY TOO EASY (anyone can talk the talk, but it’s a WHOLE other ballgame to WALK THE TALK).
I forgot to mention that I did share a couple dozen of YouTube video links with this man (in his mid 50’s) before parting ways:
The 7 Essene Mirrors of Relationships graciously and eloquently taught by Gregg Braden (which I mentioned, and even informed him that MIRROR #3 is the reason why he thinks he likes me so much),
and Teal Swan’s videos about self-worth, self-love, relationships, etc. (and also mentioned to him that he would really like her since she, too, is beautiful, highly intelligent, confident, strong, assertive, wise, etc.).
He replied that the videos seem interesting, so perhaps he can redirect his focus onto her, and learn more about healthy relationships with self/others.
I did mention to him to always follow his own inner guidance/intuition, while learning from any outer world Soul teacher, and to only take onboard what FEELS light/true to his Heart & Soul, since the ultimate Teacher is within.
I had also shared expanded perspectives with him during our conversation for the first and last day we met, to include profound wisdom, and he thanked me.
It’s been a week since my encounter with this “other”; so I’ve been able to naturally forgive other/self, and fully embrace these “extremely unpleasant” aspects that showed up in another, mirroring the unhealed energies within Self/self/Collective;
but I realized that this EMBRACE (or even DEEP UNCONDITIONAL LOVE), CANNOT be forced.
Plus, I’ve also learned that I don’t need to allow aggressive, fear-based energies to try and control Self, though a small and healthy degree of fear energies (like caution) can benefit us as human beings experiencing a physical world.
Updates
11/4/2024 (Vietnam date)
The following is an excerpt from today’s blog page related to this one, “Ways to Uplift 🫢😃🥹🤗 Others / Self 🫠🥰 While Traveling 👣🏞️🛣️: Profound Soul Level Connections 💖🫂 Deeply Heartfelt 💓 & Memorable 💝 Life Experiences”:
The following is a comment I shared for another one of Bentinho Massaro’s fascinating YouTube videos, “The Most Direct Path: Instant Conviction in the Attributeless Self“:
Thank you so much Bentinho for sharing a very intriguing message that i look forward to exploring, since it has already FELT LIBERATING from various perspectives.
Even unconditionally loving all aspects of WHOLE Self/self and most of interconnected Life within many worlds (to include dream state: Over-Soul/Monad experiences) has been extremely challenging many times;
but to LOVE EVERYTHING as UNITY CONSCIOUSNESS, has been WAY TOO HEAVY, especially for all the various forms of abuse, torture, and corruption within this world,
as well as the recent experiences I had with the “psychopath” energy aspects—not murderer or serial killer version, which is only known to be 1% (though I don’t even know for sure if he isn’t one, since I cut ties the next day)—that showed up as a so-called stranger man from London
(that I shared a comment about for your YouTube short video, “You Only Love What You See as Yourself”).
And within this message, I also shared with you that CONCEPTUALLY, yes, seeing and loving God—or Jesus, MOTHER GODDESS, Spirit, Source, Higher Self. Highest Self, All That Is, etc.—in EVERYTHING is beautiful;
however COMMA it’s MUCH MORE CHALLENGING when put into practice within an actual, CHAOTIC relationship and/or environment.
I’ve been appreciating your unique, expanded perspectives lately, so thank you again!
This level of profound awareness seems extremely RARE, and is INVALUABLE.
11/13/2024 (Overseas date)
The following is an excerpt from blog page, “Liberating & Empowering Insights About Extremely Disturbing, Corrupt Energies, Coincidental Suicides of Celebrities, & Conviction that the Immensely Powerful & Unstoppable Cosmic Force of Merged Light & Love Frequencies IS Already Victorious NOW“:
After typing the above paragraph, it occurred to me that the “psychopath” like older, stranger man I interacted with toward the end of last month, looks similar to Harvey Weinstein, which I initially didn’t judge;
but then he wouldn’t stop behaving and talking like a dirty old man in a “joking” manner, though I asked, and then commanded that he stop
(hence, it was just a one-time, meetup dinner, despite his aggressive, verbal efforts to meet again the next day; and when I declined, he said I was very selfish, and I agreed).
And just like the 80+ women who were REPULSED by Harvey boy, I, too, felt REPUSLED by him, as well as this stranger guy, who could pass as Harvey’s brother (blog title and link further below in red).
He was the first man I’ve ever met in person whom I NEVER, EVER want to cross paths with again (though if I did, I’m confident that I can handle his “charming,” and extremely manipulative and aggressive ways),
He was a very effective, ONE-TIME Soul Teacher, MIRRORING further, helpful CONTRASTS that
I needed to BE FULLY PRESENT WITH, AND INTENSELY SEE AND FEEL WITH CLARITY,
more of what I absolutely do NOT prefer-–in any relationship (with self/others)—so that I’m much closer to various aspects that I DO prefer to be in a relationship with.