Last Blog Record: As stated in this blog page title, I recently found out that I had lost three years of MANY colorful images (to include my own artwork)—as well as posters, screenshots, and photos—I had incorporated within blog pages and posts,
that I’ve been very passionate and/or excited about, and had poured my Heart and Soul into for over 13 years.
And it’s completely understandable to initially feel disappointed, discouraged, devasted, and even mistrusting about the process of Life.
Even though I chose to detach from this occurrence—after spending much time trying to find a solution—I don’t have any need or desire to re-add three years of images,
despite these blog pages and posts appearing as though they’re missing parts of the whole; that’s just way too much.
I realized that what matters most is all the writings that I had shared, MANY parts of the WHOLE of Self/self/humanity/Life within this Universe/Multiverse/Omniverse/and beyond.
Plus, I’m deeply grateful that I’m able to move on with Grace from this so-called “loss” that initially felt like,
“Spirit/Soul within, why did I invest SO MUCH of my focus, attention, energy, time, efforts, insights, etc. into these forms of creativity, that I received so many signs from the Universe to pursue, to include numerous angel number messages (that I resonated with)?”
Granted, I’ve noticed on my journey for the past two months, that an increasing number of more INTENSE challenges have shown up in Divine perfect timing and order for the highest benefit of Self/self/humanity/and the rest of interconnected Life of many worlds…
regarding the EXPANSION of our individual and Collective Consciousness—aka growth, development, and evolution on all energetic levels—mental, emotional, physical (via further, once dormant, spiritual DNA activations), spiritual, financial and material.
This includes, but isn’t limited to: the most intense turbulence on a flight I’ve ever experienced,
two babies crying for a long time throughout an international flight (where I shared about imagining and visualizing being a Light Being and comforting them; and they both “miraculously” stopped),
a typhoon that soon changed route,
seeing a flash image of an initially startling, masculine, otherworldly, red face on the ceiling of Airbnb while meditating (that was actually peaceful and somewhat sad appearing looking back; and didn’t return despite my invitation and welcoming the next day, in order to integrate into WHOLE Self/self),
an encounter with a so-called, full-blown psychopath-like person for the very first time (but not the 1% serial killer version, though I had experienced brief moments of these intense, fear-based energies in the past)
and another “nightmare” of an alternate reality of witnessing the death of a loved one, where I woke up shouting, AHHHHHH!!!!”
(but learned that I had the option to tune into the symbolic meaning that was encouraging, uplifting, empowering, and inspiring rather than fear-based).
A sudden change in plans recently, to where I may be traveling to next—despite my non-refundable, round trip ticket back to the US—due to an opportunity to help closest relatives who have been going through extreme traumas and challenges lately (if needed, will find out details soon).
And last but not least, during a recent series of Divine Synchronicity, to include:
earthly and otherworldly dreams of parallel and alternate realties,
Animal Spirit Guide message (especially many yellow dragonflies and 3 orange Asian Beetles I saw for first time in my life, though I’ve seen red lady bugs before),
angel # messages, etc., I tuned into new information I had never heard of before, which is understandable since it has to do with a popular devotion of Catholicism.
Though I explored this world’s religions for a decade—to include the Catholic Church and many other American and Korean denominations of Christianity—I chose to fully let go of what no longer felt true to my Heart in 2001.
I still believed in God and Jesus, but felt that this world’s religions wasn’t the way, especially with much hypocrisy and many other red flags.
And sure enough, I connected with my neighbor (who I realized was a Mystic a decade later), and came upon Neale Donald Walsch’s “Conversation with God” book (who was also a Mystic)
Plus, soon after making this discerning decision, right before joining the Army, I experienced a week of spiritual dreams of Jesus, the Holy Spirit (showing up as red wind that entered my body while roaming a desert; which I found out over a decade later that this is the WHOLEy Spirit/Mother Goddess essence that created Her Other Half God essence), and 3 signs form God to join the Army.
Anyhoo, this unknown phrase that I tuned into recently was, “The Seven Sorrows of Mary“;
and while briefly reading about it, I instantly experienced flashbacks of how deeply traumatized I was while separated from my own toddler children in 2001 (starting with my Army journey),
as well as a vivid dream of being in an area that appeared to be back in the old days.
I was with another, unknown female, and while sitting on the ground, we were gently wrapping a dead body with white cloth.
Plus, there was a family friend whom I had known for over 20 years whose name is Mary—and my children (whom she mostly raised with my first/ex-husband)—referred to her as Mother Mary, though they used to call me Mama.
Plus, as I’ve shared within this blog before, one day, while working at a boutique in Sedona, AZ years ago, for half a day, multiple customers named Mary stopped by.
It was so baffling, intriguing, and amazing, and I intuitively knew that God/The Universe wanted me to PAY EXTRA ATTENTION to this name that kept showing up in my awareness for decades, but in an AMPLIFIED WAY this time.
Plus, I’ve been embracing both the non-religious versions of Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene, who were NOT secondary to God, or a whore, but are extensions/representatives of the long oppressed,
repressed, suppressed, and forgotten MOTHER GODDESS–as Divine Feminine Goddesses incarnated (to include deeply healing Priestesses).
So whatever puzzle pieces I tune into in the future (or not) will surely reveal the BIGGER PICTURE.
No matter what is further revealed or not is no longer something I’m attached to, since FREE Spirit within ALL of interconnected Life of this Universe/Multiverse/Omniverse/and beyond, will show up however way S/He (IT) pleases.