Note: This post is the last update for the post series that includes, “The So-Called Rich Woman Who Mistook Kindness for Weakness” and “Farewell Old and Outdated Beliefs of Being Lower Class and Not Being Rich and Wealthy Within” (image on right below found next to link => High Performing Culture)
The woman—whom I sent the series of text messages to in the above, second post—stopped by my work this past Wednesday (4/24/19); she called the day prior, and found out from one of my coworkers that I was working that day.
She approached me while limping, and then went off on a rant about how much stress I caused her (from having expressed my inner-truths).
I informed her that I was training someone, so I had to get back to work, but she kept going on and on about how I misunderstood her, how her leg has prevented her from being herself, how causing others pain bothers her so much, how her in-laws didn’t take responsibility, how much she adored my smiling face, how she told me not to work too hard (that I don’t recall her saying at all), how she told me to take leftover food (implying that she did care that I ate dinner after the day 1 of 2 pre-wedding event where I worked past 9pm, over an hour after the agreed upon time), etc.
I started slowly walking away from her—something I’ve learned to do in the past with a few, excessively chatty people—but her disharmonious words, that seemed to flood from her mouth, followed me while she repeated the same expressions.
So at one point, in order to calm her down, I told her that we could briefly talk later, to which she raised her voice and said, “That won’t be necessary!” and stormed off to the best of her ability.
Soon after she left, a part of me felt so relieved that I would never see her again, but another part of me felt resentful that she tried to manipulate me again, by turning things around and stating that I’m the one who caused her a lot of stress.
I allowed myself to feel my true feelings without judgment, and then intended to continue to let go of EVERYTHING that weighs me down, and that no longer benefits my whole, Multidimensional self (earthly and otherworldly physical selves)/Self (Soul/Spirit within), to include the “ping pong” blame game.
To be transparently honest with myself, I chose to not listen to my intuition the first day I met this woman, though I subtlety (and even obviously) sensed a few moments that something was off about her intentions towards the end of our conversation.
For instance, though she wanted me to help her out mostly as an interpreter, she later mentioned (the first day) that my former coworker was helping out as well (though she doesn’t speak any Korean).
The woman also stated, while walking by our spa front desk, “Oh, she’s pretty too! Maybe she can help out as well” (as though she was recruiting pretty females for her parade). I told her that’s the coworker who switched shifts with me so that I can help out with her events; hence, she wouldn’t be able to help out as well.
I allowed myself to be sucked into this woman’s manipulation tactics—to include the facade of being desperate, not having anyone to help her, not knowing what to expect due to the absence of experience, etc.—and I think my society-conditioned ego self wanted to be a hero and rescue her, and to also feel good about “doing the right thing” and helping a fellow Korean out during challenging times.
And when things went spiraling down, and some unsavory truths were revealed, I temporarily became lost within my own victim mentality.
So now I see with clarity why this woman showed up in my outer reality for the first and last times. The “victim” aspect within desired to be unconditionally embraced and integrated into whole self/Self without judgment.
When I expand my perspective/consciousness, and truly SEE like the hawk (or Great Spirit) that flies over a dark valley (3D Earth School), I can FEEL compassion for this aspect that has resurfaced into my awareness recently, and deeply empathize with this part of whole self/Self who desires to be profoundly healed on all energetic levels—physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual—and to ultimately experience Unconditional True Love (for self/others).
This applies to all other neutral, unknown/shadow aspects within, to include the ones shared as subtitles in updated post, “‘Freak’ Shadow Aspects Within, Showing Up as Others, Before and After Full Moon.”
I love experiencing the seemingly complex broken down into seemingly simple, like this engaging video that does an outstanding job of explaining Life’s interconnectedness, “Dr Quantum and Entanglement.”
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