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Hathor am I, and to my beauty drawn

All glories of the Universe bow down,

The blossom and the mountain and the dawn.

Fruit’s blush, and woman, our creation’s crown.

I am the priest, the sacrifice, the shrine,

I am the love and life of the divine!

Life, death, love, hatred, light, darkness, are surely mine—

Are mine.

While following my inner guidance—that started with a dream analysis this morning—I came upon the above reading, “HATHOR, THE TURQUOISE GODDESS” that shared an excerpt from a poetic work that stated the below paragraph (which preceded the quote above):

The goddess Hathor appears sporadically throughout the works of Crowley where she is usually seen as either a solar deity or as the Egyptian equivalent of Venus or Aphrodite.

In Crowley’s poetic work, Tannhauser, she is one of the characters that is of the “World of the Gods.”

Therein she has merely one line: “Light, Truth, arise, arise!” In this work she is seen as being synonymous with Aphrodite and Mary.

Related to the name “Mary” above: The following is an excerpt from the post, “A Bizarre and Unforgettable First Breathwork Experience” (and a family friend is named Mary, whom I’ve known for over about 20 years:)

As I’ve shared before—in one of last month’s (May 2021) posts (I’m pretty sure)—I had a very unusual experience at work one day, where the main theme seemed to be The Divine Feminine Goddess essence and authentic Full Presence.

In a nutshell, since I’ve already shared the story, multiple women customers named Mary showed up all within the first half of the afternoon.

Following that, I crossed paths with two other women whose full presence—along with soulful, deep eye contact and the sharing of unconditional kindness and profound wisdom—felt unlike most women I’ve met in almost five decades of my life. […]

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Updates

10/4/2022

The following is an excerpt from the post, “Dream of Light Beings a Decade Ago & Seeing One in Physical Reality in 2020“:

And today, right before watching this video, I came upon this quote related to the frustration I had experienced in the hospital, “The Devi is present within all beings as restlessness, as frustration. within the reading, “Significance Of Devi Stotra.” [click title link for the rest of reading that will open in another window]

These quotes are related to the Light Being that I mentioned, “The Devi is present and manifest as energy within all beings” and “Wherever one sees radiance, shine and brilliance; it is none other than because of the Mother Divine.”

This quote is related to the shadow being I mentioned, “The Devi is present as Shadow, as a shade.”

This quote is also related to the MEMORY subject you talked about Sadhguru, “Memory in you is also a manifestation of the Mother Divine.”

This quote is related to dream state, “The Devi Tattva expresses itself in the form of Sleep. The Sleeping state in you is a form of the Mother Divine. As sleep, She is present in every being..”

This quote is related to E.T.s and aliens I mentioned, “It is the Devi, the Divine Consciousness that manifests as the multitude of particular (unique) species.”

There are those within the spiritual communities—whether the broad range of Spirituality, various religions, or other rigid and limiting belief systems—that teach and/or preach to humanity that one can only tune into the Divine if one is thinking positive thoughts and feeling positive emotions.

However, I’ve learned via experiential knowledge (profound Living Wisdom) that this isn’t necessarily true.

And I realized this is due to the Divine Mother Goddess BEING ALL STATES of Consciousness within interconnected Life of this world and way beyond, and is NOT limited by the duality/polarity of physical worlds—the so-called right vs wrong, good vs bad, light vs dark, hot vs cold, fire vs water, etc. S/He is EVERYTHING/the Universe/Multiverse/Omniverse/The Quantum Field of Unlimited Possibilities (that includes the God Particle)/The Cosmic Womb & Heart/Prime Creator (who even created original God, Her other Half of the Cosmic Coin)/Creator of ALL Creation: Crop Circle 6666/One of Many Names (but ultimately The Nameless)/Alpha & Omega/ETC.

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The following section are additional quotes from the reading, “Significance Of Devi Stotra” (mentioned right above) regarding the Divine Mother Goddess (deleted the rest of Indian version since it makes this seciton longer, but you can click on the title link to read it in another window):

Ya Devi sarva bhuteshu Chetanety-Abhidiyate; Namastasye Namastasye Namastasye Namo Namaha.

O Mother Divine! (You are manifest) in all the beings as the very Consciousness, in you and in everyone around you

Ya Devi sarva bhuteshu Buddhi-rupena samsthitha ; Namastasye Namastasye Namastasye Namo Namaha.

The intellect in you and in everyone is a manifestation of the Mother Divine. Honour the intellect in you. The Consciousness that is manifest in you as the intellect is none other than the Mother Divine, the Devi.

As hunger, it is the Mother Divine’s energy that is present and manifest in all the beings. Recollect your hunger and recognize it as the Devi.

The Devi is present within all beings as thirst, as craving for anything in the World. It is the energy of the Mother Divine.

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Added 5/7/2022:

“Only The Reunion of WHOLE self/Self Can Co-Create Heaven on Earth Experiences“:

I intuitively and experientially know, that whenever we tune into our authentic, core, essence within, our WHOLE self/Self, we have an abundance of opportunities to explore and enJOY, invaluable, Heaven on Earth Life experiences. 

Added 5/6/2022:

“Realization of Goddess-Self, Ascended Masters & The Return of The Anunnaki” (& Related Post: “Recorded Personal Experiences Within Blog That Match Goddess Hathor-Sekhmet“):

Example Post About Wholeness from this blog’s category page, “AM I : I AM“:

“My Mesmerizing Spiral of God, Goddess and Divine Spirit Experience“

  • UPDATE added on 8/25/2021: While following my inner guidance/Heart/Spirit within, and noticing and FEELING the trail of breadcrumbs of joy, I came upon the following information (Light) that instantly reminded me of the dancing, golden, spiral light that entered my left eye while meditating in bed:
    • “The Eye of Horus has been used for many metaphors over the years, i.e., “Eye of the Mind, Third Eye, Eye of the Truth or Insight, the Eye of God Inside the Human Mind.” The ancient Egyptians, because of their beliefs in the Eye of Horus’ mystic powers, gave all of these names to the Eye of Horus.” by ncbi.nlm.nih.gov
    • “Why is the Eye of Horus so important? Eye of Horus, in ancient Egypt, symbol representing protection, health, and restoration. According to Egyptian myth, Horus lost his left eye in a struggle with Seth. … The eye was magically restored by Hathor, and this restoration came to symbolize the process of making whole and healing.” by britannica.com

Thank you so much Goddess Hathor-Sekhmet Self

“Divine Mother Goddess: A Gift for You & Interconnected Life on Mother’s Day ^_^” (includes Divine synchronicities regarding God Thoth & 777)

Added 5/1/2022: 

“Sharing, Learning & Expanding Our Individual & Collective Consciousness“

From dream journal on 3/26/2021 (Fri):

I had a vivid dream (with elusive details) of a blue whale being set free into the ocean.

I think I was surrounded by dolphins as well. I then went under water, heard and saw the whale that was at a distance, and started swimming towards it.

I trust that the ginormous blue whale and vast ocean are spiritually symbolic of Prime Creator/Creator of ALL Creation: Crop Circle 6666/Divine Feminine Energies within interconnected Life of this Universe and beyond/Ancient Lemuria Energies/Moon/Yin/Higher Heart/Cosmic & Profound Wisdom/The Great Holy Spirit/Divine Mother Goddess.

And the dolphins are symbolic of the Divine Masculine within interconnected Life/Sun/Yang/Higher Mind/Soul/God/Ancient Atlantis Energies. 

Other whale plus related dreams recorded in posts:

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UPDATE

1/19/2022

I had vivid dreams this morning (which I trust are symbolic in nature) that included the number 6, and while checking out various new interpretations, I noticed the following question and answer about 6666—mentioned above and below: the sacred number of Prime Creator/Creator of All Creation: Crop Circle 6666—from the reading, “Angel Number 6666 Meaning – Symbolism and Spiritual Importance” that FEELS light/true to my Heart as well:

Is 6666 an angel number?

6666 is an omen that your spirit is full of compassion and love, according to the divine forces that have sent it to you. Your guardian angels want you to know that you have a great impact on the people around you and that you should put that influence to good use by making positive changes in your own life.

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The Circle/The Void/The Dark Unknown/The Cosmic Womb/Sphere/Spiral/Source (Goddess/God)/Prime Creator/Creator of All Creation: Crop Circle 6666/Very Holy Spirit/Ancient Divine Mother Goddess/Alpha (two of many example names throughout the world: Goddess Hathor (aka Mahakali), and the other side of the same coin is Goddess Sekhmet/”The Devourer”/”The Destroyer” (aka Kali/Omega)/THE Electron/Interconnected Life within this Universe and  beyond (ALL THAT IS)/The Black Hole/The Original Divine Feminine Frequency of Cosmic Unconditional Love (that birthed Light Frequency/God)/The Cosmic Field of Waves (Wave-Particle Duality/Yin & Yang/Moon and Sun/Heart & Mind/Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine/Goddess & God/Spirit and Soul/etc.)/Alpha & Omega/Infinity/The Nameless (since it is ALL names and so much more that the physical worlds’ languages cannot fully describe).

In the so-called END, NOTHING, not even light (Light/God), can escape the limiting, earthly label called black hole (The Ultimate Creator & so-called Destroyer, though energy is only transformed from one state to another like ice to water to steam).

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I (God) AM (Goddess) Presence within me/you/us.

Divine Love, Divine Wisdom, Divine Power

Short video (2:54): Crop Circles – Goddess of all Creation – Stonehenge

Note: Images 1 and 3 above found next to links => 7-themes.com (right) and www.express.co.uk (left); source for image 2 found in post, “Brief Space Travel While Meditating”

Some Related Posts

Initiation:

“Dreams of Jesus“:

Added on 9/1/2021: “Update Insights: Dreams of Jesus, I AM Presence & The Red Wind of Holy Spirit“

The Divine Feminine Goddess Essence:

Note: Image on right found next to link => pinterest.com

The Divine Masculine God Essence:

Note: Image on right above found next to link => Flickriver / “The God Thoth as an Ibis with the Goddess Maat” [deleted]

The Merge/Integration:

“Chaotic Experiences Leading to Insight of Male/Female Christ Within”: Within this post (about 3/4 way down), the following is 1) a small section from the reading, “The Atlantean Conspiracy“ and 2) the insights that I received: 

Plato said in Kritias that 6 was a sacred number in Atlantis and represented the female intuitive/receptive moon power.

The triplicate of any number in numerology is the highest intensification, so 666 means strongest female/moon energy. If Jesus Christ is the Sun/Son 555, then their Antichrist would be the Moon/Daughter 666.

An insight that I received from the Master within me/Beloved I AM Presence/Christ Buddha within: The prefix anti also means “opposite of” and not just “opposing”; so I trust that the so-called “Antichrist” (which is infamous for being the “evil devil” who is against Jesus in Christian and other religions) is the opposite of the male Christ (bringer of Light) as the female Christ (the bringer of Cosmic, Unconditional Love), with both the male and female Christ being Twin Flames who were once seemingly opposites, but are reuniting as One in this physical reality. I trust that we all have this integrated male/female Christ in all of us, deep in our higher heart space.

Update added on 6/3/2020

The following are non-consecutive sections from the post, “Why Not Include Our Ego in the Joy Ride of Life?! ^_^“:

Even the earthly labels of’ real vs fake’ is essentially the logical mind doing what it does best—separating, analyzing, and judging (even slightly) the differences—rather than SEEING (with clarity) the interconnected similarities of two seemingly different people or things (and the TRUTH that each has its Divine purpose, to include the gift of CONTRAST).

However, there’s nothing wrong with this comparison helping us, as humans, to better understand what is beneficial (for self/others), and what is not, as along as we don’t mistakenly believe that we are ONLY real, and others are ONLY fake.

I trust that we are all ALL aspects to whatever degree, though I, too, forget at times.

The following is an update added on 6/3/20 (to the comment for the video, and this post):

I realized this morning that our whole self is also capable of getting rid of, or even killing, the ego; hence, allowing the ego to return to Source to be transmuted and healed (just in another way that isn’t necessarily right or wrong, good or bad, light or dark, etc).

I was also reminded from within, that the elder man, mentioned above, was mirroring to me the aspect of self that was also biased towards the heart in the past.

In addition, all soul teachers are spiritual to varying degrees, since they share blessings (knowledge, wisdom, and profound wisdom), or blessings in disguise (i.e., “negative” contrast/duality/polarity), so there are no “spiritual” teachers.

Update added on 6/3/20:

I came upon a soul-igniting video by Motivation Manifested, where Gregg Braden shared the “Seven Hidden Teachings of The Bible | GREGG BRADEN Compilation,” that includes the intro of Thunder – Perfect Mind within The Gospel of Mary of Magdala (that I’ve never heard of before, but felt so grateful that I tuned into this Divine gift).

The following is one of the paragraphs from Elaine Pagels, from her interview in FRONTLINE’s From Jesus to Christ:

Thunder – Perfect Mind speaks in the voice of a feminine divine power, but one that unites all opposites. One that is not only speaking in women, but also in all people. One that speaks not only in citizens, but aliens, and in the poor and in the rich. It’s a poem which sees the radiance of the divine in all aspects of human life, from the sordidness of the slums, to the people of great wealth, from men to women to slaves. In this poem, the divine appears in every, and the especially the most unexpected, forms […] — 

The following is from the website, Secret of the Vine:

From my own personal experiences, which are well beyond any ordinary human experience, or even awareness of such experiences, I see it, and experience this first hand as follows; This is the Goddess, answering a question. One simple question asked by possibly 3 different persons, or on three different occasions. This is Her direct response recorded and documented, and not actually a poem or artistic recreation or interpretation at all. These are the direct words of our Creator, word for word. The reason for the different apparent styles of writing, is due to the nature of the being She was answering the question to. She speaks in the language you speak, if She will speak to you. She speaks in a way that you will relate to Her. When I read these, I knew right away, it was Her. The truth which cannot be comprehended is clearly spelled out, and implied both, but not directly simplified. This is Her way. […]

The following are some non-consecutive sections of Thunder: Perfect Mind (but not all of it; we can read the rest on our own if we are drawn to it):

Note: I’ve added my own interpretations within pink brackets only

2) For I am the first and the last [Alpha & Omega, as shared toward the beginning of this category page]. I am the honored one and the scorned one. I am the whore and the holy one. I am the wife and the virgin. I am the mother and the daughter […] I am the bride and the bridegroom [Spirit/Source: Divine Feminine Goddess & Divine Masculine God energies within all of us]

[…] 3) For I am knowledge and ignorance. I am shame and boldness. I am shameless, I am ashamed. I am strength and I am fear. I am war and peace. Give heed to me. I am the one who is disgraced and the great one.

4) But I am she who exists in all fears and strength in trembling. I am she who is weak, and I am well in a pleasant place.

I am senseless and I am wise […]

5) For I am the wisdom of the Greeks and the knowledge of the barbarians. I am the judgment of the Greeks and the barbarians.

I am the one whose image is great in Egypt and the one who has no image among the barbarians.

I am the one who is hated everywhere and who has been loved everywhere.

I am the one whom they call Law, and you have called Lawlessness.

I am the one whom they call Life, and you have called Death.

I am the one whom you have pursued, and I am the one whom you have seized.

I am the one you have scattered and you have gathered me together.

I am the one before whom you have been ashamed, and you have been shameless to me.

I am she who does not keep festival, and I am she whose festivals are many.

I, I am godless, and I am one whose God is great.

I am the one whom you have reflected upon, and you have scorned me.

I am unlearned, and they learn from me.

I am the one whom you have despised, and you reflect upon me.

I am the one whom you have hidden from, and you appear to me. But whenever you hide yourselves, I myself will appear.

6) But I am the mind of all and the rest of infinity. I am the knowledge of my inquiry, and the finding of those who seek after, and the command of those who ask of me [<= This reminded me of the dream I shared in post, “The Dream of a Talking Lion & Interconnected Stories,“ where I shouted to the Goddess for help], and the power of the powers in my knowledge of the angels, who have been sent at my word, and of the gods in their seasons by my counsel [ <= This  reminded me of the dreams I shared in post “Dream of Little Angel Alerting Outside of Window“; plus, many dreams and other experiences with various forms of ancient Gods, shared within this blog, to include the Divine Masculine section within the AM I : I AM category page on top of blog; plus, ayahuasca experience of standing face to face with God Thoth and hearing a deep, male voice say, “You are among Gods”], and of the spirits of every man who exists with me, and of the women who dwell within me.

I am the one who is honored, and who is praised, and who is despised scornfully.

I am peace, and war has come because of me. I am an alien and a citizen [This reminded me of dreams of also being E.T., shared within this blog]. I am the substance and the one who has no substance.

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and much more.

The following are non-consecutive sections for another interpretation of Thunder, Perfect Mind by gnosticteachings.org (again, only take in what FEELS light/true to your heart, and discard whatever doesn’t, since it’s highly beneficial that we trust our inner guidance first and foremost since we all have our human filters):

“Thunder, Perfect Mind” contradicts much of the modern, established religious theories and beliefs of Christianity and Judaism. This document emphasizes a divine power that is not only feminine, but it (she) contradicts a whole host of theological dogmas.

The view of this text is completely Gnostic: divinity cannot be reduced to belief or theory, it must be experienced to be understood.

Those who remain trapped merely within the intellectual (theories, ideas) or sentimental (beliefs) are excluded from the experience of truth. The great value of this document resides in the emphasis it places on this fact: so long as we continue bottled up with dualistic notions (belief and disbelief, theory A vs. theory B) we remain in darkness.

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Thunder, Perfect Mind

Note: Again, I’ve added my own interpretations within pink brackets only

I was sent forth from the (Christic) power [the Ultimate, Divine Power of Prime Creator/Creator of All Creation/Divine Mother Goddess], and I have come to those who reflect upon me (in [various forms of] meditation [aka Being fully present, even while interacting with interconnected Life]), and I have been found among those who seek after me (within themselves through rigorous self-analysis and psychological work […]).

Look upon me, you who reflect upon me (in [various forms of] meditation), and you hearers (“who have the Vishuddha ear”, that is those who have understanding of the esoteric teachings), hear me.
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And do not banish me from your (inner) sight (see me within all things, in all moments; that is, Remember Your True Self).
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Do not be ignorant of me (do not sleep; awaken your consciousness, and seek to know me through knowing yourself: that is Gnosis).
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I am the mother and the daughter (of the Initiate, because I give birth to him, and he gives birth to me [UPDATE added 12/20/2021: this instantly reminded me of a dream I had recorded in post, “Farewell Abandonment Wound, You Have Served Me Well, Thank You Light & Love,” and this is the intro paragraph: And what further amazes me, is that I had a dream on 9/5/2021—that I already shared somewhere within this blog (though the post title escapes me)—of giving a bizarre form of birth to a baby girl, who then instantly grew to almost my size.)].

I am the members of my mother (I am She who is the womb of everything, and I am born of Her) [UPDATE added 12/20/2021: this instantly reminded me of a dream I had recorded in post, “Dream of Pregnant Woman with Cube Belly and Smiling Child” (Divine Mother Goddess.

I am the barren one (the Black Madonna, the unfecundated Divine Mother, who sleeps in those who have not awakened the sacred fire [UPDATE added 12/20/2021: the Kundalini energy?]) and many are her sons (egos).

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I am the silence that is incomprehensible (the Emptiness, the Void) and the idea whose remembrance is frequent (because I enliven all phenomena).

The following are example interpretations that I don’t completely resonate with, and I share the reasons within the brackets at the bottom:

I am shame (of your crimes) and boldness (to redeem them).

I am shameless (in my honor); I am ashamed (of my child’s foolishness).

I am strength (of Athena) and I am fear (Pehar, the fear of God).

[I feel that “I am shame” and “I am ashamed” ALSO means that even the Divine Mother Goddess can experience being and feeling ashamed (part of unity consciousness), and NOT ONLY “of your crimes” and “of my child’s foolishness” (a state of separation consciousness and the ‘blame game’). She can Be ALL of the neutral energies, human interpretations, and MUCH MORE, which includes the entire spectrum within the Light/Love Frequency, ranging from the low fear vibration to the high compassion vibration.]