I shared this comment for => Image by Veda Clark from Pixabay:

Thank you Veda for sharing this gorgeous image of the Monarch butterfly, symbolic of powerful, positive, major transformations in Life on all energetic levels—mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual (and even financial)—transitioning through another phase on our journey, human/Soul/Spirit growth, expanding Consciousness, as well as Life Purpose, Highest version of self (Highest Self), Lightness, gracefulness, playfulness, and freedom.

The old leaves reminded me of letting go of the old, and the colorful flowers reminded me of Spring, renewal and rebirth; and both being within the same space reminds me that all free-will choices and directions are available to all of us at any given present moment of now. I used this for post: [this one]

I intuitively sensed to look up the spiritual meaning of the name Veda (Pixabay creator above), and came upon the following excerpt from the website, The Times of India (only read the below):

The etymological meaning of the word ‘Veda‘ is knowledge – of two types. One type is subject to time, space and person [aka physical world], and the other is realisation of Self, independent of all subjections [aka spiritual world].

The former is called aparajnana, relative knowledge, because it is related to objects. The latter is parajnana, spiritual knowledge.

I’ve learned for over a decade, that journaling and blogging helps me to organize my thoughts, beliefs, emotions, feelings, intentions, preferences, goals, etc. that may seem to be in conflict at times.

And I’ve gained a lot of insights and profound wisdom from incorporating this method in my life, so I’ve been sharing it publically in case it helps others as well.

I shared the following comment for the YouTube video, “Weekly Energy Update | 2/21 – 2/27/2022 | Victor Oddo”:

Thank you Vic for another very helpful, spot on video message.

Granted, regarding college, it’s no ancient Japorean secret now that so many invest A LOT of money, time, energy, and efforts into these institutions that teach outdated information, only to end up with being in debt with school loans for a long time, and often not even finding work related to their major and/or what they love to do.

When I got out of the Army, I used my Post 9/11 G.I. bill to continue higher education at UTSA in San Antonio TX for my junior year (only took classes here and there while in the military since the Army schedule is hectic, from like 4:00 am – 7 pm average as you go up the ranks).

Anyhoo, just to share two examples, I experienced a young woman psychology instructor who was teaching an auditorium of students that babies who cry a lot are a problem.

So I raised my hand and spoke up, and in a nutshell shared that crying is a baby’s main form of communication for his or her various needs.

Soon after, we talked in private, and she became teary-eyed right after I entered her office and we made eye contact; and she apologized for being insensitive.

Another class that turned me off was “ANT 3233: Frauds, Myths, and Mysteries” where the female instructor heavily ridiculed—a popular method used by those who want to manipulate and control the general population, to include discouraging any form of disagreements—the belief in the existence of other than human beings within this GINORMOUS Universe alone (among other topics), which has been becoming mainstream knowledge, especially with all the declassifications of once classified information, instantly accessible and available truths, and other countries revealing the once hidden truths.

So although my mind REALLY wanted to stay, because I it didn’t want to feel like a quitter and a failure, like you said, I FELT my Heart saying otherwise.

So despite the initial resistance, I let go of FREE continuing education. And once I arrived home, I noticed perhaps a few dozens of Monarch butterflies all flying in what appeared to be within a circle in front of me. The circle reminded me of Heart/Spirit/Goddess, and when I looked up the spiritual meaning of Monarch butterflies, it was about MAJOR TRANSFORMATION.

So I’ve been experiencing these phases for over a decade, and like you said, this awakening, activating, inner child work, shadow work, mirror work (The 7 Essene Mirrors), deep healing, Dark Night of the Soul, ETC. can be exhausting at times.

Even to this day, I had invested a lot of money into this EMT program by Peter Sage (that includes an EMF course), and I’ve been noticing 111—that reminds me of the Heart/Goddess, as well as endings and new beginnings—in addition to experiencing negative synchronicity at times mixed with positive synchronicity while focusing on a creative project.

But sometimes, I’m like, “Seriously?? Just throw away $___!” So where does responsibility and being wise with finances play in this game?

I experienced a series of positive synchronicity before making this major decision, just like the 9 Sedona jobs, and going above and beyond with ALL of it, so what the hell?! What do you want from me?!”

It’s like I experience an exciting idea (sign of being inspired by Soul & Heart within), a series of positive synchronicity, and choose to trust and follow my inner guidance, and then within 1-3 months or so, I experience a series of negative synchronicity—to include people and situations I no longer resonate with—and then seeing 111 often.

I’ve pondered about this ongoing, CRAZY@$$ pattern since 2017, and I just realized as I’m typing this (received more CLARITY—thanks to a card that I recently selected, “PLEIADES EXPANDING: CLARITY” from the Cosmic Consciousness Ascension Deck by Jamye Price (that’s been amazingly SPOT ON for almost 2 years)—that, once again, not only am I meant to be at whatever location for a season (as even a ‘Systems Buster’ aspect at times channeled by the Pleiadians in Barbara Marciniak’s book), but I’m also meant to stick with a creative project that I had actually started in 2017 while living in San Antonio TX.

It’s a hobby that I’ve sporadically participated in, but due to doubts and a lack of confidence at times—and not resonating with the mostly non-supportive, highly competitive (in an unhealthy way) community of open-mic comedians (though not all were like that, most seem to be)—I discontinued.

Anyhoo, within two weeks recently, I received another download, and strongly sensed that, like you like to say, “It’s GO TIME!”

But I’ve been struggling to LET GO of this current program and course because I had never invested this amount of money, and just leaving seems so careless. But perhaps I need to care LESS. Because the truth is, if I were a multi-millionaire, this amount of investment would not be so important I suppose.

I just want to ensure I’m not letting go of something due to a fear of failure. LIke the analogy that you shared regarding Maya’s roller blading growth, I would like to be SUPER CLEAR, that I’m not just giving up on something that can be highly beneficial for my Soul & Spirit growth.

I also realize that I cannot tune into a crystal clear answer from a space of ‘victim mentality’ doubts, and ‘not knowing”; hence, I trust that in Divine perfect timing and order—and with the various assistance of my Full-Potential, Multidimensional, WHOLE self/Self (to include the Pleiadians and the ascension card CLARITY)—-I will confidently and absolutely KNOW exactly when to fully let go of this program and course.

As of now, I still enjoy learning from the program and course (that’s been very helpful), so I will do both, while managing my time, energy, and efforts more responsibly.

This past week, I actually placed creating and rehearsing for my creative project over this course’s modules—which I ended up doing the last minute, but they added extra puzzle pieces that confirmed my intuition—so that was a sure sign that I continued following my Heart.

I already bought plane tickets to Las Vegas, so I’ll perform a new set there, while also visiting the sacred temple dedicated to the Divine Mother Goddess Sekhmet/Hathor (of many names, but ultimately, The Nameless), who I trust actually provided an opportunity to move forward with this project.

My husband’s Realtor/Broker event is there as well, we both have half sisters named Kathy who reside there—whom we barely know, but will be visiting—so it will be a win-win trip to both of us and interconnected Life. I realize I’m sharing a lot of personal info, but it ‘s what I’ve been doing.

By the way, right before my alarm went off early this morning (5:20 am), I had a vivid dream of seeing an elderly, Caucasian man neighbor who said that he had saved something within a computer folder titled, bohm, and I shared that this word means, Spring (the season), in Korean. He also mentioned that he’s going to have to leave the hotel for one day

And the following dream interpretations for the key words within my dream match what I’ve shared above:

https://www.dreamsopedia.com/dream-about-old-neighbor.html#more :

Dream about Old Neighbor is about your playfulness and carefree nature. There is a force that is drawing you toward a certain direction, thinking or habit. Your dream symbolizes something very personal to you. Whatever you are feeling is still very fresh or raw.

https://www.onlinedreamdictionary.com/ :

To dream of a file folder means that you can’t do two things with one heart.

http://weknowyourdreams.com/ :

Dreaming of spring indicates new beginnings and start of new projects. If you have been thinking of starting something new, like a new project or a new business, this dream is an indication for you to put your thoughts into reality so that you are able to progress in life. No matter what kind of a business you would start up with, it is bound to flourish beautifully in the market, if you dream of spring.

https://www.dreamchrist.com/ :

Dreaming of a hotel shows that you have to do the planning because things tend to change. That means good news will appear. The meaning of this dream states that success is very close!

Hotels are places where there is intense movement. There are always new people coming and people leaving. Likewise, hotels are ever-changing, big or small; renovations still occur for some building maintenance that guarantees operations.

What is the meaning of a dream about a hotel? Try to remember some elements that you see in a hotel during your dream sleep, and this will help you recognize the meaning of dreams.

The hotel tells you that you must plan the next step to have a safe and free life. Success will come, but be careful what you have and give enough value for new achievements.

Update

Shortly after publishing this post…

I started the first video of Module 9 of the EMF (Elite Mentorship Forum) course mentioned above—within Peter Sage’s Elite Mentorship Trainer/EMT program—and I was reminded of how much I appreciate this part of my journey, since it’s already been very helpful, contributing invaluable puzzle pieces to my life.

And this particular module, beautifully titled, “Becoming Majestic” (regarding our archetypes) is perfect for the challenge I’m currently going through (inner conflict at times), which I trust will assist these various aspects within to become more Balance & Harmony.

So I realized that this course highly stimulates my mind more, and my creative project highly stimulates my Heart more,; and the goal is to have all energetic bodies—mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual—to be in alignment.

So after video #1, I will rehearse for my new open-mic set (as a Team of One); and that’s pretty much the somewhat flexible schedule I’ll stick with until the beginning of next month, when I perform at Wiseguys Comedy club in Las Vegas.

It will be on Tuesday and/or Wednesday, but more than likely the former since my husband and I will be having dinner with his half-sister, whom he hasn’t seen in a very long time.