A Way To Better Know, Trust and Unconditionally Love Self

WARNING: This is not a post of the typical, solely linear thinking/writing style, but rather, one of an expanded, multidimensional view where I simply go with the flow—following my Heart’s inner-guidance/path of soul/inner-child’s excitement—and write whatever I feel like freely expressing, to include ego self’s individual consciousness and Spirit’s unity consciousness, without much concern of logical order, though I have included some form of organization to avoid too much confusion and possible pulling out of already thinning hair.

So proceed if you dare! 😉

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Post published on 6/2/2016 and Updates added on 6/3rd, 8th, and 10th/2016

The question for today is, “Do I truly trust myself?” (NOT, “Do I trust so and so.”)

And if not…why not?

And if so, how do I even know that I do—either partially or fully?

And last but not least, why does it even matter to self and interconnected others?

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I trust that these are just one example set of questions in Life that will—without a shadow of a doubt—help us all to better know, trust, and unconditionally accept/love ALL aspects of ourselves.

Because, if we don’t even fully know who we truly are, are aware of whether or not we trust ourselves, and even know if we love ourselves unconditionally, then how can we truly know, trust, and love others?

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I noticed that the more I notice, recognize, acknowledge, feel grateful for, and appreciate the Divine synchronicities that happen in my daily life, the more I experience them, as well as trust them as continual communication (Divine messages) from Spirit within (that all of us are capable of tuning into with our open mind/heart and intention).

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So far I noticed that Divine synchronicity—to include number synchronicity (e.g., 11:11, 12:12, 1:11-999, 2222-9999, palindrome #’s like 12:21, 7:11-9:11, etc.), “coincidences”, and signs and symbols from outer world (to include people, places, events, things, Mother Nature, etc.), etc.—confirms my inner guidance system; and I have no doubt that these confirmations will continue to appear, until they are no longer needed (to build confidence and trust in self).

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SHINY OBJECT ALERT!!!/Side Note (yes yes yes, I may have so-called (mislabeled), “ADHD,” but it’s all good! 😉 Now I can have the most profound understanding of my experiences from the post, “Transformation of the Children of the Corn”):

While searching for matching images for this section of the post, I was instantly drawn to this beautiful, butterfly image on left, right above.

However, I wondered why the artist had titled it, “Narcisist butterfly” (By Tamashamor), when it was merely a butterfly looking at it’s own reflection in a car windshield, as stated in the description right below the link.

I’ve learned that there is a big difference between being self-absorbed/selfish and unconditionally loving self (to include being drawn to inner work/discovery, which helps one to know self); and often times, society uses the two interchangeably as though being naturally
curious about oneself is a bad thing.

As shared in the post, “To Fleas and Fruit Flies: What Message You Got?,” from my expanded perspective, the butterfly could’ve been Spirit (within ALL of Life/All That Is) checking out its own reflection for the first time, thinking with much excitement of discovery, “So this is what I look like!” ^_^

But then again, since it’s all about perspective, perhaps the artist of that butterfly didn’t perceive and use the word narcissist in a negative way.

Note: 3 images above found next to link => www.catersnews.com “A leopard stares at his own reflection in the mirror” (right), www.dailymail.co.uk (left) and www.pinterest.com “This is an arctic wolf seemingly looking at its reflection in the pond in a moment” (right)

As shared within my posts like, “Unconditional Love from Angels and Aliens” (next to self-worth poster on right side of post), I came to a deeper understanding as to why so-called “narcissists” are the way they are (to include the typical need to brag excessively).

Coming up is a small section from a letter I had written to my biological father—who had abandoned my mother and I when I was six months old, and whom I reunited with in my mid-thirties thanks to my husband finding him while I was deployed in 2008.

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I’m including this section in order provide some basic background to any readers, and not because I’m still emotionally suffering from the memory and dwelling in the past.

However, I would love to reach a point where I can fully and unconditionally love my bio dad and like others.

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At the point in time that I had written the letter below, I was very upset, actually…FURIOUS, and understandably so.

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There are some awesome qualities of being a Japorean (half Japanese/half Korean)-American (as my adoptive once told me in the summer before 9th grade, when I found out for the first time that I was half Japanese)—to include being very kind, generous, determined, persistent, diligent, passionate, just to name some adjectives.

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However, there is also the so-called “dark” side/unknown and/or unaccepted (by society)/shadow aspects of being Japorean-American (or any type of human really), and one example is the ability to freely and fiercely express (American side) the aggressive (hot-tempered Korean side) and passive + passive-aggressive (Japanese side) 4’9″/111 lb female tigress within, when another wants to push one too many freakin’ buttons!

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And for the record, I now fully OWN (yet control, knowing when to use it for the highest benefit of interconnected all) this shadow aspect of self—and no longer having any remnants of shameful feelings about it—in order to one day… fully and unconditionally accept/love ALL aspects of self and others.

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Afterall, both dark and light have their Divine purpose, and when used in a balanced way, can work wonders for everyone involved. Note: For example, short stories, see bottom of post under the subtitle, “Examples Stories of the Effectiveness of Dark Shadow Self Surfacing”: Posts, “”Embracing a Setback to Set Forward” under subtitle, “Sharing God’s Miraculous Blessings: Back-to-Back “Failures” Part II” (the “God” of both Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine energies) and “Outer Angels and Demons Reflecting All the Inner Ones” (under subtitle, “Deeply Understanding the Shadow of Teamwork“)

I’m reminded of the song that I’ve loved the moment I heard it back in the day (i..e., melody, beats, and lyrics) titled, “Bitch” by Meredith Brooks—“I’m a little bit of everything all rolled into one […] I do not feel ashamed […]” I can’t believe I forgot to add that song to my playlist. 😛

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The following is from the old post titled, “My First Encounter with a Narcissist” which is part of a series of posts that includes the post mentioned above, “Unconditional Love from Angels and Aliens“:

9) You should reread the definition and traits of a narcissist. Now I’m confident that it applies to you too. I even met a soldier who was diagnosed with narcissistic disorder; yet, I didn’t label him a narcissist because I could tell that deep down he was a good guy. You’re the first person I’ve ever met in 38 years that I determined is a narcissist. You’re extremely shiny on the outside, but very dark on the inside. That’s much worse than being an asshole on the outside, because at least that’s honest […]

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I’ve learned (as a human)/remembered (as soul/Spirit within) that narcissists aren’t “heartless, bad and/or evil” people, but rather, they are wounded wounders—wounded aspect of inner-child/soul (unlike Wounded Healers like Ascended Master Jesus)—who very much lack unconditional love of self; hence, unable to unconditionally love interconnected others.

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Later on in my spiritual growth, I’ve even learned (as a human)/remembered (as soul/Spirit within) to embrace this “dark”/unknown/shadow aspect of self within me that society collectively frowns upon.

Why? Because I now fully trust that ALL aspects of HUmanity—ranging from the polarities of dark to light, fear to love, wrong to right, etc.—exist within us all.

Although our ego selves may want to judge, deny, suppress, criticize, ridicule, condemn, and/or reject this aspect of self/others, doing so will not make it go away; but rather, it will show up in different forms (e.g., people) to be reexamined in order to learn the life lesson and gain wisdom.

So if we could just show some Heart compassion for it—even a little to start off with, as challenging as that may be (and believe me you, I KNOW through personal experiences)—I trust that it will be transmuted and healed in Divine perfect timing and order.

And last but not least—and this has been very difficult for me to accept—if I can’t even unconditionally forgive and unconditionally accept/love this shadow aspect of self labeled “narcissist” within myself, how would I ever be able to unconditionally forgive and/or unconditionally accept/love this shadow aspect of interconnected others?

This includes my Earth family, friends, and acquaintances of wounded wounders:

my biological parents, whom my former (and last) psychologist in 2011 had labeled as narcissists/recorded story in blog
- my biological father, a *“very selfish” old man who (according to my half-sisters) apparently bragged about his own accomplishments at his father’s funeral (my Japanese-American grandfather whom I never knew)—whom I’ve witnessed tiny sparks of Light and Love within—with prostate cancer from agent orange (I have no doubt this is an outer mirror reflection of this dis-ease being related to the imbalanced sacral chakra as discussed in further detail in the unpublished draft post, “The Strange Increase of Disease and/or Death Showing Up” )/Vietnam vet. A few years ago, I created healthy boundaries, and discontinued staying in touch with him (and his habitual hurtful ways). If it’s for our highest benefit to cross paths again, I trust that I will be ready (i.e., no longer negatively affected by others).
- my biological mother (a *“very bitter” old woman—whom I’ve witnessed sparks of Light and Love within—who suffered alcoholism for the longest time. I haven’t reconnected with her for a few years now, ever since she “disowned me” for the second time. If it’s for our highest benefit to cross paths again, I trust that I will be ready (i.e., no longer negatively affected by others).
- my adult daughter, who has many amazingly qualities—whom I’ve witnessed big sparks of Light and Love within—like all souls, also has a “dark”/unknown/shadow aspect of her who interestingly seems to have a very similar vibe (vibrational frequency) as my mother. About a month or so ago, while my husband was watching the move I think Wolverine again, I joined him at one point, and I trust it happened in Divine perfect timing and order. In one scene, the “bad” Japanese father explains to his adult daughter how the recessive genes (if I recall correctly) had skipped a generation and was passed down from his father to his daughter—hence, she was a lot like her grandfather. At that moment, I instantly wondered if that was the reason why my mother and daughter seemed so alike., to include—*often being psychologically (mentally and emotionally) abusive to her family members, *having a lot of anger energy within (and this has been observed by other family members as well), *not wanting to talk about her feelings, *very bitter toward the majority of humanity at times, *loving to take lots of pictures of herself (Inserted/updated on 6/10/2016 after re-watching this very empowering video related to this experience (5:45), “Embrace Your Dark Side“ by sacredsarrah), and *loving horror movies, to include ones involving torture (Updated/inserted on 6/10/2016: I’ve realized that these “dark”/unknown/shadow aspects exist within me as well—descriptions starting with neon green *—that can shrink and expand in varying degrees at will, making itself obviously known, somewhat known, or completely unknown; I’m now unconditionally accepting them). I love my daughter, but there are times when I need to give myself a break from her energies because it feels as though I’m reliving my childhood days. I had blamed myself for the longest time for her being this way, but I’ve been taking steps to unconditionally forgive all shadow aspects and extensions of my Multidimensional Self at the deepest level of my being. Afterall, if I was to wait for others to forgive me (who, like my mother, have blamed me for many things wrong with her life since I was a child), I would live the rest of my life overwhelmed with guilt and shame, and I refuse to do that to my inner-child. I trust that it’s very important to Be Balance and Harmony when it comes to unconditional love for self and others, ensuring that we also assertively—with respect for self and others— look after our inner-child/soul within by creating healthy boundaries. Possibly letting go of my barely existing, unhealthy relationship with my own adult daughter will be one of the most challenging things I chose to do in life, but it may end up that way if being in each other’s lives isn’t benefiting anyone’s spiritual growth and evolution.
my adoptive father—whom I’ve witnessed sparks of Light and Love within—who passed away of a heart-attack in 2011; but was more like 1/2 rather than full-blown “narcissist”
a former friend’s *“self-centered” father who only bragged about his accomplishments during my friend’s graduation party, where some of us took turns celebrating her spotlight (whom I’ve witnessed a tiny spark of Light and Love within). His vibes were very similar to my biological father’s.
our former family friend a *“very bitter” old man—whom I’ve witnessed moments of big sparks of Light and Love within—who later had prostate cancer from agent orange and other dis-eases/Vietnam vet. His vibes were very similar to my biological father’s. If it’s for our highest benefit to cross paths again, I trust that I will be ready (i.e., no longer negatively affected by others).
my husband’s *“very cocky” former client—whom I’ve witnessed tiny sparks of Light and Love within—used to be a high-ranking, officer in the Ar Force. His vibes were very similar to my biological father’s.
a nice old *gentleman I had a conversation while waiting for my turn at the VA hospital—whom I’ve witnessed very brief sparks of Light and Love within—who had prostate cancer from agent orange/Vietnam vet)
our former neighbor friend (a *“rude, passive-aggressive and selfish” old man who ended up paraplegic after being thrown off of a horse; and I found out later that he had been injecting very young horses with some “B vitamins” fluid to race in Mexico, in order to win money, and had a strong feeling that the horse who bucked him off sensed this about him/Vietnam vet—whom I’ve witnessed tiny sparks of Light and Love within). His vibes are very similar to my biological father’s. If it’s for our highest benefit to cross paths again, I trust that I will be ready (i.e., no longer negatively affected by others).

The following paragraph has been shared above, but I highlighted the point (in red font) that I elaborated on in the bullets above:

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The very open-minded and compassionate reading, “Narcissism” has helped me to: 1) more specifically understand why I had crossed paths with two more men with narcissistic traits after my brief experiences with my bio dad—a former friend’s father (and my friend was a “rescuer” always wanting to help others and often neglecting self) and one of my husband’s clients, a retired military officer (and his partner was a “rescuer” as well), 2) learn what they were continuing to mirror back to me to heal within, 3) not confuse self-love with selfishness, as well as 4) help me to remember and confidently know the following key points:

“People who are considered selfish such as the narcissist and people who are considered selfless such as those who self sacrifice, are both coming from the same mentality of lack. That is why they seem to always find each other; they are a perfect vibrational match. They see the energy in the world; especially love, as a finite resource that can be used up. They do not recognize it for the eternal stream of energy that is infinite and always flowing […]

We attract people into our lives that are on the same emotional level that we are. This is why narcissists and selfless people are such a perfect vibrational match. That is good news though. It means the more we heal, the more we attract healthy people that are capable of reciprocal love into our lives […]” Thank you Teal for sharing this very helpful article. 🙂 I didn’t leave a fb comment (only option available) on your site because I no longer have an account.

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The following is an inspirational, daily message from a website that I most highly resonate with due to its teachings that stem from immense, unconditional loving energies, and shares with us that no matter what our outer circumstances may appear to be, to include so-called “negative” people showing up, we (as our Soul/Higher Self/Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Divine SPirit/All That Is) ultimately decide to Be inner peace within the storm:

Daily Message ~ Friday July 24, 2015

Many sensitive humans find being in certain energies challenging. They find it difficult to keep their balance while in the presence of some people or environments. Let us remind you that you are always in charge of your own energetic state. No one has the power to affect the way you feel unless you give that power to them.

So how do you shift away from being so affected by those situations? When you show up in your highest alignment and balance [<= click link to open reading in another window], with the intention to be of loving service, you are emanating your truth and divinity. You do not “pick up” from others when you are shining your light, you see. The candle flame does not catch darkness from the room.

This is not about controlling how others act, or trying to convince them to see your point of view. This is about being secure in your beingness, bringing your highest vibration to the situation, and allowing others to decide if they wish to embrace that light or not, knowing whatever they decide is perfect for them in that right now moment. ~Archangel Gabriel

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Update

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I came upon a reading in Divine perfect timing and order titled, “6 Signs Someone In Your Life is a ‘Control Freak’ … and What To Do About It” (for link, see subtitle #4 below)

I trust that I was drawn to it because I wanted to check myself to ensure I wasn’t this way to my husband or others since my mother, step-mother, and a former girl friend (a sporatic relationship starting from middle school—28 years ago—to a few years ago) were very controlling to those around them.

The following section is from the reading above/link below, and like all readings that I come upon, I ONLY EXTRACT information that most highly resonates with me (using my intuition and discernment), and disregard whatever doesn’t; I’m grateful that the section below helped answer my question of why I, too, continued to attract this energy into my life (main answer highlighted in pink below as well as ==>), which I also intuitively know is due to my resurfacing shadow aspects of self wanting to experience Light and Love from me as well):

4. Go Within to Understand Your Pattern/ Conditioning:

“I personally haven’t had much luck with getting the control freaks in my life to respect my boundaries. I have had to walk away from situations knowing that this person is toxic to me and my happiness. As with narcissists, if they will not respect our boundaries, then loving them from afar can be the best resolution. But reflecting back on my life as of late, I have had to ask the question: Why do I continue to attract and permit these types of people into my life? Going within to understand why you have made these agreements is key. For me, I recognize that I have allowed these people into my life because they reinforce underlying feelings of low self esteem and low self worth. Bringing awareness to this pattern has empowered me to treat myself with a greater amount of respect and compassion and seek out companions who do the same.“

In the post, “Dreams of Feeding Dark-Colored Wolf”—under subtitle, “Intro to post, ‘A Round Table Gathering of Shadow Selves’“—I shared my recent experience at three meetup groups (at a local Wholistic festival) of observing, recognizing, acknowledging, deeply empathizing with as well as having pure compassion for (without emotional attachments), interacting with, and learning (and remembering) with interconnected so-called others (souls) who mirrored back to me (as shadow selves of the one shadow self within) both “positive” and “negative” characteristics about me that I wasn’t fully aware of at the time.

As mentioned under the blog category tab, “Rainbow Circle of Souls: A Meetup Group“ I trust that this Spirit-led experience has inspired me to start a meetup group in Divine perfect timing and order.

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Note: After inserting additional insights into this already published post on 6/3/2016 (F)—and while searching for matching images for this section—I saw 3:33 (example of number synchronicity) on laptop clock.

As usual, I was reminded from within that whatever I was just doing and/or Being is in alignment with Spirit within, most highly benefiting the interconnected All That Is.

I expressed my gratitude to the Ascended Masters within—an extension of my Beloved I (God) AM (Goddess) Presence/Christ within—for continuing to assist me with my evolutionary journey on Earth.

And last but not least, for helping me to unconditionally accept/love more shadow aspects of self, which allows me to fully do so for interconnected others as well.

Note: Detailed stories of what I’ve learned from so-called diseases showing up in unpublished draft post, “The Strange Increase of Disease and/or Death Showing Up”

Recap (as stated above): So far I noticed that Divine synchronicity—to include number synchronicity (e.g., 11:11, 12:12, 1:11-999, 2222-9999, palindrome #’s like 12:21, 7:11-9:11, etc.), “coincidences”, and signs and symbols from outer world (to include people, places, events, things, Mother Nature, etc.), etc.—confirms my inner guidance system; and I have no doubt that these confirmations will continue to appear, until they are no longer needed (to build confidence and trust in self).

Cont…: An example of Divine synchronicity confirming my inner guidance system: A couple of times, when my vibrational frequency was very low (to the point where I felt hopeless), I went outside and noticed a bird’s feather on our car’s windshield or on the sidewalk path right in front of me.

At those moments, I was instantly reminded of the unconditionally loving angelic realm within me (my support system)—the feather being symbolic of my Galactic, Celestial, and Universal Families having the capability of flight.

Another example (of many) was shared in the “Side Note” section within
the recent post, “A Truth About Number Synchronicity, Healing Process, Twin Soul Reunion and Realization“ about the Divine synchronicity of hotel room 144 (a recurring # sequence/sacred # code/angel #s/truth codes), intense inner-body vibrations, and the dream of blue E.T. Beings.

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In another example, I was about to face one of my greatest fears in life, and right before my husband, dog, and I were getting ready for a long road trip, I had an urge to stop by one our trees that’s located right in front of our apartment.

When I approached it, there was a red wasp chillin’ in the area where I usually place my hand(s) on while silently expressing to Mother Earth (to include the network of trees throughout this planet) my gratitude for all the blessings in Life, to include disguised ones (“negative” stuff) and obvious ones, such as fresh, breathable air.

Note: Image left above found next to link => www.thephotoforum.com “Red Wasp – Too close for comfort” (thank you)

The red wasp on the tree instantly reminded me of the Divine Feminine Goddess Power within, as well as red, root chakra and unknown/””dark”/shadow self (since this was an aspect of self that I haven’t fully owned yet as part of Spirit within).

I trust that precious moment could have easily been brushed off as mere coincidence, minimized as less than important, or something totally insignificant.

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However, deep within me, I intuitively knew that it had grown from experiences recorded in my posts like, “Beauty of the So-Called Unbeautiful,” and “A Visit from Spirit as Spider & Grasshopper.”

To my great surprise, I ended up Being inner-strength, courage, and inner-peace upon facing one of my fears, and again, thanked the wasp spirit guide within for the reminder/support.

Note: Image on left above found next to link => 500px.com “red wasp by Roni Hendrawan” (thank you)

Cont: So the Divine synchronicity that confirms my inner guidance system includes:

following my path of excitement (even to the smallest degree)/being on right path/being in alignment with Spirit within
very subtle to intense feelings—as well as gut feelings/intuition/inner-knowing/inner-wisdom
ideas, insights, detection (e.g., whether or not I, or someone else, is being honest)
identification (e.g., extracting truths from a source, recognizing something different about certain “people”)
dream messages (e.g., crossing paths with a snake at a park in this physical reality after having a white snake dream – recorded in blog)
warnings (e.g., blogged a while back about my first known premonition experience where my husband and I were driving in the country side, a thought entered my mind while I was in the passenger seat that we might hit a deer, I ignored it, and then felt very nauseous; I chose to move to the back seat, and about a few minutes later, we hit a deer at about 75+ mph—the deer instantly died, our car was totaled, and we didn’t get a scratch, though we ended up on the other side of the road after spinning a few times)
etc. Note: I will add more examples as I think of them

Note: 2 images above on right found next to links => leadinggeneration.wordpress.com and www.soulartstudio.com “The Mythology of the Inner World – Lily Tree” by Laura Hollick, soul artist (thank you)

For the past two days, I’ve been experiencing intense pain in my lower back, which then traveled to my left butt and upper thigh area. Since September or so of 2015, I had this issue on the right side of my body, and have been doing my best to heal it.

I’ve had sporatic back pain before, ever since I joined the Army and afterwards, but the last time I experienced this level of pain was my last ruck march at my second Army AIT (Advanced Indivudal Training) School (98G-KP to 97E) in 2007 due to rucking a steep uphill about half the time with a medium-size flakvest that was too big for me (but that was the only available size left at that time).

Note: Image on left found next to link => www.mayoclinic.org (thank you)

I haven’t taken pain medicine ever since 2012 or so, but I did put some essential peppermint oil on my back and sciatica area before bed, and that helped.

I also used an electric blanket set on high since I felt very cold. Even though it’s almost summer time, I’ve learned to listen to my body’s signals and do whatever I need to do to take care of it.

I trust that I’m continuing to go through ascensions symptoms (like many interconnected others), but I also intuitively know that I can highly benefit from learning more about healing and balancing my sacral chakra.

I came upon the reading, “Tired? Why your sacral chakra needs your attention right now!” and I felt so grateful that I did, because it is hands down the most helpful reading about sacral chakra-related issues.

Note: Image on left found next to link => www.love-your-inner-child.com / Sculpture by Herb Duncan (thank you)

I LOVE it—as well as the very short (2:22), yet, brilliant video within it—and had to share it. I would’ve loved to leave Laura (the writer) a comment, but that wasn’t an option. So instead, I send you (Laura) loving energies from my Heart! ^_^

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I love it so much that I copy and pasted a lot of helpful reminders on Google Doc (in orange font and various highlights) and had my husband print the pages at his office so that we can be reminded on a daily basis in order to balance our sacral chakras. Note: And it’s not just some people, but many throughout Humanity who could highly benefit from balancing their lower three chakras as a strong foundation, in addition to the others, which I recorded some example stories of those with prostate cancer (to include personal ones) in the unpublished draft post, “The Strange Increase of Disease and/or Death Showing Up” that I’ve mentioned before.

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I especially love the following subtitles within this reading (as well as contents within):

The sacral chakra is where your inner child lives.
Every single human being on this planet has a constantly streaming ability to have fun and to create.
The first thing you absolutely need to do is let go of outcomes and focus on the joy of the process.
If your sacral chakra is blocked this can be super scary.
- But if we begin to feel the power growing in our bellies… the glorious strength of our sacral creativity arise… we use this time to get excited.
  - All of a sudden, you don’t give a flying f*ck what you are supposed to paint, you just start smearing colors on a canvas and feeling gloriously free [… more inspiring examples]
Basically, life is short, you have more passion and creativity then you’ve ever had before, and you want to feel the joy of unleashing it.
That is the power of the sacral chakra when you are fully connected.
Some ways to get connected?

It was initially hard to believe that I felt much better physically after having read the reading/link above, and simply doing what excited me from that point on; but I was reminded from within that since our energy bodies—physical, mental, emotional and spiritual—are all interconnected (like everything else in Life), it makes perfect sense that my body would feel better.

In addition, while checking my comment section to delete the usual spam emails that continue to seep through my blog (though much less now), I was delighted to noticed that I had a “real” comment for once (which is more rare than “Once in a Blue Moon”).

As mentioned briefly within my reply comment (to the reader, Yahana’s comment): I had picked out an LOA (Law of Attraction) card this morning—-using my senses after asking my Beloved I (God) AM (Goddess) Presence/Christ within for guidance (something I often do daily as one of the tools I use to further communicate with Spirit within).

The card has the title, “Trust” on one side that has an artwork image of a woman walking in nature in what appears to be a garden, with a cupid-like angel flying right above her. On the other side of the card, it states the reminder, “I set my intention and trust in my abilities to improve my circumstances.”

Note: Before I continue, remember the key phrase of this LOA card (with main key word in bolded CAP), which is “trust in MY abilities to improve my circumstances.”

After reading Yohana’s comment below, and then rereading my post, “A Message to Scammers and The Scammed,” I was surprised that the LOA card I had picked for this morning was the exact same card that I had talked about in the post/link right above.

In addition, I couldn’t believe that 1) I had wrote that post (because it was my higher self state at the time) and 2) the insights and wisdom from within was exactly what I needed to be reminded of today! 😀

The following is Yohana’s comment and my reply, and I trust that both of our combined sharing of our stories will further highly benefit other interconnected souls who cross paths with this space in Divine perfect timing and order:

Yohana says
June 1, 2016 at 9:21 pm

Thx for sharing your story…
I came to Padre’s web and asking for angel reading. He informed me my angel name and informed me about 2 sirprizing fact. First is mu hyper angelic karmic and 2nd is my bad karmic dept as im the victim. He searched my the root couse. In his deep searching, he said that suddenly my angel guide said something to him for helping me as soon because im in the risk. Searching from my past, he said that he found Im in the affecting of evil spell because of someone that jealous to someone near to me.

He said that the problem should be cured based on the root couse and thats why helping from other physic and astrologyst couldn’t help me.
I m very surprised, because he know that many time i ask many astrologyst to help me find my happiness and abundance and there’s no progress until now. Thats makes me believe into his reading.

But knowing many people said that he and his web is scam, with many negative comments makes me sceptic. But reading your sharing in this web encoutage me to continuing my action with my angel guide.

Bobbie says
June 2, 2016 at 4:19 pm

Hi Yohana,

Thanks for sharing your story as well; you helped raise my vibrational frequency. ^_^ Remember, if we choose to believe in such things as “victim mentality” and that some “evil” force can put a spell on us to forever ruin our happiness, then we give away our inner-power.

However, when we choose to trust that the most powerful force within this Universe and beyond (Cosmic Light and Unconditional Love)is within us, then we realize that NO-THING and NO-ONE can ever take that away from us.

When we choose to UNCONDITIONALLY accept/love ALL aspects of ourselves—so-called “good vs bad” “right vs wrong” “dark vs light” etc.—then THAT is getting to the ROOT CAUSE of anyone’s unhappiness or lack of abundance. And the more and more we practice loving ourselves with self-compassion and self-forgiveness (until practice is no longer needed), the more FULLY we can UNCONDITIONALLY accept/love ALL aspects of interconnected others as well.

After reading your comment, I reread this post. To my great surprise, the message within was exactly what I needed to be reminded of during this challenging phase of my life, and I expressed gratitude to Spirit within.

In addition, I was amazed that I had picked out the exact same LOA card, labeled, “Trust” this morning that I had mentioned in this post, which again, states on the back, “I set my intention and trust in my abilities to improve my circumstances.” As mentioned in this post, the key phrase within the message of the LOA card is “trust in MY abilities to improve my circumstances.”

You stated that this reading encouraged you to continue your action with your angel guide. May that angel guide ultimately be the angelic realm within you (angel-self/angel-selves), that are an aspect and extension of your highest version of Self (integrated and balanced Soul/Spirit).

I continue to enjoy receiving input from interconnected others. However, the difference between the old me and the new me is that whenever I come upon any reading (or other experience) that I’m drawn to, I ask Spirit within to help me to Be discernment, clarity and inner-wisdom.

Then, I ONLY EXTRACT whatever information that most highly resonates with me (that speaks to my Heart). And anything else that doesn’t—especially information that is meant to INSTILL fear through manipulation and/or control—I disregard or let go of to be transmuted, healed, and returned to Source within.

Have a Thought-provoking Thursday Yohana (wherever you are)! Thank you lady for Being Sunshine. 😉

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Examples Stories of the Effectiveness of Dark Shadow Self Surfacing

The following is section from the post, “Embracing a Setback to Set Forward”—under subtitle, “Sharing God’s Miraculous Blessings: Back-to-Back “Failures” Part II” (the “God” of both Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine energies)—where I was assertive borderline aggressive to my female senior interrogator supervisor (named “S” below) at the the time of deployment, who taught me what kind of a leader I had no desire to be:

One day, because I didn’t report what “they” wanted me to report, but I merely provided what I believed to be the truth (due to lack of evidence on their part), I immediately became a target. S asked me in an aggressive tone to step inside one of the private rooms, so I did.

She then went off on me on the things I should say and shouldn’t say at meetings, and that my actions were a form of disrespect to other professionals in the meeting (although I presented my truth in a respectful manner). I quietly listened to her say whatever she had to release, and then turned on the switch that I often used in the booth.

I basically broke down the facts to her, and started questioning her. I then added, “If I’m negatively impacting the mission, then I obviously don’t belong here. So you can either go back and tell the officers to send me home…or I’ll tell them myself.”

For a moment, S stood there in silence with her mouth slightly opened. Her once ice-cold, piercing eyes transformed into an innocent child’s warm, baby-blue eyes. Her aggressive tone switched to a passive tone, and she replied softly, “No, you should stay.”

Sometimes I even surprise myself when the switch goes on, because I’ve been told that I have strong eye contact and a very assertive demeanor. I can be a pretty laid back and easy going gal…but I just refuse to be disrespected like that.

I’m grateful that God answered my prayer when I was in junior high school, and helped me to start becoming assertive when I got tired of being so passive.

I shared some of my experiences of all four communication styles in one of the older posts. It’s immensely liberating and empowering to Be assertive. The more we practice Being this way, the more it will become second nature […]

One last example is in the post “Outer Angels and Demons Reflecting All the Inner Ones” (under subtitle, “Deeply Understanding the Shadow of Teamwork“)::

Anyway, SPC E [one of my lower-enlisted, female soldiers at the time: very diligent and very smart/highly educated/triathlete] was very frustrated about SGT Ram [one of my peers at the time, within same squad: male soldier] not being a team player, and understandably so, because SGT Ram made it very obvious that he had no intention to listen to lower-enlisted soldiers.

In addition, it wasn’t the first or even second time that he had pulled off the stunt to get out of contributing to the mundane task that nobody else liked as well.

What he failed to realize was that the rest of us just did the so-called “dirty work” because it was one of our duties. I’m sure we, too, would much rather just sit around in front of our computers and explore the top secret world.

So I approached SGT Ram and asked him respectfully if he could help us out with the duty so that we could turn them in quicker and get on with our reports.

SGT Ram did his usual stalling technique of “Yeah, hold on, ” “I’ll be there in a sec,” “I’m almost done reading this,” etc., but this time, he would not have the 30 minutes plus to waste away.

Sometimes, when others don’t seem to understand the gentle kindness version of the assertive communication style (of “I respect you and I respect me”)—and may mistaken kindness for weakness—a more stern version of assertiveness can be effective; and if they still can’t seem to comprehend the words, tone, and body language, the aggressive communication style (of “I respect me but I don’t respect you”—that’s frowned upon by sometimes hypocritical society—may work wonders.

It seemed like a switch was flipped, and another side of me (a “darker” side) came out. I calmly said to SGT Ram, “Hey, here’s a crazy idea…how about you get off your lazy ass and help the rest of your team for once.”

Apparently that sentence immediately grabbed his wandering attention. Why? Because he wasfamiliar with aggressive energy. He abruptly stood up and raised his voice, “Excuse me?! What did you just say?” to which I calmly replied, “You heard me” as I slowly approached him.

He then shouted, “You’re not my freakin’ mother!” And I replied, “Thank God for that because you’re not a good listener. How about we take this out into the hallway rather than make a scene, shall we?”

Out in the hallway, I asked SGT Ram to reverse the roles, and how would he feel if we had done the same to him.

I also made some other valid points that he couldn’t deny, like him often surfing the contents of the computer throughout the work day rather than doing his share of the team’s analytical work whenever we worked on big projects. He agreed in a gentle manner, and apologized sincerely […]”

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Examples Stories of the Effectiveness of Dark Shadow Self Surfacing

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