7/11/2014
Lately, I’m becoming more aware of some of my unconscious beliefs reflected by others, which my conscious mind has been in denial about, or has not been aware of throughout my life.
Initially, the “negative” people or situations appear to be challenging, sometimes draining me on all levels of my being, especially with being an empath.
However, as I begin to clearly see the wisdom behind the disguised blessings (“negative” beings and situations), I start to feel lighter, and they—the people and situations— seem to magically work themselves out of my life in a peaceful way, once the life lessons are learned/remembered.
Note in red added July 30, 2014: This video reminded me of why the 2nd paragraph (above) happened =>Bashar Changing Frequency and Parallel Reality (VERY HELPFUL; worth watching over and over again until it becomes a conviction…an unshakable inner-knowing)
As I learn/remember life lessons (wisdom), I believe my vibrational frequency increases; hence, I shift into a more positive parallel reality where the so-called “negative” people, situations, things, etc. don’t exist in the new parallel reality, although they still exist in the old one that they vibrationally match with.
For instance, a couple of months ago, I met an older Korean lady who owns a small, mom and pops family restaurant in a nearby city. Her and her husband work many hours—mostly 14 hours a day with only one day off a month (their choice).
In a nutshell, although they worked very hard for years, they did not tune into financial security, let alone monetary abundance. In addition, although they seem to be ‘good’ people, their habitual negative attitude, negative thinking, negative spoken words and negative actions caused them to tune into back-to-back financial issues, and a lot of earthly dramas and family problems.
What I learned from just this particular experience are two of my deep, unconscious beliefs—that 1) I still don’t believe that I have the power to change my reality, and 2) in order to obtain financial security, or to even receive monetary abundance, one must work hard (a very old and universal belief passed down from one generation after another throughout the ages).
I’m very grateful that the older lady reflected back to me (as her way of living and being) my old beliefs that are no longer positively serving my soul growth; hence, giving me an opportunity to change it within myself.
Although I’ve been working on various techniques to change my habitual way of thinking, to include positive affirmations and visualizations that uplift my feelings, I must continually remind myself (rather than get discouraged) that the golden key is repetition (as taught by Napolean Hill, whose wisdom led to his success). Other key words are persistence, faith, and eventually…inner-knowing.
I’ve also learned that one’s state of consciousness is what creates financial security, as well as monetary abundance and many other things in life, not hard work.
The majority of humanity are not financially secure, rich, wealthy or prosperous, which is a HUGE, neon sign that tells us to Wake Up and clearly See what’s really going on.
A fraction of the earth’s population who are rich and wealthy are more than likely aware of this ancient secret—the power of thoughts: that our thoughts create everything in our reality.
As Bashar (channeled through Darryl Anka) mentioned in at least one of his videos, “Circumstances don’t matter (matter, as in manifesting into physical reality)…only state of mind matters (creates).”
I’ve also experienced both ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ synchronicities (as well as learned several other important life lessons) with my brief relationship with the older lady and her family members, to include a couple of my unconscious beliefs about what I really believe about myself deep down, especially when it comes to my worthiness.
I will one day write a story about these personal experiences when I feel the urge to at Divine perfect timing, and the post will be called, “My Last Rescue Attempts.”
Until then, I will continue working on myself (changing within) so that my outer reality will reflect my inner reality/soul growth.
A reminder lesson for me that I had to experience over and over again until I finally got it: No matter how much our hearts would love to reach out and continually help others without discernment (our unbalanced feminine energy), we cannot help those who are 1) not willing to receive help, because they don’t believe that they can help themselves, and choose to continue living with a victim mentality, and 2) not ready to hear truths that will liberate them. I know, because I have experienced playing victim throughout this lifetime, and I’m pretty sure many other lifetimes as well. Therefore, we must allow others to just be on their own perfect path/soul journey (our balanced feminine energy).
I’m currently slowly reading—pondering, digesting, questioning, comparing with my personal experiences, imagining, self-empowering, taking notes, highlighting key words and phrases, and studying—the most fascinating, informative, comforting, encouraging, uplifting, loving, inspirational, incredible, and mind blowing book, Bringers of the Dawn: Teachings from the Pleiadians by Barbara Marciniak.
At times, I give myself (my ego self aspect of me) a break since it’s a lot of Light/information to process in a short amount of time, and too much of anything can be blinding.
I’ve learned from the Pleadians that the key is to do things effortlessly, and to effortlessly Be who I truly am; otherwise, not going with the flow would would be a sure sign that it is not the way.
A while ago, I noticed Pleaidian lengthy videos and books on the internet by Barbara Marciniak, but when I checked them out, the long video had static, and the pdf book was unpleasant to read because all the paragraphs were lumped together to form seemingly never-ending pages of many words. So, I lost interest and moved onto something else.
After watching Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday show one day about Eckhart Tolle’s book, A New Earth, I became highly interested. So on our anniversary—among other small gifts that we had exchanged from a mall gift card that he had won—my husband surprised me by taking me on a trip to a book store to buy the book A New Earth. He didn’t buy it for me because he knows that I like to pick out my own book.
As I was excitedly looking for the book, I noticed another book that instantly drew me to it. It was Bringers of the Dawn: Teachings from the Pleiadians by Barbara Marciniak, and there was only one copy.
I intuitively sensed that I was meant to see it and own it, the way I was meant to notice and own the book, Conversations with God, by Neale Donald Walsch, in 2000.
Even that day (in 2000), I had an urge to walk into the book store section of the PX (Post Exchange) at a Marine Corps post in Okinawa, which never happened before since I wasn’t much of a book reader.
Anyhoo, my husband ended up buying me both books that day, but I haven’t started reading The New Earth yet, which I also look forward to reading. 🙂
I’m also continuing to work on my visualizations and developing/repatterning positive thinking habits using Arcturian Sacred Geometry video, as well as viewing my personally made Google slides where I added the following:
- colorful, beautiful, creative, and visually stimulating images that raise my vibrational frequency (color therapy)
- positive affirmations—to include “I AM” statements—while listening to…
- either healing music (sound therapy) or positive affirmations spoken through another person (all You Tube videos that resonate with me => some examples on bottom of post), and…
- while surrounding myself with sandalwood incense/healing root chakra (aroma therapy) and various healing crystals (my personal experiences have convinced me of their powers, to include healing)
By doing the above, I noticed that there’s no room for “negative thinking” whatsoever. I also noticed that walking, jogging, and/or running along our local park pathway, surrounded by beautiful and uplifting Mother Nature, also leaves no room for negative thoughts, which makes sense since plants have been proven to naturally vibrate at 528Hz (love frequency).
The readings below helped me to realize that there’s a very good reason why I don’t feel like meditating in silence and stillness on a daily basis, and why it doesn’t excite me (a sign that it’s not in alignment with my True/Higher Selves).
I must first work on embracing, loving and healing my inner child (shadow self)/wounded inner child (ego self/masculine energy within me), before my ego self is ready to fully integrate with my higher self/my feminine energy within me; thus, functioning as One whole soul.
The following quoted section is from the reading, “Male and female energies (Being Balance, and knowing the power of “I AM“)”, which has helped me to focus on what areas of my being I need o work on more than others at the moment:
“[…] True power is in the joyful alignment of ego and Spirit.
The area of the lowest three chakras is the most important area in self-healing and inner growth. The greatest spiritual challenge to you now is to take care of this wounded area in yourself. Meditating to transcend physical reality or connect to elusive cosmic levels is not your main goal now. Your goal is to give your gentlest understanding and loving support to that hurt inner child within you and to restore its beauty and playfulness. This is your spiritual journey; herein lies the greatest treasure. Cherishing and respecting the human side of you, the child part of you, is your road to divine compassion and enlightenment […]”
I’m even going through a phase where I often feel as if I could devour a hilltop of my favorite foods. And no, I’m not pregnant, because 1) I have no intention to be, and 2) my husband had a vasectomy years before he met me.
I’ve been having an intense craving for various delicious foods that I don’t habitually eat, and that aren’t exactly considered ‘healthy’—especially Korean food that I’ve had during childhood, like jja-jang-myun, duk-boek-ee (especially Busan kind found at markets), butternut squash porridge with tiny rice balls, abalone porridge, fried mandu, pajun, etc.
Note: So far, my favorite Korean cooking website =>Maangchi (I love this lady’s writing style and personal stories that reveals her sparkling personality; I also love her unconventional attitude, her hot pink and bright blue wigs, and delicious recipes that I’ve made so far). She has recipes for many former Korean kids’ childhood favorites like Korean-Chinese style jja-jang-myun (made with pork belly which makes a big difference), market duk-beok-ee, Hotteok 호떡 (YUMMY!!!), Ppopgi 뽑기, etc. that I’ve never seen on other websites.
I’ve also been having a strong craving for baked goods lately (to include warm french bread), probably making up for not having experienced baking and eating fresh-baked cookies, cakes, breads, etc. throughout my childhood; hence, making up for it. 🙂
Instead of feeling guilty about eating such foods, as well as other foods like fried chicken with butter biscuits, combination pizza, cheeseburgers and fries, grilled Italian sausages with sauteed peppers and onions wrapped in tortillas, slow-cooked pot roast with roasted baby yellow potatoes, etc., I decided to just embrace the phase that excites me at the moment.
Deep down, I intuitively sensed that I would be done with it in Divine perfect timing and Divine perfect order, and that everything would be more than okay.
I also came upon the reading, “Chakras and Food — You are (how you feel about) what you eat!” which has been very helpful.
Shortly after I published this post, I was reminded of the quote below from the reading, “Ascension Symptoms – Experiencing the Finer Realms“:
“A need to eat often along with what feels like attacks of low blood sugar. Weight gain, especially in the abdominal area. A craving for protein. You are requiring an enormous amount of fuel for this ascension process. Weight gain with an inability to loose it no matter what you do is one of the most typical experiences. Trust that your body knows what it is doing.”
I noticed a main theme in this phase of my life—fulfilling childhood wishes and bringing closure to them.
Recently, I’ve been seeing some of my childhood friends (mainly from high school) in my dreams, more than usual–Woo Sung, Robert, John, Yongsan (to my surprise), Charlie and Gina (once), Susan, Liz, Teresa, Jaime, and recently…Dawn for the first time; I believe it’s more than likely to complete my unfinished communication with them.
I send them all loving energies from my heart, and wish them and their loved ones a happy life.
My intention is to reunite with Woo Sung again who has been the greatest of friends to me (like a brother), and who showed me (and others) mainly through his actions (not just words) what a true friendship is about…what unconditional love is.
I would also like to reunite with Juan and his mother, as well as Ue-Hyang, Eun-ah un-nee, and Meeyun -un-ee (from Virginia and Maryland) one day. They are loving people as well.
Woo Sung is the only guy friend that I’ve ever had who didn’t seem to have any ulterior motives whatsoever (like trying to get into my pants, or have a temporary, romantic relationship). Other friends, such as Vivian and Sam from high school, whom my quality time with was brief, also have a place in my heart, and always will.
Woo Sung never made me feel uncomfortable in the slightest bit, probably because I could sense that he didn’t judge me. If he had something to say, he would just tell me in a gentle and humorous way. I wish him, his wife and family many blessings that he deserves, and I intend to return the loving energies that I received from him tenfold.
I also recently finished watching the Korean version of the Japanese anime drama series Candy Candy (a total of 115 episodes), which was my favorite show in elementary school (and I don’t recall watching all the episodes, let alone finishing them).
I had wondered why I was so drawn to it again as an adult, as soon as I discovered it on You Tube, and I now realize that it was highly beneficial for my soul growth.
To my surprise, I learned many important life lessons (some reminders) from this animae series (more than most TV shows or movies I’ve seen) that most of us/humanity could probably 1) relate to (especially the not so beneficial ways of living), or 2) strive to relate to (especially the highly beneficial ways of living) by doing and Being them:
- challenges, obstacles, pain and suffering, as well as overcoming them
- surviving vs actual living, as well as death
- hopelessness vs unshakable faith and inner-knowing
- various kinds of love—to include love at first sight, puppy love, passionate love, and unconditional love
- friendship vs so-called ‘enemies’
- judgment vs acceptance
- resentment, jealousy, grudge, hatred, and vengeance (stemming from fear energy) vs forgiveness, compassion and unconditional love (stemming from love energy, with compassion being the highest frequency within the love frequency spectrum)
- inner and outer turmoil vs peace and tranquility
- non-constructive criticisms vs showering with genuine compliments
- selfishness vs sharing, giving and generosity
- healing of self (to include developing self-respect, self-worth, self-esteem, self-confidence, self-empowerment, self-awareness, deep understanding of self, self-forgiveness, self-acceptance, self-compassion, self-love)
- healing of others (through discernment—that there is something more than what appears on the outer surface—deep understanding, empathy, compassion, forgiveness, acceptance, embrace, and unconditional love)
- happiness, gratitude, appreciation (especially the small things), trusting what is, humor, play, fun-filled adventures, and everything else of higher vibrations
- courage or a lack thereof
- communication styles—aggressiveness, passiveness, passive-aggressiveness, and assertiveness
- truth vs lies
- society vs inner-self
- mind (masculine energy/ego self) vs heart (feminine energy/higher self), and many more.
I wrote a post about my beloved fictional character, Candy, who is the epitome of a loving and bright Being. Click link to view in another window => To Live Like Free-Spirited & Amazing Character Candy! ^_^
Although I’ve discontinued my exercise routine for a couple of months, I’ve embraced that part of the phase as well. Knowing how I usually operate, I will bounce back (if needed to be as active) in Divine perfect timing.
I wondered why I was starting to lose interest in doing other almost daily routines, such as spinning (3 sets of 33 spins clockwise which accelerates the spinning of our chakra system, which I talked about in detail other posts), deep breathing exercises, and saying aloud my ‘Om Mani Padme Hum’ mantra while thinking about its meanings, etc., and then I had a hunch/a gut feeling.
I believe my intuition is letting me know that my soul is intentionally and temporarily lowering my vibrational frequency in order to accomplish what I need to accomplish for the highest benefit of all aspects of me.
Rather than often wanting to just venture out into beautiful, peaceful, exciting and/or exotic higher realms in my dream state (or once in a while during meditations), or not being able to relate to earthly matters, to include people, (due to my higher than average vibrational frequency), it’s time to continue working with 1) other aspects of my Multidimensional Self who could use some assistance in the parallel realities of lower frequencies (during dream state) as well as 2) other aspects of my Expanded Self/self and others (in physical reality).
I’ve had plenty of opportunities in my dream states (which I’ve written about in my blog) to venture out, explore and experience amazing and sometimes unbelievable worlds, to include E.T. beings, interesting creatures that I’ve never seen on Earth, paradise-like environments, and surreal situations; and I will one day return to those experiences.
During a meditation, I once very briefly ventured out into what appeared to be dark space…seemingly moving very rapidly, as I saw the rays of light around me.
It was the most incredible experience I’ve ever had; but yet, even to this day, I (my ego self/masculine energy) still can’t seem to fully own what I (my higher self/feminine energy) intuitively know to be true deep within me.
Anyhoo, now it’s time for yet another phase of accelerated soul growth—to continue to face my deepest and darkest fears that have been buried in my unconscious, to heal them, and to either integrate them into my soul, or release them—after thanking them for serving my soul well with life lessons throughout this and many other lifetimes.
So whether my vibrational frequency is low or high, I will trust in Divine perfect timing and Divine perfect order of Life, the way nature does, and remind myself over and over again (until it become a conviction, an inner-knowing) to embrace EVERYTHING that shows up in my life since my soul/I sent it to me for the highest benefit of my individual soul growth and collective soul evolution.
The following quote is from the reading, “ReCreation Foundation“, which has been a great reminder for me (click on link for further details of Neale Donald Walsch’s brilliant explanation of Divine Dichotomy):
“A dichotomy is a situation in which two apparently contradictory experiences, evidences, or truths seem to be existing harmoniously at the same time in the same space.”
The full reading above highly resonates with me, which (again) reminds me that it is is alignment with my soul.
Since I choose to believe that Divine Dichotomy is true in my reality, then, I must also accept that though there are spirituality teachings out there that suggest that drinking and eating certain drinks and foods (e.g., that contain sugar, wheat, caffeine, meat, etc.) lower one’s vibrational frequency (which I believe can be true to those who choose to place these boundaries upon themselves), one can also drink and eat such drinks and foods in moderation or throughout a phase(s) and still maintain a high frequency by believing that one can transmute the ‘negative’ energies from within.
By allowing myself to just be in every moment of now (like a free-spirited child), without having the need to continually judge myself (masculine energy) as being imperfect, I’ve been able to unconditionally accept and love myself more and more (especially through compassion/Divine Feminine energy), which has been the greatest challenge of my life so far.
As mentioned before in other posts: As I heal (on an individual level)…others heal, to include Gaia/Mother Earth (on a collective level); and as others heal…I heal, because we are all interconnected as One. 😉
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The following are some of my favorite healing music videos, affirmations videos, informative and inspiring videos, and readings (there are more in my “Videos and Readings that Resonate with Me” category of my blog):
The Subconscious Mind
The Secret To Subconscious Mind Control #1
Chakras Reiki Music (Absolutely beautiful healing music)
77 ★POWERFUL★ Abundance Affirmations With Rich Soothing Music #1 – Wealth Money Prosperity (total of 7 videos; REMEMBER: Divine energy includes EVERYTHING/All That Is, which also includes money. It’s not the money that is “dirty,” that most of us were conditioned to believe by society…it’s how it’s used.)
LAW OF ATTRACTION DAILY AFFIRMATIONS
Manifest Dreams Visualization (law of success napoleon hill)
Musical Rapture – A Sacred Gift of Celestial Music- Free download at website of Frederic Delarue (Soul-touching healing music; made me cry a few times)
Transfoming the Female Wounded Warrior to the Divine Goddess´¯`·.¸.ღƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ (VERY helpful in balancing masculine and feminine energies within both men and women)
♥Merlin’s Magic ♥… ‘ The Heart of REIKI ‘…a Chakra Meditation Music ! (Magical and mysterious healing music)
Masculine and Feminine Side (VERY HELPFUL READING)
The Journey Begins (I’ve only read bits and pieces of this reading in the past due to not being ready to further expand my consciousness at the time; however, one of my new goals is to complete this reading, which I believe will take me/us to new heights of consciousness—my/our Multidimensional Self/Selves)
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Added 7/17/2014
The 3 Essential Manifesting Secrets
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Added July 21, 2014
Openhand: Synchronicity Speaks (A very helpful and inspiring video that reminds us to appreciate “positive” and “negative” synchronicities, since they both = Being in the flow)
