Cosmic Experiment, 3D game, or whatever the hell’s going on…it’s OVER.

I no longer have the desire to form any type of meaningful relationship with another human being (especially work related); Therapy on the Rocks is my absolute last “9 to 5” job in this final lifetime on Earth.

Last Update, 7/20/2018 (in Turquoise font only): I was relieved from Therapy on the Rocks near closing time this afternoon. From a limited, physical mind perspective, it was hurtful injustice due to a lie that was told by a so-called “enemy” (coworker) who never gave me a chance since I started working there; in addition I had the eeriest experience I ever had right before closing. However, from an expanded perspective, it was a blessing in disguise, another layer of onion that didn’t make me happy, and needed to be released. Story continuing in last update post, “An Additional Challenge of Sedona to Continue Integrating Shadow Aspects.”

I don’t care what happens to this mostly corrupt world and all of its ongoing, earthly dramas (that’s getting VERY OLD). I trust that every soul evolves at its own pace on whatever path that best fits, so I don’t worry.

I no longer give a rat’s ass about “outer world mirroring inner world.”

I have no doubt that Mother Earth can take care of Herself (i.e, mega tsunamis, other extreme weather, and The Flood), and doesn’t need humans (like some arrogant “Lightworkers”) lost in rescue mode to save her from doom.

I’m done being and doing my best to often see the bigger picture (expanded perspective/open and integrated Mind/Heart), and to unconditionally accept, embrace, and even deeply love ALL aspects of humanity; it’s immensely draining, and damn near impossible.

I’ve noticed for a while that I fully enjoy my own presence, as well as that of Mother Earth/Nature, though I used to feel very lonely being alone in the past.

I deeply love a handful of authentic, rare others that I’ve known in the past (the few, true friends) whom I used to miss dearly, but have recently let go of the emotional attachment; I wish them much happiness.

I unconditionally embrace genuinely loving souls like Jane, whom I recently met. Her kindness is truly unconditional, unlike the majority of humans I’ve crossed paths with.

In addition, Jane’s gentle, yet, very powerful bear hugs are the most sincere and heartfelt hugs that I’ve ever experienced my entire life; they moved me so deeply that I almost cried, but refrained since it wasn’t an “appropriate” time and place.

She will be heading back home soon, and I will write her a short note sharing what I expressed right above. I wish her, and like others, much happiness.

And last but not least, I unconditionally accept and care for my Earth family members, especially my adult children and current husband; I wish them all much happiness.

But other than that, if I never saw the rest of the humans I’ve crossed paths with thus far, I wouldn’t lose any sleep; however, I’m grateful that they all unknowingly pushed/assisted me (at the soul level) toward myself, causing me to let go more and more of caring so much about humanity as a whole.

So I end this blog by recording these final thoughts and feelings to my Galactic and Universal families.

Now my life is 100% on my terms, even if it means ending it one miraculous and magical day because I choose to have deep compassion for extremely exhausted self (on all levels—mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually); 44 years of much hell on earth experiences is more than enough.

I now embrace being worthy of inner-peace, freedom, various forms of positive abundance (to include monetary abundance), financial freedom, creativity, harmony, happiness, and unconditional love.

Perhaps I will be able to experience this once I transform into another energy state and return to wherever I came from; if not, I can accept that too.

Spirit within, I don’t know what all you want from me,  but I’m really tired, and I don’t have anymore to give. Goodnight.

Updates

7/20/2018

According to today’s “negative” happening shared in post, “An Additional Challenge of Sedona to Continue Integrating Shadow Aspects,” it can easily be perceived—from the limited, human mind perspective—as though I’m being punished from a higher power because of what I had expressed within this post yesterday.

However, I have no doubt that neutral Soul/Spirit within—aka I (God) AM (Goddess) Presence/ultimately Prime Creator/Creator of All Creation: Crop Circle 6666/Source/Holy Spirit/the Divine Mother Goddess—doesn’t judge or condemn me for my authentic expressions during an extremely low energy state.

I could easily delete this post, but I choose to leave it as is since I would still love to fully trust (deep within) in Divine Wisdom (which is remembering the Divine perfection of all of Life/All That Is [despite outer appearances); integrated with Divine Love (Unconditional/True Love for self/others) and Divine Power (power that’s not misused or abused).

7/29/2018

I’m currently still working on related post, “Identifying and Changing Self-Limiting, Core Beliefs” since 7/26th (spending whatever amount of time per day depending how I feel)

A helpful video I watched for the first time today, “How to Cure Apathy – Teal Swan –“