Intro Note: I will be sharing this morning a total of 3 draft posts that I’ve been working on for the past few days. And because I need to get ready and go out soon, I will publish them now, and review these posts another day, to include doing a spelling and grammar check—to make the reading easier on the eyes and for the logical brain—as well as adding a few related images, links, plus colors (for fonts). Hope they’re helpful, have a great day! 😉
I used the following is a non-consecutive, section (in green font) from the previous post, “Dreams: Dance with Lioness Plus Seeing Jerry Seinfeld, His Daughter & Mother” as an intro to this post:
So whether it was this dream, or the similar lioness dream, I trust that there are still remnants of fear energy within regarding the attaining of FULL FREEDOM in BOTH physical and spiritual worlds.
However COMMA to BE FREE for BOTH, I must FULLY recognize, acknowledge, embrace, and integrate…
whatever “negative” shadow aspects—or even “positive” Golden Shadow aspects—that I still FEAR […]
If I don’t embrace and integrate these positive or negative shadow aspects, I will continue to be intimidated by them—like the cautious ebb and flow dance with the centaur and lioness—and/or I judge these ultimately NEUTRAL aspects within self/others.
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In addition, embracing and integrating these once unknown/shadow aspects, will allow me to honor the deep desires of Multidimensional, WHOLE self/Self, and LIVE my Full-Potential by continuing to follow my Heart’s passions and excitement for Life.
For instance, I think most people don’t like to be associated with “negative” aspects like JEALOUS, ALOOF and SELFISH, or even “positive” aspects like FAMOUS (due to not believing that one can achieve it, feeling intimidated by it, believing that fame leads to bad things, etc.).
It’s WAY TOO EASY to judge others as NEGATIVE, but if we truly desire to become WHOLE, we must be transparently honest with ourselves.
If these are aspects that doesn’t define my usual self, then how I can use them in highly beneficial ways, since ALL aspects exists within ALL of us to varying degrees of awareness.
Embracing & Integrating Aspect: Jealous
Well, when one is jealous of another, they pretty much want something that this other person has, but believes s/he doesn’t have it or can’t have it, and thus, FEELS resentment, envy, and even jealousy.
So if one usually doesn’t feel resentful, envious or even jealous of what others have—like me not concerned about celebrities (like Jerry Seinfeld from above mentioned post) and all that they’ve achieved, to include a very competitive spirit, outer world success, lots of money, and/or fame—but could benefit from incorporating some of these energies in order to Be more of Full-Potential self/Self, then perhaps it’s time to do so.
In addition, as shared in further details under this post’s subtitle, “Embracing & Integrating Aspect: Selfish” further below, since I’ve FELT jealous vibes from this fairly new girlfriend, I can embrace and integrate a small amount of this jealous energy to be used in highly beneficial ways.
So rather than swinging the pendulum to the extreme opposite—NOT caring, or even NOT being envious or jealous of her being rich (for example)—I can allow myself to WANT or DESIRE what another has, but, yet, NOT need to believe that I can’t be rich myself one day (which is the non-beneficial, fear-based version of envy and jealousy).
But instead, I can tune into Prosperity Consciousness at any given moment, habitually reminding myself, “I FEEL Being Wealth within, and I KNOW with CONVICTION (from past, personal experiences) that this will be MIRRORED by my outer world in Divine perfect timing and order, since manifestation from the spiritual world (aka Quantum Field of Unlimited Possibilities) can take time to SHOW UP in physical reality.”
Embracing & Integrating Aspect: Fame
Even when it comes to a celebrity that I didn’t just meet, but had an actual conversation with back in 2002 or so—that I had shared in post, “Ed from Collective Soul“—I didn’t feel like I needed or wanted something from him despite his success, fame, and riches; but I did enjoy his presence that was pleasant.
The band, Collective Soul—which I realized almost two decades later, that this name was MIRRORING to me Collective Soul Consciousness—came to my first Army unit to perform.
And the lead singer, Ed, seemed like a very down-to-earth, unconditionally kind, authentic, and honest gentleman.
He was so wonderful, that when my Battalion Commander (BC) asked me if I had asked Ed for his contact info before they left, I told him no.
I continued that it’s because he probably gets that a lot, and I didn’t want to bother him; but I did ask him if he could sign the back of my children’s photo (when they were toddlers), so that I could give it to my first/ex-husband (since he was a big fan of Collective Soul).
My BC had gifted me a “back pass” to meet the band since I was the only Soldier who had passed our super strict, white glove, barracks inspection led by our very strong, intimidating (to many), badass, black, female, Battalion Sergeant Major.
And he asked me to give them a tour of our new barracks, but only Ed decided to go.
My roommate was sleeping in our bedroom (due to her chronic back problems), so Ed and I talked in the common area kitchen while standing up, since there was no dining table or chairs (Lol); Soldiers mostly at the dining facility or at restaurants on post or out in town (and sometimes cooked meals and ate them while sitting wherever).
For me personally—and I’m sure many other can resonate with this perspective—celebrities like Ed, from Collective Soul, are successfully FAMOUS because he seemed like the type of person who can highly benefit MANY within humanity by his Full Presence that is authentic, honest, unconditionally kind, encouraging, uplifting, empowering, and inspiring.
An this is the type of FAME that I wouldn’t mind experiencing one seemingly magical and miraculous day——related to yesterday’s post” ” that include the YouTube video, ” “.
I’m also reminded that the most effective way to be an impact on humanity if to change within FIRST AND FOREMOST—with every stepping stone of Soul Success—since even the most valid and precise science (Quantum Physics) has proven that what is done to one quantum particle automatically and instantly affects an interconnected particle regardless of the vas distance. And it also proves that EVERYTHING is energetically connected.
Embracing & Integrating Aspect: Aloof
Another related example is that I initially started hanging out with my husband’s client’s wife about six years ago, who both happened to be rich.
They invited us over for a holiday dinner, and because she decided to spend the majority of the evening and night on Facebook, I ended up sitting alone since I didn’t want to intervene in the men’s conversation.
So when she asked me to hang out again, I declined in a straight-forward manner, informing her that I’d rather spend quality time alone, than hang out with someone who doesn’t even appreciate my presence.
Plus, I had spent almost half a day preparing and cooking a large pot of a labor-intensive meal, that she ended up placing in a back corner of her kitchen, far away from the dishes she and her close friends prepared, which showed that she didn’t appreciate it.
Granted, later on, I was able to expand my perspective, and have compassion for this lady (and forgive her), who more than likely just wanted to show her family members and Facebook friends how much “fun” she was having—via the very brief group photos, and all the photos of the food prepared.
And since she seemed to have low self-esteem (from our conversations), she probably didn’t want my dish to be in the spotlight with the rest of the potluck dishes; but ironically, a few people (to include her own husband) complimented my dish.
This was an example of a relationship that wasn’t habitually unhealthy, but it also wasn’t the kind of relationship that I looked forward to hanging out with again, or that I would even miss.
So it was best to maintain our distance, though I wished her and her husband well.
Embracing & Integrating Aspect: Selfish
I made a fairly new girlfriend this past spring, whom I later found out from her personal stories and hints that she’s rich as well.
I’ve heard plenty of people who kiss rich people’s ass, despite not being treated well by them; but this is not respecting themselves.
Even if I had a chance to hang out with a multi-millionaire or billionaire, if they have a tendency—key word, since we can all be ANY aspect at times to varying degrees—to be disrespectful, emotionally unavailable, selfish, judging, patronizing, condescending, criticizing, ignoring, gaslighting, deflecting, treating people like crap in indirect ways, being a full-time asshole or bitch, non-reciprocal of healthy relationship qualities, and/or other similar, lack of character traits—then I have ZERO interest in continuing a relationship with them.
Examples of Reciprocal Healthy Relationships:
- Being Fully Present with others (to include active listening), and not just going through the insincere motions of paying attention to and listening—that can be intuitively, strongly, and effortlessly FELT by those who have a highly to ultra sensitive empath aspect within, like me, that includes razor-sharp intuition at times
- Being able to celebrate others’ interest, hobbies, accomplishments, dreams, birthdays, etc., not just wanting others to celebrate one’s own, while showing little to no interest in their shares and what matters to them (though it doesn’t have to be like 50/50, and/or giving of material forms of love)
Anyhoo, after giving her multiple benefits of a doubt regarding her habitual RED FLAG ways that DIDN’T FEEL GOOD in subtle to obvious ways—that I’ve attempted to have authentic and honest heart-to-heart conversations about—that were mixed with initially confusing “super kind, enthusiastic, and thoughtful” moments within interactions, I decided to LET GO of our friendship today; and I even texted her to take care, which FELT so much lighter, freer, and peaceful.
By embracing and integrating the aspect of selfish, I choose me over friends that could care less, which is actually self-love that include healthy boundaries.
There are certain society-conditioned, one-sided beliefs that state that one must forgive a friend—or other relationship, like family members—many times if we’re true friends; and this isn’t necessarily true, and can also be a MEGA LOAD OF DOO DOO (i.e., BULLshit).
This belief is OLD AND OUTDATED and has DRAINED many genuinely kind and generously giving people.
If a so-called friend habitually doesn’t FEEL pleasant to be around (and even FEELS HEAVY at times)—and they are NOT receptive to (open-minded and open-hearted) transparently honest and authentic, heart-to-heart conversations to meet halfway—then chances are…
they won’t be changing any time soon, so it’s best NOT to hold one’s breath; and that’s completely fine that they don’t, since we’re all on our own Soul paths at our own pace.
However COMMA that doesn’t mean that one has to suffer alongside non-resonating “friends” with the hopes that they’ll change to a more authentic, honest, and loving version of themselves, because that can literally take years to decades, and even an entire lifetime(s).
Many of us have witnessed this with certain elderly couples who sit at a restaurant and seemingly never look at one another and/or exchanging a single, kind word, let alone enjoy each other’s company, which is actually SAD.
I shared this with my own husband that I didn’t care to end up like the example couple mentioned above.
And that I’d be MUCH happier living alone—since I actually enjoy my own company, and play well by myself—than continue to be in a unhealthy relationship (especially a marriage) with someone who habitually makes me feel more alone with their emotionally unavailable presence.
Our marriage has been improving at a snail to turtle to sloth pace throughout most of the 16+ years we’ve been married.
But the past two years seemed to be more of a giraffe pace…wanting to make me yawn as well, but surprisingly improving with BIG steps at times (and even LEAPS, like the Cricket Spirit Guide has shared in its main message, shared in a recent post). So we’ll see.
Speaking of BIG steps, I’ve noticed a kangaroo photo pop up for two days in a row, which reminded me to further read about the messages of the Kangaroo Spirit Guide, Animal Totem, and Power Animal (which I read with discernment).
And one of the main messages—like the cricket spirit guide post I shared recently as well (saw actual crickets in physical reality)—is LEAP in Trust/Faith/Consciousness of WHOLE self/Self.
One thing I’m absolutely certain about, at this stage in my life, is that I have very little room for anymore BULLshit (from self and others).
With the push of one more major button, I feel ready to drop EVERYTHING else, pack up one suitcase, and simply visit and/or move to another country(ies) to explore, and completely REINVENT myself (to include officially changing my full name to Ayaha Mulantis).
Additional Wisdom for Aspects: Jealous, Aloof, Famous & Selfish
The following is a comment I shared for the video, “Leo ‘What Returns Will Surprise You! Hint: Its Not Love!’ Mid September Tarot Predictions” that includes the theme of all four aspects within this post, and additional, expanded perspectives:
Good morning Chris, thank you for sharing your uplifting, SUNSHINE presence. I deeply appreciate your helpful, expanded perspectives within your videos as well.
It’s so true, no matter what SHOWS UP in our outer world and even inner world—like bombarding, negative thoughts stemming from outdated, society-conditioned, fear-based beliefs, triggers from so-called others, “negative” nightmares, etc.—we can choose to SEE (with CLARITY) the BIGGER picture, the Divine gift/blessing in disguise behind it (something I need to remind myself of often when Life gets very challenging).
That way, we don’t allow the so-called “negative” stuff of Life to shake our inner-peace foundation. That’s awesome that you started gardening!
Chris, you’re highly intelligent both mentally and emotionally, which is a great balance; and with the latter, I love that you often trust and follow your intuition/Heart/inner-wisdom/insights/true FEELINGS (from integrated Heart & Mind/gut feeling/and other love-based energies (to include psychic abilities).
Regarding sharing our ideas with discernment, you’re SPOT ON. I’ve noticed a pattern—especially within this year with two, new friends whom I thought were true—that when I shared one of the creative hobbies that I’ve been doing (like open-mic comedy, though not any details) because THEY asked, neither one of them said anything, as if it went in one ear and out the other, which was a bit awkward.
But yet, they would share their dreams, hobbies, interests, many problems, etc., and expect me to actively listen, support and help them with the negative stuff, and even celebrate the positive stuff of Life, which I did since that’s what I’ve naturally been doing throughout my entire life.
But after realizing that it’s been mostly a one-sided, overall unhealthy relationship, I LET GO of both of them yesterday; and I FELT much lighter/peaceful/happy.
In the past, I’ve strongly sensed energies of resentment, envy, and even jealousy from others, though I initially thought I was being judgmental towards them (due to doubting my own Multidimensional abilities, to include intuition and other psychic abilities).
But the more I had such experiences, the more confidence I built in recognizing the same or similar vibrational frequencies.
And I’ve also learned from certain Soul Families—whether via YouTube videos, blogs, websites, online courses, books, spiritual events, etc.—that when people show that they are NOT supportive (in subtle to obvious ways), one of the main reasons is because they’re TRIGGERED by a false belief that another was able to do what they didn’t do or weren’t able to do (which can cause resentment, envy, and even jealousy).
But the truth is, as Full-Potential, Multidimensional, Souls, we ALL have the ability to create whatever we’re truly passionate about.
I’ve also noticed a pattern throughout my adult life—whether in the Army life or civilian world—that people who have high self-esteem generously share things like uplifting and genuine compliments (which stems from ABUNDANCE MENTALITY/Prosperity Consciousness), whereas those who don’t, often WITHHOLD sharing kind words.
WHY? Because they fear that by shining light onto another, it will take the spotlight away from them (which stems from LACK MENTALITY/poverty consciousness).
But the truth is, there is MORE THAN ENOUGH spotLIGHT to go around because Light/God energy & Unconditional Love/Goddess energy is UNLIMITED.
Since August, I’ve been receiving various forms of abundance that I felt so grateful for (and deeply moved me).
I experienced complete strangers who were very supportive—to include people loudly cheering, joyfully screaming, high-fiving me or approaching me with compliments after my performance, etc.—which were a delightful surprise, and I deeply appreciated them.
I was even surprised when a local emcee introduced me two, different times that she’s seen me perform before, and that I’m amazing (the first time I’ve ever heard that adjective shared for what I’ve been sharing for the creative projects for over a decade (to include blogging).
And like you said about not sharing until it’s done, I didn’t share with anyone else who I know—to include a few (other than husband) family members who haven’t showed interest in the past about my creative hobbies—about a consolidated, open-mic comedy video that I had created (and submitted to a local comedy club in Phoenix for their “Funniest Person in the Universe” contest, just in case [greats news UPDATE in next post]).
And to my great surprise, the manager that my husband works with (he’s a Realtor/Designated Broker), liked that video and started following me on Instagram, so I followed her back (though I’m been very cognizant with who I follow since I’ve had some spamming experiences).
I even received a very generous comment from a talented, local singer for that video as well (“I love you!!!” with many heart and fire emojis).
So you’re onto something Chris, especially with that boomerang analogy that you shared and I love. I often wondered about, because knowing who I’ve been throughout my childhood and adulthood, I’ve often shared unconditional love in various forms with so-called others—to include my full presence and attention, active listening, deep understanding, non-judgment, compassion, empathy, helpful ideas, expanded perspective, solutions, material gifts, care packages, home-made cards, gift cards, etc.—but I continued to cross paths with people who were the opposite of these ways.
So then I started wondering if my giving was conditional instead, and that I had ulterior motives that I wasn’t even aware of; I even thanked my Higher Self/Universe (Spirit/Goddess & Soul/God) for revealing to me if this was true, since I’ve been practicing to be authentic and transparently honest with myself (to check myself often); otherwise, I won’t be able to be these Heart-based ways with others.
As I’m typing away I received an insight that all the people who have MIRRORED to me these opposite shadow aspects, were actually Souls attempting to help my Soul to REMEMBER something very important.
And that is, to INTEGRATE ultimately neutral aspects like CONDITIONAL LOVE and the OPPOSITE OF GENEROUS. That way, there’s Balance & Harmony when it comes to sharing, rather than it being one-sided.
For instance, highly to ultra sensitive empaths—one of my dominant aspects of WHOLE self/Self—are known to overshare, which can be draining for self/others.
So it’s an important Life lesson to learn—and gain profound wisdom from (to avoid repeating them in various forms, to include other people)—and it prevents us from needing to judge these “negative” aspects in self/others.
I have NO DOUBT that it was a HUGE blessing in disguise that you failed Catholic school! Because you were meant to develop, trust, and follow your Heart/intuition. Thank you again Chris, and have a great day! 😘💖💓💕
10/4/2022
“Various Perspectives Regarding Soul Families, Karma, Hopelessness & Clarity“
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