At the beginning of this month, after experiencing what felt like another heavy and intense tsunami wave of resurfacing negativity from all directions of life (ultimately from within), I published what I felt was the last post of this blog, “The End of Outer Worlds Mirroring This Inner World” which was simply an image that best represented how I felt at the time.
At this timeframe, the heavy belief—that had been created since childhood, and further deeply ingrained throughout my adulthood—was that my outer world will continually mirror to me (via people, places, situations, things, circumstances, etc.) an unbearable amount of darkness, lack, pain, suffering, misery, and other forms of fear no matter who I choose to be and what I do in this world.
At this timeframe, Victor Oddo shared a video regarding the current, hermit phase that some of us needed to go through, and it was mind-blowing how spot on he was (again).
Since I had already shared the observation of Victor often being spot on several times before, I didn’t feel the need to write another comment at the time; plus, I wasn’t feeling anywhere close to my best to give from an empty cup.
So I went through yet, another phase of mostly solitude time after leaving the sixth job in Sedona within a little over a year (or technically, seventh job since I left the company within the Bell Rock area twice, the second time two weeks after I got a promotion—which my logical mind kept kicking my @$$ about for letting go of a great opportunity).
Though I’ve built some good memories—practically all of them at my last job—the overall experiences with all jobs in Sedona have left me baffled to the max, as though I had stepped into this mostly dark, Twilight Zone where subtle rays of light would shine through every now and then, but then quickly disappear.
As shared in various posts under the Sedona section of the About page; this is ironic considering Sedona is known to be the “mecca of Spirituality”; however, I feel that it is, in a sense, when it comes to the surrounding nature—especially the red rocks and their high vibrational vortex energy areas, that even the juniper trees respond to so beautifully.
I also know, from personal experience, that are some kind people (and others) in Sedona as well; and whether they consider themselves spiritual or not, their love-based actions speaks volumes.
Note: Image on left above found next to => Pinterest
For approximately two weeks prior to leaving my last Sedona job, I experienced what felt like a sudden avalanche of intense negativity from various people at work and home—mostly from a few coworkers, a few members, a few hotel guests, management (who are usually great) and my husband—with people snapping, being passive-aggressive, blaming, excessively complaining, yelling, and even going ape sh!+ crazy.
It was as if my logical mind was like, “What the HELL is going on?! I just got a miraculous promotion (and leap in pay)—only after working at the Bell Rock area for four months—and now THIS bull$h!+?! Sporadic bs I can take, but this explosion of MEGA LOAD OF doo doo is TOO MUCH!!!”
And my Heart was like, “Yyyeah, it’s time to go. Let’s carry on to the happier stuff of life. Mind, I realize that you’re frustrated, worried, and even scared, but everything’s going to be okay; let’s trust us, okay?”
I think my ego self had reached its breaking point with the now crystal clear realization that Spirit/Goddess within is leading the ship—Multidimensional, whole self (earthly and otherworldly physical selves)/Self (Source: Soul/Spirit within—while the awakening version of physical, human ego self (into Soul/God) is the Advisor of this particular world (not the enemy).
I spent a lot of time sleeping (because I felt so exhausted from this physical reality and other parallel and alternate dark world realities during dream state), drinking and eating whatever I felt like (without judging myself), watching various types of YouTube videos (spiritual and so-called non-spiritual), watching comedy specials that made me laugh, watching Korean dramas and movies (to include animated ones), and basically being non-productive and non-contributing according to this world.
The beauty of it all was that I somehow didn’t give a rat’s @$$ whether or not I was a contributer according to society (since I trusted that I am within the bigger picture), and I had no desire to worry about life or even death.
One day while taking a bath, I became curious like a cat, and wondered what it would be like to experience electricity (male energy) merging with water (female energy), though I understood conceptually that it’s a very “bad” idea.
Plus, the elderly man instructor from the recent CPR/AED class I had attended (shortly before leaving), sternly warned everyone that water and electricity doesn’t mix no matter what, which reminded me of female and male energies/Heart and Mind/the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine/Spirit and Soul/Yin and Yang/Moon and Sun/Goddess and God.
A while back, I had read about a tragic accident; a 12 year old female had passed away after her cell phone dropped into the full bathtub she was in, and my heart went out to her, and hoped she didn’t suffer.
A part of me wanted to leave this world, and another part of me wanted to challenge death; and while contemplating whether or not I experiment with myself, a part of self felt extremely nervous, and another part of self felt oddly excited with anticipation of what might happen.
This reason is due to a very mysterious bathtub experience I had a while back recorded in post, “Dream of Shouting to Goddess While Flying Through Wormhole.“
So I silently intended for Soul and Spirit within to merge as One, and then slowly dropped my cell phone into the tub of warm-hot water (that was plugged in via an extension chord).
However, I was shocked that nothing physically noticeable happened, and I wondered if most cell phones these days prevent such “accidents” from occurring.
A tiny part of self felt a bit disappointed, but the greater part of self felt relieved and even satisfied for the safe outcome. Afterall, one could end up experiencing severe, excruciating burns without even dying I suppose.
I don’t know why the same death didn’t occur for me as the little girl; perhaps difference in body weight, type of phone, and/or some other factor. But I strangely formed a seemingly crazy@$$ trust that no matter what I do, and how many times I try or don’t try in different ways, if it’s not time to go, I’m not meant to leave this planet any time soon; so it would behoove me (and others) to simply embrace this lifetime on Earth, and enjoy it to the best of my ability.
Speaking of which, recently, I applied for various jobs in a few other states that caught my attention, to see what the Universe within would temporarily match me up with—according to my current known and unknown needs, interests, wants and desires—so that I can somehow contribute financially to myself and my family of a husband and two cats, since money is a very beneficial, neutral tool in this physical reality.
Since I FELT excited most of the time while exploring the many possibilities and probabilities—due to the thought of reinventing self, new life, new experiences, new adventures, etc.—I intuitively knew that I was back on track to a life path that’s in alignment with Spirit within; and sure enough, I began noticing number synchronicity actively play out it my life once again, which confirmed what I already strongly sensed.
Today, while following my inner guidance on how to benefit and enjoy my life (to the best of my ability), I watched what I was drawn to again, which included Victor Oddo’s helpful videos, as well as a soul-igniting Teal Swan video titled, “Spirituality in The Information Age” (I’m going to include the comment I shared for this video in the next post titled, “What is a Profoundly Wise Soul Truly Worth?“).
But last but not least, I recently had an amazing experience of various, uplifting abundance—overflowing with trust (in self and others), inner-peace, humor, smiles, laughter, profound wisdom, freedom, delicious food, the sharing of personal stories and exciting ideas, etc..
It was completely unexpected to have so much fun with my former coworkers (a wonderful couple), especially considering that was our first outing together as two sets of couples.
I had hung out with my female coworker (now friend) at a lunch gathering one other time—for another former coworker’s birthday celebration—but I couldn’t believe how incredibly comfortable it felt in both of their presence.
We agreed that our comfort level was due to having had relationships in previous lifetimes. Though we said it jokingly, I sensed we all intuitively knew the truth within it.
They, too, are planning to leave Sedona in Divine perfect timing and order, and I mentioned to them that I had read in a book that ancient souls are meant to spend brief times in Sedona, but not actually live there since the higher frequencies are meant to be integrated and then shared at other locations throughout this world.
The four of us shared our dreams and ideas to perhaps start a new a life at a different location, and co-create together what we had individually envisioned for a while, but surprisingly perfectly matched as group ideas like beautiful puzzle pieces.
One of the angel number messages that I’ve re-read recently is that things will come together like puzzle pieces, and sure enough, voila!
What blew me away even further was the text message I received later that evening from my soul-sister friend.
It was right after I sent her a gratitude text, and that my husband and I agreed that that gathering was hands down the most fun we ever had with a couple.
The last time I felt such a close friendship with another female was in Virginia back in the early to mid 90’s, whom I shared stories about within this blog (to include the post titled, “True Friendship” I believe).
Since then, no one else came close; however, this new soul-sister friend feels even closer than any girlfriend I ever had; and from a logical perspective, it doesn’t make any sense since I technically barely know her. However, from my heart space, it feels like I’ve known her for a very long time.
What’s even crazier (in an amazing way), the day I found out her last name, I was instantly reminded of a seemingly unknown Being who kept showing up in my inner world once I started reading the Atlantean Emerald Tablets book (where I heard myself silently reading to myself in a very deep, gentle, poetic, male voice, which has never happened before that or afterwards; I also spoke this same voice in dreams while being otherworldly beings, but I couldn’t tell who or what exactly since I didn’t have a mirror in front of me).
I wrote several posts about this mysterious, yet, somewhat familiar Being, to include post, “Dream of Shouting at Ibis, ‘God Thoth, Wake Up!’”
In the above mentioned post, “Dream of Shouting to Goddess While Flying Through Wormhole,“ I stated the following in this deep, male voice: At that very moment, I recall feeling very excited, and even shouted something to the effect, “I’m coming to meet you Goddess!”
Anyway, in her text message, she reminded me of our ancient Lemurian connection in such a soul-igniting, poetic way, and how we’re meant to co-create the new together. I actually FELT the truth in that statement that could easily be swayed by the logical mind as unrealistic (or any other nonsupporting adjective).
Ever since I first met her, she playfully asked me one day what planet I was from, and I instantly sensed that she was part of my Soul Family due to her overall vibes—vibrational frequency that felt so aware, observant, authentic, free-spirited, wild, unconventional, open-minded, open-hearted, honest, gentle, assertive, confident, wise, and unconditionally loving.
From that day forth, she referred to me as her Pleiadian sister, since she had shared that she highly resonates with the Pleiadians, and I, too, mentioned the same, as well as resonating with the Arcturians and other star systems.
One day, when I was having a rough day at work, but did my best to maintain the professional and happy demeanor, she asked me in a such a gentle and compassionate manner, while looking into my soul with deep, ocean-like eye contact, “How are you today?”
When I replied that I was doing good, she refused to receive an untruth by asking again, “No really, how are you?”
I had never experienced that before, so a part of me felt uncomfortable (as though I had been exposed naked), yet, another part of me felt so relieved and grateful that someone was actually willing to take the time (out of their busy day) to BE fully present with another—to truly SEE the real me at that vulnerable moment (who wasn’t happy).
Side Note: In at least one of her very helpful videos, Teal Swan shared a very important topic about the deeper meaning of intimacy within any relationship, and not just romantic ones, which I also agree is lacking in our world).
This seemingly simple, yet, deeply profound, new experience was one of those rare and precious moments where bright rays of light pierced through the dark clouds, radiating its undefinable, Divine essence, and reminding my soul to trust in the beauty of Life.
I strongly sense there is much more uplifting abundance to tune into, and when I noticed 188 twice yesterday—within a series of number synchronicity—I was drawn to read an interpretation from a website that I used as a guidance tool whenever I FEEL like it (only extracting what I highly resonate with and disregarding the rest) titled, ANGEL NUMBERS ~ Joanne Sacred Scribes.
The following is an excerpt from this website:
Angel Number 188 is an uplifting message of encouragement from your angels. Your positive affirmations, thoughts, beliefs and visualizations have manifested in an increased flow of monetary abundance. Enjoy your rewards of prosperity and be grateful and appreciative of them so that the supply continues. As you receive more, so you can give more. Angel Number 188 is a powerful message telling of achievements, success, striving forward, progress and attainment. It is a message to stay optimistic and listen to your intuition and inner-guidance as you hold positive expectations and thoughts of abundance. Expect an increase to your finances. Angel Number 188 suggests that you keep your finances in check to ensure that you have set solid foundations for yourself and your loved ones as this will ensure your future prosperity. You are to be responsible for your own income, abundance and well-being. The Universe and your angels will always support you, but it is your responsibility to ensure that you put in the appropriate work and effort. You are asked to live up to your full potential. You will only know that you can do something once you try.
Note: The last sentence above reminded me of a couple things: My recent daydreams and visualizations of starting a new life and reinventing self, which includes further exploring the experience of Being a multidimensional, female, open-mic comedian, integrating three powerful forces into one—joyful humor, profound wisdom, and unconditional love—in order to highly benefit self/interconnected Life within this world and beyond.
Recently, after receiving more ideas and insights, I typed away with much excitement another open-mic comedy set, part of my collection for approximately three years, half of which I’ve practiced at four different cities and towns eight times so far.
So I’m intending to build up the courage again to follow my true passion and excitement, without being concerned of the outcomes (i.e., what’s considered this world’s success). I intend to remind myself, as often as needed, to just have FUN! ^_^
Inserted on 7/27/19: UPDATE post, “The Realization of Already Experiencing Uplifting Abundance from Within“
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