I shared this gratitude comment for the creator of this image => Image by Carlos Ngaba from Pixabay
Thank you Carlos for sharing this soul-igniting image that instantly reminded me of the merged Moon + Sun = Eclipse = as THE ONE (2 Sides of the Same Cosmic Coin), aka integrated Heart & Mind/Spirit & Soul/Goddess & God/Yin & Yang/Water & Fire/Cold & Hot/Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine Energies within us, and the rest of interconnected Life of this world and way beyond.
It appears as though this combined WHOLE (Eclipse) essence of Divine Love (Unconditional Love for self/others/Life), Divine Wisdom (ultimately, All is Well) & Divine Power (power that’s used with discernment, not misused or abused) radiates rays of blue Light—the color blue that’s symbolic of the Throat Chakra (energetic, communication center)—that can convey AUTHENTIC, honest, and FREE, inner and outer world communication via expressions of inner-truths, to include the honoring of our true feelings, for the highest benefit of self/Self/others/Life. I used it for post: [this one]
The following are subtitles of this post (all puzzle pieces of this particular series of Divine synchronicity):
- UPDATES:
- Added on 2/12/2022: Related section under subtitle, “Letter of Apology, Farewell & Mini Solitude Journey” for post, “Series of Divine Synchronicity: Guiding Signs & Messages from Powerful Heart”
- Added on 2/7/2022: Post, “Inner Power, Authenticity & Forgiving from FEELING Heart NOT Thinking Mind“
- Deeply Healing & Integrating Triggers
- Authenticity At Its Finest
- An EMF Member’s Uplifting Comment
- My Reply Comment
- Epiphany About a Trigger: The Neutral Aspect of Standing Ovation
- Confirmation by a NEW Sacred Number Message
- Update Insight Post Shared with EMF Group
- Epiphany About a Trigger: The Neutral Aspect of Discrimination
- Reply Comments to “Update Insight Post Shared with EMF Group”
Deeply Healing & Integrating Triggers
We’ve all experinced being triggered by another throughout our lives, and we’ve often reacted to them from a fear-based state, rather than responding to them from a love-based state.
And this wasn’t our fault if we haven’t learned (or even mastered) the art of SEEING (with CLARITY) the BIGGER picture, and then FEELING and deeply appreciating the benefits of the transformational process, that SHOW UP as obvious blessings, or blessings in disguise.
As “imperfectly” perfect human beings, we can all experience FLUCTUATIONS of our vibrational frequency/FEELING STATE within, that we radiate to the outer world.
And I received an insight while typing the above, that this includes dropping awareness/consciousness to a very low, fear-based level at times (stemming from unhealed and unresolved heart wounds and/or traumas from childhood and/or adulthood).
However, this is part of the natural process of EXPANDING our individual and Collective Consciousness.
It’s NOT just RAISING our vibrational frequency, and unreasonably remaining there 24/7 while wearing a “super smiley face” mask during authentic, low energy times.
But instead, it’s highly beneficial to notice, recognize, acknowledge, embrace, deeply heal, and transform these wounded energies within.
Because IF we don’t EXPLORE and EXPERIENCE at times—experiential knowledge/potential to gain profound wisdom—the depths of the UNKNOWN/”DARKNESS” of Life within inner and outer worlds, then we will not KNOW what it’s like to eventually be the contrast/opposite.
Example: Being the Light that’s able to SHINE LIGHT onto the dark/fear-based/low/dense/negative energies within inner and outer worlds (that can bring them to Life).
Another example, if we’ve never experienced deep heart pain from having been IGNORED and/or DISCRIMINATED against (forms of unloving abuse to varying degrees)—the way many minority groups within humanity have experienced throughout human history—then we can only (at best) SYMPATHIZE with others (with our logical minds trying to conceptually understand), rather than deeply EMPATHIZE with others from our FEELING Hearts.
So even though there are various types of teachers and healers within this world, I have no doubt that in order to Be a Master Teacher & Master Healer, one must lead by example, work through the HEAVY “negative” energies at times, and transmuting (raising) and transforming them to their higher, exalted states within WHOLE self/Self.
It’s like the ancient and profoundly wise symbolism of the resilient lotus flower growing through dense mud, eventually reaching the Light and revealing its beauty to the outer world.
The lotus flower isn’t considered PURE because it is ONLY “good” qualities; but rather, it has successfully integrated the “dark” and “light” as a WHOLE/The One.
This is like the Divine Mother Goddess/Creator of All Creation/Crop Circle 6666/Holy Spirit—i.e., pure, WHOLEy Spirit which unconditionally embraces ALL of Life and “non-life”/”empty space” (though NOT empty, but contains Her essence, the Cosmic Glue that interconnects Life within this world and way beyond, which modern science even supports with different labels)
Authenticity At Its Finest
Because one of the lIfe lessons related to AUTHENTICITY, is that it’s WAY TOO EASY to ONLY express what’s considered “acceptable” “right, “good” and “loving” aspects to society (i.e., often times a pretense, a facade that secretely hides the “negative” aspects behind closed doors, aka skeletons in the closet).
But like the well-known and profoundly wise, ultimately Mystic, Carl Jung, had shared, “I’d rather Be whole than [just] good” (because that’s AUTHENTICITY at its finest).
We can only be transparently honest with others to the degree that we’re willing to be transparently honest with the self/Self.
And it takes an immense amount of inner-strength and courage to be willing to share one’s vulnerability and inner-truths—to include true feelings that may include negative emotions—that can easily be frowned upon, unaccepted, and rejected by society.
This past Tuesday, I had a blessing in disguise experience that felt heavy to my Heart (until this morning), and noticed that despite being able to shift in perspective, I wasn’t able to fully let go and deeply heal from this Divine gift.
After exploring my vivid and deeply heart dreams this morning—details shared in next post, along with a MAJOR and amazing EPIPHANY from all the puzzle pieces from related dreams—-I acknowledged this being part of this particular series of Divine synchronicity, and was able to further heal from it..
And this profound experience—part of learning to Unconditionally Love WHOLE self/Self—includes learning to embrace our neutral emotions, honoring our true feelings, and fully and freely expressing AUTHENTIC self/Self.
You can click on the above image to see a larger version
An EMF Member’s Uplifting Comment
K____ shared today (2/3/2022 Th):
The last community call that had to do with authenticity showed how many in the EMF made breakthroughs by willing to share their authentic stories in a space where they felt safe. —- and when I saw this I decided to post it to honor that community call.
This member, a strong and kind Soul/woman, also shared an inspiring poster—that I wasn’t able to find online and add to this post—but it was the quote “We can learn to fall in love with anyone if you just knew their story” by Mister Rogers.
I used to watch Mr. Rogers during childhood, but didn’t realize he had made such a huge impact within contributing to our individual and Collective Soul Growth/Spiritual Evolution/Expanding Consciousness.
While doing a brief search to find another post, I noticed the following on the first page of Google, from the uplifting, empowering and inspiring reading, “12 Beautiful Life Lessons Mr. Rogers Taught Us: ‘It’s not what we have in life that matters. It’s what we do with what we have.'” by Good Housekeeping that includes:
- “He even famously breakdanced on his show because he was a man with an eternally open mind (and heart)”
- 4. Don’t be afraid to express your emotions
- 5. Teach by example
- “Frankly, there isn’t anyone you couldn’t learn to love once you’ve heard their story, he said. He reminded us all to embrace our individual power: “Never underestimate the impact that your mere existence can have on another human being,” he said.Dec 5, 2014
My Reply Comment
2/3/2022 (Th):
Thank you K____ for sharing a deeply heartfelt message that helped heal the remnants of what I very briefly, but strongly felt at this past Community call (like a sharp arrow to the heart).
However, there was an amazing shift within me, a few seconds after that experience, which I’m very grateful for because:
– I thanked Spirit within for assisting me to END (with me) any conflicts within my inner and outer worlds, and to unconditionally forgive another who has shown a pattern (whether intentionally or not) to subtly and passive-aggressively ignore (certain messages for help) and discriminate from others (masked with fancy spiritual sayings and sarcastic humor), mostly behind closed doors via direct messages.
– I also learned from this gift of CONTRAST/blessing in disguise, that though these moments initially didn’t feel light/true to my Heart, I can choose to SEE (with CLARITY) the BIGGER picture.
And that is, as a future EMT—IF I still feel guided from Spirit/Heart within to even continue on this path—if an EMF member is willing to be vulnerable and share very traumatic childhood and/or adulthood stories, I have learned what aspects I DON’T prefer Being and doing.
Recent examples:
– a mother shooting her daughter and then not acknowledging it (let alone apologizing)
– a child being molested by her uncle and wasn’t able to tell her alcoholic and very aggressive mother out of fear
– and a woman being raped while in the Army who was laughed at by the rapist, etc.
For such intensely traumatic Life experiences, I absolutely would NOT say to the rest of the members within a community call—AFTER those members’ shares—to give any of those members a standing ovation and a round of applause (that doesn’t even sound sincere, hence, can off as mocking). [UPDATE added 2/12/2022: I stand corrected; I recently rewatched the related section of this past Community Call video, and she did mention the applause part, but not the “standing ovatation” part, which I shared with her. She still sounded sarcastic and dissmissive, —not really acknowledging what I shared but going into a lot of feedback details to what the other member shared—but not in an obviously mean way, but in her usual “gentle friendly” way. I wondered why I heard “standing ovatation”; but since I’ve been trusting that no matter what happens, that they’re all meant for our highest benefit—as obvious blessings or blessings in disguise—to include series of Divine synchronicity that may appear as coincidences, I chose to simply trust that I was meant to hear that possibly for a future experience, though even if it didn’t manifest, that’s completely okay too since I don’t need it.]
And if any member were to feel humiliated from such an experience, it can push them away from ever sharing within a “safe space” community call again.
I trust that all members share NOT to be in the spotlight, but because they genuinely want to help contribute to deeply healing others/self.
EVERYONE’S perceptions are VALID, and like I’ve shared before in one of the module comments, to DENY this is GASLIGHTING (which can be experienced NOT ONLY from others, but to self as well)—a form of psychological ABUSE that basically states, “What you SAW you didn’t SEE, what you HEARD you didn’t HEAR, what you FELT you didn’t FEEL, it’s all in your head, etc.”
Example:
So when a child builds up the courage to tell a mother that s/he’s being sexually abused by her father, but rather than the mother checking her daughter’s body for any signs—and also looking for others behavior signs—the mother tells her daughter that it’s all her imagination, can you imagine how devastating that can be for a child?
I just wanted to honor my true feelings, and fully move on from this.
I’ve been very grateful and have been mostly loving this EMF journey so far; but there has been some challenges that I intend to continue overcoming.
And I’ve learned that I still don’t need anyone from my outer world: acceptance , approval, respect, “likes,” etc.—unless it’s unconditionally and sincerely given from the integrated Heart/Mind (thus deeply appreciated)—since I’m continuing to work on fully filling my own inner cup/heart FIRST AND FOREMOST; because only then can this Unconditional/True love effortlessly and generously overflow to others/interconnected Life.
We CANNOT truly, fully, and UNconditionally give to others what we don’t believe we have an abundance of from within.
Like a child, 🦮, or husky dog, I’ve had a tendency to get really excited when first meeting people, so I made the mistake of naively and enthusiastically calling this peer group my Soul Family from the beginning (which stemmed from a deep yearning to connect with others within a peer group community at the Soul level).
But I’ve learned that though our peer group consists of almost 120 members, that despite genuine efforts to reach out and share many times, I’ve only been able to deeply connect with less than a dozen or so, who actually felt like what I imagined to be an unconditionally loving Soul Family.
And this is “imperfectly” perfect since once again, CONTRASTS are also blessings in disguise/Divine gifts💖 that have a Divine Purpose, that help us to deeply appreciate the OPPOSITE Life experiences.
I’m also reminded by the deeply loving quote within the poster that you shared, to further expand my perspective/consciousness, and take into consideration, even those who may be unkind at times.
Because they have their own personal, heart wound stories that reveal why they may have a tendency, at times, to be, say, and do certain, fear-based things, especially behind closed doors, where others don’t get to witness these so-called “dark/unknown” and fear-based ways.
This includes expressing Freudian slip comments such as, “Your high level of consciousness makes me feel unworthy,” and then denying that it was said when one replies, “I don’t want to make others feel unworthy” (which cause another to want to withdraw from a peer group for over a month).
And not realizing that all human beings naturally and AUTHENTICALLY fluctuate in consciousness/ vibrational frequency, though like Peter teaches, we have a STAGE of consciousness that we’re habitually in, and a STATE of consciousness that we visit at times.
[UPDATE: In addition, we can choose to learn from those we perceive to have a higher level of consciousness, be grateful for their precious existence (like all interconnected Life), and deeply appreciate them for their contributions—to include assisting with the EXPANSION of our individual and Collective Consciousness—rather than feel unworthy by what we don’t temporarily believe we are and/or have from within, and/or feel resentful, envious, jealous, and/or even hateful.]
Epiphany about a Trigger: The Neutral Aspect of Standing Ovation
2/3-4/2022 (Th & Fri):
After sharing at an EMF zoom Community Call what I felt would be helpful to another (because the member asked for feedback, and got pretty quiet), one of my Community Managers announced in a seemingly sarcastic and loud manner for everyone to give me a standing ovation and a round of applause, which instantly felt like a sudden dagger to the heart.
However, as mentioned above (regarding the quick prayer within), and thanking Spirit within for the BIGGER picture, I received an insight of the benefit of experiencing CONTRASTS (a Divine gift for physical worlds’ Life schools, since we can learn from comparisons of the opposites, hence, can deeply appreciate, for example, sunny days after dark cloudy days).
And additional Light bulbs went off, to include the Cosmic Invitation of entertaining the probabilities of experiencing the opposite FEELING state of this hurtful one in the future—i.e., experiencing tears of joy from a sincere and deeply heartfelt standing ovation (that reveals a Soul-level connection)—for the following creative projects that I’ve initiated (i.e., planted seeds for future harvest):
- TEDx Talk: that I’ve already completed and submitted the full application and intro video for weeks ago
- Open-Mic Comedy Performance: though I started this hobby back in 2017 in San Antonio TX, and performed a few times there, since then, I sporadically performed due to loss of confidence, However, recently, I experienced a very POWERFUL and STRONG intuitive knowing—after various series of Divine synchronicity via vivid and symbolic dreams and outer world signs—that I absolutely MUST follow through with this NEW project (set) that I’ve almost completed, and will practice rehearsing many times before performing at various locations, to include:
- Sedona AZ (where I currently live, and performed twice)
- Flagstaff AZ (where I used to live for 2 years before Sedona, and performed before a few times)
- Phoenix AZ (performed twice)
- Las Vegas (never performed here before, but incorporating this new expeirence into a future trip with my husband for his Realtor/Broker event, and my first visit to The Temple of Goddess Spirituality dedicated to the Divine Mother Goddess Sekhmet/Hathor, after receiving various signs from the Friendly Universe)
- UPDATE added 2/16/2022: When there was a strong, Collective belief that the world was going to end in 2012, I didn’t believe it, and it never came true (at least for this particular Earth reality). However, after reading a book (with discernment/not believing everything) that matched many personal experiences—to include vivid dreams recorded within this blog and in personal journals—I still have a strange feeling that something HUGE will happen this year that may not be all sunshine, flowers, and rainbows. Apparently, there may be a high probability for The Return of the Anunnaki this December of 2022; and if this is true, then none of the above mentioned goals will really matter since The End is near due to the ongoing corruption of this world (history repeating itself rather than humanity learning from its past). So rather than the perspective of anything in Life being a “MUST BE DONE,” it will simply be, be/Be and do only IF we FEEL like it (from our Heart) because we’d like to have the experience, we’re passionate about it, we enjoy it, etc. Continuing in post, “What IF 2022 is Humanity’s Last Year to Fully Live Within This World?“
Confirmation by a NEW Sacred Number MessageBut
I often use certain spiritual guidance tools, though I always prefer to follow my inner guidance first and foremost, only taking onboard what FEELS light/true to my Heart, and disregarding the rest.
UPDATE from phone📱calendar 📆 note:
2/3/2022 (Th)
🙏🏼9:37 [noticed] soon after sharing authentically raw reply comment—perfect for this Authenticity module—to K____ ‘s deeply heartfelt message, that included (as stated) honoring my true feelings and further revealing other observations that need to be brought to the Light (regarding one of our EMF Community Mangers (female) and this EMF14 peer group).
When about to listen to some heart soothing healing music, and setting down my phone, I heard it take a pic of the the above doc page, and sensed again to check the time, and looked up this new 9:37 message, and glad I did since it matched, and I intuitively knew this part of the message below is related to my current MUST DO creative, open-🎤 🤣 project.
The following is part of the entire message from the website that I use with discernment—without taking it at face value (i.e., completely believing everything that’s shared) since everyone has their own filters––ANGEL NUMBERS ~ Joanne Sared Scribes for angel number (aka activation code/truth code/sacred number/etc.) 937 that reminded me of the above mentioned creative projects that I will continue to focus on after sharing this post (<= click on # to open link in another page):
Discover😃 NEW🐣avenues to express 🗣💖👇🏼individuality, originality & creativity & bring👇🏼natural leadership skills to the fore & use them to assist & uplift others.
Update Insight Post Shared with EMF Group
2/3/2022 (Th):
I shared the following fb post today, along with this poster (on left):
Thanks to K____’s deeply healing and uplifting message and poster today—regarding our recent Community Call and authentic shares—as well as Lili’s willingness to help others as well, this related poster reminded me again of the importance of genuinely caring and sharing.
Whenever we experience sudden, AUTHENTIC feelings (especially what felt hurtful), it’s not JUST about doing step by step processing via the logical mind, but also fully embracing and honoring our true feelings via our Heart, and deeply healing them in NON-GASLIGHTING, unconditionally loving, and healthy ways.
After sharing the following reply comment (and UPDATE) to K____’s post today, I felt lighter, and I fully trust that this stems from the IMPORTANCE of AUTHENTICALLY, honestly, fully, and freely expressing our inner truths (even though we may be habitually told by another that we basically misunderstood and/or are overreacting):
[UPDATE: In addition, we can choose to learn from those we perceive to have a higher level of consciousness, be grateful for their precious existence (like all interconnected Life), and deeply appreciate them for their contributions—to include assisting with the EXPANSION of our individual and Collective Consciousness—rather than feel unworthy by what we don’t temporarily believe we are and/or have from within, and/or feel resentful, envious, jealous, and/or even hateful.]
[also added full reply comment to K_____ , under subtitle, “An EMF Member’s Comment: (above), where I added the ABOVE UPDATE at the end of the original reply message]
Epiphany About a Trigger: The Neutral Aspect of Discrimination
2/3/2022 (Th):
While conversating via a fb messenger call this afternoon with M____ (my assigned EMF & EMT buddy) about deeper interpretations about our lives, I received a profound insight shared under the subtitle, “Epiphany About a Trigger: The Neutral Aspect of Discrimination”.
I added the following to the above “Update Insight Post Shared with EMF Group”:
UPDATE (Epiphany and Profound Insight):
Outer world continuing to trigger me about the NEUTRAL aspect and theme of DISCRIMINATION—that’s been repeating during this phase of my life—was a NEON SIGN from the Friendly Universe reminding me to BE more AWARE, TAKE NOTICE and do highly beneficial Shadow Work (deeper Mirror Work via the 7 Essence Mirrors, gracefully taught by Gregg Braden) to continue Soul growth/spiritual evolution/expanding individual and Collective Consciousness.
It has led me to finally EMBRACE and INTEGRATE this “negative” aspect called DISCRIMINATION (of self/others) into WHOLE self/Self, in a balanced and harmonious way, so that it no longer has power over me:
From one perspective:
Be extra cognizant to not treat others in hurtful and discriminating ways since I further learned how hurtful this can feel via the series of CONTRASTS experienced for over a month.
Ensure that I no longer discriminate against myself.
Examples: like not being confident that I, too, deserve respectful and kind treatment from others, just like the rest of humanity, to include a peer group; to no longer believe that I can’t be in the spotLIGHT at times like every other Soul, since there’s an abundance of spotLIGHT to go around for ALL; to no longer doubt that I, too, can experience AMAZING success on all energetic levels—mental, emotional, physical, spiritual, and even financial, etc..
From a further, expanded, Multidimensional perspective:
to be okay/accept/embrace (BE NEUTRAL) with discriminating to a certain degree within inner and outer worlds.
Examples:
When it comes to certain aspects and extensions within WHOLE self/Self:
preferring Heart to lead mind, rather than the other way around; preferring Unconditional Love over fear (while also respecting that fear energy to a small degree has its beneficial purpose, like being afraid of oncoming traffic can prevent one from crossing a super busy, major street without looking; preferring the Peter taught INNER “Champion” over the “Criticizer”, etc..
When it comes to the various aspects and extensions within outer world:
preferring overall (keyword) and habitually loving and optimistic people over overall (keyword) and habitually unloving and negative people, preferring certain foods over others, preferring to focus on the present moments rather than dwelling in the past or worried about the future, etc.ents rather than dwelling in the past or worried about the future, etc.
Reply Comments to “Update Insight Post Shared with EMF Group”
2/4/2022 (Fri)
A______ (another EMF member) shared reply (Note: Even others NOT “liking” a fb post that we shared, while “hearting” others’ shares within the same space, can be a hurtful trigger IF we allow it to; however, when we fully embrace and integrate the neutral aspect of discrimination—as shared above under subtitle, “Epiphany About a Trigger: The Neutral Aspect of Discrimination”—then we can embrace not needing others to accept, approve of, or even respect and/or like us):
Your post has reminded me that initially when this EMF group began I loved how few members there were at the time and we were getting to know each other, but when it grew I began to feel a bit overwhelmed by how many wonderful people were posting their welcome videos. I really liked everybody (still do!) but was afraid that the numbers were becoming large and that I wouldn’t have the time to get to know everybody deeply.
As time has moved on I’ve interacted with about a dozen members of the group at a deep level so far, which sounds similar to what you are saying above. But one thing that I’m understanding is the importance of ‘so far’ and that there are many members in the group who one day, because the time is right for both me and them, we will somehow ‘be put together’. And that’s awesome!
To know that there are people in this group who I’ve perhaps not interacted with at all yet might one day become my best friends, or out of the blue they become the advisor that I need during a particular stage in my life (or vice versa) is one of the biggest joys for me in this EMF journey.
My Reply to A______:
thank you A______ for sharing a very helpful and beautiful, expanded perspective🙏🏼.
M______shared reply:
Side Note/Helpful Context: M______ is my EMF & EMT assigned buddy who shared the following EMF fb group reply, and then sent me a private fb messenger message afterwards, stating that she wanted to let know how awesome I am, which I appreciated.
I’m also grateful for the gift of contrast that she mirrored to me, because she helped me to deeply appreciate my willingness (since the past) to Be that BOLD and loyal “buddy”/family member/friend/coworker/leader/neighbor/acquaintence/and even stranger, who was willing to show them AND others that I had their back 100%, even if no one else did, which I’ve shared stories about within this blog (and a few, Soul Family-like Souls who have done this for me as well, in the distant past).
It is early morning for me. I’m drinking my coffee (just one cup, Peter 😉)
So, my brain is not quite awake yet.
But I just want to share a thought with you…
I see us all as jewels going through the “cutting” process. It is painful. But the end result is going to be awesome ❤️
My Reply to M______:
thank you M____ for sharing an awesome analogy. Yes, I’ve been feeling deep pain in my heart during this recent transformation phase, but as I’m embracing and honoring my true feelings, crying/profound healing/releasing, expanding my perspective, integrating neutral aspects into WHOLE self/Self, I’m feeling lighter by the day.
I’ve also learned that we can be quick to forgive, and forgive another multiple times, but just like any subtle to very obvious, habitual, abusive relationship, I’ve continued to stand up for myself with healthy boundaries and basically express ENOUGH. I refuse to be anyone’s psychological punching bag, that’s all.
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