Lessons of Compassion and Power with Unwelcomed Flies and Roaches

The following are subtitles to the main title of this post:

Deja Vous with Flies
Continuing Fly Stories
Three Roaches on Their Backs
Related Short Stories
Fly and Cockroach Animal Totems/Spirit Guides

Note: Image on right found next to link => fromthedeskofmardrag.wordpress.com (thank you)

Deja Vous with Flies

Yesterday, I think I had my first experience of what’s known as deja vous; though the characters were different beings—two flies instead of two wasps—the situation was exactly the same.

The following section—the exact same situation in the first paragraph—is from the recent post, “Coexisting with Friendly Paper Wasps“:

I recently noticed an increase of paper wasps entering our apartment; and today, right after I caught one and set it free outside, I heard another one buzzing at our living room window (though we recently had our screen replaced).

I was like, “C’MON! Again?! What’s really going on here guys?” I was then reminded from within what I shared below, and looked up the meaning of the wasp spirit guide since it’s been a while; and I’m grateful that I did, because I also came upon a website that drew me into its space due to an opportunity to introduce an expanded perspective.

Note: Image on right above found next to link => www.thisiscolossal.com along with quote, “When Given Colored Construction Paper, Wasps Build Rainbow Colored Nestsby Christopher Jobson on April 6, 2016” (thank you)

Continuing Fly Stories

Right before choosing to catch the flies and set them free (in the same manner I did with the wasps), I was just going to close the blinds and leave the first fly trapped within it because I didn’t feel like dealing with it.

However, as I heard it buzzing and spazzing out the way the wasps did—more than likely wanting to get outside—I had to ask myself why I was discriminating.

When it came to the wasps, I was more willing to set them free, as long as they were willing to be near the bottom of the window so that I could catch them.

However, what was it about the fly that caused me to not care? Perhaps I still held onto the remnants of the old and outdated belief that they’re repulsive creatures.

I stated remnants because I’ve been having more and more compassion, even for flies, ever since the experiences I shared in the posts, “The Beauty of the So-called Unbeautiful” and “To Fleas and Fruit Flies: What Message You Got?” at bottom under subtitle “Related Stories”.

This past August, on our drive way back from visiting a loved one, my husband and I stopped for lunch. Since we had our pet dog (Kami) with us, we found a picnic table near the restaurant.

As we were eating, a few flies started flying around us like vultures waiting for an opportunity. The old me would’ve become immediately irritated by their presence; however, at that present moment—where I trust I was in alignment with my integrated, higher Mind/Heart (soul/Spirit within)—I realized that they, too, were more than likely hungry as well, and felt compassion for them.

Rather that resisting what is at the moment, I chose to simply go with the flow of Life, unconditionally accept their presence (which has its Divine purpose), and even Be unconditional love by sharing some food.

I just set aside a tiny crap of food at the end of the picnic table, and was delighted to see that they, too, were able to enjoy it. In addition, it’s one solution to keep flies away from our food while eating outside (a win-win situation for all).

At another point in time during this past summer, my husband and I noticed a fly on our wall right outside our bedroom, just sitting there chillin’ at an easily reachable (or swatable) level.

My husband asked me if he should get rid of it, and to my great surprise, I suggested that we just let it be since it wasn’t bothering anyone (to include our dog).

The next morning, I noticed a dead fly on the floor right at the bottom of the wall that it was resting on. Our dog Kami is very gentle with tiny creatures, so I had a strong feeling that it had passed away naturally (transformed into another energy state).

The motionless, tiny fly, looked so delicate and precious as it was somewhat curled up in a fetal position.

I felt grateful that we chose not to kill it; perhaps it enjoyed its last moments of peace.

In addition, I trust that true power (Divine Power) is about not misusing or abusing power, to include refraining from killing something (or someone) just because they’re smaller in size, weaker, considered unworthy to live, and/or for the sake of boredom or entertainment.

I don’t blame myself for initially not caring to help the first lost fly that was on our window (with closed shades) yesterday. We all have our low energy moments, and I’ve been having mine.

However, I felt grateful that Spirit within reminded me to Be compassion again, especially to one of the most unwelcomed creatures of planet Earth.

I still trust that pure compassion is the highest form of unconditional love, and this experience with the flies further reminded me of our core, pure essence.

After I set the first fly free, heard another buzz by the window, and set the second fly free, I didn’t feel frustrated the way I did the second time I set the wasp free (as shared above), because I trusted the lessons/gifts that they brought.

Note: I prefer catching flies (or wasps) inside our home with a cup, and then setting them free outside; however, if flies insist on going overboard with the buzzing and flying around—after I’ve communicated to them that I’ve received the animal totem message and that it can now leave me alone—then I have no problem ending its life without feeling guilty; it’s about the balance of respecting one’s boundaries as well, and unconditionally loving self.

Three Roaches on Their Backs

This past summer, while my husband and I were watching TV, a big roach came scurrying into our living room from our closed patio door; perhaps there’s a tiny crack somewhere.

I instantly reacted from fear energy within—a societal, conditioned way of being—and shouted for my husband to do something.

While he was looking for the fly swatter, the roach came near me and flipped onto its back. As I saw its tiny legs still running in midair, I felt sorry for the helpless creature and started telling my husband to refrain from killing it.

However, he STOMPED it with his slip-on sandal, and the little creature that was filled with life a nanosecond ago, was completely motionless.

I didn’t blame my husband because he was merely doing what I had asked him to do, and when he couldn’t find the fly swatter, he grabbed the next best thing.

I shared with him my observations of the roach, and how it seemed strange that it happened to flip onto its back right in front of me.

That moment reminded me of one of our neighborhood dogs who sometimes approaches us, and then lies on its back to be petted.

I learned that this is a way that animals express their trust in others (animals and humans), and are willing to be vulnerable since their bellies are a sensitive area.

I wondered if that was the roach’s way of communicating to us that it was harmless, although the very thought can seem ridiculous to the logical mind.

Before that point, we had never seen any roaches in or outside our apartment. Perhaps days after that incident, I noticed another roach on our patio as well.

It, too, was on its back with its legs moving in a hurry, and at that very moment, I intuitively knew that something profound was happening.

However, I had a rough morning right before that moment (involving our stray cat and a strange feral cat)—as shared in the post, “A Mercury Retrograde Reading that Led to Reflection & Insights“—so I ignored it and walked back inside.

Even then, I realized that I was discriminating, because as shared in the post, “The Beauty of the So-called Unbeautiful” (under subtitle, “Related Short Stories”), ever since that beetle encounter, I always flipped beetles that ended up on their backs.

But once again, I don’t blame myself for not having compassion at that moment; I was just exhausted from all the cat drama in the middle of the dark morning.

By having self-compassion, I’m able to forgive myself for being seemingly heartless at the time.

Days after noticing roach #2 on its back, my husband and I noticed roach #3 in our dog Kami’s water bowl, just floating on its back while moving its tiny legs; that has never happened before either.

At that very moment, I instantly and intuitively knew that the repeating scenarios were like blinking neon signs shouting to get my attention.

I shared this thought with my husband, and he seemed to be in agreement. He just gently threw out the water and the roach in front of our apartment area where there are trees, dirt, pebbles, bushes, etc.—basically returning it to Mother Nature like we’ve been doing with other tiny creatures that briefly visit our home.

I pondered about the three roaches that showed up in my outer world around the same time-frame (while lying on their backs).

Perhaps this was, yet, another way that Spirit—aka Holy Spirit/Prime Creator/Divine Ancient Mother Goddess/Source—was teaching, guiding, and reminding me to Be my full-potential Self during those precious moments, which is the pure essence of Unconditional Acceptance/Divine Love for ALL of Life/All That Is within this Universe and beyond (the way She is), as well as Divine Wisdom and Divine Power.

I trust that Spirit communicates to us all in various forms and methods within our outer world (e.g., other people, otherworldly beings, Mother Nature, symbols, signs, Divine synchronicity, number synchronicity, events, weather reflecting hidden emotions, situations, etc.), as well as our inner world (i.e., dream state, meditative state, visions, and flash images).

The only question is, “Are we aware?”

Note: As mentioned above, I prefer catching flies and wasps inside our home with a cup, and then setting them free outside, and I’m willing to do the same for other insects and bugs. However, if a roach isn’t willing to cooperate, and insists on roaming around our home and getting into god knows what—after I’ve communicated to it that I’ve received the animal totem message and that it can now leave—then I have no problem ending its life without feeling guilty; it’s about the balance of respecting one’s boundaries as well, and unconditionally loving self and loved ones.

Fly and Cockroach Animal Totems/Spirit Guides

The following are some related readings that I’ve found helpful (ONLY extracting what most highly resonates with my Heart, as always):

Cockroach Spirit Animal: Main symbolism of going with the flow of Life, adaptability, and survival:
Fly Spirit Animal: Main symbolism of persistence, ingenuity, and rapid changes (to include manifesting an influx of abundance):

The following are subtitles to the main title of this post:

Deja Vous with Flies

Continuing Fly Stories

Three Roaches on Their Backs

Related Short Stories

Fly and Cockroach Animal Totems/Spirit Guides

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