This is HANDS DOWN the longest title I’ve ever chosen for a blog post, but I’m just going with how I intuitively FEEL—not what I’m supposed to do according this world’s rules—and it perfectly matches this SUPER LONG@$$ post. Lol ^_^
Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay
I’m so grateful that I noticed 6:22 on the oven clock this morning, and I have no doubt that it’s part of this particular series of Divine synchronicity since I’ve knowingly experienced daily synchronicity for a little over a decade.
Granted, up to the summer of 2011, I intuitively trusted miracle-like “coincidences” as the Divine works of the mostly unknown essence called God; and within a decade, l learned about the other half of the Cosmic Coin: The Divine Mother Goddess that are both known to have MANY NAMES, and are also The Nameless.
I read the reminder message from website I often use with discernment: ANGEL NUMBERS ~ Joanne Sacred Scribes (one of various spiritual guidance tools).
The following are non-consecutive parts of this message:
Angel Number 622 is an important message to do with your personal spirituality and life purpose. The angels encourage you to maintain faith and trust in yourself and the Universal Energies […]
Angel Number 622 is a powerful message of belief, faith and trust. Your prayers, positive attitude, visualizations and positive affirmations have been acknowledged. Trust that your desired results will manifest in your life.
Stay focused, balanced and at peace and know that all is going to Divine right order and in Divine right time.
The timing was SPOT ON since I was actually considering to delete all the longer than usual comments I had shared yesterday (and the day before) within one of the Modules of an online course I’m currently taking (details further below).
I wondered if it was my ego aspect of WHOLE self/Self that was yapping away A LOT of unnessary information in perhaps non-beneficial ways.
However, after rereading the comments, I noticed how it FELT authentic, soul-igniting, and Light/True to my Heart.
I realized that it was actually my fearful ego that was briefly concerned about others negatively judging my super, LONG comments, possibly being annoyed by them, and possibly even labeling me as “something’s wrong with her” (that stems from a past heart wound that another had said about me, which I’ve shared within this blog under Army stories, Basic Combat Training to be specific).
I also realized that I’ve been thanking Spirit/Heart/Goddess within (for a long time) for leading my lower mind—aka ego that follows Spirit transforms to its higher, exalted, vibatioanl frequency state of Soul/God/Light—for the benefit of self/interconnected Life within this world and byeond.
That way, I can be in alignment with the merged version of integrated Heart/Mind within, at every moment effortlessly, and actually Be a physical human vehicle and clean channel for Trinity within (without the filter of my society-conditioned, fearful ego).
I shared the following in a recent post, “Synchronicity: Update About Covid-19 & Galactic & Universal Puzzle Pieces“:
In addition, I’ve experienced TWICE within a short timeframe, two, unrelated older women (customers from different days) mirroring to me what I needed to hear during that phase of my life.
I shared these stories in detail within the first set of Sedona post series for my first job in Sedona, Arizona.
And in a nutshell, they—a spiritual seeker of over 20 years, and a Reiki Master—loving and generously shared with me the exact same message, “You’re a CLEAN channel,” so I simply thanked them from my Heart.
No ones has ever said anything close to that before, that I recall, though I’ve experienced how many people from around the world have responded to our interactions (shared in the About category page).
I later learned, through brief online searches, that being a “clean channel” means the one who’s channeling is doing so from the highest expression of the Divine within, without their own ego filters.
However, I feel that I can be a clean channel, but I can also shamelessly express various aspects of my fear-based ego self as well (part of being a physical human).
And I’ve been sharing authenticity (to the best of my ability) within this blog of a little over a decade, though I growingly prefer simply Being love-based, profoundly wise, and empowered Higher Self—Heart leading Mind/Spirit leading Soul from within—expressing within me, as me, and through me at every moment effortlessly, for the highest benefit of interconnected Life within this world and beyond.
[UPDATE for above paragraph added on 1/29/2022: I realized Spirit within interconnected Life and non-life IS the EPITOME of AUTHENTICITY—THE ONE/THE WHOLE/Unity Consciousness/Unconditional Love (that embraces All That Is), that also includes physical worlds’ separation consciousness, the opposites/contrasts/duality/polarity of the so-called right & wrong, good & bad, light & dark, fire & water, hot & cold, sun & moon, etc. New post: “Integrating: Trust in Ultimate Teacher Within, Authenticity, Gaslighting, Living Wisdom, Human, Flaws, Humor, Racism, Significance, Humbleness, Arrogance, etc.“]
And as I’ve also shared within the About category page of this blog, I’ve been freely and fully expressing myself—the right and wrong, good and bad, light and dark, etc.—rather than hopping on the cookie-cutter bandwagon of society of what’s popular to do.
Granted, I also understand that we currently live in an instant gratification world, so I’ve intendted to create a series of books one day —that I’ve completed over 50 chapters of so far (and have been marinating for years for Divine perfect timing and order I suppose)—that include the most beneficial earthly and otherworldly stories, insights, and profound wisdom (and even artwork).
It’s just that I have considered what might happen if I held off on sharing invaluable experiences with others soon—due to still working on creating a book that feels like writer’s block I guess—and suddenly dying from a heart attack, stroke, or God knows what other ways; then these personal experiences/ experiential knowledge would die with me.
And JUST in case my two, adult children happen to read my blog one day, I feel great comfort in knowing that I did my best to share with them whatever gems of profound wisdom that I can (and while I can)—though I sporadically have within only related topics within conversations and text messages—while not coming off as being preachy.
I’ve been told by them when they were teenagers—like many modern-day parents have heard from their teenagers with MAJOR ATTITUDE—“I don’t need a lecture!”
And this is completely understandable since I’ve been there and done that when I was a teenager, though silently within, since saying this out loud, or even showing non-verbal cues (like the popular rolling of the eyes), would equate to flying across the living room, and experiencing hard@$$ objects to various body parts, banging of head to the wall, and/or chunks of hair yanked out. Lol ^_^
As mentioned above, I’m currently participating in Peter Sage’s Elite Mentorship Forum/EMF course, which is included within his Elite Mentorship Trainer/EMT progam.
By the way, I had experienced within this partiuclar synchronicity, noticing 3 grasshoppers within a few days SHOW UP in my physical reality, to include the day I was wondering what’s the best path.
And the third grasshopper, who very briefly hopped right in front of me while I was walking on the sidewalk of our apartment complex, instantly reminded of the grasshopper spirit guide/animal totem/power animal.
This includes the main message to bravely take a LEAP in trust/faith/Consciousness; so though I was on the fence about it, I chose to fully trust this repeating message from Spirit within interconnected Life (that appears to us in so many different and similar, earthly and otherworldy ways, as shared within this blog for over a decade).
And sure enough, soon after this visit from grasshopper spirit, a red car suddenly pulled in front of our car with a license plate that included 888—one of many sacred numbers that I’ve been seeing within a decade (part of number synchronicity).
And this instantly reminded me to continue to:
- Be grounded/fully present/in alignment with Spirit/Soul within, as physical, human vehicle
- color RED that reminds me of:
- Holy Spirit, RED cloud-like wind that entered my body while I was in the middle of desert alone (dream recorded from 2001, in post “Dreams of Jesus“)
- RED chakra
- color RED that reminds me of:
- Be Prosperity Consciousness (realizing one’s various forms of abundance, riches, and wealth within, especially Higher Mind/Light/Soul/God & Higher Heart/Unconditional Love/Spirit/Goddess)
- 888 (the power of the number 8 TRIPLED, the number 8 symbolic of:
- the harmonious, merged version of integrated Heart/Mind (Goddess leading Mind), or I AM Presence: I (God) AM (Goddess)
- various forms and non-forms of abundance and prosperity (to include neutral money)
- 888 (the power of the number 8 TRIPLED, the number 8 symbolic of:
And so far, this EMF course is exactly what I’ve been yearning to experience:
- very interesting, highly beneficial, and practical subjects and topics:
- that definitely needs to be part of this world’s school system
- which includes (but not limited to):
- raising global Consciousness (Peter’s main goal)
- realizing the continual merge of spirituality and science
- like how Quantum Physics proves and supports that Life within our Universe and beyond is energetically interconnected
- and how The Double Slit experiments (plural), and other supporting updated science, have proven that there are unlimited possibilities, and seemingly countless probabilities, within the Quantum Field [aka The Wave/The Cosmic Womb & Heart/The Void/Spirit within ALL Life and “empty space”/The Ultimate Glue that is the foundation of EVERYTHING/Unconditional Love/Goddess (& Light/God) merged Frequency/The Divine Mother Goddess/Alpha & Omega]
I’ve also noticed how profoundly helpful this online course has been on ALL energetic levels (mental, emotional, physical, spiritual, and even financial).
This includes Master Class-like modules, live calls with Peter, the Community Managers, and peer group—a wide-range of members from around the world with various levels of consciousness; it also includes live calls with EMT Trainers who co-created the EMF course with Peter (just for the EMT portion of the program)
Granted, like I’ve shared before within this blog, I prefer to follow my inner guidance—aka Heart/intuition/gut feeling/psychic senses/insights/exciting ideas/ and inner-wisdom—from Soul & Spirit’s many earthly and otherworldy lifetimess.
Therefore, I like to proceed with learning and gaining wisdom while Being discerning; hence, I usually don’t take onboard EVERYTHING that any, outer Soul teacher shares (and Peter is no exception) if it doesn’t FEEL light/true to my Heart (red flag examples shared within the comments below).
Nonetheless, I continue to deeply appreciate having crossed paths with Souls like him, in Divine perfect timing and order, since he—like every other Soul who reflects various mirrors to us (like The Essene Mirrors gracefully taught by Gregg Braden)—continues to powerfully contribute to our individual and Collective Soul growth/spiritual evolution (aka our expanding Consciousness).
I shared the following, 3 sets of VERY LONG yet, invaluable and profound wisdom-filled comments, that I’ve added related stories to (personal and others‘), updates, and further insights to from 1/26-29/2022 for the Module, “Mastering Authenticity” (one of the subjects that I felt excited about learning more from, even when I saw the intro video of EMF before investing in it):
1/26/2022 (Wed)
Video #1:
WARNING: This is a LONG@$$ comment (that I embrace), but once again, nobody has to read it if they’re not drawn to it, to include you Peter (since you’re probably packed, excited, and ready to go on your vacation! ^_^). I’m just sharing this just in case it’s helpful to anyone.
Thank you Peter for another, very well-created and helpful video message, that includes GEMS of practical knowledge and profound wisdom.
Guilt had plagued me for decades—due to my mother’s unintentional BLAME GAME conditionings throughout childhood, that became deeply ingrained, false beliefs that so many things were my fault (to include me ruining her life); so you going over this topic was an added BONUS.
Also, your examples of the blessings in disguise—gifts/Life lessons of discipline and authenticity—of the two different alcoholic parents, closely matched my own personal experiences, and I’m very grateful that you shared NEW, expanded perspectives for both.
Granted, for the alcoholic father who beat his son for being late, mine was my mother who beat me for a few hours (while taking breaks in between), for being 30 minutes late, due to me not being able to catch a cab and call her, since I didn’t see a phone booth nearby (no cell phones then Lol).
But I’ve learned from that experience that 1) she was VERY intoxicated and 2) she was worried (like any parent would be); and she handled the situation the best she knew how from her level of consciousness at the time.
So I was able to forgive her from my Heart, and FEEL it, rather than just think it with my logical mind (the latter of which I’ve also done for other forms of painful experiences from the past).
You’ve often brought up (in your videos and audios) the importance of personal experiences that basically lets others know one’s not just repeating, non-relatable, textbook knowledge.
And I agree that experiential knowledge, especially for traumatic ones for a combination of energetic levels—mental, emotional, physical (to include sexual), and spiritual—basically helps us to have more compassion for self/others, and allows us to deeply empathize with others from our Hearts, rather than merely sympathize with our logical minds (due to NOT being able to relate to and actually FEEL whatever situations).
I’ve noticed a pattern within a decade—from some people who don’t have a wide-range of Life experiences to share—that they have a tendency to MINIMIZE everyone’s else’s invaluable experiences, rather than learning from those who have.
And this includes the psychological ABUSE of subtle to extreme versions of GASLIGHTING (i.e., what you SAW you didn’t see, what you HEARD you didn’t hear, what you FELT you didn’t feel, what you EXPERIENCED you didn’t experience, etc.).
For instance, it’s like someone who grew up in a middle to rich class environment with an overall, healthy, loving and supportive family—hence, unable to relate to those who had completely opposite experiences (mostly negative and/or traumatic)—saying something to the effect of:
“Awe, that’s too bad. BUT, you can move on from this since it’s ALL in your head sweetheart, TRUST me, I’m a professional. You more than likely IMAGINED most of what you experienced throughout childhood and adulthood. But no worries! We’re going to see if you check off the blocks for any mental illnesses, and then FIX that right up for you with various depression pills, because we care.”
[UPDATE for this blue font section only, inserted on 1/30/2022, after receiving insights from vivid dreams (messages from Spirit/Heart/Goddess within via images and feelings, the language of the Subconscious):
I’m adding this update that includeS:
- taking care of emotional energy body as well as other energy bodies
- embracing emotions (inner compass revealing our authentic state at any given moment) while processing and healing them in healthy ways
- honoring true feelings
- trusting razor-sharp intuition
- being cognizant of certain toxic influences within an environment (home or online, whether relationships or even “negative” aspects within self/others, or false teachings within beneficial teachings)
The above example was something similar to what I had experienced from one of the most insensitive and very logical therapists during the last two years of receiving professional therapy while in the Army, that I shared a detailed story of within this blog, probably in post titled “Beauty Behind the Walls of the Mentally Ill.”
Throughout our conversation, she was resting her side of the face on her fist that implied boredom in an obvious, insensitive, and rude way (even though I was talking about rape that I had experienced).
I later realized that she, like many within humanity, was only being, saying and doing the best she knew how from her lower, fear-based level of consciousness (which wasn’t an open mind and open heart). But that’s perfectly okay since all Souls are journeying on their own paths at their own pace.
Granted, I also experienced a few, deeply understanding, compassionate, highly intelligent (mentally and emotionally), wise, and helpful therapists as well.
So the former experience served as a perfect CONTRAST, a blessing in disguise; CONTRASTS/duality/polarity are Divine gifts that allow us to deeply appreciate the opposite experiences in Life.
Anyhoo, the intro paragraph above regarding GASLIGHTING, also relates to one of the quotes that Peter shares (below) in this module that still doesn’t FEEL light/true to my Heart, though I do get this one-sided perspective (i.e., this teaching can be true to a certain degree, but NOT completely true):
“The past is a present time memory of a perceived previous event with the brain and imagination filling in most of the blanks and all of the meaning.”
Now this is one of MANY examples, but if your were to say this very logical and seemingly non-empathetic phrase to someone who had been SEXUALLY ABUSED by their biological father starting at a very young age during childhood, AND throughout early adulthood—and I personally know two STRONG and BRAVE women who have experienced this unimaginable form of TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCES—that will more than likely ADD FUEL TO THE ALREADY EXISTING, UNHEALED TRAUMA.
Why? Because, once again, GASLIGHTING is PSYCHOLOGICAL ABUSE (that doesn’t FEEL good) PERIOD.
GASLIGHTING intensely aggravating wounds and further hurting another, basically saying in a patronizing way, “It was all in your head sweetheart.”
And if A child attempts to approach a trusting parent and reveal that s/he is being sexually abused, and the parent basically tells him or her that it’s ONLY their IMAGINATION, can you imagine how DEVASTATING that can be to an innocent child, which will more than like negatively affect this child even throughout adulthood (i.e., that all of her perceptions are FALSE). THINK about that for a moment.
And I actually trust that Peter didn’t intend to come off like this at all, but it’s definitely something that he needs to be aware of in order to continue EXPANDING his individual and Collective Consciousness (i.e., further opening his mind and heart).
And I trust he is receptive to this invitation, since his most of his love-based teachings SO FAR are based on Unconditional Love (for self/others/interconnected Life), authenticity, honesty, inner and outer peace, Prosperity Consciousness (Being wealth within FIRST AND FOREMOST), growth, contribution—and other highly beneficial values, subjects and topics—as well as raising Global Consciousness. ]
I’m going to add the above update to video #1 comment that I had shared (within this post) of this module about Authenticity. DONE.
And even within certain groups of the spirituality community (but NOT all), I’ve witnessed those saying something to the effect of “You don’t need ANY HEALING, just LET IT GO, move on, and only have a high vibrational frequency!”
This is a MEGA LOAD of doo doo, because:
1) we’re ALSO HUMAN BEINGS (not JUST Spiritual Beings having a physical experience) that include other parts/energy bodies, who naturally FEEL a colorful, full spectrum of emotions that always reveals to us our AUTHENTIC state within, at any given moment; hence, we can pretend we like someone on the outside, but how we FEEL within is part of our inner-truths (to include preferences: like there’s nothing “wrong” or “bad” with liking sweet strawberries, but not overly sour grapefruit).
And to DENY this IMPORTANT, HUMAN part of ourselves will prevent us from fully and unconditionally loving ourselves as WHOLE self/Self, aka WHOLE self (human)/Self (Soul & Spirit)
2) HEALING on ALL levels is ESSENTIAL, like going through an important process of grieving (but an extended version). It’s also like the lotus flower—that has profound, ancient, mystical symbolism—that doesn’t bloom in an instant.
So it’s NOT about covering a deep, bleeding wound with a tiny@$$, temporary band aid that has a big@$$ smiley face on it (aka unhealthy and non-beneficial SPIRITUAL BYPASSING).
I wondered if those who MINIMIZE others’ traumatic experiences (without compassion) perhaps do so to make themselves feel better (a probability); but I realized that they might also not be AWARE of why they’re saying such insensitive words (hence, UNintentional).
But we can learn, integrate, deeply heal, grow, transform, and gain wisdom (and even profound wisdom) from MANY Life experiences (both “positive” and “negative”).
This is what even Jesus (The Essene from Nazareth, not Mexico) taught about back in the day, along with other Ascended Masters of this world and beyond.
It’s about Living Wisdom/Walking the Talk/Leading by Example/Experiential Knowledge, NOT a TON of conceptual data gathered from only or mostly books, videos, online courses, schools, blogs, websites, etc.—and VICARIOUSLY via other people’s life experiences that they shared—and then REGURGITATED as knowledge and wisdom MASKED with fancy spiritual sayings that are NOT Heart-centered, hence, NOT heartfelt.
Anyhoo, I’ve been doing inner work (still continuing)—to include dream work, inner-child work, shadow work/mirror work (via The 7 Essene Mirrors, etc.)—and have explored various expanded perspectives of my past in order to deeply heal, gain profound wisdom, and transform.
And one of the Life lessons I’ve learned—especially via many earthly and otherworldly dreams—is that our Souls’ seemingly countless lifetimes of experiences, especially the “negative” ones, and definitely for the traumatic ones, don’t just get miraculously FIXED overnight through LOGIC.
But instead, it requires the graceful allowance of deep healing on all energetic levels (with Heart leading Mind), trust in the process, flow with Life, and much Unconditional self-love, which can ONLY overflow (as you teach Peter) to others [interconnected Life] as we reconnect and fill our own inner cup/heart.
Because attempting to fully heal others when we’re NOT EVEN CLOSE to being healed (on ALL energetic levels), IS the blind leading the blind, which is different from simply helping others at times to the best of our ability.
And even Brian Rose from London Real—whom Peter did interviews with (shared in this EMF course)—admitted that HE was doing this, in a YouTube movie that he and his team shared not too long ago.
He was running around trying to save others and the world—an old, outdated, and fear-based “rescue mode” stemming from NOT trusting the Divine Wisdom of Life—when he couldn’t even save himself from all of his personal issues that had NOT been acknowledged, let alone healed; and I highly respected his rare, transparent honesty.
Granted, I trust that Spirit within interconnected Life, as well as various extensions of The Divine, can definitely assist us with RAPID HEALING whenever we’re ready (though the process may not always be all sunshine, flowers, and rainbows, to include the Dark Night of the Soul).
Anyhoo, I noticed that your teachings, Peter, are continuing to add much VALUE to my life (and that of other members), to include that final, MAGIC touch (as you stated before).
I appreciate you sharing that story about your partner whom you were deeply in love with, and the unfortunate, traumatic experience she had. I wish for her to fully and deeply heal on all energetic levels, and to gain profound wisdom from that, and other Life experiences.
Thank you for sharing a powerful video message by T.D. Jakes. Years ago, I came upon on his speech that someone made a video of titled, “Courage,” and it was one of the most FIERY PASSIONATE, POWERFUL, and deeply HEARTFELT messages I’ve ever heard of, and sporadically listen to it again as a reminder.
And my husband added it to his playlist whenever he goes hiking or running (which I intend to join him again when it gets warmer, or do so on my own).
I’m continuing to feel very grateful that you co-created this invaluable, treasure EMF course with both Eriks, who are so encouarging, uplifting, empowering, inspiring, authentic, free-spirited, lovable and fun, like you. Thank you.
Once again, enJOY many pleasant and memorable moments of NOW during your amazing group retreat! ^_^
1/27/2022 (Th)
Video #2:
True, when I was in elementary school, it didn’t occur to me that I may be “ugly” to others besides my mom, who often jokingly said—among a list of other imperfections she pointed out, from her own society-conditioned beliefs (to include me being super small)—that I was ugly since 3 year olds, but that I was cute nonetheless.
And sure enough, looking back, and choosing to be transparently honest myself, she was SPOT ON about my 3 yo photo! Lol Because I looked like a 120 year old Asian grandma who had a baby with an adorable panda bear. I’ve been embracing and loving all of my childhood photos, though I didn’t before due to societal conditionings.
And in my late forties, I was able to unconditionally embrace and integrate the NEUTRAL aspect that’s called “UGLY”—rather than continue to judge, suppress, deny, avoid, reject, and disown it—since there’s nothing “wrong” or “bad” about that (or any other) earthly label from an expanded, Multidimensional perspective.
And as I’m typing this, I received an additional insight—one of the benefits I’ve learned of authentically, freely and fully expressing WHOLE self/Self (which is why I journal, blog, and/or share comments often).
I realized that the ORIGINAL belief of being ugly actually stemmed from my mother’s unintentional, but repeating conditionings, which was later further mirrored by others.
Now if I were to dive even deeper into the Cosmic Rabbit Hole, even my mother was merely mirroring back to me my own fear-based beliefs stemming from my Soul’s unhealed aspects of previous lifetimes (which I trust that I chose my parents, at the Soul level, to deeply heal in this last lifetime).
Anyhoo, in 5th grade, at a youth center, I held the door open for the most popular boy in our school (who looked like a younger James Dean), since I had already opened the door for me, and noticed he was about to approach.
And to my great shock, he said [unintentionally] (with a look and tone of disgust), “Get out of my way you ugly, flat-faced Korean!”
I had heard a plethora of very mean labels up to that point—from my deeply wounded, unintentional mother—but nothing like that from a so-called outsider.
I went home that day, stared at my face in the mirror for a while, and then thought, “THAT’S why no one asked me to the Valentine’s dance.”
Fast-forward a little: And when I witnessed this cute boy—who was probably conditioned by his parents to be racist—dance so happily with one of my classmates/friend (a really nice, gorgeous blond with blue eyes), I more than likely developed a strong belief that echoed throughout my childhood and adulthood life, something like, “That’s an example of a non-ugly person, and people are not mean to attractive people, but treat them kindly.”
So I admit, unconditionally loving my physical body has been one of my greatest challenges because I often felt like I didn’t fit in this unrelatable world.
And always being the shortest child, tween, and teenager in EVERY class (and not just average short, but very short)—while witnessing other females and males jump for joy for growing taller each year—made me wonder if something was seriously wrong with me.
And while in the middle of a heated argument with one of my high school classmates (a 6’2 guy), back in ‘91, he randomly and suddenly shouted in a mean way, “You MIDGET!!” which, of course, TRIGGERED me at the time. Lol
But shortly after, he apologized, and shared a personal and heartfelt story that allowed me to immediately forgive him. He said that he had experienced being teased during elementary and middle school for being the shortest guy in the classroom.
And because this bothered him so much, and negatively affected his school life as well, he shared his struggle with his parents, they took him to the doctors, and the doc suggested he eat a steak daily; and THAT’S how he quickly grew taller! ^_^
Of course, eating steaks was almost unheard of during my middle and high school years (unless my dad took us out on special occasions)—since I was lucky if I even got to eat any quality meat (besides cheap hot dogs, burgers, and spam every now and then)—so I turned to drinking a riDONKulous amount of MILK! Lol
And YES, one of the NON-beneficial stuff of life to avoid like the plague, that you taught in the ST11 Health & Vitality audio.
Of course being Japorean Asian, drinking milk (and going overboard) became a MAJOR PROBLEM.
And my adoptive, American dad (with his googly, bright blue eyes)—who was sporadically home up to mid-9th grade (after remarrying my mom after their first divorce)—basically called me over with his strong, Massachusetts accent, and asked me (“Hey BOBbie…”) what the hell I was doing wasting all the milk and blowing up the one bathroom, when I was DONE growing any taller (another SHOCKer Lol).
My dad had ZERO gentleness while BURSTING my little bubble of HOPE (just SAID IT LIKE IT IS Lol). I miss his smart@$$ comments ^_^; he passed away of a heart acttack in 2011, and I trust that he’s in a peaceful state, since I’ve been seeing him—my former pet dog Kami, and other extended family who have passed—in my dreams that gradually became lighter and happier over the years, though I haven’t seen for a while now.
By the way, I included this “milk” scenario in an open-mic comedy set I created (as a hobby), along with some other FUN as well as “negative” experiences (blessings in disguise) in my life, since incorporating HUMOR into our lives, in addition to Unconditional Love and Profound Wisdom, is super transformational for self/others, which I have no doubt is part of my life path that will fully blossom in Divine perfect timing and order. ^_^
Anyhoo, what’s funny, is that you (Peter) have used the MIDGET analogy several times so far, but when I was no longer triggered by that (but was able to chuckle), I realized that I had fully healed from this particular aspect via embrace and integration into WHOLE self/Self (i.e., there’s nothing “wrong” with even midgets or dwarfs, and even very small people like me).
In addition, I’ve been practicing to Unconditionally Love WHOLE self/Self for over a decade (haven’t mastered it YET), to include deeply appreciating my own unique beauty that doesn’t have to look like this world’s limited definition of attractiveness (for both females and males regardless of age), like models and supermodels, though they are gorgeous as well.
I’ve also intuitively embraced being a Japorean-American since my early twenties, though my mother often called me a cold-hearted jap that nobody likes (not even the Americans)—and understandably so, since she was deeply hurt by my Japanese-American father, who had suddenly abandoned us (for his valid reasons) since I was a baby; plus, the whole, ongoing, conflict between Korea and Japan since during the past war.
When we went through a brief phase within the start of COVID-19—where many Asian-Americans publicly voiced being discriminated against, and treated in unkind ways (to include racism and physical violence)—I did my best to NOT allow the Collective, fear-based beliefs and experiences to SHAKE UP my inner world.
So with practice—every time I went out (ex. grocery shopping)—I learned NOT to focus on, notice, be concerned with, and even worry, about others possibly judging me, giving me dirty looks, and/or assuming I’m from WUHAN (which is narrow-minded thinking and ignorance; and NOT all people, from even this location, have COVID-19).
I even created a YouTube video that incorporated Profound Wisdom, Unconditional Love (for self/others) and Humor, just in case it might help others—to include my Asian brothers from another mother, and my Asian sisters from another mister—to RECLAIM their INNER POWER/Heart as well, rather than feel victimized by the outer world.
IF somebody were to ever approach me and say some racist BULL$h!+ (or any crap)—like the older woman in CA to the younger Asian woman (who was merely walking by)—I would calmly, assertively and tactfully suggest to them NOT to play with FIRE.
Because I can be deeply loving, compassionate, and WARM-hearted, but I can also be a powerful, COLD-hearted B!+ch that can bring one to tears if need be (just by sharing deep truths)—that I’ve learned to fully embrace, rather than label as “wrong” or “bad”— and that’s ONLY reserved for rare situations handled with discernment and grace from Heart-led Spirit/Goddess within (not misused or abused).
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Anyhoo, all the practices were like Chinese bamboo trees that suddenly sprouted after a long period of seemingly not growing.
Because one day, while out and about, not only did I notice that I had absolutely released any interest in others’ possible judgments, GOOP, dirty looks, etc.—since my husband and I choose NOT to wear masks, unless required, though many in Sedona do— but I also experienced an increase of interactions with kind strangers.
So your Oath of Manifestation Peter—that includes all of us living in a friendly Universe—is continuing to work beautifully! ^_^
Continuing to watch video….
1/28th-29th UPDATE
Video #2 Continuing…
I added a dozen more to exercise “a: Identify perceived imperfections,” which is great since it helps to be fully and clearly AWARE of them; and we cannot CHANGE that which we are UNaware of (i.e., they’ll remain as UNKNOWN/SHADOW aspects, whether “negative” or even “positive”, the latter being Golden Shadow Aspects).
[You asked in video]: Yes Peter, you’re MAKING A LOT OF SENSE, and thank you so much for the abundance of helpful knowledge and profound wisdom.
I took a lot of notes (using FUN colored pens) since that helps me to retain all the info better, and it makes the process more fun. ^_^
I’m also very grateful that you shared a helpful height example (another expanded perspective), since it was the MAGIC TOUCH to any remnants of insecurities left regarding my own very short height.
I fully trust that I will soon experience FULLY and UNconditionally embracing and integrating (into WHOLE self/Self) this “very small height” (4’9”) NEUTRAL aspect—and FEELING the INNER transformation, not just logically thinking it as a new concept—as well as other ones on that list (and even future ones if I happen to think of more).
I’m adding additional feedback as I watch this video (so that I don’t forget), and since you had also mentioned within two emails that feedback helps you and your team. Plus, you’ve taught us that QUESTIONS are the steering wheel of the mind.
Remaining comment in post Post, “Integrating: Successful Form of Prayer, Contradictions, Programming, Truths & Lies, Razor-Sharp Intuition & Discernment” (Added update later this afternoon, and then turned into its own post the day after)
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