Sometime during the second week of this month, I signed up for Aaron Daugherty’s 21 Day Magnetic Love Challenge online course (that starts this July)—to help further learn and practice daily important self-love—since one of his messages felt right/light/true to my Heart, and inspiring.
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However, I’ve been experiencing a diminishing attraction lately due to noticing one too many of his YouTube videos’ thumbnails pop up that didn’t feel so right/light/true to my Heart, so I chose not to watch them.
I realized it was because the still, video images of him appeared so serious, judgmental, angry, etc., and the titles of his videos seemed so demanding.
So these non-verbal and verbal messages seemed to convey that he was trying too hard to convince others to only be positive, to fix ourselves, to LET GO LET GO LET GO, and to only have an unreasonable, permanent high vibrational frequency (the latter of which he actually has, at least two, YouTube videos about).
And this seemingly unsteady, vibrational presence can come off as too fear-based, anxious, desperate, aggressive, manipulative, and even controlling at times, though he more than likely has well-meaning, love-based intentions
I’ve also witnessed lighter sides of him in a handful of his videos in the past, and I trust that he has wonderful qualities that have been, and continue to be a helpful contribution to humanity and beyond (though there seems to be something missing…like the other side of the same coin to bring about BALANCE & HARMONY of the WHOLE self/others).
Since Aaron doesn’t seem to reply to a direct message (perhaps due to being very busy), I shared with him a message—related to both: my situation and one of his daily posts within his HigherViber online community—that my mom had a stroke recently, I wasn’t able to get a hold of my cousin who suddenly contacted me over a week ago (via my husband’s fb after years), wondered if my mom had passed, didn’t feel my best, and was reconsidering to participate in the upcoming course.
One of the members—but not Aaron, whom the message was actually for—basically replied to me:
“Just come to work on yourself. Dont overthink. I also have estranged family members I cannot reach. The point is connect with those you can connect with and keep trying.”
After reading this reply this morning (via an update email), I was instantly reminded of a poster that I saw yesterday, via Instagram, that was shared by Life Coaching Comedians. Since I wasn’t able to download it, I found the exact same poster (on right) via => https://www.reddit.com/r/coolguides/comments/lu48qy/empathetic_listening_vs_dismissive_listening/
I’ve been interested in participating in Life Coaching Comedians ever since I discovered it recently, and even reached out and briefly interacted with Lexis via email, the creator of this awesome idea.
By the way, I recently shared (via my YouTube channel) an open-mic set from earlier this month at Stir Crazy Comedy Club.
The following is my reply to the above member’s comment (that ironically suggested to not be so logical, but yet, didn’t exactly FEEL heart-centered):
Thank you _____ for your encouragement. I was able to connect with my cousin yesterday, by simply going with the flow lately.
I’m learning more about unconditional allowance/acceptance/embrace/love of WHOLE self/others, which includes not having to be at a super high vibrational frequency 24/7; after all, we are physical humans who can FEEL within a rainbow spectrum frequency of emotions as well.
So I’ve been ALLOWING myself/others to simply Be authentic, fully feeling my true emotions (inner compass) at whatever moments, while not judging them and/or becoming lost in them.
I’ve been practicing to more mindfully follow my inner guidance for a decade (though I haven’t mastered it), so I tune into whatever Life channel whenever I feel like it, rather than have my logical mind do what I should do according to society.
And I’ve been connecting and interacting with so-called others, though not on this platform lately (though I will when it’s time).
A Related Story
The following is an excerpt from one of this month’s posts, “Fully Embracing Negative, Wrong & Bad Aspects of Whole Self,” related to this post:
While working at my last/9th Sedona job as a retail sales associate of a boutique, a couple of female customers (friends) came by from out of state.
A conversation began, and I found out that they’re Healers who do energy work in California.
One of the women wore a t-shirt that read, “Positive Vibes Only,” and I strongly sensed within my heart and then throat chakra spaces (as usual) to speak up and share something.
I don’t recall what I said verbatim, but it was something to the effect that I understood where that perspective was coming from; but since she’s a healer, I have no doubt that it would be highly beneficial for her clients (and herself) to embrace all, neutral emotions (our inner compass), and our true feelings, since that would help with the healing process.
I then gave her an example: A client had just experienced a loved one suddenly pass away, s/he’s in shock, so s/he would need some time to mourn and deeply heal.
But it wouldn’t be helpful to tell that person, “Forget about it right now. Just focus on positive thoughts and feeling positive emotions, and you’ll be just fine.”
This receptive Healer made soulful, deep eye contact, and thanked me for sharing; she then asked if I was a Healer—a question that I’ve been asked before by customers, after having a soul connection and heartfelt conversation (I’ve even been asked for hugs before they left, which I didn’t realize was very unusual until my husband pointed it out to me one day) […].
Updates
#1: Shortly after publishing this post, I fully honored my senses and feelings, and sent an email to Aaron requesting for a refund (since the course doesn’t start until July 2021). Plus, Aaron stated in his intro video that one can even receive a full refund after the course is completed (if not satisfied).
#2: Later this afternoon, I was attracted to this video, “Alan Watts ~ I Am Because You Are (Ubuntu),” and I’m very grateful that I watched it, since it reminded me of a much greater truth, that Aaron and I—or ANY type of relationships within humanity and beyond—are not separate, but ONE, ultimately helping to KNOW one another as each other.
When I expand my perspective, I realize that these seemingly unpleasant, negative, and heavy feeling aspects that he was mirroring to me are my own judgmental aspects that simply desire to Be and experience more positive in my life, though through deeper understanding, this is not something that can be forced, but must happen naturally, compassionately, and gracefully with Unconditional Acceptance/Embrace/Love of ALL neutral aspects within the WHOLE self/interconnected Life.
Updates
6/30/2021
This morning, one of Aaron D.’s YouTube videos (from a day ago) popped up in my homepage, and it tickled me, since the thumbnail weren’t the usual aggressive appearing ones, but of of him looking very gentle, loving and lovable, surrounded by heart emojis.
Though I had already initiated a refund process (that hasn’t gone through yet), I will continue to stick with my preference to not participate in something that no longer excites me.
However, I wish him and Victor Oddo (two peas in a pod/best friends)—whom I used to learn from as well—various forms of uplifting abundance, especially much happiness.
7/2/2021
Profound wisdom that’s soul-soothing and deeply heartfelt, “Alan Watts ~ Let It Happen By Itself.”
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