The following are sub-themes to the main theme:

• Intro
• September 11, 2013 (Wednesday) Angelic Journal and Dream Tracker
• Angelic Journal
• Dream Tracker
• Power of Perspective
• Heal…And Then Be Healed
• Transmute with Love Energy
• Positive Synchronicities
• The “Hell on Earth Nightmare”
• Embracing My Dark Side
• Embracing My Light Side
• Let’s Be P.E.C.!!!  😉     Note: The meaning of this acronym is within this sub-theme

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• —  The Gift Disguised as a Nightmare
• —  Sign of Being on “Right” Path
• —  Meanings of Key Words in Last Part of Dream
• —  My Interpretation of Last Part of Dream
• —  Releasing “Negative” Beliefs That No Longer Positively Serve us
• —  Our Own Version of Heaven on Earth
• —  Quotes of Readings Relevant to This Post
• —  Definitions & Jesus Quotes Relevant to This Post
• Explanations of Polarity and Duality
• Soul-touching Videos

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Thank you so much to all the amazing souls who have shared their beautiful, mesmerizing, colorful, inspirational, profoundly wise, helpful and/or soul-touching images that I’ve used throughout this blog.

Intro

It’s pouring rain outside today, so I placed my crystals outside to be cleansed and recharged by the natural flowing rain water, tiny sun rays peeking through the puffy, dark clouds, and overflowing Love and Light energy. I’m also hoping for some thunder.

I used to not like rainy and cloudy days most of my life because the gloominess reminded me of sadness; although sometimes, a part of me strangely got a little excited by thunderstorms with lightning.

It was a contradiction I couldn’t understand, until one night…where I learned/remembered to embrace the darkness, and transformed one of my fears into love. I wrote a post about it in the middle of the night, a while back, called, “An Invitation from My Soul.“

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September 11, 2013 (Wednesday) Angelic Journal and Dream Tracker

Angelic Journal

Note: This is where I record my daily experiences with the angelic and spiritual realms

• am: 3:34 (from bed; went back to sleep), 6:16 (when I decided to get out of bed), 6:33, 6:44, 6:55, 888-8888 (commercial; my favorite phone number..just because of the repeating number 8  =D ), 7:22 (right after I typed the last paragraph of this journal), 9:44…etc.

Side Note (in italics):

I believe that I’m meant to see sets of number sequences (e.g., 6:33, 6:44, and 6:55) because my angels, Archangels, and Ascended Masters are helping me to practice (say out loud) these inspirational messages/guidance that I turn into positive affirmations (to include “I AM” statements).

For example, for number 334 (above), I look up the meaning on my angel numbers website (mentioned below). If one of the guidance reads,  “Listen to your intuition, inner-wisdom and angelic guidance to glean insight, assistance and support whenever you feel the need,” I change it into a positive affirmation, and say out loud, “I AM Listening to my intuition, inner-wisdom and angelic guidance to glean insight, assistance and support whenever I feel the need.”

Anyone can practice positive affirmations; with repetition, it can help reprogram our subconscious minds, which not have an abundance of positive thoughts, feelings and beliefs stored in them. In that case, it makes it more challenging to create a positive life since negative attracts negative. The goal is to transform our thoughts, feelings and deep beliefs into positive energy, so that we may create from a positive and strong foundation so to speak.

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 This method allows me to continue thinking, feeling and visualizing positive thoughts, feelings and images, which then helps me to change my negative beliefs (that I’ve been conditioned by society) deep within my subconscious/unconscious mind (that have been suppressed or repressed in the past) into positive beliefs. 

Because it is only when we create from positive beliefs deep within ourselves, that we can have positive thoughts, which in turn creates positive feelings, and then raises our vibration to a faster and lighter state, which enables us to tune into the positive reality of our choice (since there are an infinite number of possible parallel realities that we can shift into with our vibration in The Moment of Now. The higher our vibration…the more positive our reality…like our own version of “Heaven on Earth.”

I believe that we can all transform, like beautiful butterflies, and expand our consciousness; it’s just that some of us (like me) could use the extra help to release an excessive amount of negative thoughts, feelings, images and beliefs (that have built up in this past lifetime, and perhaps other past lifetimes) that no longer positively serve us.

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I woke up in the middle of the morning, I think 3:05, and communicated with my true self that I would love to commune in silence and stillness, but that it was discouraging because it doesn’t seem like I’m making any progress, perhaps due to my impatience that I’m working on.

The next thing you know, I received an intuitive knowing that all my relationships with others (regardless of the depth or type of relationship–“good” or “bad”), and especially my acceptance and unconditional love with myself, is having a relationship/reconnecting with/communing with my true self.

I then had an urge to look at the bedroom clock, and I saw 3:34 a.m. When I do see number sequences in the middle of the night or morning, they usually include triple or quadruple digits (e.g., 11:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44, etc.), so I wasn’t used to recording anything else; however, I chose to believe that angel message 3:34 is just as significant.

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The following is from the website http://www.reconnections.net: “Oneself: (see also All That Is, Higher Self) This term seems to be very satisfying to the Reconnections right now (Spring, 1998). It is non-specific, but very personal. It can be applied to everyone of us individually, or it can encompass the multiplicity of all in a collaborative way. It gets away from a specific “God” or “Goddess”—and, therefore, it is not defined or confined. It is used in many of the current writings.”

The following (in italics) is from the website that I often use to receive meaning from my daily number synchronicities ==> http://sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.com/p/index-numbers.html

ANGEL NUMBER 334

Dream Tracker

Note: This is where I record my daily dreams. Additional points or explanations were added to complete the picture.

Power of Perspective

I heard a fluctuating tone in my right ear after my husband woke me up from crying from my first version of “hell on earth” nightmare that was very vivid and felt so real. I initially thought that I had such a negative dream due to a transference of low energy yesterday.

I had a reunion lunch with my husband and his two, former soldiers (D and G) from his final unit, who are now residing in our city. They’re currently both going through a rough journey.

But then I realized that I shouldn’t be thinking negative about this situation, since it’s all about one’s perspective. Rather than blaming others’ transference of low-energy for my own nightmares, I can choose a positive attitude and outlook by 1) taking responsibility for my own inner turmoil that surface as dreams to be acknowledged by me and 2) giving myself credit; that perhaps I transmuted their low-energy, rather than the other way around.

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Heal…And Then Be Healed

D is going through a very stressful time. He shared with me his personal story about how he’s going through a separation period from his daughter and his ex-girlfriend, and that his ex-girlfriend isn’t making his situation easier because she isn’t willing to make peace with him. He then mentioned how he keeps himself super busy with work, and other extra activities, to avoid thinking about his problems.

I shared with him that I could relate to him because I, too, was a workaholic during the week (and very active during the weekends) while I was in the Army, to avoid getting depressed about being separated from my kids. 

But I also added that I just recently learned that suppressing such hurt only made it build up to the point that it made me eventually explode (Note: Story in older post, “Discovering the Beauty Behind the Walls of the Mentally Ill”); and that it’s healthier to release the hurt by first acknowledging the feelings as perfectly okay, and then trusting the process of life by embracing the way things are at the moment.

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I further shared with D that I realized what the saying, “Hindsight is 20/20” meant when I looked back at my life and was so grateful that all my relationships prior to meeting my current husband didn’t work out; otherwise, I would’ve never met him. I continued that everything fell into place perfectly, because I’ve even been friends with my first husband and his current wife for a while now, which works out best for everyone, especially our kids…because kids can sense tension; they’re very observant.

He agreed that it made sense, and then we both agreed for him to just go with the flow. We also agreed that taking medication in the past for our depression didn’t work out for either one of us since it made us feel like apathetic zombies.

My husband informed me ahead of time that G (his other soldier) has PTSD; he was in an IED (Improvised Explosive Device) explosion during deployment, and the rest of his team didn’t make it. It made me sad to hear that. When my husband and I were both stationed in Hawaii, I even heard horror stories from him (as well as other former soldiers from his platoon) about what medics have to face while deployed.

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One of the most painful stories is my husband having to treat burnt victims, and never being able to forget the awful smell. My husband suffers from PTSD as well, although he was in denial for the longest time (like a lot of soldiers)…probably trying to tough it out as a platoon sergeant/leader himself. He still has nightmares every now and then, although he’s been through some counseling.

Anyway, I focused on not appearing as though G’s continuous, rapid blinking of his eyes somewhat distracted me as I was conversing with him. I didn’t want to create an awkward atmosphere, as I understood it was a symptom of his PTSD; my heart went out to him. I could tell he was the really shy guy, so I tried to break the ice by being a smart-ass, amateur comedian.

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Transmute with Love Energy

We all had a great time yesterday; the initial serious and somewhat uncomfortable demeanor of D and G transformed into smiling and laughing campers as we shared food, drinks, jokes, funny stories, each other’s current life happenings, comfort, encouragement and suggestions.

D is currently a combat medic instructor, so I was able to help him with certain topics since I was an instructor at the interrogations school at my second to last duty station. G was medically discharged, due to his PTSD, so he goes to school full-time to work in the therapy field.

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D and G both shared stories about how their experiences as a combat medic helped them in their current lives. D was in a major car accident, a while back, on his way to his current unit. His vehicle flipped a couple of times after a truck did a hit and run.

Fortunately, he was able to give himself first-aid, as well as provide guidance to the young EMT (Emergency Medical Technician), who was struggling to do what he was recently trained on as he nervously flipped through his little notepad. The EMT thanked D excitedly for his help and patience.

Because G had studied a lot during his training in the Army, as well as built up various experiences in the past, he didn’t have to stress out as much while studying for his classes. However, he did admit there were still much new information to learn.

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Positive Synchronicities

Towards the end of lunch, we all made future plans, to include: D and G coming over for home-cooked meals throughout their remaining time here; my husband, G and I watching D’s volley game every now and then…as well as watching or participating in his local, Hawaiian gatherings (to include luaus, hula dancing and fire-eating); having a doggie date (G has an American Bulldog and we have a Siberian Husky), and D and G coming over for a Korean BBQ at our home to celebrate the birthdays of D, G, my husband, and my dog (which were literally back-to-back, one day after another/four days in a row).

This was a sure sign for me that everything was falling into place perfectly, to include D and G contacting my husband out of the blue after six years of not seeing one another, since we were all located in different states. They had contacted him because they wanted help in finding a house to rent, and since they knew he’s a Realtor via Facebook, they decided to ask…just in case he can help with rentals.

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Although my husband usually doesn’t do rentals, he agreed to help without hesitation (and with much excitement), since they’re his former soldiers; plus, he has the tools that only realtors can access online.

One of the main things that I love about my hubby is his continuous willingness to help others with much unconditional love and kindness. I’m sure his former soldiers love him for similar reasons.

Before we left Hawaii, his soldiers organized a gathering at a restaurant, and then presented him with a 3 ft by 3 ft frame that displays, “Medical Platoon Sergeant…Your leadership and dedication to your soldiers is nothing short of inspirational…Mahalo and Aloha!” along with more personal details, typical unit symbols and insignia. It was so touching; I was very happy for him. I’ve seen plenty of leadership (even those with higher positions) receive plaques before, but none of them were that big.

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My husband has the gift of making others so comfortable, that two of his former clients invited us to their personal family events, to include BBQ’s, game nights and their children’s birthday parties.

One client even asked my husband if he could be his sister-in-law’s Realtor, after my husband had already helped him to buy his house. Then, he invited us to his daughter’s Quinceañera (literally meaning One–female–who is fifteen), which we both had never experienced before. It was a huge, traditional celebration, which marks the transition from childhood to young womanhood; it was absolutely wonderful!

His other former client, a senior Airmen, recommended my husband to his friend, who was scheduled to arrive here soon, after my husband had helped him to buy a new house as well.

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I told my husband, “I don’t think too many former clients invite their realtors to family functions. These are all blessings. They must really trust that they can count on you to recommend you to their friend; and they must really trust you to spend time around their family, especially their children.

He replied that he was very grateful, and he even sent thank you cards to them. I then told him that they sense his goodness, respect his personable and professional demeanor, enjoy his great sense of humor, admire his gentleness and playfulness with their children, appreciate his patience, rely on his honesty, and will always remember his dedication to help them and their families.

Once, when my husband became discouraged, because the real estate market wasn’t doing so well here, I reminded him to continue Being the amazing person and Realtor that he is–with his positive attitude, his ambition to Be his best, his diligence, his determination to be super, real-estate tech-savy in this information age, and his desire to help others to become happy with their dream homes. I then suggested that we trust the process of life, and that he will receive all the positive energy that he sends out to the universe.

Note: Check out the brief reading, “Trust Your Timing,” towards the bottom of this post’ it’s from a website http://iasos.com (<== click title) about Bashar’s spot-on teachings about the universe (Bashar, the multi-dimensional being through channel Darryl Anka, not the President of Syria) . It helped my husband and I to better trust the process of life.

On our way home, my husband thanked me for joining him in his meeting with his former soldiers, for creating a fun atmosphere, and for being amazing.

He continued that D and G were his two, quietest soldiers (far from being social butterflies), and that they were definitely enjoying themselves and being more chatty than usual.

Hearing that made me so happy. I thanked him as well for being such a great leader and friend to them, and for a fun day. I felt my heart expand with the good kind of chest pressure.

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The “Hell on Earth Nightmare”

My version of a “hell on earth nightmare” is not about monsters, evil spirits and/or zombies; I had all of them before, and though I still considered them scary nightmares, I didn’t consider them my hell on earth.

Basically, in this nightmare, everything that could go “wrong” went wrong with me and my closest family members and friends. Although a part of me felt like the dreams were so disturbing that I didn’t even want to think about them (or record them), let alone share them with my husband…another part of me (my true self) chose to have faith that all is well.

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Embracing My Dark Side

Recently, I had asked the Arcturians for rapid healing, and then thanked them ahead of time, so I should be prepared to receive it (not just talk the talk), just as I was prepared to wear my Moldavite necklace to accelerate my spiritual growth, even though I had read comments about people who had horrific nightmares while wearing it. Note: Arcturians are known as pure beings/highly spiritual beings, who reside in the 5th dimensional civilization, and posses one of the best and rapid healing technologies.

Side Note (in italics): I wrote about my first experience of wearing my Moldavite necklace to bed, in a section of my post called, “The Invaluable Birth to Earth Gifts” that I’ve almost completed. I had a bad and good nightmare. It was by far the scariest nightmare I ever had (the vivid sight, intense sound and strong feelings made it feel very real).

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However, it was also one of the most spiritual dreams I’ve ever had because it was the very first nightmare where I, not only faced a dark being/so-called monster/my dark side, but I also had compassion for it, embraced it, and said, “Let us merge as one.”

Note: The previous statement definitely stemmed from my true self, because if I had encountered such a dark being in real life, I’m pretty sure that statement would not be my first choice of words. My ego would more than likely be like, “Uhhh…I’d love to stick around and chat more, but I have a bowel cleansing appointment that I need to go to.”

Anyway, I then communicated with it, understood it, and then I attempted to transmute its low energy state by singing to it (opera-style). Note: This is the #2 reason I believe it’s my true self’s idea: I’m not even a fan of opera. My husband had to wake me up while I was making these sounds, and I could even hear myself as I was waking up.

Anyway, the  reason I said “attempted” is because I woke up, so I don’t know if I even made any difference. I believe the reason why my true self chose the whole singing idea is because sound is very powerful, especially the Love Frequency of 528 Hz, which has been used by scientists to help plants flourish.

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Let’s Be P.E.C.!!!  😉

“P.E.C. :  Persons of Expanding Consciousness.  This term refers to an individual who has chosen the path of Reconnection to All That Is, including all the bumps and bruises that go along with letting go of our Veils of Forgetfulness and developing practical methods of interface with the rest of All That Is.”  By http://www.reconnections.net/glossary.htm

Note: The meaning of other definitions (from the same website above), that are relevant to this post and Life itself, can be found at the bottom of this post under the sub-theme “Definitions & Jesus Quotes Relevant to This Post”

The other day, I came upon the following new and amazing website,”http://www.reconnections.net/glossary.htm” which embraces the ALL (dark and light)/All That Is, which helped me to feel so liberated and excited. Like Bashar (the multi-dimensional being through channel Darryl Anka, not the President of Syria) said…we know we’re in alignment with our core, true self through our body’s expression of excitement. It’s like our soul shouting with joy, “Yes! Let’s do this exciting thing (or Be this exciting theme now)!”

I felt liberated because it helped me to let go of the small amount of guilt I felt for liking, or even loving some of the things that I do, and liking, or even loving Being some of the “darker” aspects of me. I love fully expressing myself (the ALL of me), ranging from the dark to light spectrum, and every gray in-between. However, I thought that, as we become “enlightened,” we’re supposed to only like and love things (and only like and love the “angelic” side of us) that stem from the light side of the spectrum.

For instance, I love watching shows like Criminal Minds and American Horror Story because it fascinates me to explore these shades of darkness without having to actually experience them. And as much as i scream while watching horror movies, I still enjoy (or enjoyed) certain ones, like the classic The Exorcist, and The Ring, I AM Legend, The Descent, and Evil Dead.

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I even enjoy watching the shows in-between “dark” and “Light”–the various shades of gray–that are mixed with themes that society may label as “good” or “bad,” and even unconventional, because they include profanity, different degrees of violence, LGBT, sex, alcohol, controversies, and truths (that many secretly think about, but don’t have the balls to talk about in public, etc.).

Some examples are shows like: Under the Dome, Modern Family, The Big Bang Theory, Two and a Half Men, Roseanne and Key & Peele; comedians like Kat Williams, Ron White, Chris Rock, Kevin Hart, Kings of Comedy, Tosh, etc.; mobster movies like Scarface, The Godfather series, The Goodfellas, Mob Squad; historical movies like, Conan the Barbarian, The Beast Master, Gladiator, Braveheart The Last Samurai, Transformers, etc.).

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I also love reading and watching videos about Spirituality, as well as watching so-called “clean” shows like:  Joel Osteen’s positive sermons; clean comedy like The Blue Collar Comedy trio and Sebastian Maniscalco; inspirational movies like The Count of Monte Cristo, The Color Purple, Forrest Gump, Avatar, The Joy Luck Club, E.T., Memoirs of a Geisha, The Notebook, etc.), superheros movies (especially The Dark Night) and a movie about Balance…Beautiful Creatures.

When it comes to music, I love practically the entire spectrum of it, to include (but not limited to): inspirational music, classical music and beautiful soundtracks (esp. various Beethoven masterpieces, “Air” by Johann Sebastian Bach, “I’m Listening” by James Newton Howard and “Time” and “The Last Sumurai–A Way of Life” by Hans Zimmer; “Now We Are Free” from Gladiator soundtrack, Braveheart soundtrack ), pop (songs like “Greatest Love of All” by Whitney Houston, “We are the World” by USA for Africa, “Because You Loved Me” by Celine Dion, “Hero” by Mariah Carey, “Diamonds” by Rihanna; I also love Katie Perry’s “E.T.,” “Wide Awake” and “Firework” songs, as well as others; she’s so spiritual and inspirational)…

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Cont…soft rock, 80’s rock, 90’s rock (especially “Kryptonite” by 3 Doors Down and “If Everyone Cared” by Nickleback), R & B, alternative, hip-hop (currently love the song “Mirror” by Lil Wayne and Bruno Mars), heavy metal (especially Metallica’s “Black” album), rap (like Eminem’s “Lose Yourself“), old songs like “What a Wonderful World” by Luis Armstrong, and a little bit of country (esp “Crazy” by Patsy Cline). 

But most of all, I love not having to feel guilty about Being whoever I choose to be at The Moment, depending on the situation. For instance, I’ve learned from personal experiences that gentle kindness is not always the most effective method for helping someone to become their full potential or remember who they truly are.

There once was this female soldier who used to go around and say some things to people that was such a turn-off. People talked bad about her behind her back, but no one wanted to say anything to her face.

One of my other lower-enlisted, passive female soldiers shared with me one day how that soldier just went off on her for no good reason; and even though she tried to reason with her nicely, the other soldier continued to be rude.

I’ve learned from Neale Donald Walsch’s teachings that others help to define ourselves. When we see people who speak and act from a fear-based belief system by being mean (basically, hurting inside), we can either either judge them, or be grateful for them.

We have the power to choose our own perspective. I believe people who behave rudely remind those of us, who choose not to treat others that way, that we are indeed living by the Golden Rule. We should be thinking, “Thank you for reminding me of my own Light!; now let me do the same for you my soul sister, by whichever method will help you to remember your true self the most”

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Anyway, this wasn’t the first time that I had noticed this type of behavior, but I was determined to make it the last. When I saw her, I basically told her in a calm and assertive manner that she basically needed to lose the bad attitude and belief that she could just go around and treat others like crap, and that she was giving hot chics a bad rap.

When I asked her why she was behaving that way, she just looked down and said softly that it was because she noticed that other girls act that way. I reminded her that she was better than that. I don’t recall her repeating her behavior again.

I learned the hard way that some people will have no problem treating us like a doormat if we allow them to. Sometimes, they may not even be fully aware of it. However, when we assert ourselves— we send the message, “I have respect and love for myself, as well as  others– so I will not allow you to treat me that way.”

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I noticed that people tend to back off, and even respect us back, when we share out truths. I showed my passive soldiers how assertiveness empowers us, and that anyone can Be that way, to include little people like me.

Although assertiveness is a great communication style, sometimes, people need to be reminded of what it feels like to be disrespected; that if they’re willing to dish “rude” out…then they better be prepared to take it as well.

From my personal experiences, of telling people what they’re not prepared to hear (the truth, which may not always include tact), they respond by looking very surprised, and either replying in a humble manner or becoming speechless.

Because  the bottom line is…they’re used to most people just taking their crap. For me, using an effective method is so much more refreshing than using gentle-kindness that isn’t even appropriate for the type of special occasion that could use some tough love.

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Now, had the “rude” soldier come back with some major attitude and aggressiveness, and I happened to be PMSing, very hungry, as well as suffering from sleep deprivation that week, I could easily imagine myself saying something like (knowing what I know now, and with much rehearsal in front of a mirror…wink wink) , “Hey jackass! Yeah, I’m talkin’ to you. Here’s a crazy idea…since you and I are One, and we’re basically each other’s reflections, how about I do us both a favor and help you to wake your ass up so that you can pull your snotty-head out from where the sun don’t shine by telling you to shut the fuck up since you apparently have nothing nice to say to anyone and you’re just wasting oxygen and everyone’s precious time with your BULLshit, lowering the vibration of the work’s atmosphere and making it clearly obvious that you’re just takin’ the easy route by being a freakin’ empty box wrapped with colorful paper and a pretty bow tie because you’re too fuckin’ scared to be your real self…someone’s who loves herself and others, and is therefore a beautiful gift box inside and out. Why don’t you entertain that idea for a minute, and let it sink deep within your core. And FYI…don’t take this personally, this is just a disguised, loving reminder to CHECK yourself my soul sister…for humanity’s sake. And by the way, you’re very welcome.”

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Although the assertive communication style is the most recommended to use, I believe it depends on the person and situation. Not everyone is open to gentle-kindness, for they may perceive it as a weakness, or they may not be familiar with it; hence, they could perceive it as insincere.

I even feel that it’s refreshing when someone passionately and honestly speaks their truth (even if there’s a disagreement) rather than act as if they’re on the same page as you, while silently judging you.

For instance, I’ve had experiences where someone who considered themselves religious Christians say to me (after failing to recruit me), “I understand you have your own beliefs” with an eerie smile and their very quick glare (micro-expression of contempt), and I could just sense with every cell in my body that they didn’t mean a damn thing that came out of their mouths. They weren’t speaking from their hearts, but instead, they were judging with their minds.

But because I was still at a place where I wasn’t even confident about my own beliefs, they served as a mirror to reflect my own inner turmoil. When neither party is willing to Be transparent, tension can form from each person’s inner suffering.

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The following is another example of gentle kindness not always being the most effective method for helping someone to become their full potential or remember who they truly are.

When I was an instructor at the interrogator school in the Army, I had these two male, private (PVT) soldiers, fresh out of high school, who mentioned that they wanted to become Rangers, which I thought was great to be so motivated. However, it’s one thing to talk the talk, but quite another to walk the walk.

PVT Cocky and PVT Pride were two out of approximately 50 soldiers (both males and females) who were constantly on my radar for not following instructions, falling asleep in class, forgetting their gear, etc. I used the gentle-loving approach, assertive approach, and even the aggressive approach.

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When they (as well as others) fell asleep during class, I threw a red hacky sack at them labeled “bullshit” (a great idea/ gift from one my female peers/friend whom I wrote about in the post, “Priceless Gifts from The Queen of the Happy Dance”), and they would owe me a certain number of push ups.

This not only lightened up the atmosphere (rather than yelling and further disrupting the class) with laughter, but it also helped some soldiers raise their push-up scores on their physical fitness tests.

When PVT Cocky (or others) was too busy yapping like there’s no tomorrow, and thus, missed instructions, he owed me more laps or muscular strength exercises during morning physical fitness time.

After PVT Pride forgot his gear a couple of times, and being understanding and kind didn’t cut it, I did something else.

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One day, after everyone was dismissed from class (for lunch), and headed out to the main formation area, where all the other classes merged into one, I noticed that PVT Pride had forgotten part of his gear again.

So I went outside, and in front of 300 plus soldiers, I shouted at the top of my lungs, “PVT Pride! You forget something again?!”

He glared at me like he was thinking, “I can’t believe you just humiliated me in front of everyone and their mamas.” We have a tendency to remember the things that highly affect us on an emotional level, whether it stems from love or fear. He may have hated me at the moment, but he never forgot his gear again.

Some of the great leaders from my past have taught me things I will forever treasure, even though the method they chose were sometimes disguised as something other than love; I believe their intent was to help me to become more than I ever Imagined I could become, and I’m very grateful for that.

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“Worker in Oneness:  An alternative phrase to “Lightworker” or “Dark Lord.”  A person on the Path of Reconnection is all of these things and much, much more.  He (or She) is all of God a person could ever need, and all of the Devil He would ever hope to meet.  See Children of Oneness.  A Bridge Person.  A Neo-Shaman.  In the Multiverse, the term “balance” does not necessarily refer to someone or something that exists in the “middle” of the energy spectrum.  Rather, it refers to an individual (or situation) that is capable of going to whatever extreme is necessary, in order to bring a situation back to its Oneself Center–its realization of Unity, completely and perfectly expressed through Infinite Diversity.”  By http://www.reconnections.net/glossary.htm

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Towards the end of the course, PVT Pride and PVT Cocky approached me and wanted to talk to me in private. These were my favorite moments while being an instructor (as well as a platoon sergeant). We had a big storage room in the back of the classroom that we, instructors, pretty much used as a counseling room.

Almost daily, soldiers wanted to talk about their problems, share some of their personal stories, ask for advice, etc. This is where the magic happened…where bonding between souls took place.

I was very grateful that I could relate to all of them in some way or another because of the plethora of dark experiences that I had in the past. Actively listening to them, understanding them, empathizing with them, having compassion for them, helping them (by comforting them, being honest with them, giving suggestions and advice, etc.), accepting the all of them, and loving them was effortless to me.

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Anyway, PVT Pride, the more passionate one, asked with a sad expression on his face why I seemed to be more hard on them than the rest of the soldiers.

So I explained to them, “Now, I’m obviously no Ranger instructor; however, what I do know about Ranger school, and their tough standards, is that they have almost zero tolerance for sloppiness, such as falling asleep in class, being disrespectful to instructors by talking while they’re talking, failing to follow instructions, forgetting your gear, etc. They will not hesitate to cut you off. The way I see it…the least I can do is help you to do the basics, even if means I have to be the “mean” instructor.”

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They nodded their head and looked at me with understanding eyes. On the last day of class, PVT Pride asked me if they could have my e-mail address, but I explained to them that it was against the policy. But then I told them that it’s always possible that we could all cross each other’s paths again.

Embracing My Light Side

For some soldiers, gentle love worked wonders. At the beginning of the next course, as the new class came in, a petite female soldier (4’11”) ran up to me and told me that she was so excited when she found out that I was her instructor.

As I looked at this adorable soldier with her wispy, dirty blond hair, a baby face, and soft blue eyes (who seriously appeared as though she was 10 years old or something), she asked with her cute, southern accent, “You don’t remember me, do you sergeant?”

I tried to work the gears in my head, but there were just way too many soldiers from various classes. I wanted to joke around and say, “Oh you know all you white girls look alike!” But then again, I didn’t know her like that…yet; those types of jokes were reserved for those who I know well, and vice versa.

As I apologized, PVT Angel immediately replied that she was aware of the numerous soldiers, and that she didn’t expect me to remember. She then reminded me, “Me and my battle buddy were on extra duty right before Thanksgiving break, and you gave us candy bars!” I was like, “Oh yeah, I remember now!”

That day, after I had dismissed my previous class and finished up some paperwork, I headed out, only to notice two soldiers sweeping barely present dirt (more like dust) from the two, huge concrete pads, where 300 plus soldiers gathered daily for formations during the week. It was obvious they had done something “wrong,” but my heart went out to them because it was right before a major holiday…and they should have been on their way home to visit family.

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So I went back inside the office building, left a dollar in the snack can, and then grabbed a Sneakers bar and Milky Way. As soon as I approached PVT Angel, she immediately dropped her broom and locked herself into parade rest (a position of respect), which not all soldiers do, although they’re supposed to. She reminded me of when I was a private; I even stood in parade rest for Specialists (E-4 grade in position) as a Private First Class (E-3), which not many soldiers did.

I asked PVT Angel what happened, and she told me that she had made a mistake, which got her into extra duty. So I asked, “Did you learn from the mistake?” And she replied with much enthusiasm, “Hooah sergeant!” I continued with a smile, “Well, that’s all that matters then! Here, have a Milky Way, and give the other one to your battle buddy.” She replied, “Thank you so much sergeant!” We then wished each other a Happy Thanksgiving, and went about our ways.

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It never occurred to me that she would end up in my class. She was one of the most well-mannered, highly disciplined, smart, lovable, and determined soldiers I ever had.

We even ended up at the same unit later on, where I was at one point her platoon sergeant, but then I made a “mistake” in the eyes of the Army, and I had always hoped that I didn’t disappoint her as well (as a leader). But that’s another story in an older post, “Discovering the Beauty Behind the Walls of the Mentally Ill.”

I was so hard on myself for the longest time; but yet, as I’m typing this, I realize that I was willing to have compassion for my solider for making a mistake, but I wasn’t able to have compassion for myself for also making a mistake.

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Granted, my mistake was much bigger; but then again, a mistake is a mistake nonetheless. Now, I better understand, empathize with, have compassion for, and forgive myself; and I’m continuing to work on fully loving myself unconditionally as well, so I that I may fully do so for others.

I didn’t realize this then, but now I have no doubt that I’m meant to heal others, even while healing myself. A while back, I wasn’t so confident in myself. I saw a tweet on Twitter that stated something to the effect that there were certain Lightworkers out there who weren’t even healed, but yet, were spreading their toxins around.

Because I somewhat knew the person who had sent the message out, I took it personally, because she had made a comment in the past about my blog that didn’t feel like it stemmed from love; I instantly sensed the familiar feeling the moment I read it.

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I was very surprised because it was from someone whom I admired (and shared my heartfelt comments with) as a follower of her blog and Twitter.

After some thought, I believed the comment and became discouraged by it. I even received a tweet from another person who told me that I was a dangerous person to talk to, because I had mentioned that i decided to forgive my uncle who had molested me when I was a kid. She basically concluded that I support those who commit sexual abuse, which isn’t the case. I later realized that I was meant to have both of these experiences for my soul growth. They were just being a reflection of the deep beliefs I had about myself…that 1) I was unworthy, and 2) that something was wrong me.

However, the  statement nagged at me for a while, until I was convinced that I was one of those people who had to stop spreading my toxins around (by sharing my personal stories through my blog), since I had not been fully healed yet.

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So I stopped working on my blog altogether for a long time, because I believed that I was being a disservice to myself and humanity. I also discontinued going on Facebook and Twitter. I figured, if my outer reflections mostly show me that I’m not loving, then I just need to be mostly (since I do have a husband) in solitude and work on my inner spirituality.

However, I was then reminded that we heal when we help others heal, and when we heal ourselves, we also help to heal others…since we are all one.

Although I may not be as spiritually aware as others, or as educated in the profound teachings of Spirituality itself, I still have a plethora of personal experiences, ranging from pitch darkness to bright light, and everything in-between.

As long as I choose to Be, at any given moment, Giving, Peace, Joy, Freedom, Truth, Understanding, Wisdom, Empathy, Compassion, Forgiveness, Acceptance, and Unconditional Love for myself and others, I will Be in alignment with my true self.

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“The Greek word Gnosis (γνῶσις) implies a type of knowledge that is derived from experience, and encompasses the whole of a person. That is, it is genuine knowledge of the truth. Reality, truth, does not fit neatly into a concept, dogma, or theory, thus genuine Gnosis must also be something that one must experience. Personal experience is not transmissible in conceptual terms; a concept is merely an idea, and experience is far more than an idea. In other words, real Gnosis is an experience that defies conceptualization, belief, or any attempt to convey it. To understand it, one must experience it. This is why real spirituality is based on one’s own effort to experience the truth, and the method to reach that experience is primarily practical.” From http://gnosticteachings.org

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Sign of Being on “Right” Path

Right after I shared with my husband my positive perspective about my so-called nightmare, I had an urge to look at the microwave, and I saw 1:11 (in slow motion) as my coffee water was heating up.

The following (in italics) is from the website that I often use to receive meaning from my daily number synchronicities ==> http://sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.com/p/index-numbers.html

ANGEL NUMBER 111

Number 111 is a powerful number of manifesting and manifestation, and carries the combined attributes and energies of number 1 and the karmic Master Number 11.  

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Number 1 resonates with assertiveness, independence and uniqueness, motivation, new beginnings and striving forward, insight, self-leadership and inspiration, positivity and achieving success.  

Number 11 tells us that to connect with our higher-selves is to know and live our soul mission and life purpose. Number 111 symbolizes the principles of spiritual awakening and enlightenment, high energy, inspiration and intuition, self-expression and sensitivity.  

Angel Number 111 is a message from your angels to be very aware of your persistent thoughts and ideas as these are manifesting quickly into your reality.  Ensure that your beliefs, thoughts and mind-sets are positive and optimistic in order to draw the energies of abundance and balance into your life.  

Angel Number 111 signifies that an energetic gateway has opened up for you, and this will rapidly manifest your thoughts into your reality.When you recognize an Angel Number 111 sequence appearing to you frequently, take note of your thoughts at the time that they occur.

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When a series of 111’s appear, monitor your thoughts carefully and be sure to only think about what it is you really want, not what you don’t want.  Choose your thoughts wisely, and do not put your focus towards your fears, as they may manifest.Pay special attention to your thoughts and ideas as these are revealing the answers to your prayers.  

Your positive affirmations and optimistic attitude will help to manifest your desires and help you to achieve your goals and aspirations.  They will also assist you with serving your spiritual life purpose and soul mission.

Angel Number 111 also encourages you to assist and inspire the human race via your natural abilities, relying upon your inner-wisdom and intuition to guide you.  Be an inspirational guiding light to bring illumination to others and to help raise spiritual awareness.

Trust that the angels support you in your ‘lightwork’.Once Angel Number 111 appears and is recognized and acknowledged, the repetitive number sequences generally progresses onto other numbers and messages as your angels then have new and different messages to send you.

Number 111 also relates to the number 3 (1+1+1=3) and Angel Number 3.

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 The Gift Disguised as a Nightmare

From the main themes of my dream, I believe I AM rapidly releasing unresolved hurt and fears about: abandonment, the unknown, darkness, being alone, sexual abuse (molestation), avoidance, being powerless, rape, disappointing myself and others, feeling shameful, being a failure, rage, blaming others, hurting those I care about, my kids not being taken care of and not being able to be there for them, getting another divorce, feelings of guilt, feeling obligated to do things that don’t make me happy, being rejected by those I care about, finding out that my husband’s having an affair, not being able to get a hold of my loved ones, vengeance, being hurt or betrayed, finding evidence that supports my negative belief; and fear of being wrong.

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I was sitting in a lighted, small room. My mother said that she was leaving, but she wouldn’t tell me where she was going, which created anxiety in me (symbolic of the fear of the unknown). She packed in a hurry, put a scarf on her head, and stormed out (symbolic of abandonment issues from my biological dad since he left when I was 6 months old).

It started getting dark, so I went to bed alone (symbolic of the dark and being alone). When I woke up in the middle of the night, my dad (who had raised me and passed away a couple of years ago) was on top of me, and aggressively telling me to just take it, or something like that, as he jammed his erected penis against my throat and then into my vagina (symbolic of sexual molestation from my uncle).

I just gave up and turned my head to the right as I laid there and took it (symbolic of avoidance/”blocking things out”due to feeling powerless). The next thing you know, I looked up, and saw that it was no longer my dad, but now it was my ex-husband raping me aggressively (symbolic of my first platoon sergeant raping me at my first unit in the Army).

As I turned my head again to the right, I noticed an opened door, with light on the other end. Then, I saw my ex-husband’s wife and little kids (only saw shadows) approach the door and looked into the dark room. She was shocked, made a sound, and pushed the kids to the side, and I felt horrible (symbolic of my fear of disappointing myself and others, feeling shameful, and being a failure). I got so upset that I looked at my ex-husband, yelled at him and clawed him with my nails (symbolic of my fear of feeling rage again since it’s supposed to be “bad” , and blaming others.)

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I then saw my ex-husand trying to hold his wife and she threw herself on the ground crying, and it broke my heart (symbolic of my fear of hurting those I care about). I went outside and I saw a small group if kids who were wearing raggedy clothes and looking sad, and it instantly reminded me of my kids (when they were little), so I ran around in panic looking for them (symbolic of my fear of my kids not being taken care of, and not being able to be there for them). Note: In reality, they are very well taken care of.

Next thing you know, I was in a very small office, and I was apparently getting a divorce again (symbolic of my fear of getting another divorce; failing in yet another marriage; my daughter once told me when she younger, that a religious Christian family member had informed her to never be the type of woman to marry three times). Then, I was at some hotel with my ex-husband’s wife, and I was trying to comfort her since I had hurt her as well (symbolic of guilty feelings). I went down on her, although I didn’t really want to, and then she started yelling at me (symbolic of my fear of feeling obligated to do things that don’t make me happy, and also my fear of being rejected by those I care about it).

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We then started talking, and she told me that she noticed on Facebook that my husband’s tracker on his phone revealed that he was at a certain area frequently; hence, she talked to the receptionist at his office  and she mentioned that he was often absent from his office (symbolic of my fear that my husband may be having an affair, which stems from a deep belief system that developed since I was a child; both my fathers were unfaithful to my mom).

I got so upset that I tried to call the operator to obtain his boss’s number so that I could verify the info and inform her of what was happening, but I couldn’t get through (symbolic of my dark side’s desire to get vengeance upon those who hurt or betray me; however, my light side reminds me to forgive unconditionally). Then his receptionist called and left a message on the answer machine, informing my ex-husband’s wife that she had found more evidence (symbolic of my desire to find evidence that supports my negative belief; fear of being wrong).

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I called my husband to pick me up, but he kept telling me to stay at the hotel and comfort my ex-husband’s wife, which made me more suspicious. He later came over with a pink vase of flowers for my ex-husband’s wife that had a transparent, pink cord plugged into the vase itself and the wall; he then told me to ensure that the water continued to flow through the cord.

Meanings of Key Words in Last Part of Dream

The following is from http://www.dreammoods.com :

• To see your husband in your dream signifies the waking relationship with your husband and the subconscious feelings you have towards him. The dream may be trying to focus on hidden elements that you are not addressing in your waking life.
• To dream that something is given to you suggests that you need to appreciate the gifts you have.
• To see a vase in your dream symbolizes the womb and all things feminine.  You are open to criticism or suggestions. Alternatively, the dream represents creativity.
• Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection and kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color.

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• To see colorful flowers in your dream signify kindness, compassion, gentleness, pleasure, beauty, and gain. It is also symbolic of perfection and spirituality. Your dream may be an expression of love, joy and happiness. Alternatively, flowers in dream, especially if they are blooming, represent your hidden potential and latent talents. Flowers can also denote a particular time or season.
• To dream that something is transparent indicates feelings of vulnerability. You are able to see things and see through people and their motives. Thus the dream may be symbolic of your actions and your true intentions. Alternatively, if something is transparent, then it represents clarity and understanding.
• To see cords in your dream symbolize a lack in independence in a situation or relationship. You are feeling restricted or tied down. If the cord is being cut, then it indicates that you are breaking those relationships that have held you back.
• To see water in your dream symbolizes your subconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment.

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My Interpretation of Last Part of Dream

I AM Releasing my negative feelings I have towards my husband that I haven’t been addressing in my waking life (i.e., that I don’t fully trust him with certain things). I realize I have trust issues. I acknowledge that the negative thoughts stem from an old and outdated negative belief that most men are not faithful to their wives, since both my fathers, my past boyfriends, and my former husband were that way. I also understand that they are ultimately projections of my own darkness within me.

I AM also Releasing my feelings of being restricted by my husband, and having a lack of independence and freedom (symbolized by the cord) when he sometimes gets annoyed with what I desire to do. I will do whatever I desire to do, and be whoever I desire to be, and no one has the power over me to stop me.

Although we’ve experienced each other’s dark sides, we are now at a place where we are both willing to work on embracing the ALL within each of us, as we strive to Be our true essence (Unconditional Love). I’ve learned/remembered that as I started changing within myself (to become my true essence), my husband changed as well, since he is ultimately a reflection of me.

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I AM releasing any needs to feel like a victim of my circumstances by blaming others; I AM creating my own reality, and I take full responsibility for my life happenings. Negative thoughts, feelings, images, and beliefs will create a negative reality.

However, positive thoughts, feelings, images, and beliefs will help me to tune into a positive reality overflowing with positive synchronicities of much unconditional love, peace, joy, freedom, truth, wisdom, abundance, and the power to instantly manifest the desires of my heart.

I AM Appreciating the gifts that I have (symbolized by the act of my husband giving something to me…even if it was for someone else), to include my ability to be open to criticism or suggestions–by publishing my post and sharing my deepest and darkest secrets with others for healing–and my creativity (symbolized by the vase).

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I AM the return of the Divine Feminine Energy, love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection and kindness (symbolized by the pink vase).

I AM the living essence of the psyche, the flow of life energy, spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment (symbolized by the flowing water and flowers).

By Being Love (to include having a positive perspective and choosing to release my perceived limitations), I AM Now Clarity and Understanding (symbolized by the transparent, pink cord).

I believe continuously avoiding past hurt and fears, whether consciously or unconsciously, causes negative thoughts to repeatedly surface into our minds from fear-based belief systems, which then lowers our energy/creates negative feelings.

The next ting you know, we’re continuously living a life filled with more negativity than we desire, because our unhealed subconscious/unconscious mind is creating the reality for us.

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Releasing “Negative” Beliefs That No Longer Positively Serve us

By first facing, acknowledging, comforting and then embracing my past hurt and fears, I am able to release these negative beliefs that were still deep within my subconscious/unconscious mind (that have been repressed or suppressed) that no longer positively serve me.

I am now able to focus more on effective positive thinking (which then creates positive feelings), positive images, positive visions, and the forming of new and positive beliefs, which will better serve me as I live my new life vibrating on the same frequency as my true self–overflowing with compassion, peace, joy, excitement, abundance, truth, wisdom, freedom, creativity, instant manifestations, and unconditional love.

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Our Own Version of Heaven on Earth

When we raise our vibration by Being our true selves, feeling much gratitude, bonding with others, being surrounded by nature, interacting with plants, animals and crystals (and other 1st and 2nd dimensional beings), eating and drinking healthier, exercising, singing, dancing, smiling and laughing, kissing and hugging, and living in The Moment of Now…we go with the natural flow of the universe, just the way plants, trees and the rest of Mother Nature does; they don’t resist the flow…they completely trust the process of Life that supports them with the same unconditional love that supports us all.

When we raise our vibration to the highest, we can tune into our most positive reality…our own version of “Heaven on Earth.”

At first, I didn’t understand (when I first woke up from my nightmare) why my Rose Quartz (“unconditional love” stone) and Citrine (“success stone”) crystals (that I had placed in my pillowcase last night) didn’t work for me, since I’ve always had dreams about love with those crystals.

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I now understand that the crystals, Rose Quartz (unconditional love stone) and Citrine (“success stone”), did indeed help me. I believe the that the ultimate success for all of us, is remembering to understand, empathize with, have compassion for, forgive, accept and love ourselves unconditionally, which in turn helps us to fully do the same for others as well.

Choosing to have a positive perspective about our rapid healing (which may include facing all our deepest fears, negative beliefs, our dark side, and the unknown) helps us to expand our consciousness…which helps us to reunite with All That Is.

When we choose to live in each Moment of Now with much gratitude, love, peace, joy, truth, and freedom, I believe we will be in alignment with our true selves, and eventually the entire spectrum of the rainbow frequencies, where can become masters of frequency and help all of our soul brothers and sisters come back home to God/Goddess &Spirit/All That Is, not just the ones resonating with higher frequencies.

Afterall, even Jesus chose to be around those with lower vibrations (i.e., those who were sick–mentally, emotionally and physically–those who were hopeless, those who were suffering, those who were judgmental, resentful, jealous, critical, angry, hateful, hurtful, passive-aggressive, aggressive, and cruel–basically, those who were lost/confused/had amnesia/didn’t love themselves, so weren’t able to love others) so that he could help transmute their low frequencies to higher with his amazing Love & Light presence.

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Quotes of Readings Relevant to This Post

The following is from the wonderful website http://iasos.com/metaphys/bashar/#excitement, which is a collection of the core concepts of Bashar (a fascinating multi-dimensional Being channeled through Darryl Anka, not the President of Syria) that has been (and continues to be) very helpful to me; may it serve you as well:

Follow your excitement!  
Finding your Purpose in Life.

Act on it! Excitement is caused by a resonance with your Higher Self.   Excitement is a “sign” that the activity you are contemplating is aligned with your Higher Self, and this alignment is what causes the excitement.  This naturally leads you to what you are “meant” to be doing – what your Soul “hopes” your will free-will chooses to do. This is your “Purpose”.    So this is the simple yet effortlessly-effective way to find your life’s “Purpose”.

Mechanically, “excitement” is a high state of resonant-excitation that occurs when the Thinking+Intentions of the physical dimension self are sharply aligned with the Thinking+Intentions of its own Higher Self.

So excitement serves as a “compass” – to let you know when you’re “on course” – when you are doing or contemplating doing exactly what your Higher Self would just love to have you be doing.

When you follow your excitement, and do what excites you, this means that :

1. This activity is “you”  (truly aligned with your Soul).

2. Because it is “you”, this activity is effortless for you.

3. Because it is “you”, the universe will support you (including financial support) to continue doing this, in progressively more expanding ways.

Following your excitement is following the “signs” your Higher Self is giving – to lead you in the most DIRECT way possible to what it “hopes” your free-will will choose to do, which is the same as your life’s Purpose.    The catch is this:

Even if following your excitement means doing something seemingly trivial and unprofound, even then, just do it!  

Because proceeding towards doing this seemingly mundane thing, might lead you to meet someone, or discover something, that is just “perfect” for furthering your Life’s purpose.

IMPORTANT consideration:
“Follow your Excitement – with INTEGRITY”.     Bashar defines “integrity” to mean, NOT any particular moral standard, but instead: Realizing that everything is a whole (integer), and you are one with the whole. And therefore, (Golden Rule), you treat everyone and everything with the same respect and consideration and care that you would want them to treat you.

“Follow your Excitement – with INTEGRITY”.

If you have something to give, in the reality you are creating, there are people ready to receive it. If someone has a song to sing, there is an audience in that reality to hear it.

Fear or anxiety is excitement with a negative judgement projected onto it.
Fear/anxiety  =  Excitement  plus negative judgement

Remove the negative judgement, and you have Excitement.
Fear/anxiety  with the  negative judgement  removed =  Excitement

Trusting your Timing

We, as our Higher Self (Over-Soul) actually creates Time (as we experience it).

Our Higher Self exists outside Time and Space.

It projects portions of itself into specific time/space holograms (time/space matrixes), which we then experience as an incarnation.

So, from the point of view of any one incarnation, there is time, there is “past, present, and future”.

But from the point of view of the Higher Self, there is no Time. It’s all happening NOW. It’s just one big Eternal-NOW.  So keep in mind that our Higher Self  is creating the actual “time” that we are experiencing in a linear fashion.

When we intensely want to do something now, and it is easily possible to do it, no problem. We just do it.
But if we intensely want to do something now, and it is NOT possible to do it NOW, we are then at a critical decision-junction:

      We can choose to interpret this as
“I am not getting what I want.”
Or, we can choose to interpet this as
“I always get what I want. If it’s not available now, then there must be an excellent reason for this.”

Which of these choices we make is critical in determining the outcome, as this choice is equivalent to selecting a BELIEF, and we then experience the outcome aligned with that belief.

If you choose to interpret the situation as
“I am not getting what I want.”,
then, sure enough, you will continue to not get what you want.

But the alternative is this:
Choose to interpret this situation (of not being able to do what you want to do NOW) as
“I always get what I want.”
“I always get what I want. If it’s not available now, there must be an excellent reason for this.”

You see, often our Higher Self “arranges” time in such a way that we do not get what we want when we initially want it, only because it wants us to first accumulate certain experiences, certain skills, certain appreciations, certain connections with other people, certain awarenesses – FIRST!    So that when we do get to experience this thing we want, we will then be appreciating it and enjoying it on a much deeper and more profound level.

So when you want to do something and it is not immediately available, REMEMBER: Your Higher Self is merely delaying this experience, so you get some other experiences first, so that you may enjoy and appreciate this thing you want EVEN MORE, when you do get it.

So when you want to do something and it is not immediately available, TRUST YOUR TIMING.

Do not buy into the belief that
“I do not get what I want.”

Instead, remind yourself:
“I always get what I want.”
“I always get what I want. If it’s not available now, then my Higher Self must have some experiences it wishes me to have first, so that when I do
get what I want, I’ll be able to enjoy it even more. I’ll be able to enjoy it on a much richer, deeper basis.”

Positive Synchronicity

When you “follow your excitement” in the moment, each “now” moment, this leads to “Positive Synchronicity” –

things “magically” working out in a way that is delightfully & surprisingly pleasing.

When you ignore your excitement, and are instead led by your fears and worries, this leads to “Negative Synchronicity” – upsetting events – the very things you wished to avoid.

“Positive Synchronicity” is the occurrence of events that are perfect reflections of your preferences and desires.
“Negative Synchronicity” is the occurrence of events that are perfect reflections of your fears and doubts.

Abundance

Abundance is the ability to do what you need to do, when you need to do it. Money is only one of many valid tools to achieve this abundance. And it is not always the most direct tool to use – for doing what you need to do when you need to do it.

“Receiving” the Reality you Desire

A radio does not have to create the program it wishes to hear. It merely needs to receive an already-existing program. And it makes itself an effective receiver by matching frequencies, synchronizing frequencies – creating a similarity of vibrations – with the program  it wishes to receive.

Likewise, you don’t have to create the reality you desire, because it already exists – among the infinite probable realities all simultaneously co-existing.  All you have to do is make yourself an effective “antenna”, so that by similarity of vibrations, you can receive that reality. And this makes it physiologically “real” for you.

First, you have to be that vibration. Then, you automatically receive that reality.

You must “see” the reality you prefer as now existing in the moment. Then, it will become tangible in your outer reality.

A radio uses a channel tuner to select & receive any one particular station – out of all the programs that are simultaneously existing all around the radio.

Likewise, there are infinite probable realities that we could “receive” and experience at any moment. How do we select which one of these we wish to “pull” to the foreground to experience ?

We select and receive specific “versions” of reality by our beliefs.
We select and receive by our 100% trust in “what we know is so”.

Here’s the “physics” of how this works:

Just as a radio must first vibrate at a particular frequency in order to “receive” the one particular broadcast (from all of the possible simultaneous broadcasts) that happens to be vibrating at that same frequency, likewise…

Each belief gets you vibrating at a unique set of frequencies.
These frequencies then attract, by sympathetic resonance, those holograms vibrating
on the same frequencies.

That is, out of the “background” universal matrix of infinite possible holograms (all of the infinite possible “versions” of reality that are simultaneously existing), those holograms and symbols that synchronistically vibrate at the same frequencies as the frequencies of your belief, get “pulled out” from this matrix and “received” by you as the actual “external physical experiences” that you then sense as “real” – that you sense as “objective reality”.

So each belief is a unique set of frequencies which is a template that determines which holograms you attract into your experience.

What we believe and totally “trust to be so”, sets up the alignment from which we receive that particular “version” of reality. This trust or “knowing” is the mechanism by which creation takes place. Without believing, we would create no reality and be non-existent.  At every given moment, we are always totally believing something.

All possible “versions” of your reality already exist.    In fact, they are all here – right under your nose – right Here, right Now.    However, most of these “versions” are invisible to us, and they become “visible” only when we “tune” ourselves (via our beliefs), to be compatible and resonant with the frequencies of any one particular “version”.    Furthermore, since Time is only a local “illusion” that does not really exist, everything you ever hope to “become” or “attain”, you have already become and attained.    If it’s “invisible” to you, that’s only because your beliefs do not yet have you vibrating in a manner that is synchronous with those versions.   You contain it ALL – all possible “versions”.    And all these here/now versions are in various states of visible/invisible for you, depending on your beliefs relative to any particular version.    You “see” and “objectively experience” the versions that are synchronized with how you are vibrating, and it’s your beliefs at any given moment that determine how you are vibrating.

Interesting DEFINITIONS
anxiety	“Anxiety” is the energy of excitement, but filtered through a belief in something undesireable or unpreferred.
doubt	“Doubt” is not a lack of trust. It is a TOTAL TRUST in an undesireable or unpreferred reality.  You do not need to “develop” trust, since you are always 100% TOTALLY TRUSTING in SOMETHING. You only need to FOCUS your trust on a preferred reality, rather than an unpreferred one.
excitement	“Excitement” is the energy that occurs when one is in resonance with their own Higher Self.    This is a “signal” from your Higher Self (which always honors your free will) to encourage you to act or move in a particular direction. “Excitement” can therefore be used as a “compass heading” to move & act in the direction that your Higher Self hopes you will move – for your highest joy.   If you “follow your excitement” consistently, you will end up fulfilling your Life’s Purpose.
failure	“Failure” is giving up on your Intention. As long as you do not give up your Intention, failure does not occur.
fear	“Fear” is the emotional reaction to believing in a reality (likely outcome) that you strongly do not prefer. You can use fear to your advantage, by: #1. Fully “owning” it and acknowledging that you have it. #2. Asking yourself     “What must I be believing to have this fear?” #3. Once you discover that belief, you can REPLACE it with the opposite belief, at which point the fear quickly dissipates.
forgiveness	“Forgiveness” is not an “action”. It is the cessation or stopping of the continuous action of continuously blaming someone for something.  Since blaming requires energy, and forgiveness is the stopping of this action of blaming, it actually is easier to forgive, than to continuously be blaming another.    So be lazy! Forgive!
hope	“Hope” implies doubt.   It suggests you are holding a belief that there is a significant possiblity of NOT achieving your desired result.
integrity	“Integrity” is the automatic result of “sensing” and knowing that you are a part of the whole universe.  Since the universe is holographic, each part contains the whole. Everything and everyone is really “YOU”!   When one realizes this, thenautomatically, one treats others with the respect and consideration that they themselves would want to receive.   This is “integrity”.
negative	That which separates, or polarizes. (as opposed to “positive”, which unifies & integrates)
positive	That which unifies, and integrates, and creates oneness. (as opposed to “negative”, which creates separation)
trust	Trust is the same as “what you believe”. You are always totally trusting in something. There is never a lack of trust. So the only relevant issue is:  WHERE are you placing your trust? Accordingly, “doubt” is not a lack of trust, but a TOTAL trust in something you do not prefer.
try	“Try” implies you are keeping the back-door open for failure. The word “try” presumes you are believing there is a large possibility of NOT achieving your goal. “Trying to do” something is totally different than “doing” that something.

Definitions & Jesus Quotes Relevant to This Post

The following are some of the many definitions in this website’s glossary (http://www.reconnections.net) that are relevant to this post (in purple), and may be helpful for you as well; the Jesus quotes are from the bible, and are color-coded light blue: 

Shadow Work:  The art of naming and claiming the hidden elements of your Oneself Nature, based upon the reflections that are provided by people, things, and situations that manifest around you.  You look at them and you react, or your judge, or you glow with delight!  Why?  Because they are your mirror.  They show you clearly what you could not see on your own.  The usage and perfection of this process represents a majority of the purpose for relationship in a person’s life.  The rest–companionship, collaboration, life purpose, and several others–will flow from this practice.

“Dark Side”: This term is usually used when the Guides are speaking about an aspect of our Oneself that is not visible to us unless it becomes manifest as or in someone else. Of course, the term “someone else” is really illusion. There is only ONE of us here. This term is often used in the same way Carl Jung applied the term “Shadow Self.” When used in reference to society as a whole, Jung used the term “Collective Shadow.” Note: The following is a great psychology article relevant to this post: click here ==> Ritual of Healing #5: Embracing your dark side

“Light” and “Dark”: These words, describing a true polarity configuration in physical life, are not assigned good/evil connotation by the Guides. In almost all Reconnections writings, “Light” refers to that which is visible or knowledge that is conscious. “Dark,” on the other hand, refers to elements that are hidden or invisible, and which are confined to the sub or unconscious mind.

“For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.’

Then the righteous will answer him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?’

And the King will answer them, ‘Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.'”
(Matthew 25.35-40 ESV)

Oneself: (see also All That Is, Higher Self) This term seems to be very satisfying to the Reconnections right now (Spring, 1998). It is non-specific, but very personal. It can be applied to everyone of us individually, or it can encompass the multiplicity of all in a collaborative way. It gets away from a specific “God” or “Goddess”—and, therefore, it is not defined or confined. It is used in many of the current writings.

Aware Self:  A Reconnected Aspect of Self who serves the role of the Watcher and the Knower in life’s little melodramas.   An “audience” for all “sides” of life’s interactions.  An observer who doesn’t interfere, but who takes everything in with maximal interest—thereby making it possible for each individual to embrace all aspects of self and be made whole once again.  (See also Voice Dialogue)

Expanded Self: (See also “Oneself”) A comprehensive expression (usually serving the purpose of a Cosmic Observer) who exists at a higher vibratory level than the universe which is His (or Her) embodiment. Also called a “Higher Power” or “God/Goddess,” this particular expression is becoming very popular because it seeks to erase the separation that has always existed between the Ego Entity and its Oversoul.

Core Energy:  The intersection of desire and opportunity.  The “betwixt and between” place, which is neither this nor that, but a hybrid mixture of both.  Following one’s Core Energy means to do whatever you do in a way that feels most representative to what you think, feel, and……..ultimately……what you desire, at any given time.  There is no effort to impress, nor is there a concern about how one appears to others.  It is an essential of functioning well within your Inner Genius Aspect.

Christing:  The manifestation of the Cosmic Christ Consciousness within an individual or Group of Individuals on Planet Earth.  Just as Jesus was called “Christ” by those who followed and learned from him, so do all of us have the privilege of bearing that title, if we are willing to own our personal connection to the Divine Creative Force.  There is really only ONE of us here.  As Jesus said, to those who followed:  “The things that I do, ye shall do also—and greater things, because I go to my Father.”  A Christing in a human life is said to come to its fruition in about 30 years.

“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you”
(Matthew 5.43-45 ESV)

“So whatever you wish that others would do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets.”
(Matthew 7.12 ESV)

Multi-Linear (Multi-Linearity):  The core essence of what The Reconnections call a “Christword Puzzle.”  Each core has the capacity to frag out aspects in any direction:  up, down, side to side, and diagonally.  Do you see that person over there?  Who is he to you?  What part of you is HE?  How about that woman up the stairs there?  What part of her are YOU?  Foreward in time, backwards in time.  Parallel Existence, a Citizen of the Omniverse.

“Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye?

You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye”
(Matthew 7.1-5 ESV)

Duality:  A Dance of Polar Opposites, which takes place within a specified, physical plane—where each aspect can be explored in detail.  Iorder to do this properly, a person must filter out all knowledge and sensation about his theme or subject except those details he wishes to study.  When this happens, all “other” aspects of reality begin to gather around his “circle of focus” and present rebuttal or support to the “truths” he encounters there (whatever they might be). There will be “pros” and “cons” to every possible “conclusion” he considers, which is the origin of the term duality.

Earth Experiment:  A commonly used expression to describe the Vacation in Limitation that each soul takes as it enters a Separation-Based Universe. We are not humans who have spiritual experiences.  We are really Spiritual Beings (Meta-Humans), who are having a HUMAN experience. And every bit of that experience is being recorded and archived within the Galleries of All That Is—ready and available for perusal, by any Citizen of the Multiverse who chooses to do so.

For my fellow Lightworkers (who anyone can choose to Be):  Check out ==>  Worker in Oneness:  An alternative phrase to “Lightworker” or “Dark Lord.”  A person on the Path of Reconnection is all of these things and much, much more.  He (or She) is all of God a person could ever need, and all of the Devil He would ever hope to meet.  See Children of Oneness.  A Bridge Person.  A Neo-Shaman.  In the Multiverse, the term “balance” does not necessarily refer to someone or something that exists in the “middle” of the energy spectrum.  Rather, it refers to an individual (or situation) that is capable of going to whatever extreme is necessary, in order to bring a situation back to its Oneself Center–its realization of Unity, completely and perfectly expressed through Infinite Diversity.

“You know that those who are considered rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their great ones exercise authority over them. But it shall not be so among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant, and whoever would be first among you must be slave of all.

For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”
(Mark 10.42-45 ESV)

Reconnection Universe: Within the Multiverse (the wherehouse of alternative universes), there is a universe wherein everyone and everything that is seen there is prepared and ready to merge with All That Is. In that universe, the merge has not yet taken place—otherwise these conversations would not need to take place. This is an example of the condition which is referred to as being “on the verge,” or “waiting to be ready.” Truthfully, if you are reading this page right now, you have entered (albeit temporarily) the Reconnection Universe. Many come and go here. It’s like a Grand Central Station of Transformation.  In this universe, we are exploring the twin concepts of Universal Oneness and Multidimensionality. Some think of it as a school.  But it is much more than that!  It is a UNIVERSE-ity, do you see?  A universe unto itself.

Reconnection Process:  The process whereby a person in Limitation (physical form) begins to transform his or her image and perceptions of self from a 3D, separated being, to a multidimensional Oneself Being.

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The following is a brief section from the website, http://www.cosmiclight.com (<== click here), which was helpful to me; I hope it helps you as well:

Polarity and Duality

“Polarity is an abstract concept that is often misunderstood, or at least loosely used in its metaphysical context. It is often used interchangeably with duality, which sometimes does not really matter since polarity is the cause of duality in the first place; but when you get to that point in understanding the principles involved in metaphysics, the relationship between polarity and duality becomes very important.

Duality refers to the physical separateness of related yet opposite phenomena or modes of being. Classic examples are the duality of the positive and negative electric charges, the north and south poles of a magnet, and the male and female bioforms. The entire physical world is based on duality — it could not possibly exist without the principle of duality because there can be no creation without an apparent separateness. Metaphysically, the fundamental substance of the universe “out there” is a direct expression of the most primary duality of all — that of subject and object, mind and matter.

The concept of polarity, on the other hand, is the essence of the underlying unity of these dualistic pairs, so to use it to express separateness is missing its true nature completely. Polarity may be the cause of duality, but understanding it as a single phenomenon which does so, actually makes it the unifying principle of dualism. Polarity is the primary reality here — duality is the experiential result. For example, the single phenomenon known as the electromagnetic force is the underlying field for both the duality of the electric charges and the duality of the magnetic poles.”

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Soul-touching Videos

The following are soul-touching videos from Humanity Healing:

• The Wounded Healer

• Angelic Human Race

• Spiritual DNA

• Awakening The Human Angels: The Holy Grails

• The Gift of Forgiveness

• The Power of Gratitude

Note: Image on right by taicarmen.wordpress.com

The following are just some of my other favorite videos that I’d like to share with you (for more…check out post, “Videos That Resonate with Me”):

• Bashar – The path of highest excitement

• 2010 – 2013 Bashar – Very Important Message… Must Listen!

• The Subconscious Mind

• The Secret To Subconscious Mind Control #1

• LAW OF ATTRACTION DAILY AFFIRMATIONS

• Manifest Dreams Visualization (law of success napoleon hill)

• Heart Chakra Release – Solfeggio frequency (Sound Healing)

• Throat Chakra Music

• Love Signal 528 Hz (Theta binaural beats 6 Hz)

Note: Image on right by www.nattstad.se

• Crown chakra Sahasrara meditation music. Om (Aum) Mantra — 119 Repetitions on B (Ti) Note

• Schumann Resonance 7.83hz Isochronic Tones, With Underwater Sounds and Whales (dolphins/siberian huskies, orkas/wolves and whales/elephants are fascinating creatures to me)

• Angelic Human Awakening

• 33 Hertz Christ Consciousness

• Meditation – You Are The Christ

Note: Image on right by starseedcatalyst.blogspot.com

• Raise Your Vibrational Frequency to Higher Consciousness and Heal

• Embrace Your Dark Side

• I Am

• 2012 Ascension: New Powers and Abilities

• Life is a Fairytale | Bashar

Note: Image on right by beyogabelove.wordpress.com