I was briefly watching The Jimmy Fallon Show recently with my husband, and the guest star was Barbara Walters, which I later realized had triggered some related memories, that became transformed into further insights.
This morning, as I received a strong feeling to follow Divine guidance as usual, I decided to co-create this post with my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within, the Source of my insights/inner-wisdom, among many other things.
In addition, I was also able to gain some insights from Jimmy Fallon’s conversation with Barbara Walters about her recent show, “The 10 Most Fascinating People of 2014.”
Note: Image on right found next to link => agarthaournewhome.blogspot.com (thank you)
From what I’ve seen of Barbara Walters so far, I respect and admire her for her seemingly understanding nature, genuine kindness, unconditionally accepting nature, honesty, gentle assertiveness, great sense of humor, humble yet confident demeanor, and for Being a strong and competent wise woman.
When I was stationed in Hawaii during my Army life, and working at what was then known as KRSOC (now Hawaii Cryptologic Center/NSA Hawaii), I found out that they–a team of volunteers from all branches of service who coordinate various major events throughout the year—were looking for volunteers in honor of Women’s History Month. I had never participated in such an event before, however, I chose to follow my heart and thought, “Why not!” 🙂
Of course, when the great idea popped into some smart person’s head to do comedy skits, I recall a part of me thinking,”What on God’s green earth did I just volunteer for?” I had never even thought about doing comedy skits before, let alone in “PUBlic” (=> thank you Ron White). 😉
I adopted the catchy phrase, “God’s green earth” from the funny movie, Zoolander. At one our annual Korean Language Class Refresher Courses, our class dubbed this movie in Korean which was so much fun and hilarious while watching it because we all used an exaggerated version of our voices for our silly characters.
Our kind instructor even allowed each of us to make a copy of the dubbed movie. It was the best time I ever had in a Korean refresher course.^_^
Plus, one day, a few of my smart-ass male soldiers, to include one of my Korean-American squad leaders—who often called me ajumma, and was like a mischievous, younger brother to me—decided to be some funny folks. Note: Ajumma or 아줌마 (in Korean) literally means “aunt”; however, most often used to refer to any middle-aged or older woman.
During one of our breaks, the turds kept trying to convince me to apply for a handicap licence plate since one was able to in Hawaii as long as one was 4’10” and under; and I’ve been 4’9″ since 9th grade, the first time I recall getting my height measured; but who knows? Maybe I was this height even earlier, like since 7th grade.
I declined their request because I told them that I refused to park near the front of some building, only to see some old man or woman with a cane walking way behind me.
They then tried to convince me to at least get it for them. So I asked them which one of them wanted to bend down and voluntarily butt their foreheads onto my still fist. Those were some great times. 🙂
Anyway, back to the comedy skit to honor Women’s History Month. While that part of me was a bit nervous about the whole idea, another part of me was silently shouting within me, “Yes! That sounds exciting!”
I don’t recall all the details of what happened because I recall thinking to myself at one point that whoever was fearlessly performing in public was not quite the same being that I was familiar with.
Looking back, I realize that the nervous aspect of me was my fearful ego self, and the fearless aspect of me was my soul/true self/higher self.
It was as if a switch was turned on, and all of a sudden, BAM!!!…I was someone else, like some mind-blowing/heart-racing magic trick.
Even while deployed in Iraq in 2008, I clearly recalled having the “light switch” experience the majority of the time I was there; and I was grateful when someone else was thoughtful enough to share their same observation of me as well, which helped further validate the truth of the matter.
After much analysis during the preparation process, the “light switch” experience would get triggered as soon as I entered an interrogation booth.
Although I was one of the least experienced ones, and I didn’t perform too well at the interrogation schoolhouse, I trust that I was able to break more detainees and gather intel than some other interrogators (to include the most experienced one there at times) due to my willingness to first and foremost Be deep understanding, empathy, compassionate. forgiveness, acceptance, embrace, and even unconditional love/my true self (although those weren’t the exact words that I had thought about at the time), as well as other required and structured ways of doing my job.
Of course, choosing an unconventional method, which often went against the norm, created much tension among at least one of the leaders—a female, senior interrogator.
However, I continued to follow what felt “right”/”good” in my heart, and I later realized that I had often been following my intuition/telepathic communication from my Higher Self.
When I started real, booth sessions while deployed, I was initially trained by a young female interrogator—I’ll name her Nicole, since she looked very similar to pretty and cat-like Nicole Kidman, maybe about 3-5 inches shorter.
I later found out was in her early twenties, and was she was very nice, confident, smart, humorous, and sassy outside the booth world.
The first day of being an observer during the “on-the-job training”, I watched Nicole just go off on a young, male detainee with a very aggressive communication style and body language. I initially thought it was interesting because I had believed that it was some part of a grand plan.
It seemed as though I heard the word, “fuck” about 30 plus times per session while sitting silently next to her each day. I quickly learned how ineffective that method was.
The detainee had his arms crossed and just stared at the wall with a stern, yet. apathetic expression, completely treating her as though she didn’t even exist in that room.
This repetitive, predictable, and boring scenario went on for at least a couple of weeks with seemingly zero progress. Or, if there was any kind of progress, no one bothered to include me into the collections of valuable treasures.
Although I wanted to share my thoughts with the female interrogator that might be helpful, I decided not to since she was in the process of training me, and that it might even come off as me using my rank, which was highly discouraged in that area.
Nicole had already been there for almost a year or so, which made her more experienced and knowledgeable in the field of interrogations.
One day, at one very brief magical moment—while Nicole was looking at her notes—I made eye contact with the young man/detainee who happened to glance my way for the first time.
I offered him I think a cookie—just recall having a small bag of some snack in my hand—using my smiling facial expression and gesture.
To my great surprise, he shared with me a very brief, gentle smile in return—which seemed genuine—and actually spoke for the first time, “No thank you” (in English) that was one of the quietest whispers I had ever heard…but felt deep within my Being.
I trust in my Divinity within that that precious moment had set the tone to how I would choose to Be (my Divinity within me) during my own interrogation sessions, once the on-the-job training was complete.
In the end, everything miraculously worked out beautifully, to include the first snow in Iraq in 100 years while I was there, which I included—among other related stories—in the post, “Embracing a Setback to Set Forward.”
I’ve learned/remembered, that often times, we (as our limited ego selves) may not realize what we’re truly capable of until our Divinity within gradually (and sometimes rapidly) assists us (as we raise and maintain a higher vibrational frequency) with re-membering who we truly are, and fearlessly and freely Being who we truly are.
And I’m learning/re-membering more and more throughout moments/days/months/years that whenever we choose to Be who we truly are, we end up experiencing outer reflections of our essence within—in various forms, to include loving humans—in Divine perfect timing and order.
Now back to the comedy skit I was talking about earlier. Yes, I realize I have a tendency to expand certain themes within certain stories, but that’s just my style of writing. I’m not a so-called professional writer, or even a typical one that follows all the set rules, but I write from my Heart, and that’s all that matter to me.
After briefly studying Barbara Walters way of Being on certain shows of hers, I decided to impersonate her with a grey dress suit, dirty-blond haired short wig and my oh-so-fabulous BCG’s (Basic Combat Glasses) that I had hidden somewhere in my studio apartment.
These were not the upgraded descent BCG’s. Ohhh no. These were the famous eye-wear that everyone and their mamas who had any ounce of fashion sense dreaded and probably even buried in their yard at some point.
The BCG’s made me appear as though I had pissed somebody off real bad, and they gave me raccoon eyes, or, I was part of the Extreme Nerdette Club who often walked into walls or people due to the sheer thickness of the glasses.
During the skit, I—as Asian wannbe Barbara Walters—performed interviews, and even worked on sounding like her voice and mimicking her communication style and demeanor.
To my great surprise, a heard a lot of laughter, and even saw matching facial expressions whenever I had a chance to look at the audience.
Afterwards, I even received several compliments, from even coworkers who had never said anything to me before. I’ve learned/remembered that sometimes it really helps when others share with us what we may not notice, be able to see, or know about ourselves.
One of my female coworkers (I’ll name her SPC Shadow) enthusiastically said to me with a smile, “You’re such a ham!” I was surprised because those very words were the first kind words from her that I was able to recall in about three years that I had known her; and I thanked her.
Prior to that miraculous moment, SPC Shadow had often generously shared with me her obvious dislike of me ever since I met her for the first time at our first unit.
However, I managed to forgive her over and over again because she was almost like a younger sister to me (about a decade younger), who was always angry at her older sister who was an easy target, and whom she intuitively trusted would never hurt her.
I had formed an unusual bond with her at our first unit. Despite her seemingly being irritated with me 24/7, I followed my heart one day and decided to intervene in some of her earthly drama.
After hearing much yelling one night during a weekend, I went over to the lower-enlisted barracks building. SPC Shadow and her recent ex-boyfriend (I’ll name him SPC Potter) were arguing—borderline fighting physically—and both of them were clearly and heavily intoxicated; so I got in-between them and worked on calming them down.
Before this tense scene, there were already signs of friction within the relationship. Once, SPC Potter—who looked like he was in high school, and was a “bad boy”/”punk-ass” version of Harry Potter—vented with much frustration, in front of me and I think a couple of others, “She just uses me for sex!”
I couldn’t help but to chuckle because I had never heard a guy say something like that before. He looked at me with a half smile/half still frustrated look and shouted, “I’m serious!”
Of course, I found out this was true from the source herself when SPC Shadow confessed to me and I think another female soldier, “It’s just that he’s so good in bed.”
She had already made it clear another time that she wasn’t exactly in love with SPC Potter when she showed a couple of us a necklace that he had bought her for Valentine’s Day.
She said that the necklace had this big star hanging from it, and she told him, “Thanks” with her disgusted expression and disappointed and sarcastic tone.
After we checked it out, I was able to understand why she wasn’t so thrilled about it; it looked like a 3rd grader had made a big-ass, star out of clay, dried it, and then painted in while blindfolded.
However COMMA it was a thoughtful gift nonetheless. So selecting fine jewelry—as well as pottery…wink wink—wasn’t exactly SPC Potter’s forte per se. 😉
One night—after our platoon, dinner party in downtown Uijeongbu, Korea—SPC Ninja Shadow and SPC Scary Potter started another dramatic fight, without even giving their bellies a chance digest good food peacefully; must be nice to be so young and energetic. I just wanted to take a nap soon.
Everything happened so quickly while I was adjusting my glasses ro something. However, I was able to catch the best scenes.
One of our tall and big-hearted KATUSA (Korean Augmentation to the United States Army) soldiers immediately grabbed onto SPC Potter right as he tried to run past him to catch SPC Shadow; Kyung-Soo (a very loving and lovable KATUSA solier) just gently held him in place, like a teddy bear.
When I asked someone what had just happened, I was told that SPC Shadow had apparently slapped the crap out of SPC Potter and then hauled ass down the street.
I was like, “What the…? I’m I in the middle of some comedy-action movie?” SPC Shadow did score high on her Army Physical Fitness Test, so I had no doubt that she would outrun the pot man.
When it had occurred to SPC Shadow that she wasn’t being chased anymore—and that Kyung-Soo was still holding onto SPC Potter and trying to calm him down—she made a quick U-turn, and starting shouting at SPC Potter again while running towards him.
I couldn’t help but to chuckle again. Who needs popular, Korean drama shows when one can watch them live?
Fortunately, we had more than enough people that night to ensure that the two knuckleheads didn’t cross the Demarcation Line of SADVILLE (Sex, Arguments, Drama, Violence, Immaturity, Lust, Lies, & Ego).
However, way past the average soldier’s bedtime, SPC Potter ended up throwing some rocks at SPC Shadow’s window—to get her attention again—which he got into trouble for this time.
It was no longer humorous, but sad. It was as if they both were struggling from their fearful ego selves’ deep yearning for unconditional true love (which it thinks is outside of itself), but feeling the conflict—their soul within communicating to them through their true feelings that they’re not on the “right” path that leads them to truth and unconditional love.
Therefore, at least SPC Potter was mistaking physical lust for true love, when what he was truly yearning to re-member and experience is his soul’s essence—Unconditional Love within.
I trust that SPC Shadow just wanted to escape SPC Potter, though she had felt conflicted and confused during moments of intense sexual attraction and pleasure, which was only present during certain moments within the often dark (ignorance of true essence) relationship.
I’ve learn’ed/remembered in my early forties (better late than never, eh) that once we experience Balancing our masculine and feminine energies within us (the Yin and Yang)—especially unconditional acceptance and love for self (ego self healing and transforming into its essence of the Divine Masculine Energies/Consciousness), and especially unconditional acceptance and love for others (shadow self healing and transforming into its essence of the Divine Feminine Energies/Consciousness), we will not only realize that we are in essence Unconditional Love Energy/Consciousness itself, but will also be able to meet and be in a healthy and Balanced relationship where we no longer love conditionally because we believe we need this love outside of ourselves, but unconditionally…just because we are it.
I’m pretty sure the entire company was fully aware of SPC Shadow and SPC Potter’s very unhealthy and lust-filled relationship. There was no shadow of a doubt that the phrase “in love” or “unconditional love” was anywhere in that mix.
One of the young guys in our company (I’ll name him SPC Crawfish)—who was known to be a tad uptight and pretty intellectual—was SPC Potter’s roommate in the barracks.
Having an MOS (Military Occupational Specialty) within Military Intelligence came with some interesting experiences, to include being surrounded by a lot of guys (and gals) that were similar (i.e., very smart, but maybe not geniuses) to all the guys from the hilarious and highly creative show, The Big Bang Theory—highly educated, knowledgeable, very technical, often times nerdy, lacking or seemingly having zero social skills, sometimes being a minor to major pain-in-the-ass, witty, sometimes arrogant, honest to downright blunt (like a very truthful child), free-spirited, sometimes to often emotionally immature, fun, and last but not least…lovable in mostly all of its various forms.
Looking back, theses Soldiers—my soul brothers and sisters—were surely some fascinating Beings! 😀
Despite SPC Crawfish’s often anal ways of being (one of my reflections 😉 ), he grew on me, and I’m sure on others as well; I found him quite sweet, lovable, and funny most of the time when he wasn’t irritating the crap out of me.
One bright and early morning, right before formation, SPC Crawfish started venting that he was getting tired of having to frequently hear obnoxiously loud moaning and groaning [from physically merged SPC Shadow/Potter], and that he just couldn’t take it anymore.
I couldn’t help but to chuckle, and he looked at me with an expression that seemed to telepathically say, “I can’t believe you crazy-ass 아줌마. ” Note: Once again, Ajumma or 아줌마 (in Korean) literally means “aunt”; however, most often used to refer to any middle-aged or older woman.
Lucky for me, most of the male rat bastards in my unit in Korea, sometimes called me 아줌마 as a nickname because they thought that they had jokey jokes.
Anyway, I tried to lighten SPC Crawfish up by asking him something to the effect, “You jealous cuz you’re not gettin any lately?”and he replied, “Ha ha very funny.”
I used to tease him (as well as others) every now and then, so he probably knew I would end up making a smart-ass comment for him being a whiny-ass again.
Anyway, back to the drunken kung-fu fight between SPC Shadow and SPC Potter.
To my great surprise, at one point, when SPC Scary Potter tried to gently move me out of the way—he was a good soldier whom I trusted wouldn’t harm me–SPC Shadow immediately jumped in front of me like some ninja, and yelled at him, “You better not hurt her!” which really surprised me; coming from her, it was soul-touching as well.
Of course, I think those were the first and last kind words out of SPC Shadow’s mouth, but I treasured that moment nonetheless, and even wrote a couple more detailed stories about our odd, roller coaster relationship.
“The Principle of Rhythm: Everything flows, out and in; Everything has its tides; All things rise and fall; The pendulum swing manifests in everything; The measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left; Rhythm compensates. – The Kyballion” The Seven Great Hermetic Principles – The Teachings of Thoth
Looking back, the dramatic relationship of SPC Shadow and SPC Potter was a reflection of my own unbalanced masculine and feminine energies within me, seemingly at war with one another quite often, with conflicting and confusing, intense, sexual attractions every now and then that can’t seem to be explained with earthly expressions.
I also realize that even all the Soldiers from different units had reflected back to me various aspects of my soul (depending on what my vibrational frequency was at whatever present Moment of Now):
- fearful ego self/wounded inner-child/unhealed masculine energy/aspect of soul (when my vibrational frequency was low)
- shadow self (the unknown/shadow aspects of us that are often times labeled by the collective ego as “negative” or “dark” due to their lack of understanding and fear of the unknown (the greatest fear), when it’s not necessarily the case. These very powerful energies within us can be channeled toward a path of Light when use wisely)/unhealed feminine energy/aspect of soul,
- as well as…the healed, transformed, integrated, and balanced versions of both—Divine Masculine (healed and transformed ego self version, as well as empowered loving masculine energies) and Divine Feminine (healed and transformed shadow self version, as well as empowered loving feminine energies) merged with Divine Spirit (Monad)/All That Is.
The following is from the very helpful and powerful reading, “The Seven Great Hermetic Principles – The Teachings of Thoth” which shares one of the Universal Laws:
“The Principle of Correspondence: As above so below: as below, so above. – The Kyballion. This famous aphorism was created by Hermes. What this law means is that the thoughts and images that we hold in our conscious and subconscious mind will manifest its mirror likeness in our external circumstance.
The outer world is a mirror of our inner world. If we hold thoughts of poverty we will have no money. If we hold thoughts and images of lack of good health, this will manifest within our physical bodies.
The thoughts and images we hold in our mind will attract their physical likeness to us in our external circumstance. This law works unceasingly for the good or the bad. By understanding this law we can use it for our benefit instead of our detriment […] “
I also understood that SPC Shadow felt resentment and/or jealousy towards me for whatever reasons, which baffled me because she was known as one of the hot chicks (and indeed she was).
I had shared with her other wonderful qualities about her whenever the timing seemed perfect—to include her being free-spirited, fun, and goofy—so I could’t figure out why she felt so threatened by my presence.
One day, after being fed up with her habitual, snotty-ass attitude towards other Soldiers as well, I sat her down and head a heart-felt talk. She then confessed why she was the way she was, which I already wrote about in another post.
Another day, after removing my snug beret, I was fixing my hair in front of a mirror at the main entrance of our work place, and she walked past me and shouted in her usual snotty tone, “Don’t worry! You’re beautiful, okay!”
I was like (in my thoughts), “What the hell? I can’t help that I have a big head for my size (4’9″) which makes my 7 1/4 tight-ass beret mess up my hair whenever I take it off.” I realized that I had taken her comment as sarcasm at the time due to my own low self-esteem .
What blew my mind sometime this year, was when I was first reading random pages of the book, Beloved I AM: Messages from the Divine Feminine.
I came upon a page under the theme, “Forever,” with an intricately created beautiful artwork of Quan Yin, and I felt as though I had froze in that Moment of Now as I deeply stared at the very familiar image.
The artwork of Quan Yin’s face looked, not similar, but damn near identical to SPC Shadow. Moments later, I received an insight from my Beloved I AM, which reminded me that SPC Shadow and I were meant to cross paths as soul sisters/soul mates of more than likely the same Soul Group and Monad.
We were one another’s shadow self, as well as reflections of our true self—both reflecting back to one another’s unknown (or shadow) yet intuitively familiar aspects of self that created fear, as well as love.
SPC Shadow unconsciously reflected back to me my own shadow aspects (aka unhealed and unbalanced feminine energies) of insecurities, subtle resentment, subtle jealousy; my ego self’s (aka unhealed and unbalanced masculine energy/wounded inner-child) fear of the unknown, as well as the Divine Masculine energy aspect of me that is protective of others.
We were meant to learn some profound life lessons, to include deep understanding, empathy, compassion, unconditional forgiveness, unconditional acceptance, embrace (of the so-called “negative” characteristics of others), and unconditional love.
In 2008, at my third unit—without SPC Shadow since I had changed my MOS from 98G/KP (now 35P/KP)/Cryptologic Linguist/Analyst to 97E (now 35M)/Human Intelligence Collector/aka Interrogator—I received a Facebook friend request from SPC Shadow.
I was quite surprised since she had made it clear many times that she truly didn’t want to be friends at both of our two units together (about five years total), although we had some small talk while taking college classes together in Hawaii.
I disregarded the request because I just wanted to forget about her—just in case she had ulterior motives for being buddy-buddy again with me (i.e., just “friend requesting” on fb to get info to gossip about.
I was also going through a very dark and challenging phase of my life. Looking back, it was the start of some major changes in life, to include eventually letting fo of the Army life.
However, ever since I came upon the image of Quan Yin that reminded me of her, I was able to fully forgive her unconditionally, and love her as the soul sister that she truly is—the same feeling I had often felt about her whenever I re-membered that one precious and heart-felt moment that we shared.
I trusted my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within that there was a very good reason why SPC Shadow looked almost identical to the artwork of Ascended Master Quan Yin in the book.
It was a life lesson to test if I would be willing to Be, not only compassion for others, but compassion for self as well, just as Ascended Master Buddha had once taught.
Looking back, I often noticed that whenever something “negative” happens, and I choose to respond in a loving way, rather than react in a fearful way (although I didn’t exactly think of those exact words then), I would experience something very positive. I trust that this has to do with the Universal Law of Attraction where like attracts like.
When we send out positive energy, we then tune into a matching vibrational frequency of a positive situation, person, event, thing, place, etc. showing up in our lives, and the same applies when we send out negative energy.
The following is from the very helpful and powerful reading, “The Seven Great Hermetic Principles – The Teachings of Thoth” which shares another one of the Universal Laws:
“The Principle of Vibration: Nothing rests; Everything moves; Everything vibrates. – The Kyballion”
I learned/remembered that all the “negative” happenings throughout my life was due to the process of balancing my karma.
Whether in this lifetime or past lifetimes (aka parallel realities), I had apparently sent out to the Universe negative energies in the form of thoughts, feelings, intentions, words and/or actions that stem from fear energy; hence, karma came back to me whenever my ego self needed a particular life lesson the most highly benefited all interconnected souls in Divine perfect timing and order, for its individual and collective soul growth/evolution.
“The Principle of Cause and Effect: Every cause has its effect; Every effect has its cause; Everything happens according to law’ Chance is but a name for law not recognized’ There are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes the law. – The Kyballion” The Seven Great Hermetic Principles – The Teachings of Thoth
One of my daily intention statements from my integrated Higher Mind/Higher Heart is, “I AM effortlessly intending to take full responsibility for everything that shows up in my life, and trust that I—as my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within me—sent the positive blessings, as well as “negative” stuff/disguised blessings/profound wisdom to myself for the highest benefit of all interconnected souls/SOUL.”
I decided to start doing daily intention statements after I initially read about its effectiveness in the book, Bringers of the Dawn: Teachings of the Pleiadians, as well as I came upon a few other readings that also mentioned it that highly resonated with me.
In addition, the following reading has been very helpful as well:
“The Principle of Mentalism:The all is mind; the universe is mental. – The Kyballion. This principle embodies the understanding that everything in the universe is created by thought or mind. There is nothing that exists in the material universe where this is not the case […]” The Seven Great Hermetic Principles – The Teachings of Thoth
So basically, I finally decided to start Co-creating with my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within (using heart-felt intention statements from the integrated Higher Mind/Higher Heart) the beautiful and amazing reality overflowing with much unconditional love/unity that I/we choose to experience together as One (Spirit merged with matter).
Otherwise, if I had chosen to continue to do everything myself (as ego self that has too much pride to ask for help from Higher Self/Soul), I would continue to unconsciously (meaning as aspect of soul that has forgotten its true essence) create (not Co-create) an unpleasant reality of much fear, darkness (ignorance of true essence), lack, victim mentality, sufferings, etc. through society conditioned, random negative thoughts, feelings and beliefs.
Granted, duality of “good” vs “bad or evil,” “right” vs “wrong,” and “hot” vs “cold, etc. serve a great purpose in the Divine Plan—for Spirit within the vehicle of the human body to experience physical life to better know itself as it grows, learns, expands, loves, gains wisdom, and evolves.
However, when certain life lessons have been learned, the tools of darkness (ignorance of true essence) and fear (the lowest vibration within the cosmic love frequency spectrum) is no longer needed.
“The Principle of Polarity: Everything is dual; Everything has poles; Everything has its pair of opposites; Like and unlike are the same; Opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree; Extremes meet; All truths, are but half-truths; All paradoxes may be reconciled. – The Kyballion.” The Seven Great Hermetic Principles – The Teachings of Thoth, Ex. In the middle of the extreme polarity of hot and cold is warm.
Often times, the greatest surprises come to us when least expected. About two years after that miraculous, “Barbara Walters skit” day, I was walking to my jeep within the ginormous parking lot.
Seemingly, out of thin air, I was approached by a Navy enlisted female Sailor, whom I didn’t recall ever seeing before. She expressed a gentle smile that felt genuine and inviting, and told me something to the effect that she remembered me from the Barbara Walters skit I did a couple of years ago, and that she was really impressed because I was so funny.
I thanked her from the depths of my heart for going out of her way to share her kind thoughts with me. Throughout 40 plus years of my life, I’ve experienced that often times, people can be stingy with their compliments to others (especially catty females), which I had a hard time understanding for a while.
The reason I enjoy showering others with genuine compliments is because I love watching their faces light up, as though they’re so surprised to hear such truths. A few have even cried tears of joy, which deeply moved me as well.
I learned/remembered much later that the need to hoard kind words and/or actions stemmed from a deeply conditioned, fear-based belief that if one showers others with kindness (especially compliments), one will lose something by doing so—like feeling less themselves since they gave something away.
This is due to a lack or absence of unconditional love for all aspects of self; hence, believing that the love that they have within is very limited, and must be reserved for absolutely necessary moments, like on birthdays and holidays I suppose.
I told the generously kind Sailor/soul sister that I really appreciated her compliment, and that I couldn’t believe she had remembered after all this time. She replied that I had done great, and that it was an unforgettable moment.
Looking back, the various experiences that I had—especially the “negative” ones/blessings in disguise—gave me the golden opportunity to gain a deeper understanding and appreciation for Life, to include such wonderful words such as beautiful, fascinating, and standard that are often used by general society in limited ways.
When we look closely, there is much Beauty to be found in Life, and often times, when we’re in alignment with our Divinity within—by living and Being in every present Moment of Now with much gratitude and appreciation for what we already have—we can experience Fascinating synchronicities (Divine Intervention), see the beauty of our outer world, and effortlessly feel the beautiful moments that deeply move us to higher levels of bliss—like precious moments of inner-peace, joy, excitement, unconditional love, inspiration, epiphany, creativity, gratitude, truth, inner-wisdom, inner-knowing/intuition, upliftment, encouragement, assistance, acknowledgment, sharing, giving, receiving, accepting, embracing, generosity, flowing, jogging, running, singing, dancing, playing, pretending, imagining, awakening, expanding (consciousness), cooking, allowing, basking, savoring, enjoying, celebrating, surprises, miracles, blessings, abundance, freedom, Divine powers, and so much more.
Often times, our inner beauty (without so-called out beauty by society’s standards) is discounted, and even made into jokes like the famous, “That’s what ugly people say” from the funny movie Liar Liar, or the popular urban phrase often used by young, emotionally immature men, “Butherface” (but-her-face), or jokes about “fat chicks.”
Yet, use certain adjectives or phrases to describe a man’s penis, regardless of how small, medium, or large he believes it is—e.g., tiny, “Awe, so precious,” “Wussup iddy biddy buddy!” “Mr. pencil, have you seen my notepad?” “Where is mini you hiding?” “Uhhh, should I turn the thermostat up?””Hmmm… interesting,” “Is it lost in the jungle?””Did my wittle tinkleberry grow since my last visit?” etc.–-and the next thing you know, you have to call the WHAHmbulance (=> thank you Modern Family show). Hey, I guess if you can dish it, be prepared to take some as well. 😉
What a lot of men don’t realize is that the magic key that fully opens a woman to a man (as her true Goddess Self) is through her Heart first, not her vagina.
And anyone who believes sex takes precedence over unconditional love for self and others, well…good luck with that, and see how quickly that fire becomes extinguished.
The true beauty of our essence/Heart/Spirit within is highly underestimated. The hilarious as well as heart-warming movie, Shallow Hal is a great example.
MINI SPOILER ALERT: In one scene, Hal (Jack Black) finally realizes that the little girl he had been interacting with before was in actuality a child with major burn wounds at the Pediatric Burn Center. However, he chooses to see her as truly beautiful, regardless of her outer scars, which brought me to tears, among other soul-touching scenes with Gwyneth Paltrow.
In addition, when we go within ourselves, and start paying attention to the silence and stillness within us, we may discover one magical day, that as we look beyond the outer surface of the material world through the ancient eyes of the Christ within, we will realize what’s mostly Fascinating about Life itself—the Cosmic Light and Love Energies/Consciousness, the most powerful forces throughout this omniverse, and that which binds, infuses, lives and interconnects everything that exists.
Rather than always or often focusing on the material stuff of Life, we may discover that exploring the higher dimensions is also truly fascinating beyond our limited imagination, to include all aspects and extensions of Divinity within us (e.g., Higher Self/Beloved I AM Presence, Christ within/Divine Spirit/All That Is) that has the depth of profound wisdom collected over eons and eons ago, that’s way beyond our lower mind’s limited imagination and comprehension.
Now, revisiting the topic of Barbara Walters’ show, “The 10 Most Fascinating People of 2014.” While I enjoyed watching this show, I was reminded by my Beloved I AM of what to learn from it since soul growth/evolution is all about learning many life lessons, especially the profound ones that allow us to leap into a much higher level of consciousness, and to be a better service to humanity and beyond while best fulfilling the Divine will within.
I have a strong feeling that everyone—whether or not they’d like to admit it—would like to think of themselves with wonderful adjectives such as beautiful and fascinating.
However, when the majority of humanity is often bombarded with what society in general often labels and displays as “the beautiful and/or fascinating people” of whatever country/continent of the planet (i.e., the minority of the celebrity population), how does that affect billions of other people?
For instance, magazines that often display seemingly flawless and very beautiful celebrities throughout many stores, in videos, in movies, on the internet, on TV shows, etc. conditions countless non-celebrities (to include young children) to believe that they’re not beautiful because society says “beautiful” equals most celebrities’ faces and/or bodies—usually both.
I know through my own personal experience what it’s like to be heavily impacted by another’s earthly labels, even if it was a simple phrase that was shouted out from more than likely a frustrated day.
The impact is much greater when it’s from one’s closest family member(s); however, a friend, classmate, coworker, acquaintance, neighbor, etc. can cause inner wounds as well. One of my earlier one-paragraph posts from over a few years ago is titled, “Low Self-Esteem.
Although I had revisited other old posts as I gained insights from my Beloved I AM, I didn’t do so with this one, and I understand that it’s time.
That one hurtful comment that my classmate had said to me stuck with me to this day in my early forties. I believed his harsh words, and they never seemed to go away, although lately it’s been much less.
In my early forties, after reading something inspirational, I started practicing telling myself in front of a mirror, “Bobbie, I unconditionally accept and love all aspects of you” and “Bobbie, you’re beautiful inside and out.”
However, I noticed that whenever I had make-up on, I was able to effortless say, “Bobbie, you’re beautiful inside and out,” but when I didn’t have any make-up on, I kept breaking eye contact with myself in the mirror.
I wondered why that was so, but then realized that it was more than likely due to not wanting to face a face that someone was so repulsed by—as though I looked like some kind of monster or something.
It’s one thing to be called “ugly,” “flat-faced,” or even racially insulted for being a Korean, but to be called all three was like a triple smack in the face I suppose.
Like I mentioned in the post, the classmate looked like a very young, gorgeous James Dean. At our fifth or sixth grade school’s Valentine’s Dance, I stood near one of the walls, and watched as this classmate/boy and his girlfriend slow-danced to the song, “Making Love Out of Nothing at All” by Air Supply. Robyn was the “girl next door” with platinum blond, silky hair, gentle blue gorgeous eyes, and a very pretty smile; she was also my friend who was so nice as well.
The two were like a fairy-tale couple gracefully dancing away as they stared deeply into each other’s eyes and smiling. I often wondered if I’d ever meet someone who would look at me that way; and I finally did, when I was in my mid-thirties.
Whenever I heard that song, I couldn’t help but to recall the moment where I was in awe of what I had learned what “true beauty” looked like, and what I was not, and would never be.
Looking back, I trust that there was a very good reason why I had experienced that particular song with that particular moment. Although it didn’t occur to me for decades why I couldn’t just forget about certain “negative” experiences that seemed to haunt me—no matter how much alcohol I drank in my early twenties to late thirties—I now realize the life lesson that I was meant to learn from it, and grow as a soul.
I trust my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within me that I’m to extract from the title of the song, “Making Love Out of Nothing at All” unconditional love for self and others from a space that had no love for self (because I had forgotten that my essence is Unconditional Love).
Therefore, another (classmate/soul brother) unconsciously reflected back to me (like a mirror) the deep belief I had about myself during this lifetime, and more than likely carried through from other lifetimes as well.
I’m meant to unconditional forgive my classmate for not knowing any better but to say something so insensitive. More than likely, as a kid, he, like many people, was conditioned by society of what beauty is and isn‘t. In addition, someone or some people close to him, may have said some negative things about Koreans, which influenced his beliefs.
I’m also meant to have compassion for self when it comes to such situations. Unless one has been in the exact same situation, they may never truly know what it feels like, and how it can impact one’s life. I’m reminded that there are many forms of beauty, and it’s each person that validates his or her own beauty.
In addition, such an experience from the post, “Low Self-Esteem” had helped me to see the beauty in others (e.g., in old post, “Compassion“), and also reminded me to never say anything so mean to another, or even agree with another that one was ugly (e.g., in old post, “Manipulation“).
Just as no one wants to be “not beautiful/handsome,” I doubt anyone truly wants to be “not fascinating,” either; and with all due respect to Barbara Walters’ show “The 10 Most Fascinating People of [fill in the blank of whatever year]” this show creates further separation of humanity rather than creating unity.
I addition, who wants to be told by Mr. Egoas, “Hey Billy Bob! You made it on the ‘The 10 Most Fascinating People of 2014’ show, but you didn’t quite make the cut for the ultimate, ‘THE Most Fascinating Person of 2014. What’s the matter with you? You’ve been gettin’ lazy or somethin’? Ya see, Babs always saves the best for the last you know, and once again, you’re not it buddy. You really need to work on upgrading your ability to be even more fascinating for the years to come, or you’re just going to be known to the public as the ‘so-so-fascinating star.’ You payin’ attention? You get all that? WAKE YOUR ASS UP!”
So when kids, tween, teenagers, and even young adults see all these earthly labels such as “beautiful”/handsome/sexy/gorgeous/pretty/etc or “fascinating,” and are unable to relate those adjectives in any way, shape, or form due to the set standards of society, how will they perceive themselves? Perhaps much less than they truly are?
Many of them are not fortunate enough to have one, let alone two, balanced male and female adult role models—open-minded/hearted, unconditionally accepting, unconditionally loving, confident of self-worth with high self-esteem, discerning, highly intelligent/wise, highly supportive parents—who can teach them how beautiful and fascinating (among other wonderful adjectives) they are regardless of what societal labels say.
“The Principle of Gender: Gender is in everything; Everything has its masculine and feminine principles; Gender manifests on all planes. – The Kyballion” The Seven Great Hermetic Principles – The Teachings of Thoth
Unfortunately, many of us adults have yet to heal, transform and balance our soul in order to merge with Divine Spirit/All That Is—basically ego selves disguised as physically, emotionally, mentally, and/or spiritually balanced grown-ups.
When in actuality, we show through our habitual thoughts, intentions, words, behavior and actions that we, too, believe what society conditions us to believe, like a herd of goats consuming any load of garbage thrown at them.
In addition, even if a child had two, balanced parents, the school, the community, perhaps the church, media, and basically the rest of his/her surroundings would still tell and show that child how earthly labels are determined by the most influential members of society.
Therefore, it takes humanity as a whole to work on unity consciousness. Whenever society creates a strong need for competition and dominance, “Us vs them” (which it definitely does, and stems from the lower, reptilian brain)—whether it deals with physical appearance, intellectual level, financial or social status, level and number of educational degrees, sports, number od digits in paycheck, various events, video games, TV shows, number of shiny medals, number of awards and trophies, number of material accomplishments, number of earthly materials, etc.—we create further separation of humanity.
For all the minority of so-called winners, there will be thousands/millions/billions of so-called “losers,” and for all the minority of “beautiful, Victoria Secret looking models and/or celebrities” there will be thousands/millions/billions of so-called “not-so-beautiful people.”
It’s no wonder that the amount of money spent on the plethora of ways of appearing more attractive for others throughout the world has created multi-billion dollar industries.
Many governments throughout this world like to often complain on the news (instilling fear into the heart’s of humanity) about the world’s financial issues, lack of abundant resources and food to go around, constant need to be involved in wars and other conflicts, among many other unnecessary, negative drama, but why is it that so many supposedly well-educated and highly intellectual, old men (and even some women) refuse to simply admit that we choose to live in a society that has a lot of things ass-backwards?
For instance, technological expansion, to include nuclear and other deadly weapons, is considered priority over spiritual expansion of consciousness. Have we not learned from ancient tales of wisdom how overly materialistic worlds eventually create their own downfall?
Instead of being proactive with humanity’s health, we choose to be reactive by habitually stuffing our faces with a lot of drinks and food that contain all kinds of toxins that many people can’t even identify and/or pronounce from the extended paragraph labels.
The fast food industry alone is also an annual multi-billion dollar industry, and the global pharmaceutical industry was expected to be worth more than $1 trillion this year.
The tobacco and liquor industries, just to name a couple more: multi-billion to trillion dollar industries as well. The list can go on, but it’s too exhausting to even think about them anymore.
Do most of them care about people’s overall health, obesity issues, medical bills, diseases, negative side effects from medicine, allergic reactions, addictions, rotting teeth, and decreasing lifespan? Oooh, I don’t know…that’s a tough one.
So what have many of us been doing as the collective throughout the decades?
We excitedly shout with a BIG, ass-kissin’/lickin’/smokin’ smile, “Give us some more CRAP please! It doesn’t matter how you do it—in my mouth, through my nose, into my veins, down my ear canal, up my @$$! Just give me something that sounds, smells, feels, and tastes good! Yes masta, we believe every word that you tell us in the commercials, on the billboards, on the internet, in the magazines, on TV, and especially on the news!!! We just LOVE hearing us some negative sh!# on the news every freakin’ day that the world we live in has an @$$-load of major drama and damn near unsolvable, recurring issues! We bow to you as we sit on our fat and/or flat @$$E$ for hours on end in front of the big screen, and follow your lead wherever you take us OH Mighty ones! Amen Hallelujah brother!”
General society’s constant reminders of their biased thoughts, opinions, beliefs, words, and actions used to manipulate and/or control the minds and emotions of the general public will come to an abrupt end in Divine perfect timing and order. May the ending come with peace, harmony and unity. I trust my Divinity within.
So what is the standard that most highly rings true to our Hearts/Souls? What humanity has been doing over and over again for thousands of years that has brought about much more suffering than peace? Is this as good as it gets?
Or, is the standard—or more accurately…The NEW Standard—the potential of what Humanity is truly capable of Being starting this very present Moment of Now by first changing within?
It’s time for all of us to fully Wake Up to who we truly are, our Divinity within, and claim our Divine birthright.
The number of awakening souls can Multiply at an Exponential Rate so long as we all trust our Divinity within us.
Every child, tween, teenager, young adult, middle-aged adult, senior throughout this world deserve to confidently know—without a shadow of a doubt/without being influenced by their outer world—how beautiful and fascinating they are in their own way, and that there are many facets to such wonderful and amazing qualities that every soul truly is deep within their essence.
And every living being on this planet deserves to live and Be as their true essence/their Divine birthright—with much acceptance, peace, joy, unconditional love, truth, wisdom, freedom, abundance, creativity, Divine powers used in loving ways, etc.
I understand that planet Earth is a place where duality serves a great purpose in the Divine Plan. However, the goal was for the soul to learn many life lessons while on Earth.
Unfortunately, human history has proven over and over again that although we have evolved our logical minds/left side of the brain, to include science, mathematics, and technology, we have miserably failed in the lane of spiritual growth and development of the Heart/Soul/right side of the brain.
Rather than continuing to evolve with balanced energies (Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine Energies/Consciousness), we, as a collective egoic humanity have focused wwway too much on lower vibrational frequencies of the masculine energies (aka fearful ego self/wounded inner-child/unhealed masculine energy/consciousness)—especially the extremes of fear energy to include but not limited to: judgment, resentment, anger, hatred, aggression, vengeance, violence, murder, torture, seemingly never-ending wars/battles/conflicts, etc. for thousands of years.
So although Ascended Master Jesus The Christ taught humanity much wisdom while on Earth, some of which was passed down for generations through the religious Christian bible, our overall, collective soul evolution has been stagnant for too long.
Therefore, there’s a ginormous neon sign from Source/Divine Spirit/All That Is/Prime Creator, and many Cosmic, Angelic, Celestial, Extraterrestrial/Family of Light/Guardians of Light, and other Light Beings of the Ascended Master and higher spiritual realms throughout this Galaxy, Universe and beyond that shouts, “It’s time to pick up the pace and change things up a bit…like evolving out of the very dense dimension of duality (3D), and finally stepping up towards one’s Divine destiny…to evolve into higher dimensions (i.e., 4D) of unity consciousness and beyond (e.g., 5D/”Heaven on Earth and beyond reflecting Heavenly inner state” or “Outer world reflecting inner world”).
