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Have you experienced being around LOUD-ASS people? If not, then like many comedians have said, YOU’RE probably one, but don’t realize it.
But no worries, you won’t be judged in this space. Why?
Because I can relate to having been a loud-ass at times in the past—and still capable of being one if I consciously choose to Be this (ultimately neutral) aspect—and having experienced the receiving end of LOUD-ASS people.
A while back, I used to be make a few loud comments at the movie theater once in a while—without even realizing how loud my voice was; and I’ve been asked by a smartass friend if I was BLACKANESE 😄.
Fortunately, I discontinued being a LOUD-ASS at the movie theater, since that’s not being considerate of others, who came there to enjoy the experience as well.
I also used to yell at the TV at times, while watching a show I was passionate about, whenever I was TRIGGERED by what didn’t go my way.
During such dramatic moments, my second, ex-husband (now family friend) used to calmly remind me with a smile (or not), “It’s just a TV show.”
And yes, he was completely right, because why the hell was I allowing UNREAL, basically outer world ILLISIONS, to SHAKE my inner world foundation, and ruin my precious mood?
Even my adult nephew once asked over a decade ago, “You’re one of those?! LMAO”—in a letter we were exchanging at the time—when I admitted that I, too, occasionally go off on the TV.
I found out from him that apparently his mother went off on the TV as well; so I guess she was a Japorean (like me), Korean, Italian, or Brazilian in a previous life.
or even Irish, since both Korean and the Irish are known for their HOT tempers.
By the way, my nephew’s mother is my VERY STRONG, oldest, Japanese-American half sister, from my bio father’s first marriage, whom I never knew until my late thirties.
But we first connected over a decade ago; she found me through one of my blog posts that caught her attention…
because it was about our father, whom I first met shortly before I met her, because my former husband found him while I was deployed in Iraq; and then we surprise visited him and his third wife when I returned.
Anyhoo, my nephew (my sister’s oldest son) unfortunately passed away at a young age years ago, which has been very difficult to believe and process…
so I can’t even imagine how traumatizing it was for her. She had every right to be enraged and deeply sad; what mother wouldn’t be?
But it wasn’t true at all that I didn’t have compassion for her; but no amount of convincing was going to change what she chose to believe. So I have simply wished my sister deep healing on all levels.
So rather than spiral down and remain stuck again with, yet, another death of a loved one—about a dozen within multiple, extended families (Korean, American, and Japanese-American: bio parents, step-parents step-siblings, and half-siblings)—I chose to mourn, heal, and then move on with life; otherwise, it can become TOO MUCH and unbearable..
And this includes recalling such timeless, happy moments with loved ones at times, like my nephew—to include being able to make him laugh in letters during his very challenging times—which is still uplifting, since it’s a precious memory gift.
Plus, I’m confident that my nephew—like all other Souls who have passed away (aka a TRANSFORMATION of energy state)—became a FREE SPIRIT…
who had the POWER to CHOOSE what he preferred to experience next on his life’s journey, within whichever Universe/Multiverse/Omniverse/etc., or even simply return to Source as ONE.
I’ve had many dreams of many Souls that passed away—and not just immediate and extended family members who “died”—to include celebrities like Whitney Houston, who seemed peaceful (despite having committed suicide).
And this applies to my younger cousin who had committed suicide in high school as well; I eventually saw happy versions of her in dream state within decades.
So I fully TRUST that ALL IS WELL with EVERYTHING, despite what we may believe from a limited, human perception.
So by typing the above, I was just reminded again of how so-called miracles like these can occur—the unexpected, REUNITING of Souls (regardless of the quantity of time, since it’s about the QUALITY).
Because our logical mind—without the connection to our Heart—is unable to see the many possibilities and probabilities within BIGGER picture of Life.
I’m increasingly RE-MEMBERING (as Spirit & Soul), and learning (as physical self), to better recognize remnants of judgments I have about self/others.
I love being able to SHIFT and SEE from various points of view, in order Be Expanded, Multidimensional Perspective (Spirit & Soul Level Sight)…
and further REALIZE that we are all uniquely different, but we also have many similarities, SAMENESS, and LIKENESS, because we truly are ONENESS.
We can embrace DIVERSITY within UNITY without it just being some fancy, spiritual saying.
Within the previous blog page, “Grace❤️🔥🕊️✴️ for: Problems 😳, Red👺Faced Apparition, 🍚 Weevil Spirit 🪲 Guide, Evolving 🧬 God Thoth 🔱, A Short Light Being 🕯️& Other Selves, Including Our 💖 Physical Body 💝,”…
I shared a message for a Soul-igniting video that sparked very helpful reminders, insights, and profound wisdom.
So although this blog page can be read on its own, it was initially a part of the video message I had shared, and both bring together the BIGGER picture of invaluable experiences:
The following blue-gray section, is an INTRO from the above blog page, that lead to this one:
This morning, at my Airbnb room overseas—during my solitude journey of my deepest dive into WHOLE Self/self—was woken up by very loud and obnoxious guys (who sounded young)…
to include very loud conversations, and even one singing in the most disharmonious, thus slightly funny way, as if this (more than likely Asian) dude should NEVER EVER torture his buddies and/or strangers at a karaoke bar.
I realized that my old version of self would’ve been TRIGGERED by this temporary, unpleasant, outer circumstance, of what’s pretty much the opposite of peace that I deeply appreciate. Surprisingly, I didn’t even feel the need to react by shouting to be quiet (as I’ve done before twice in the past at a hotel).
Instead, I recalled what I had learned about this year, “Everything we do is either an act of love or a cry for help” (apparently a quote by Marianne Williamson, though someone else had shared this wisdom about human behavior without mentioning Marianne’s name, so I was under the impression that she came up with it.
Nonetheless, I was reminded from within that some children—and many adults as well (children in adult bodies, that MANY of use experienced)—can be loud and obnoxious when they deeply yearn for ANY attention, but because their positive behaviors have gone unnoticed, they resort to negative ones.
This includes behaving in selfish ways, and not being considerate of others.
I also tuned into another perspective that’s much LIGHTER—that perhaps it’s a cultural thing, and they’ve grown up in an environment where everyone and their mamas and grandmamas TALKED VERY LOUD (HELLO LOUD@$$ Koreans, Italians, and even Brazilians, and probably others countries too ).
By the way, I’m Japorean-American, so I know Koreans can be a LOUD@$$ (though obviously NOT all, since it IS a funny stereotype for a good reason).
And this includes myself whenever I’m having a group conversation with my Korean mother and relatives.
Long ago, while visiting family in Korea, both my (now ex-) husbands—obviously at different times— asked if we were all angry and arguing; and I laughed, and then shared that this is just the way we talk.
What was fascinating to me, is that when I visited Brazil years ago, they took LOUD@$$ to A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL, like PASSIONATE: Koreans MULTIPLIED BY Italians AMPLIFIED.
It’s like what Sebastian Maniscalco often joked about in his comedy specials about his LOUD-ASS, Italian self and family members. He cracks me up with his highly creative, talented, animated, magnetic, spazzy, judgy, and hilarious Self/self (especially my favorite comedy special of his, “What’s Wrong with People”).
ANYHOO, SHIFTING BACK TO BRAZILIAN LOUD@$$ES:
While riding on a mostly open back, tour vehicle on a sunny@$$ day, and noticing and admiring small groups of vultures just chillin out (that I had never seen before within human communities; so I later took a video of a “loner” one as well)…
about 10 of these Brazilians of varying ages (to include 2 new, couple friends), started talking SUPER LOUD in Portuguese, one joining right after another within nanoseconds, just BUILDING INTENSE MOMENTUM.
At one point, they were ALL TALKING SUPER LOUD AT THE SAME TIME, which was so mesmerizing, baffling, and confusing.
And you KNOW it’s SUPER LOUD, when they effortlessly override the VERY LOUD sounds of the old-ass vehicle and the strong wind blowing outside, where we were in the midst of while riding along this mini, adventurous journey.
While observing these folks—who were YAPPING AWAY 100 MPH, LIKE THERE’S NO TOMORROW— I was thinking to myself, with a baffling, dumbass look on my face (without a doubt):
“Am I the only active listener here?
Granted, I have NO CLUE what the hell they’re saying, bBut what’s going on?
If they’re all talking simultaneously, then how the hell do they know what the conversation is about?”
It just occurred to me that THIS was probably the exact same perspective that both my ex-husbands had, with their own baffled, dumbass appearing, facial expressions.
It was as if I had tuned into THE TWILIGHT ZONE—FOREIGN / UNKNOWN / NEW TERRITORY, where ANY CRAzy@$$ thing was POSSIBLE…
like the QUANTUM FIELD OF UNLIMITED POSSIBILITIES /THE COSMIC WOMB OF THE UNPREDICTABLE, HIGHLY INTELLIGENT, AND GENIUSLY CREATIVE MOTHER GODDESS (& GOD).
But despite this seemingly, out of control conversation—from a limited, judgmental, physical human perspective—here’s the catch…
they were ALL super JOYful throughout the entire “conversation”—just smiling and laughing their happy asses off—like AMAZING versions of “CRAzy” people.
So I just NOW realized (a NEW, expanded perspective), that it didn’t matter if verbal words seemed to be flying around BUCK WILD within a CHAOTIC TORNADO.
Their deep, Soul and Heart connections—and their generous sharing of much Authenticity, JOY and Unconditional Love (no one judging the other as LOUD-ASSES, BUT SIMPLY BEING)—made these moments very precious and memorable. MAN, I AM LOVING THIS INTEGRATION.
ANYHOO, I seemingly digressed, but it’s ALL connected. Plus, I’m VERY GRATEFUL that I decided to journal this, because it is further expanding my individual and Collective Consciousness.
There could be other factors as to why these LOUD-ASS numbnuts—next door to my Airbnb room, who “disturbed” my sleep—showed up this way. It could also be a combination of various reasons.
So I was able to EMBRACE these guys—and even FULLY RELEASE any remnants of JUDGMENTS of Self/self/others, and INTEGRATE these ultimately NEUTRAL energy aspects of ALL.
And again, they may have been loud because they had not experienced much Unconditional Love (to include attention), throughout their lives, especially during childhood, AND/OR for whatever else reasons (to include cultural influence, or simply because they felt like freely and fully expressing themselves) .
Soon after simply Being who I preferred to Be (Inner Peace despite outer world noise)…
enjoying the somewhat distant, serene trees and ocean view from my room window…
quietly giggling at their funny-sounding tones and fluctuating, exaggerated pitches of their foreign language…
and making myself a cup of organic coffee—that DID taste different from another, non-organic brand that I bought and tried (that smelled like chemicals, so poured it out)—it became…
VERY QUIET (as bald, BIG-headed Elmer Fudd used to say), as if the crickets had even checked out.
And I’m confident that because I chose to SHIFT my inner world state—aka FEELING STATE/vibrational frequency—with expanded perspectives, insights, uplifting thoughts (to include humor-incorporated ones), which then changed how I felt about the situation…
My outer world RAPIDLY MATCHED my inner state by MIRRORING PEACEFUL, OUTER WORLD (though I usually tune into matching, inner and outer world states slowly, gradually, and sometimes quickly, but RARELY RAPIDLY; UP UNTIL NOW THAT IS)
Lately, I’ve been doing my best—more than ever before my deep dive of INNER WORK of over 13 years—to increasingly Be a Master of my inner world (as Sadhguru had shared in his Inner Engineering course)…
A Master of my Mood (as Bashar—channeled via Darryl Anka—had shared)…
A Master of my Vibrational Frequency & Vortex (as Abraham Hicks—channeled by Esther Hicks—had shared)…
And various, same or similar expressions that other profoundly wise Souls have shared in their own unique ways.
So this morning, I’m realizing more than ever before that I AM A MASTER ALCHEMIST / MASTER OF FREQUENCIES, as well as MASTER TEACHER, MASTER HEALER, AND MASTER BUILDER.
And like you have shared within this video, this IS our REAL SELF / TRUE SELF.
Plus, just like the LIGHT BEING encounter, I can ALSO TUNE INTO to this CORE FREQUENCY STATE that’s always available to Self/self.
And if I can do this—with my earthly and otherworldly background of the extreme polar opposites within the rainbow spectrum of Life, and everything in-between (especially with an abundance of INTENSE challenges from the very denser/negative/trauma-filled, fear-based energies)—then so can other Souls….
since we are ALL INTERCONNECTED AS THE ONE; hence, EXPANDING our individual AND Collective Consciousness.
Thank you again for helping me to SHINE more LIGHT onto what needed to be REMEMBERED.