Inner Power, Authenticity & Forgiving from FEELING Heart NOT Thinking Mind

Intro: I shared the following gratitude comment for the => Image by Michael Drummond from Pixabay:

Thank you Michael for sharing this POWERFUL FEELING photo. The POWERFUL/Full/Mindful, I AM PRESENCE: profoundly wise, AUTHENTIC, calm cool, collected and BAD@$$ BLACK PANTHER—like all other animal spirit guides/totem animals/power animals of many Divine gifts—often reminds me to RECLAIM our INNER POWER/Heart, though there are various other symbolic interpretations as well.

And we can accomplish this by slowly, gradually, quickly, and even rapidly re-membering—as a metaphysical (beyond physical) Soul, and learning as a physical human being—to Unconditionally embrace/love and INTEGRATE more and more NEUTRAL aspects within our full-potential, Multildimensional, WHOLE selves/Selves, since the so-called “negative” aspects are ultimately NOT right or wrong, good or bad, light or dark, etc. (within duality/polarity), but can be transmuted and transformed into their higher, exalted, energetic, true essence states or released back to Source.

Because ONLY when we UNconditionally love ourselves—after filling and/or refilling our sacred, inner cup/heart, can we truly, fully, and UNconditionally give this overflowing True Love (that’s NOT conditional) to so-called “others”/interconnected Life within this world and beyond; there’s no overflow from an empty or barely filled cup. I used this for post: [this one]

Other Gratitude Comments for Images Used:

- Image [DNA puzzle pieces] by Arek Socha from Pixabay : Thank you Arek for sharing this perfect image that instantly reminded me of highly beneficial Ascension Symptoms that activates once dormant DNA of our Multidimensional Higher Mind/Soul/Light/God & Higher Heart/Spirit/Unconditional True Love/Goddess essence within. I used it for post: [this one]
- Image [overflowing cup] by PDPics from Pixabay: Thank you for sharing this helpful image that reminded me of the gold color of Divine Wisdom (ALL IS WELL in every present moments of NOW for the highest benefit of self/Self/others/humanity/interconnected Life within this world and beyond that’s TRINITY with Divine Love (Unconditional True Love for self/Life) and Divine Power (power that is used with discernment, not mised or abused). I used it for post: [this one]

The following are subtitles to this post:

Childhood vs Adulthood
Making Decisions on Our Terms, Not Because Others Push Their Agendas
Benefit of Building Rapport, Conditional Kindness, Our ego/Ego, Valid Questions, Channeling & Reunion of Souls
An Exchange of Peace Messages
Supportive Feedback from 3 EMF Members
Related Posts Within This Blog
UPDATES:
- Added on 2/12/2022: Related post, “Series of Divine Synchronicity: Guiding Signs & Messages from Powerful Heart”

Note: To view a larger version of poster on right, simply click

Childhood vs Adulthood

I trust that all Souls within our world are born pure, and not the “only good” pure meaning assigned by society, but authentically PURE/WHOLE—like Holy [WHOLEy] Spirit/Unconditional True Love of All That Is/Divine Mother Goddess essence/UNITY Consciousness that includes (NOT excludes) separation consciousness.

These old, yet, reborn/new Souls, from newborn babies to younger children, naturally, effortlessly, authentically, and fully embrace their entire Being; and briefly continue on this untainted, beautiful path until they are conditioned by mostly fear-based society, starting with caregivers, whether a parent(s), a grandparen(s), extended family members, etc..

The following is a related excerpt from the post, “My Exciting New J.O.B.: Joy Of Being!” under subtitle, “Assertive Ally”:

Ally looks like a blond and blue-eyed American Girl Doll (a brand of dolls) with shoulder-length hair. Ally has a sassiness to her that makes you want to squeeze her chubby cheeks. She’s so assertive, but she can be overly confident at times and a bit too bossy for her own good.

One time, Nina [the main preschool teacher] poked at me [assistant teacher] and whispered, “Ms. Bobbie, look!” Ally was looking at herself in the mirror (the long one by the toy home center) with her head tilted, and said, ‘Awe, just like a princess’.”

Nina and I both started laughing, and I later shared the cute story with her parents, and her mother agreed that it sounded just like her…very confident. I thought, if only all women could look into a mirror and see their beauty the way Ally does, what a lovely world this would be.

Regarding pure/whole babies and young children, despite what some man-made, limiting, fear-based religions have conditioned many within society to believe—the outdated belief that we are all born sinners—it hasn’t FELT light/true to my Heart ever since I heard about probably since high school over three decades ago.

I just now realized that this may actually be a Divine Dichotomy—which holds that it is possible for two apparently contradictory truths to exist simultaneously in the same space (gracefully taught by Mystic NDW)—an expanded, Multidimensional perspective of SEEING the BIGGER picture with CLARITY.

There’s probably truth to religious beliefs, though not the whole truth; meaning, I trust that from one perspective, all Souls come to each lifetime with some, A LOT, or whatever other degrees of HEAVY “baggage” from past lifetimes (i.e., heart wounds, traumas, mistakes, hurting others/self, guilt, shame, unforgiveness, vengeance, and a huge list of unhealed, “negative” energies).

However, when we are born, it’s like a clean slate,a white canvas, as well, where we have the opportunity to create a different life from the Divine Self within—when we are in alignment with the harmonious, merged verions of integrated Mind/Heart, with Heart leading Mind .

It’s no ancient Japorean secret that when you put a large group of very young children from various countries around the world, they don’t discriminate based on earthly backgrounds and appearances (again, until they’re taught to judge).

And unconditionally loving children—like many unconditionally loving dogs, to include the well-known labrador—are often very quick to forgive as well.

However COMMA unlike children, if you kick a dog enough times, it will eventually stand up for itself.

Unfortunately, because children look up to their caregivers, unconditionally love them, depend on them, and are tiny compared to adults, they are pretty much powerless when it comes to standing up for themselves when habitually abused by their caregivers.

So this temporary, false belief of being powerless, can carry on through adulhood, causing many continue to belive that they don’t deserve unconditional love from others (i.e., “If my own parents didn’t love me, why would outsiders?” mentality).

In addition, they will more than likely refrain from expressing their inner truths, developing healthy boundaries, having self-confidence, being assertive, and/or standing up for themselves.

I went through this phase, though I started practicing to take my inner power back since elementary school, though these weren’t the words I had known about back then.

I’ve mentioned this before within this blog, but I’m also amazed how I can easily recall the full names of friends, classmates, and neighborhood kids from childhood, but yet, I’m unable to recall most adult names I’ve crossed paths with throughout my life.

I trust that this is due to innocent and free-spirited times, and for those who have left strong, emotionally charged memories (whether positive or negative).

I’ve already shared detailed stories within the blog, but as an example, in 5th grade or so, when I told this boy (Eddie Rudagear, don’t know correct spelling) during recess—who kept physically bugging me (to include poking)—to leave me alone, and he didn’t listen.

I probably wasn’t in the best of moods that day since home life was often chaotic from a mostly absent, adoptive dad, and alcoholic and abusive mother (both wounded since childhood).

Because I neding punching Eddie and he punched me back, and I one of us ended up with a bloody lip, and the other a bloody nose (though don’t recall which anymore, probably recorded in related post).

One of the witnesses, a tall blond boy with bright blue eyes (Chris Labear, don’t know correct spelling), started laughing his ass off while mimicking me (how I was throwing left and right punches).

As I’ve shared within this blog, looking back, we were all just unaware kids.

The “annoying” boy Eddie—who looked like the squirrel from the movie Ice Age (but a very short human version with semi-wavy, brown hair from the 70’s)—was just trying get attention (probably because he didn’t get it from home either).

I was probably tired from not being able to tell my abusive mother to leave me alone (or I’d get another beating), but I probably felt like I could stand up to this classmate who was about my height, though probably taller, since everyone and their mamas and grandmamas, to include my tiny Korean grandma, was taller than me.

And the witness boy was simply entertained by what appeared hilarious—the two, shortest kids of a class awkwardly throwing punches at each other because they both never had a physical fight with another kid before, which probably looked similar to midget boxing.

Not too long after that experience, I noticed that Eddie—who was sitting in front of me at the long lunch table—only brought a sandwich, though all his classmates (to include myself) had a full lunchbox that contained sandwiches, snacks, fruit, and/or soups, etc.

So I grabbed a baggies of snacks, and gently gestured to him to have it, and he received it; and looking back, it wasn’t because of ulterior motives, like wanting something back from him (to include friendship), but because my heart went out to him, despite us butting heads like rams.

When I shared this story about my observation of my classmate only bringing a sandwich, my Korean mother entusiastically packed extra baggies of snacks and encouraged me to share it with Eddie and others.

My mother was generous when it came to sharing food with others, to include her siblings, my grandma (her mother), our landlords (wherever we moved, which was often), and even making and then delivering (by foot) homemade kimchi to a very poor and kind lady in our neighborhood who ran a trampoline service for children.

Despite my mother being habitually agressive, mean and/or abusive, —psychologically (mentally and emotionally), and physically—she also had her wonderful qualities (like everyone else)

And I’ve been willing to go as far as to trust that all human, E.T.s, aliens, spiritually unevolved powerful beings—though perhaps mentally and/or technologically evolved, etc.—who are labeled as very “bad” “dark” or “evil” actually have some degree of Light within them that they may not remember yet, even if it’s like a speck, which I’ve also shared posts about.

In 7th grade, after I became tired of being bullied by certain kids, witnessing certain kids be mean to others kids, and then kicking myself in the ass at home for not saying anything, I decided to make change.

And since then, I practiced more and more speaking my mind/expressing more of my inner truths (to include true feelings), and standing up for self and others, which felt liberating and empowering.

Throughout adulthood, whenever I BOLDY spoke my mind—with assertive communication style of “I respect your and me” rather than aggressive style of “I don’t respect you”—to whoever while at various locations of this world, I witnessed many of the same, non-verbal response, which was the look of shock, probably because I’m tiny (4’9″ average of 100 lbs or so, though definitely went up to 120 at my lowest point in life).

Now most people who hear “120 lbs” may say something like, “C’mon Barbara, that’s nothing”; however COMMA ya gotta think it terms of “relative to what?”

I was pretty much this height probably since 6th or 7th grade or so, and my women’s size 4 feet can only handle so much excess body weight before they SHOUT, “For the LOVE of God, can ya lighten the HEAVY@$$ LOAD already, so that we can get a freakin‘ break!!!”

I somehwat digressed. An example story (within this blog) of how Being BOLD (with discernment), can highly benefit self/others: calmly, quietly, and asstively telling a habitually rude@$$ cashier (while looking into her eyes)—who treated a quiet-type elderly man in front of me like crap—what she needed to hear.

That we all have our bad days, but since she’s had one too many, perhaps I could talk to her manager about how unhappy she is working there, and how she doesn’t appreciate the customers that allow her to even have that job.

Another pattern that I’ve noticed throughout my life, is that whenever I share what needs to be shared, people—regardless of earthly backgrounds, to include: race, ethnicity, color, age, gender, intelligence (or lack thereof), financial status, position, etc.—do an unbelievable 180 from aggressive to suddenly gentle kind, or even exaggerated friendly (perhaps masking anxiety).

Even when I started meeting my mother’s agressive energies with the same force of aggressive energies, since would immediately back the F#*K off, and even do a 180 herself.

So I’ve learned that the “aggressive” energy is ultimately not wrong, bad, or evil—but like every other NEUTRAL aspects of our WHOLE self/Self, especially the “negative” ones—we’re meant to use them in a wise and beneficial way (for self/others), to include standing up for oneself, without needing to misuse or abuse so-called negative energies.

Granted, there are rare instances where the SUPER AGGRESSIVE energy might come into PLAY. Ex. God forbid we ever get attacked by a bat $h!+ CRAzy@$$, foaming at the mouth, stranger, then…

I don’t know about you, but the MEGA HOT-TEMPERED Korean side of me—that rarely comes out to play—of this 4’9″, Japorean-American sister…

WILL take out an eyeball or two, do a rapid JAB in the throat, and/or kung-fu, karate chop/kick a Soul brother in his ballsack, since I refuse to go down passively again—the way I did when raped by an Army “leader” back in 2002, due to various fears; but lesson learned.

So when I experienced speaking what needed to be shared in one of the most intimidating of all environments—a huge, serious meeting room full of interrogator INSTRUCTORS, and military and civilian HIGHER UPS—I thought that I had built enough confidence to continue Being effortlessly BOLD.

However, I learned from the past five years of sporadic experiences—to include performing open-mic comedy as a hobby at times at various locations, and even recent events—-that it still wasn’t effortless to fully OWN AUTHENTIC WHOLE self/Self; but one day, I trust that I’ll Master this ability (like other important areas of Life, shared in this post).

So it’s never too late to RECLAIM OUR INNER POWER/Heart .

Recently, I did for these challenges below as well:

I’ve decided to BOUNCE BACK stronger than ever before and ABSOLUTELY perform my best open-mic comedy set that I’ve ever created, while fully trusting that all of the Life lessons learned so far (especially the profound ones like Unconditional Love for self/others/Life, Integration, Authenticity, etc.)—along with all the Multidimensional abilites, skills, and talents I’ve gained so far—will, without a shadow of a doubt, further support self/Self: I (God) AM (Goddess) Presence (with Heart/Spirit/Goddess leading Mind/Soul/God) in fully living my Life Purpose, doing what I’m passionate about, enJOYing the journey, and shining a greater, full-potential verson (so that I can lead by example, and help others reclaim their True Selves as well).
For this particular phase of transformation, I’ve also learned to further reclaim my inner power in NEW ways I had never experienced before, that I’m very grateful for (the Divine gifts from the Friendly Universe and beyond/Prime Creator/Holy Spirit/Divine Mother Goddess/Highest Self)

Making Decisions on Our Terms, Not Because Others Push Their Agendas

Even though the interactions below are recent (within two days), I’m very grateful for this new experience, because it helped to learn how strong I can Be while standing my ground—not allowing other’s beliefs, intentions, pressure, varying degrees of manipulation and control, “righteous” words, and persistence to shake my inner world.

Granted, their words, beahviors and actions may be intentional or UNintentional (i.e., the latter meaning, they’re just being and doing their best in life, like all Souls, and may not be AWARE that they’re being whatever fear-based ways).

The dialogue below is just one of many great examples to learn from, so that you’re at least somewhat prepared for similar situations, rather than be blindsided by them.

As an UPDATE, “L” (an EMF peer group member) and I made our peace today (2/7th)—which I fully trust stemmed from what I had shared in the very last paragraph of this dialogue, basically an invitation for us to KEEP IT REAL, not play subtle mind games, and to explore our potential to learn and grow together IF we’re willing to be transparently honest with one another.

Granted, I’ve learned that with certain people, to include L, it’s highly beneficial to have EXTRA STRONG BOUNDARIES in order to not be swayed, even with seemingly SUPER positive, charming and persuasive ways most of the time; granted, I can FEEL her moments of sincerity at times as well, which is deeply appreciated.

Within a month or so ago, I had a very interesting, NEW expeirence with L that made me chuckle; and I was very grateful for the obvious blessing and blessing in disguise—both Divine gifts of CONTRAST: SAME & OPPOSITE aspects within both of us that would, without a shdaow of a doubt, support our life journeys.

I’ve experience more than enough hardcore, very pushy, well-meaning Christian recruiters throughout my adult life.

However COMMA I never even imagined meeting a hardcore, Japanese Buddhist recruiter, who looks like she might be half Asian and half Caucasian (used to be called Amerasian back in childhood days).

I’ve only crossed paths with really quiet, gently kind, Buddhists (besides one of my monk aunts) who seemed introverted.

Well, L had shared that she’s on a MISSION, a very familiar and somewhat eerie word—especially when associated with religion, that instanly alerted my society-conditioned, lower mind to silentely scream within, “RUN the opposite direction, and don’t look back, you’ll end up BLIND!!!“

However, deep within my Heart, I intuitively knew that we—just like the rest of our EMF members, Peter Sage, Team Sage and interconnected Life—were meant to cross paths, even for a season(s), in order to help TRANSFORM one another to greater versions of ourselves in Divine perfect timing and order.

Anyhoo, from one perspective, I had no doubt in my mind how passionate she was about spreading her religious belief with a lot of textbook teachings that she often shares in very long comments or even verbally.

Side Note for Below: Regarding shadow work/mirror work, I highly resonate with the seemingly upgraded, expanded perspective version via The 7 Essence Mirrors gracefully taught by Gregg Braden. Just 2 examples: Others can MIRROR to us, who we are being/Being in the present, OR what aspects we JUDGE about them/self.

I’m gratefult that I was able to recognize this particular form of obvious, in-your-face kind of MIRROR, reflecting back to me my own tendency to share LONG@$$ comments! Lol

In addtion, I have no doubt, that her and I have BOTH been MIRRORING to Peter Sage, his tendency to be SUPER LENGTHY in his expressions.

He’s highly intelligent—mostly mentally and a bit less emotionally (since I’ve noticed a pattern of him not being that empathetic)—and can be profoundly wise most of the time, so I wondered if he was able to RECOGNIZE the double MIRRORS (from L and (, I think we’re the main ones who are super lengthy in our comments shared).

However, within this month, during a Q & A live call with Peter, his very obvious, annoyed, facial expression and tone of voice, made it crystal clear that he judged LONG@$$ comments (NOT realizing that he’s just as, if not more, chatty than L and I_

It’s just that we express more in writing, whereas he’s like an energizer bunny on CRACK that merged with Speedy Gonzales and the Jolly Green Giant dude from the can of the nasty@$$, non-fresh, green beans that I used to eat before I discovered REAL, fresh green beans (which are like night and day).

Granted, they’re cool in the typical green bean cassarole dish. I digressed again, damn you SHINY OBJECTS!

So him getting all annoyed communicated to me that he didn’t SEE (with CLARITY) the signs from Friendly Universe yet, that were basically BRIGHT@$$, BLINKING, NEON SIGNS that SHOUTED, “Further WAKE YO GIANT @$$ UP so that you can fully embrace (not continue to judge) and integrate your SUPER EXPRESSIVE, UNKNOWN/SHADOW aspect, in order to Be more WHOLE.”

But then again, if we were to dive even DEEPER into the beneficial version of the Cosmic Rabbit Hole, him being a cranky@$$ about my LONG@$$ comment plus question, also MIRRORS to moi the “annoyed” aspect within me whenever I get annoyed with my own lengthy comments. Lol

So we’re all like playing this planet Earth MIRROR GAME, but the question is, “Are we going to do this from an AWARE state—that can highly benefit us with our individual and Collective Soul Growth, or are we going to be all LOST within the sauce, getting triggered left and right?”

I know I was strongly triggered recently, one of the most challenging week timeframes of my life (shared in previous post).

In the dialogues below, at certain points, I bluntly shared with L what I had no doubt she needed to hear and could benefit from (reflecting back to her as various MIRRORS).

And though I prefer being tactful while honest, I’ve learned, once again, that there are times when the assertive energy needs to get bumped up a few notches—even incoporating small degrees of aggressive energies—especially when gentel kindness and assertiveness doesn’t convey the message of effectively (i.e., “you’re crossing my boundaries again).

—since she wanted to play the game of throwing everything on the table—that I trust that BOTH of can benefit from condensing our LONG comments since it can be draining for self/others.

The following is the dialogue that perfectly matches our module within the EMF course that we just completed this morning (2/7th) with Peter Sage’s live call, of AUTHENTICITY:

REMINDER PARAGRAPH FROM ABOVE:

2/6/2022 (Sun)

Reply from Lili to my original reply to another member’ comment, shared under subtitle, “My Reply Comment” within previous post, “Authenticity, Discrimination & Opposite Feelings of the Neutral, Standing Ovation“:

I’ve read this post three times and I’m trying to figure out what it is you’re expressing. If you had to condense this into a couple sentences what would be the message you want me to receive?🙏🏼❤️🧚🏽‍♂️

My reply to L:

After ongoing, multiple experiences that have felt hurtful to various degrees—and honestly communicating and forgiving each time, hoping there will be a change—I finally decided ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, chose to maintain healthy boundaries and speak out, since it needs to be brought to the Light, and not just hidden behind closed doors where there are no witnesses.

Examples:

– DISCRIMINATION (having helped 2 other members with the exact same issues, while telling me to trust the Universe with non-attachment for over a month while ignoring important messages regarding buddy reassignment from me and Admin)

– I did my best to communicate to a so-called leader of a community the ongoing red flags observed about her ways (that felt like subtle, passive-aggressive energies with a smiley face mask, to include habitual IGNORING of messages, which is a form of psychological abuse, especially when done continually).

So after my recent community call share—to include a requested feedback from another member, and giving related examples of having been molested by an uncle during childhood and afraid to tell my mother, and raped in the Army (with the platoon sergeant laughing afterwards)—Gill announced for everyone to give me a standing ovation and a round of applause that I intuitively and instantly felt as sarcastic (which I later found out may have been British humor).

But that seemed really inappropriate, insensitive, and even mocking for that moment. I shared this with her, how it made me feel, that I couldn’t imagine doing this to a member (or anyone) as a future EMT, how she wouldn’t dare say that to Linda (who I was responding to), and for her to reverse the roles; and as usual, she didn’t reply, though she initially sent this 😡 emoji that she immediately deleted I suppose.

Lili, I’m sorry you felt the need to read my long@$$ comment 3 times, and still wasn’t able to figure out what I was talking about.

I have no doubt that I can continue improving my communication skills and expressions, and from now on I will NOT be sharing anymore comments like this again that can cause confusion, especially very long ones, that we both have a tendency to share, that can be overwhelming and exhausting for self/others.

I trust that we can both work on condensing our messages to a couple sentences for others to hear. This one is longer than a couple sentences, but it’s the last one here.

2/5/2022 (Sat)

L’s reply:

Thank you so much for clarifying. I understand better now. I hope you can find room in your big heart for others to make mistakes and be human. I’m always impressed how you are able to verbalize and share your perceptions. I agree, long posts can be edited. I always try to not go on and on and, yet, communicating through the written word can be tricky.

My reply to L:

L, you have NO IDEA what all I have forgiven (and often quickly) thus far, to include […]

So since childhood, I’ve often forgiven those who were habitually abusive on various levels; however COMMA, I’m no longer a child, so when another, aware, adult habitually crosses my boundaries, though I’ve basically communicated multiple times not to, then I have every right to feel hurt and angry for a while before I forgive.

Until we’ve walked MANY MILES (not a few or some) in another’s shoes, we won’t KNOW what it FEELS like to be them, (to deeply empathize), though we can conceptualize with our logical mind and sympathize (at best).

I understand that you would like to encourage me to forgive right away or soon due to your religious beliefs.

But to be transparently honest, I can EASILY agree with you (with a smiley face and heart emojis) that I’m going to now; but that would be a lie to self/others and is NOT AUTHENTIC (the subject of our current module).

I have no doubt that I will forgive her soon—even if she doesn’t apologize (don’t expect it)—because I’ve forgiven plenty of people from the past who didn’t apologize, and learned that’s it called unconditional forgiveness in my late thirties.

We all heal at our own pace, in Divine perfect timing and order.

2/6/2022 (Sun)

L’s reply:

you’re exactly right about everything.

Whether you forgive her or not is completely up to you and it’s been my experience as a healing practitioner that the only person who suffers is the one holding the grudge.

I know that resentment causes toxic chemicals in our bodies and is not good for the psyche.

However, there are lessons in every event and we get to choose when we let go.

We all do heal at our own pace and in our own timing.

I totally agree with that and sorry for not acknowledging that I have no idea of your experiences (except for what you’ve shared).

As a believer that we’re all creating our realities at every moment, I often wonder why things happen the way they do.

I’ve been enjoying Peter’s view that there is a divine plan in action and a greater purpose we’re all living for.

I’ve always wanted to see people get along and wondered why they don’t. I still do.

Thanks again for clarifying your position. I appreciate your willingness to talk about it.

If we could all just talk about things and keep talking I feel like, eventually, we can find common ground.❤️🧚🏽‍♂️🙏🏼

🙏🏼❤️🧚🏽‍♂️

My reply to L:

I actually typed “I have no doubt that I will forgive her soon,” but you came back with “whether you forgive her or not.”

I already shared in the last module comment, and within this afternoon’s community call, that I did forgive her/self this morning, but I’m not going to say I did, if I didn’t yet; though once again, we can EASILY wear the mask of ONLY being righteous, good, and loving all the time on the outside.

I’ve also learned on my mystical journey that any type of healer can ONLY effectively heal when they’re able to sincerely connect with those they’re trying to help in an empathetic and deeply heartfelt way (because they’ve walked a similar path and can relate at the FEELING state rather than the conceptual state ).

It’s not about about checking off the logical list of what types of healing methods needs to be done—though we can definitely incorporate left-brain centered ways—and then telling others what all to DO.

BEING Fully Present (I AM state)—of I 👁👀 you, I 👂you, I FEEL💗 you—is WAY more POWERFUL (experiential knowledge/profound wisdom) than textbook gathered knowledge.

“Only the wounded physician heals.” Carl Jung

Your 3rd to last paragraph sounds as though you always get along with everyone, congratulations. You must have mastered relationships.

No matter where I cross paths with other Souls, though I get along with most people, there are always occasional head butting (like rams), which is actually an invitation for growth for both parties, which I’ll share a poster about soon.

Because as Peter said, the goal is NOT to stop falling off the 🐎 (making “mistakes”)—since we’re not meant to just sit on the horse safely in the stable—but to fall less frequently and less hard; otherwise, we’re DONE with 🌎 school.

Triggering one another is a blessing in disguise (a Divine gift), that’s healthy and beneficial for our growth/spiritual evolution IF we’re receptive to healing, learning and growing from them (again, at our own pace).

It’s not about us manipulating and controlling others (to varying degrees), to include trying to instill guilt trips—i.e., “if you don’t forgive now and hold a grudge, you will suffer, you’ll build up toxic chemicals in your body, it’s bad for your psyche,” etc.—to fit our model of the world (i.e., our own beliefs of what needs to be done by everyone).

And it’s much more loving to authentically express to self/others, than place a smiley face sticker on top of the wound, and then smile at someone who was repeatedly hurtful, while NOT truly FEELING forgiveness within.

That’s why some guys are known to authentically express their raw emotions (like anger)—though don’t recommend physical fighting—but can then make up very quickly and go have a beer 🍻 together.

But many women can be catty, smile to each other’s faces, pretend everything’s fine, not honestly talking about the issue, while remaining resentful on the inside, to including making indirect comments to get under another’s skin (masked with righteous and loving intentions).

I’d rather butt heads in a transparent way, then, genuinely make up with another soon, than play the facade game.

Let’s keep it real Lili, even you and I have recently been doing this dance that included some degree of friction; I can have razor-sharp intuition and other abilities at times, to strongly sense various vibrational frequencies.

No matter what the temporary, outer circumstances seem like, I trust that you and I have the potential to assist one another to higher levels of Consciousness IF we’re both willing to be transparent with one another, and grow together from our soul-igniting experiences. 🙏🏼💖💓💕

[I also shared the following poster with the above comment]

Benefit of Building Rapport, Conditional Kindness, Our ego/Ego, Valid Questions, Channeling & Reunion of Souls

2/7/2022

My Community and I made peace with one another that felt authentic, but it was when I truly felt ready to reach out last night (initiate the healing process), NOT because someone else (L) wants me to do what they want me to do; and I shared this with L when she direct messaged me via fb.

I also told L that I was going to participate in some group session for her business that she offered all the EMF members, but I didn’t feel like it later (i.e., if the exchange of fb comments didn’t feel anywhere close to heartfelt, it didn’t make any sense to do an entire healing session with her).

Anyhoo, I don’t care for what felt like conditional kindness (from the above, initial interactions, though the ones at the end were an improved version)—i.e., “I will be kind to you IF you do what I want you to do, but unkind to you if you don’t.”, and I can strongly sense various energies/vibrational frequencies even from online interactions.

Another example (as shared above, but alraedy typed this here), Peter Sage’s live call was this morning, and though one of his quotes is, “Questions are the steering wheel of the mind, I noticed a pattern that he more than likely means, questions that don’t challenge his teachings.

Because twice already, he appeared (in an obvious way) very annoyed by some questions submitted thus far, though most of the time, he’s pretty positive.

I’ve been wanting to share for a while a comment since I’ve noticed an ongoing, sporadic pattern of him talking about the ego—or like today, referring to an adult who acts like a toddler throwing a tantrum (i.e., just one example of ego behavior)—in a very obviously judgmental, criticizing, ridiculing, patronizing, condescending, and/or disapproving way, though other times (ever since I brought up a similar question), he’s been saying that the ego is not the enemy,

Today, I shared as a comment to “everyone”—as well as him directly in case he misses it while talking—that it’s ironic to talk about the ego in a very judgmental way, since our individual and Collective Ego is known to be very judgmental.

From the typical, human perspective, this can easily come off as calling him out and being an ass; however, from an expanded, Multidimensional perspective, I have no doubt that it’s for all the witnesses to SEE (with CLARITY) the BIGGER picture, even if I have to be the @$$hole, B!+ch, bad gal, etc.

For over two decades so far, I’ve been following a strong to intense FEELING in my center chest, heart chakra area, that sometimes rise to my throat chakra area, that let’s me know from Spirit within to SPEAK UP and share what’s highly beneficial for self/others/interconnected Life within this world and beyond.

At times of doubt, I would wonder if this was my ego, but I realized it wasn’t because I would often have these experiences at times that a fearful ego would consider VERY INCONVENIENT, BAD TIMING, HEYLL NO I’m not going to make an ass out of myself (i.e., in a large group of strangers, at a new PTSD group meeting during my last year of the Army, and one of the most challenging experiences under subtitle, “Childhood vs Adulthood” above; so I’m still learning to fully trust in this Cosmic Cue.

Plus, at the human level, I may end up on Peter Sage and Team Sage’s crap list—if I’m not already on it due to bringing up red flags that needs attention—for sharing uncomfortable questions and comments.

However, since his main goal is raising global consciousness, I’d like to trust that he embraces challenges and growth, that he also teaches about.

At the higher, interconnected Soul level, I can imagine Souls like Peter and I (and anyone else) high fiving at the end of one of our lifetimes like this one, congratulating one a other and saying things like, “MAN, you played such an AWESOME @$$HOLE!!” and “WOMAN, you played an AMZING B!+TCH!” and then “Now let’s all go explore another Universe, and do our best to REMEMBER that we’re Soul Family, ok?!”

An Exchange of Peace Messages

2/7/2022

Besides making peace with L (dialogue above), I also made peace with my female Community Manger.

After almost a week of fully embracing and honoring my neutral emotions and true feelings——as well as experiencing sporadic, INTENSE pain in the middle of my chest (Heart chakra area)—I felt much lighter yesterday morning [2/6th, day before yesterday].

So I’m very grateful that I was able to naturally process authentic sadness and anger—the latter known to be a healthy UPGRADE from feeling completely powerless, to continuing to reclaim one’s inner power, by saying or doing something about it rather than feel down, hopeless, and/or lay in bed depressed.

And thanks to Peter Sage sharing a gentle invitation to “make that call” to another that we may be in conflict with (within an EMF course module video)—along with a refreshingly authentic and BOLD EMF member (and older gentleman) who first shared that he doesn’t give a F@#K if no one likes him, he’s just going to enjoy Life, and that he was going to write a forgiveness letter to someone—I was further inspired by both of them to reach out to our female Community Manger and share a message from my Heart (though I didn’t want to before, and honored that).

I didn’t expect a reply (since she didn’t at times), but to my delightful surprise, she did, and I replied to her curiosity that I believed her heartfelt comment (unlike before, where I told her that her very logical comments didn’t feel sincere and heartfelt).

For whatever reason, I wasn’t able to copy and past the interactions via Facebook Messenger, but I don’t feel like typing it all out.

So in a nutshell, our interactions worked out beautifully, and I was able to deeply appreciate ONLY because I had experienced the polar opposite, extreme CONTRAST prior to the authentic connection—a Divine gift/blessing in disguise that allows us to have an invaluable FEELING EXPERIENCE via the Heart, rather than a non-heartfelt, conceptual/thinking one via the logical mind.

We both agreed that at the Soul level, we were destined to cross paths to help one another to learn, grow, and gain profound wisdom (profound rather than regular wisdom since its about going DEEP into the beneficial Cosmic Rabbit Hole, to include inner-child work, shadow work/mirror work like The 7 Essene Mirrors (again, gracefully taught by Gregg Braden).

Supportive Feedback from 3 EMF Members

2/7/2022

From E (older gentleman): Brillant Barbara […]. Follow your heart!

My reply: 🙏🏼Thank you so much E___, appreciate you. 💖💓💕

From C (woman): Awesome Barbara. Those are some amazing insights. Your share helped me work out something I was stuck on. Ty.

My reply: Thank you so much 🙏🏼C for your generous, heartfelt, and memorable share of unconditional kindness and very uplifting feedback. See you soon at Peter’s live call! 😘💖💓💕

From L (from above dialogues) to my FOLLOW-UP reply to another member’ comment, shared under subtitle, “Update Insight Post Shared with EMF Group” & “Epiphany About a Trigger: The Neutral Aspect of Standing Ovation” within previous post, “Authenticity, Discrimination & Opposite Feelings of the Neutral, Standing Ovation“:

How wonderful, Barbara! I’d love to hear more about the Mirror Work. I do some from Louise Hay and it’s been sooo valuable. I also do the “High 5” from Mel Robbins and that’s been surprisingly fun and interesting!
I was so happy to see your post this morning!
Thanks for continuing to share your deepest thoughts and most intimate wounds.
Many people cannot or will not be that transparent in a group and, although I have nothing to hide, I also have a inbuilt gauge as to how much I want to share with others that I don’t know.
If you we are talking one to one, I’ll tell you anything you want to know.
In a group, I’ve been more reluctant to share based on GOOP [The Good Opinion of Other People, Peter’s teaching] and fear of rejection.
I’m starting to really see the value, though, in opening up even more because in this day and age, it’s getting harder and harder to separate what’s important from what’s noise.
Anytime any one of us is suffering is important.
Please feel free to call me anytime.
That also goes for the rest of this wonderful clan.
I’m a firm believer that the universe will only bring me that which I’m ready for and can handle.
I’m increasing my capacity, little by little, to step out of my comfort zone. ❤️🙏🏼🧚🏽‍♂️

My reply: L, I don’t know when you shared this comment—whether it was before or after our recent fb post interactions—but I noticed it this morning, and felt grateful.

Thank you for sharing your authentic and heartfelt message and helpful feedback.

I’ve been exploring shadow work, though later mirror work—gracefully taught by Gregg Braden—that I feel is an expanded perspective version of shadow work (since certain people and groups have misused or abused shadow work due to ignorance/unaware).

See you soon at Peter’s live call! 😘💖💓💕

From L: Thank for modeling how to respond to an intimate share–I got it today. Spot on.😍

The following are subtitles to this post:

Childhood vs Adulthood

Making Decisions on Our Terms, Not Because Others Push Their Agendas

Benefit of Building Rapport, Conditional Kindness, Our ego/Ego, Valid Questions, Channeling & Reunion of Souls

An Exchange of Peace Messages

Supportive Feedback from 3 EMF Members

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