April 29, 2015
The following are sub-titles to the main title above:
- Heart Guidance
- A Deeper Look at Narcissism
- Man-made Destiny
- The Earth Schoolhouse of Darkness and Fear
- Dream #1: Crossing Paths with Hitler
- Dream #2: Being Concerned E.T. Observing Steamed Human in Sarcophagus-like Machine
- Gratitude for this Powerful Story
- Dream #3: Bizarre Dream of the Name Amun and Erect Penis
- Dream #4: Dream of the Name Thoth and White Truck
- Remembering Bits and Pieces of Training and Missions
- Dream of Being Pleiadian Twin Flame and Human Skull
- We Are Much More Than We Realize
- Dream #5: Dream of Anunnaki and 144
- Dream of Newborn Tiger in Cup (Post created on May 2, 2015, and published after this post)
Note: Image on right above found next to link => acredconnections.wordpress.com (thank you)
Heart Guidance
I was so reluctant to publish this post, in case I’m way out in left field with what I’ve come to trust, and I don’t wish to mislead anyone else who may happen to cross paths with this post.
However, when I followed my Heart, I came upon the following daily message that I often turn to for outer Divine guidance from Trinity Esoterics, which I trust that my inner Divine guidance led me to:
Daily Message ~ Wednesday April 29, 2015
Dear Ones, if you haven’t been being true to yourselves, how can you expect the universe to respond to your emanations in a way that is satisfying to you? It is like holding the vibration of apples while desiring oranges. The fastest way to a life that is truly a reflection of who you really are is to shine brightly, clearly, and gloriously in your unique truth and energy, and from that pure expression of self, you will draw to you your perfect matches and experiences. ~Archangel Gabriel
A Deeper Look at Narcissism
I came upon a reading this morning which I trust showed up in Divine perfect timing and order; it helped me to release the remnants of guilt I had of no longer staying in touch with my biological parents, which has been over a year since I made the decision.
The following italicized paragraphs are from the reading,”The Narcissistic Family,” which not only reminded me of one of my older posts about my biological father titled, “My First Encounter with a Narcissist,” but also helped me to realize that I have chosen to be one of the few to break free from the illusions that 1) I’m not worthy, 2) I don’t have a choice to make positive changes in my life, and 3) I’m not free to be who I truly am:
The most commonly recommended course of action for dealing with narcissistic abuse is reduction or elimination of contact; however, members of the narcissistic family who manage to accept that there’s something wrong and take action are in the minority by far. This is because all members of a narcissistic family were given the same message thousands, if not millions of times since birth…
“…you have to put up with this; you have no choice, and there’s nothing you can do about it.”
The few who break free and heal themselves are the ones who somehow come to recognize the above for what it truly is – nothing more than a mere lie.
My former psychologist from 2012 concluded that both my parents were extreme narcissists, and after wondering what she was thinking, I asked her, “Do you think that makes me a super narcissist?”
Her expression revealed that I had caught her off guard with such an awkward question, and though she gently disagreed not so convincingly, I informed her that I didn’t blame her even if she did have any thoughts that I was so, or could become so; I understood.
I no longer attended anymore sessions after that one because something inside of me informed me that there was something much more to her simple, logical conclusion that even she wouldn’t be able to help me with.
I later fully accepted that the silent, still, inner voice was my Higher Self/Integrated Soul/Multidimensional Self/Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Twin Flame within/God, Goddess and Divine Spirit/All That Is.
I was grateful for my psychologist, who was the most professional of all the psychologists and therapists I had experienced since 2010, and I even informed my annual doctor that she wasn’t the reason that I discontinued my sessions with her since she was the best; I was just good for now.
I appreciated my psychologist’s gentle kind demeanor, her ability to share different perspectives and new information, and her great ability to participate in active listening, a skill that I noticed many humans are not good at.
It’s just that I intuitively knew that our time together was coming to an end because I was pretty much starting to answer my own questions during the last several sessions, or even answering all of her questions that she didn’t seem to know the answers to.
Despite professional advice from a licensed counselor, and after continuing to do much inner work, I’ve come to my own conclusion about my parents’ way of being (which I wrote about in other posts)—that their earthly label “narcissist,” when seen from beyond the outer surface, is just another cry for help from the wounded, inner child within/fearful ego self.
My parents were (still are?) wounded wounders, who deep, deep down, only want to be unconditionally loved by self and others, and experience all the beauty of Life while on this planet….like every other soul yearning to remember whole self (soul merged with Spirit).
Since I trust that as I heal from within, others heal…and as others heal, I heal—since we are ultimately all interconnected souls of The One/made from the same cloth—I will continue to work on self, rather than continue to put forth ineffective efforts in trying to change others who are obviously stuck and deeply lost within the illusions of this 3D physical reality, and too damn stubborn to fully open their hearts.
Perhaps one day, my parents and I will cross paths again, if it’s for the highest benefit of all interconnected souls. If not…so be it. I trust that their higher selves will always be there for them as well.
Man-made Destiny
Growing up, I recall being told several times by my mother that it’s her destiny, as well as mine, that we experience much hardship, bad luck, and suffering in our lives.
She never explained why, but simply stated that that’s how life is if we have such a destiny. Since childhood, I believed her, which became a deep belief by adulthood.
Looking back and reflecting upon such an experience, I realize how huge of an impact this made to the child version of me.
I can’t imagine ever saying something like that to a child, knowing today how a child could interpret such misinformation. However, perhaps I did do so in a past life; hence, the exact same experience circled back to me so that I could finally learn and grow from it.
As I remember to always have compassion for self, especially my wounded inner child (ego self/unhealed masculine energy/consciousness aspect of Soul), I can deeply understand and empathize with self.
What could such a comment do to a developing child? Convince the child that no matter what he/she does, he/she’s destined to be miserable for the rest of his/her life?
Maybe this was the sad end of the story for most humans throughout history, but things are rapidly changing now, and all the bs will cease to exist.
Starting my late twenties, my mother made efforts to convince me that a person goes through three, major life changes in one lifetime; hence, I should never give up hope to improve my life.
I trust that was her way of attempting to fix what she intuitively knew was previously damaging, and I appreciated her for doing so.
However, up to my early forties, I think the old belief that my life path was destined for much doom was deeply ingrained in my mind; hence, I continued to tune into much experiences of darkness, fear, loss and sufferings.
Even as I’m typing this, I realize that I haven’t fully embraced the fact that the rapid crumbling down of my ego self’s personality and material world since 2010 is for my soul’s highest benefit.
The are still remnants of fear left from the mere thought that I can no longer be able to feel confident about my physical identity (even if it wasn’t always true confidence), and that I’m continuing to lose the very little that I even have left of my ego self’s dignity and home.
I’ve already let go of the fact that I’ve lost the majority of material things in my life (Army career with clearance, a chance to earn a four-year college degree with Post 9/11 GI Bill, job with bi-weekly paycheck, car, investment condo, money, etc.).
So I just need to remind myself (until reminders are no longer needed) that I’m still alive and well now without any of them, and I can get through this as well.
I may not have much material abundance (especially money) at this particular Moment of Now, but I have abundance, prosperity and wealth on all other levels of my Being that are invaluable, especially much remembered wisdom, awakened and integrated Mind/Heart, and expanding consciousness, which is without a material price tag.
I’m also reminded of the wise and famous teaching, “This too will pass.”
I AM Intending to rise above all material challenges in this physical reality so that I can finally see through the ancient eyes of my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within the Heaven on Earth that’s already existing in front of me NOW.
I now trust that those outdated beliefs that my mother had initially passed down to me were more than likely passed down to her from her own parents; and my grandparents more than likely experienced similar beliefs being passed down to them from their parents as well—that included victim mentality and poverty consciousness—and so on and so forth.
At some point though, it’s time to break the vicious and draining cycle and grow in our soul evolution.
As my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Twin Flame within, I AM intending to fully release all old beliefs that no longer highly benefit my accelerated, individual and collective soul growth/evolution.
The Earth Schoolhouse of Darkness and Fear
Since our world is not black and white, but filled with many shades of gray, I’ve decided to entertain yet another perspective, that there was some truth within my mother’s initial belief that my destiny was one of much darkness and suffering.
I often wondered, especially at the start of major changes within my spiritual journey in 2011, if my life—seemingly overflowing with negativity and sufferings—was due to the fact that I had been a very unloving soul in past lifetimes.
If that was the case, then surely, I would need to take full responsibility for all the karma that I was experiencing and balance them.
I also need to realize that I didn’t experience a lot of negative earth dramas of darkness, fear and suffering throughout the majority of my life (and continue to) because Spirit wants me punished, but because it’s always been for my soul’s highest benefit throughout my soul growth/evolution.
They were opportunities—some as blessings in disguise—to learn may life lessons, especially profound wisdom of deep understanding, deep empathy, pure compassion, unconditional forgiveness, unconditional acceptance, embrace (of the polarity of both good and bad), and unconditional love through the experiences of the seemingly opposites—much darkness and fear.
I trust that we are to learn/remember that whatever we dish out to the Universe—whether good or bad—circles back to us (positive or negative karma) so that we can finally realize that we are in essence One (All That Is) with everything else “out there” that seems like “other.”
So when we dish out hurt to others, and then we experience the same form of hurt within one lifetime—or the next lifetime(s)—hopefully, a spark of light will ignite within our own dark mind and help us to realize that it doesn’t quite feel so good when we experience hurt; hence, we shouldn’t do it to so-called others/our soul brothers and sisters.
Within a year time-frame, I had a couple of “disturbing” dreams that made me wonder about who I was in past lifetimes/parallel realities, as well as a few dreams of being involved in various types of conflicts, battles and/or wars.; or, perhaps I had briefly tuned into the collective unconscious—not sure, but then again, ultimately, we are all One.
As my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Twin Flame within, I AM intending to forgive myself and others at the deepest level of my being, and fully release all doubts, guilt and shame that no longer highly benefit my accelerated, individual and collective soul growth/evolution.
Dream #1:
Crossing Paths with Hitler
I was walking within a cloudy environment, in an open space with seemingly nothing around. As soon as I realized that I had cut someone off, I looked back, and it was the infamous Hitler.
As time seemed to have drastically slowed down, I noticed that his vivid face was not of the typical, harsh expression that’s often depicted of him throughout human history, but rather, a very soft expression that conveyed the combination of slight surprise, confusion, and deep sadness in his eyes.
We went our separate ways, and I recall coming upon military vehicles and old buildings that appeared to be a scene from a black and white movie.
When I woke up, I wondered why I had this dream of a being whom I hardly ever think about. I thought…
“Was I one of Hitler’s soldiers in a past life/parallel reality? But if I was, and he was known to be the so-called ruthless monster that he was, why didn’t he yell at me for cutting him off, or at least pull me to the side?”
Perhaps he was understanding and patient toward his soldiers. Perhaps I was a peer or of higher rank, so he was like, “WTF?” in silent mode.
Or maybe, I wasn’t a physical being at all, but Hitler was able to feel a strange, passing presence, which could explain his unusual facial expression.
I suppose there can be many different reasons as to why I saw what I saw. Perhaps I had such an experience in order to see another side of Hitler—the human/soul softer side of him that might have experienced remorse of his unloving doings at that particular Moment of Now.
What if, after his death, he temporarily remembered who he truly is, and was given the opportunity to review his past life? And he became extremely devastated that he had acted in such horrific ways while forgetting who he truly was in his physical body on Earth.
Or, perhaps the being was mirroring back to me the Hitler-like aspects deep within me (and everyone else) that are unknown/shadow to me, which makes it easier for me (and others) to judge people like him.
We may convince ourselves, “Oh no, not me; I’m sure I don’t have such pitch dark aspects within me,” but how do we know for sure?”
Ever since I had briefly learned about Hitler, and throughout my adult years, I recall wondering every now and then why he—and others like him—were the way they were. How does one go from an innocent, harmless, angelic baby to a heartless dictator?
I wondered why Hitler had so much hatred in his heart. Someone (or two or more), very close to him—who had the power to affect him emotionally—wounded him deeply.
I wondered if it was his father who might have severely abused him—verbally, psychologically, physically, and or sexually.
Back in the day, talking to someone about such matters wasn’t even an option. Even in my childhood days, my so-called dark experiences of various types of abuse were my own little secrets that were safe with only me.
The following is a section from Wikipedia about Hitler as a child, which gave me another viewpoint of how one can drastically change their way of being due to a traumatic event, especially at 11 years old:
The death of his younger brother Edmund, who died from measles in 1900, deeply affected Hitler. He changed from a confident, outgoing, conscientious student to a morose, detached, sullen boy who constantly fought with his father and teachers.[21]
I highly doubt that ‘constantly fought with his father’ only involved verbal arguments. Back in the day, throughout the world, ass and full body beatings were not only common, but expected.
I sense that Hitler didn’t unconditionally accept/love himself for sure, like the majority of humanity throughout human history and today; hence, he wasn’t able to do it for others as well.
And it didn’t help that he didn’t have blond hair and blue eyes himself, which he was led to believe was the superior race.
Just as serial killers are often found to have been deeply wounded by the parent(s), or others family members, authority figures and/or friends that were close to them during childhood, even Hitler—as a once innocent, child—had been drowned within the darkness and fear that surrounded him.
Perhaps he had a traumatic experience at one of the homeless shelters or men’s hostels during his late teens, like rape and sodomy, which happened throughout the world, but was taboo to talk about due to the belief of losing one’s manliness.
I saw a couple of pictures of Hitler as an infant and a young boy for the first time, and my heart went out to the little soul.
It’s not like little boys run around shouting, “I wanna be an infamous, mass murderer when I grow up!”
Even Hitler took singing lessons, enjoyed painting, and even considered becoming a priest or artist at certain points of his life.
Note: Image on right found next to link => en.wikipedia.org (thank you)
I wasn’t aware of this information until recently, and I can understand why. I think most people, to include my old self, who form a general idea about a “bad” person, don’t care to look beyond the outer surface.
It’s so much easier to be quick to judge, especially infamous women like Mary Magdalene and very evil folks like Hitler.
Neale Donald Walsch brought up a great point in one of this books—something to the effect that we condemn Hitler for all the evil that he’s done, but what about the millions who followed him (whether outwardly and/or inwardly like a coward)?
So they only get a slap on the hand and be less hated? Or does it get swept under the rug since it would be a major pain in the ass to identify and condemn all of them?
Once I found out some truths about Mary Magdalene (that she was a loyal and reliable Disciple of Christ, and not a prostitute)—which is now becoming mainstream knowledge thanks to the emerging evidences and exploding information age—I find myself questioning, more than ever before, everything else in this physical reality…which contains A LOT of shady activities.
The great news is…humans now have a choice to no longer remain duped, ignorant, helpless, powerless, a victim, and a slave to the manipulative and controlling members of society who have abused their power for way too long.
Now back to Hitler: He seemed to have been a rebellious, yet, free-spirited boy who just wanted to enjoy life with much freedom; however, society, especially his father, often went against his wishes. In addition, society habitually rejecting him probably didn’t help matters as well.
When he reached adulthood, perhaps he decided enough is enough, and his desperate state led him to go to the extreme of having his full freedom and power, which he probably intuitively sensed was his Divine birthright.
Unfortunately though, due to his ego self (unhealed masculine energy within/wounded inner child) growing and continuing to suppress his Heart (Divine Feminine), from being further negatively influenced by others, especially the military organization—a very dense space of energy—he ended up experiencing much power and freedom at the expense of countless others’ sufferings.
Hitler took out his repressed and suppressed anger, hatred, and powerlessness onto the outer world. He became a wounded wounder to the extreme.
Had he learned (as a human)/remembered (as a soul) to become a Wounded Healer instead with his healed and integrated Mind (Divine Masculine)/Heart (Divine Feminine), and use his Divine Power within, in conjunction with Divine Love and Divine Wisdom, perhaps he would’ve turned out to be a famous and powerful healer/spiritual teacher and/or artist (his dream), as opposed to an infamous “monster” of humanity.
Note: Image on left above found next to link => commons.wikimedia.org (thank you)
Surely, in his next lifetime(s), he will remember who he truly is deep within his core essence.
I trust that my opportunity to cross paths with such a being, and to see another side of him, was a positive sign that even the seemingly worst of mankind can rise about his own darkness and fear within.
I embrace the possibility that there exists deep within me the worst of the worst as well, but that I just don’t remember yet.
If so, I’m introducing the best of the best within me—my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Twin Flame within—to unconditionally forgive all dark/shadow aspects of myself at the deepest level of my being that I’m not currently aware of yet, or I am aware of, but unable to forgive at a lower, vibrational state of being.
Dream #2:
Being Concerned E.T. Observing Steamed Human in Sarcophagus-like Machine
Intro Before Dream
The following are sections from an unpublished post about the Anunnaki titled, “A Deeper Understanding of the So-Called Women Haters” recorded November 30, 2014 (Note: I trust that I hadn’t published this post because I didn’t know the whole truth about the Anunnaki at the time—that there are two factions of the Anunnaki, which for me, was best summarized in the reading => THE SERPENT OF LIFE & WISDOM; I trust that these seemingly separate factions will reunite as One in Divine perfect timing and order as they re-member who they truly are):
I’ve recently come to trust that Divine messages come to us in many ways (e.g., both positive and negative synchronicities, number synchronicity such as 11:11 and beyond, through positive and negative people, books, movies, etc.), even within spaces where our ego self’s lower mind judges as “dark,” “bad,” or even “evil.”.
This attraction to both Light and dark also applies to music, and almost everything else in my life I noticed. I love various types of music, ranging from beautiful healing music or breathtaking classical music to heavy metal music such as Metallica’s Black album, or even the melody of the song “Beautiful People” from the infamous artist Marilyn Manson.
After I looked into the lyrics to understand the meaning of the song, I had a feeling that there was something more profound to this so-called “dark” artist that the majority of society seemed to be against, and I came upon the following quote from Marilyn Manson that spoke to me from Wikipedia:
“My fellow Americans:
We will no longer be oppressed by the fascism of Christianity! And we will no longer be oppressed by the fascism of beauty. As I see you all sittin’ out there trying your hardest not to be ugly, trying your hardest not to fit in, trying your hardest to earn your way into Heaven, but let me ask you: Do you want to be in a place that’s filled with a bunch of assholes?”
Marilyn Manson made a valid point, and I can sense that his words also contain much frustration and pain. Manipulation and control—what the majority of Christian religion, as well as other very corrupt and powerful members of society, has done throughout history, and continues to do in a subtle manner—stem from fear energy, and falsely teaches humanity […]
I noticed that the more I embrace all aspects of self, the more I’m able to unconditionally accept and unconditionally love all aspects of self.
And once again, until I fully accept/love all aspects of self unconditionally, how can I fully accept and love so-called “others” unconditionally—my soul brothers and sisters/ultimately extensions of my highest self within/Expanded SELF?
I had a few dreams in the past that made me wonder if I had a glimpse of my past lives/parallel realities. A couple of them initially seemed “disturbing”; however, I chose to discontinue judging myself.
I wrote about these dreams in other posts, to include the one where I was a facing a multi-colored, sparkling water being, and where I was a woman preparing human meat that my very old, Caucasian husband had brought home. I also had a dream about facing a greenish brown dragon in a large body of water.
Dream #2
In a recent dream, which I shared with my husband because of how bizarre it was, I was looking at what appeared similar to a sarcophagus, but bigger, brighter and shinier than the earthly ones.
At one point, I saw a human figure lying in the opened sarcophagus-like machine; and then, I watched the lid slowly close.
I started asking someone—whom I don’t recall seeing—a couple of questions. I spoke with a deep, male’s voice that I don’t recall ever hearing before.
I usually create a post from such bizarre dreams, but that particular day, I suppose I just wanted such an experience to just be a vague memory that I would acknowledge, but not fully own, even though it was through dream state.
I strongly sensed that once upon a time, in one of my past lifetimes, I had participated in something that would be considered “horrific” and “evil” to myself, humanity and beyond. There was still a part of me that felt ashamed of that aspect of Expanded SELF.
I don’t recall verbatim, but I asked some other being if the human (in the sarcophagus-like machine) was suffering, and if we would be able to tell if the human was suffering from any sounds that it made; I was concerned.
When the sarcophagus-like machine opened, steam was coming out of it, and I saw the whole human body (with its muscles intact) instantaneously fall part, like meat cooked for a long time falling off the bones. I recall feeling shocked at that very moment.
I assume most of humanity would be shocked if they ever discovered that alien beings cooked and ate humans in such a manner.
However, if we judged them for what they did (or even still do), what makes that of us who often kill animals on our own planet in an inhumane manner (whether directly or indirectly), so that we can enjoy eating their tender flesh that fell off their bones from having been cooked for so long?
We would be hypocrites, of course, if we judged others for doing the exact same thing.
In addition, most humans may not have compassion for life forms like crabs desperately trying to crawl out of a pot of boiling water; but who says that crabs can’t feel and don’t deserve to die peacefully?
Do we perceive them as a lower life form not deserving of compassion because they’re much smaller that humans, less intelligent, and simple in nature?
How would we feel if some highly knowledgeable (not intelligent/wise), yet completely insensitive E.T. or alien had no compassion to instantly end our suffering, threw us in a giant pot of boiling water, and just shut a lid on top of us without a second thought or ounce of guilt?
If we’re unable to show compassion for what we consider to be lower life forms of lesser intelligence, then it should be no surprise to us if we ever find ourselves in a situation where a more knowledgeable being has no compassion for humans, who they may consider as lesser life forms.
On the other hand, my interpretation of this dream could be off center or completely wrong due to my limited physical mind’s ability to fully comprehend such a seemingly foreign scenario.
What if the E.T.’s (to include myself) wasn’t intending to eat the humans at all, but was conducting some type of experiment to help the humans—like transporting them via the sarcophagus like machine, or using the machine as a healing device?
Perhaps the human body that I saw was too dense in its physical form; hence, it basically ended up overheating, which explains why I felt shocked.
Regardless of the scenario, I realize, more than ever before, that my daily intention statements are surely coming into fruition in Divine perfect timing and order.
Since one of my daily intentions statements include, “I am effortlessly intending to accept and love all aspects of self unconditionally so that I may accept and love others unconditionally,” I’m doing exactly that.
It’s too easy to unconditionally accept the familiar, likable, and loving aspects of ourselves and others; however, like Jesus once taught, the true challenge is to love our so-called enemies, which I trust includes the unknown.
Humans are often very fearful of the unknown—especially what happens after death—and have a tendency to give unknown things that we don’t understand negative labels.
For instance, highly evolved, wise, and unconditionally loving E.T.’s or celestial beings could visit planet Earth, and some of the governments of our world, especially the U.S. government, would no doubt immediately think the worst of the situation and label the angelic beings as “enemies.”
When I found out that more and more governments of various countries throughout our world are now disclosing once secretly kept information of the existence of E.T.’s and alien beings, not only outside of planet Earth, but living on and inside Earth as well, I was so relieved and grateful.
Often times, we believe that our enemies are ‘out there’ in our outer world; however, I’ve come to learn/remember that these outer enemies are merely reflecting all the enemies within (i.e., judgment, resentment, greed, jealousy, superiority, anger, aggressiveness, hatred, condemnation, and everything else that stems from fear energy)—our own lack of unconditional acceptance and love toward ourselves.
Posts within this blog that have helped me to remember more of this truth includes, “Outer Angels and Demons Reflecting All the Inner Ones.”
Update inserted on 8/8/18 (this paragraph only)
I was drawn to two, related videos this morning—“30 Ton Black Sarcophagus Discovered in Alexandria, Egypt – Ancient Egyptian Mummy” and “THIS is What You MUST Know about OPENED Sarcophagus Discovered from Ancient Egypt – Egyptian Mummies“—-that instantly reminded me of a vivid dream I had, summarized in recent post, “Dream of Shouting at Ibis, ‘God Thoth, Wake Up!’” which I initially shared in this post. Note: I also shared this insight as a comment for these videos, along with, “I don’t know for sure if these are related, but I have a strange feeling that they are in some way, shape, or form.”
Also checkout post related to the crabs (and like beings) mentioned above => “What Sentient Life Form Enjoys Being Burnt, Feeling Boiling Water, or Thrown into Ice Water?“
Gratitude for this Powerful Story
After reading, “Reconstructing Reality,” especially the section below that started with the mention of a cave, I was reminded of my post, “The Dark Being and Jesus Within Me.”
I wondered if my experiences within certain dreams—to include my encounter with Hitler and my experience of being a concerned E.T. for the human in the sarcophagus-like machine—was my Multidimensional Self visiting the dark or unknown/shadow aspects of itself in order to reconnect with what once had been repressed, suppressed, denied, rejected and/or forgotten aspects of Self, and to finally transmute them with Divine Love, Divine Wisdom, and Divine Power and/or simply integrate them.
The following non-consecutive sections (important points) are from the reading/link above, and the brilliant story itself helped me to better understand my soul journey, as well as visualize and remember how I can continue reconnecting with the dark and unknown/shadow aspects within Self, until transmutation and/or integration of the whole self is no longer needed:
“Darkness and light are only opposite extremes on a spectrum. Light represents unity and darkness represents separation. If you deny your darkness in order to know only your light, you allow one portion of yourself to become ‘unconscious’ to your total awareness.”
“I have definitely not denied my darkness. Now I wish to acknowledge my light.”
“Then you must take this light into the cave and unify it with your darkness […]”
“Yes, that is a wise decision,” spoke the voice. “However, it is a dangerous one. Once you have gone deep into your own darkness, you can easily forget your light. That is what happened in the life that you have just lived. You must first surround yourself with the light that awaits you at the entrance to the cave […]
“When you step down into the caves of your psyche, take with you […] “These crystals will protect you and help you hold your light during your journey. Also, use the Violet Fire in the manner that you used it to save your daughter. Remember that your only true enemy is the enemy within that you are not aware of. With your crystals and the Violet Fire, begin your journey NOW.”
Nubnoset stepped warily into the dark regions of the cave […]
Then, memories came to her mind, memories of lives other than the one she had just left. Lives in which she had done to others what her father had done to her. She had kept these lives as a secret from herself to avoid the shame and guilt that they held and she had created dungeons in her mind to hold them […]
Since entering the cave, she realized that she had been many people in many different lifetimes […]
“I am a higher vibration of you,” spoke Shature who was freed from the depths of Nubnoset’s unconsciousness by her Guide’s call and by Nubnoset’s awareness of her. “I have come into you from another dimension so that I may guide you. The voice you have heard is my Guide […]
“Feel me within you as we enter the dungeon. Allow my power, my wisdom, and my love to be yours. Feel me within you as I speak through you […]
The monster and its creator had been locked in mortal combat ever since. Nubnoset shone the Violet Light into the cell. She walked through the bars, knowing that they were just an illusion. The monster and the wizard turned and, for one brief moment, ceased their endless battle.
“Who are you?” they asked together.
“I am the sum total of all that I have been,” spoke Shature through the astral form of Nubnoset. “I have come here now to claim you as a portion of myself.”
“Why would we wish to join you?” they sneered.
“You have no choice. I am you and you are me. I now step into you and embrace you with my Light. I neither judge you nor fear you. When I was a child, I spoke as a child and acted as a child. Now I am of the ONE and I embrace the children of my Soul. “The Light of my total Self now fills this cell!”
With these words, the monster and the Wizard were transformed into pure creation and creator […]
Down and down the rows of cells walked Nubnoset with Shature radiating from within her until all the cells were absorbed and transmuted by the light. The dungeon was empty now and Nubnoset had to transform it as well.
“I must now clear this dungeon with my Light,” Shature and Nubnoset now spoke as one voice. “I must own this dungeon as my own by taking responsibility for its creation. As I stand in the center of this dungeon of my Soul-I NOW forgive myself. I was learning to be a creator and I created separation and limitation. I then abandoned my creations and sent them to this prison deep within myself. I NOW am beyond the time and space of separation and I NOW stand in the center of this dungeon and project my light into each crevice and corner to clear all the density of fear, greed, and selfishness.
“I shall return, again and again, to transmute the accumulation of my own secret darkness and absorb it into my Light.
“Blaze, Blaze, the Violet Fire
Transmuting ALL shadow into
LIGHT, LIGHT, LIGHT!”
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Dream #3:
Bizarre Dream of the Name Amun and Erect Penis
April 8, 2015 (Wednesday)
The dream was vivid yet elusive in the details. As I opened a door, and was about to walk through, I had an urge to look back, and when I did, I saw a tall, male being with dark brown or black hair, olive complexion, and strong features at a distance.
He was approaching me at a rapid pace, and I noticed that his pants were down, right below his private area; I recall thinking that it was odd that his penis was erect.
As the unknown, male being was near me, I let him through the opened door first because he seemed to be in such a hurry; and I recall feeling awkward about the unusual situation.
At one point, after realizing that he was in a military uniform and walking through a hallway, I think the old NCO (Army Non-commissioned Officer) mode in me kicked in because I approached him to confront him about his inappropriate behavior; I didn’t want other soldiers to see him that way.
I don’t think he liked whatever I said exactly due to his confused and disapproving facial expression. At one point, I noticed his name tag, and although I repeated the first word to myself multiples times (even within my dream) in order to remember it, it escaped me.
When I woke up, I could only recall the second name which I had no doubt that I saw, and the name was Amun. Perhaps the first name was something like oclave? Not sure.
After waking up, I sensed that the dream was about the Divine Masculine within me now having the power to create in my outer reality since I recalled—from a dream dictionary that I often use as a guidance tool—that dreaming of an erect penis has to do with sexual energy and power.
However, I had doubts, since it didn’t seem like I had such power the way my outer circumstances appeared (e.g., not able to be financially responsible in the eyes of society). I asked my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within me for an answer.
What I did know is that I would look up Amun in my book, The Egyptian Book of Living and Dead, to refresh my memory of this ancient Being.
I did, and was reminded that Amun had embodied the masculine creative principle, and contained both male and female within himself, and brought himself into being before anything else existed.
In addition, he was (or still is) considered the sole creator of the universe. Note: See pp. 15 plus other ones (refer to index of book).
So what does this have anything to do with me? I don’t know for sure, but perhaps its symbolic of the highest version of Expanded SELF within leading me to the unknown so that I can experience new opportunities that will highly benefit my individual and collective soul growth/evolution.
I also recall that the higher Beings of the spiritual realm, to include the Ascended Masters, have a great sense of humor.
This dream definitely seems like a scene from a comedy movie, like the scene where Will Ferrell is running around the streets butt-naked in the movie…the name escapes me.
Anyway, I silently communicated to the Ascended Masters and/or other higher beings of the spiritual realm, “Good one!” followed by a 😉
The following in blue is from the dream dictionary that I often use as a guidance tool:
To dream that you are entering through a door signifies new opportunities that are presented before you. You are entering into a new stage in your life and moving from one level of consciousness to another. In particular, a door that opens to the outside signifies your need to be more accessible to others, whereas a door that opens into the inside, denotes your desire for inner exploration and self-discovery.
To see an opened door in your dream symbolizes your receptiveness and willingness to accept new ideas/concepts. In particular, to see a light behind the door suggests that you are moving toward greater enlightenment/spirituality.
To see a penis in your dream signifies sexual energy, power, aggression, and fertility, especially if the penis is erect.
To see a hallway in your dream symbolizes self exploration. It is the beginning of the path that you are taking in life. You are going through a transitional phase and journeying into the unknown. It also signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life.
Upcoming Update Post for the above section added on 9/20/2022:
“Updates for Penis Dream of God Amun (aka God Amen) & Other Half: God Thoth”
Dream #4:
Dream of the Name Thoth and White Truck
Recently, I had dreams of the name “Thoth” on a white truck, and later, a dream of Amun. I have a feeling that it may be a sign for me to become fully aware that the Divine Masculine within me (merged with the Divine Feminine and Divine Spirit/All That Is) is now driving the vehicle which represents my body.
Perhaps the vehicle had to be a truck so that it would remind me of the male energies within, which I often found myself doubting that my ego self (wounded inner child/unhealed masculine energy/consciousness) had fully healed and transmuted.
However, after reading, “The Stairway” again, I was reminded that sometimes I am my fearful ego self, not because I’m not in alignment with Divinity within, but rather, I’m able to intentionally drop my vibratory frequency as my Multidimensional Self, in order to help an aspect of Self—my ego self— to raise its vibration, rise above challenging situations, and to remember who it truly is.
Whenever my ego self communicates with Divinity within, that Divinity includes many aspects and extensions of Self: Higher Self/integrated Soul/Multidimensional Self/Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Twin Flame within, or, aka God, Goddess and Divine Spirit/All That Is (Trinity within/Divine HUman)/angels, Archangels, Ascended Masters/Family of Light/Guardians of Light/animals spirit guides, elementals, etc.
I often use a dream dictionary as a guidance tool (an shown within this post); however, I always follow my inner guidance first and foremost. I initially didn’t fully resonate with the dictionary’s interpretation of truck, but now I realize that I may have overlooked some details:
To see a truck in your dream suggests that you are overworked. You are taking on too many tasks and are weighed down by all the responsibilities. Pregnant women often dream of trucks or driving trucks. This may be a metaphor of the load they are carrying or an expression of their changing bodies.
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.
I’m not pregnant, and don’t plan on being any time soon, so that part of the interpretation doesn’t apply.
Remembering Bits and Pieces of Training and Missions
If the other parts of the above interpretations are true, perhaps my body is in the process of changing to Lightbody, and/or perhaps I’m ‘overworked, taking on too many tasks, and weighed down by all the responsibilities’ during dream state as my Multidimensional Self where I often have multiple vivid dreams where I seem to be in multiple places doing various things as different beings (and not just human).
Many of my dream adventures are recorded in the post, “Dream Messages from My Multidimensional Self,” to include the ones with aliens and intriguing creatures not from Earth.
Sometimes, within these dreams, I’m going through what appears to be obstacle courses; and when I wake up, I feel very drained of all energy.
I also wondered if I was remembering parts of my soul training as a member of Family of Light since I also had several dreams of flying as well, with the first one that I recall happening in 2001, in the post, “Dreams of Jesus.”
Once, I had a dream that I was walking on a crowded street zooming into people’s eyes and scanning them. I’m pretty sure I wasn’t the me in this physical reality (4’9″), because I wasn’t looking up at people in the dream, but more at eye level. Perhaps I was searching for specific information/Light for whatever mission I was on.
Dream of Being Pleiadian Twin Flame and Human Skull
I had a dream that I was running in an orangish-peach environment (as shown on image on right) and catching up to some male being, who was also running.
What was odd is that as I was running, I stretched out my right arm in front of me and pulled myself forward, and then stretched out my left arm and did the exact same thing, alternating them as I ran.
It was as if I had a hard time running (which I noticed happens in dreams at times); hence, I knew what I needed to do in that situation. I don’t remember ever seeing anything like that before.
Note: Image on right above found next to link => www.diymid.com (thank you)
Once I caught up to this unknown being, we had a conversation that felt joyful, though I don’t recall what was said.
At one point, my consciousness shifted from the running scene to either a motel or hotel room, where the unknown male being and I passionately and playfully wrestled and kissed one another all over our bodies, but didn’t have sex.
I felt so intensely connected and comfortable with this unknown being, though I wasn’t able to make out his elusive face.
What was interesting to me is that at one moment, I was being this female being, and the next moment, I was The Observer of the scenario.
I’ve experienced this before in a few other dreams that I wrote about in this blog; however, this dream came with a twist.
As I was now watching myself, I noticed that I wasn’t human, but appeared to be a bald, beautiful and slender woman with scale-like patterns on my face and I think body too.
After the fun came to a rest, I watched, I suppose myself as a higher version of Self, sitting on the bed next to this male being, who appeared Caucasian from a distance.
I strongly sensed that this male being was/is a mirror of my Twin Flame (within) manifested in whatever reality that was (but not of this world), although I’m not currently aware of a Twin Flame manifested in this particular physical reality on Earth.
I have a strong feeling that we weren’t just in an unconditionally loving, romantic relationship, but we were also working together—as teacher and student to one another, and as a team that’s a Divinely perfect match/fit—both willing to best fulfill the Divine will within us according to the Divine Plan.
The male being, who was gentle, yet very confident in his demeanor, was holding a white, human skull in one of his hands (I think left) as his back was leaned against the head of the bed and wall; and when I asked what it was, he simply replied in a friendly tone, “It’s a decoder.” And that’s all I recall from that fascinating dream.
Since that dream, I researched the 13 crystal skulls out of curiosity, and sensed that I would one day cross paths with one, some or all of them in Divine perfect timing and order.
Some time after having this dream, I happened to come upon a very familiar image—while searching for an image for a post (not this story)—that instantaneously grabbed my attention.
The image was labeled as a Pleiadian female (on right), which surprised me, because I had thought that I was some reptilian female being in this dream due to the scale-like skin.
I don’t recall what color I was in this dream, but I don’t think it was blue, though I’ve seen myself as a blue female being before in another dream a while back, where I was being her, and then I was observing her.
Note: Image on right above found next to link => www.starseeds.net (thank you)
Now, I’m still not sure where my soul comes from since I not only highly resonate with the Pleiadians, but with the Arcturians, Sirians (cetaceans, cats and dogs) and Anunnaki-Sirians as well; however, I trust that I’ll remember in Divine perfect timing and order.
I used to compare myself with many other starseeds, who confidently claim to know where they originate from, know their specific daily assignments, who they communicate with and channel, etc., and I felt like an outsider…way behind in my own soul growth and contributions since I’m currently not able to do any of the above.
Therefore, I didn’t join and participate in any of the lightworkers or starseed websites that I couldn’t relate to (e.g., a lot of teeny-boppin talk going on within forums) or resonate with, which was similar to how I felt with regular social media like Facebook (with a lot of earthly dramas and facades).
I then noticed that not only did I not fit into the world of regular society, but I also felt that I didn’t fit in with the lightworkers and starseeds network as well.
I wondered if my alienation to practically everyone and their mamas and grandmamas was due to my own lack of unconditional acceptance and love for self, which then applied to so-called others as well.
But as I reminded myself to be my own best friend for now, I realized that I was meant to experience alienation so that I could focus on much inner work during solitude.
I’ve also learned/remembered to let go of the need to compare myself with others since we are all unique (though ultimately One) in our contributions to the Divine Plan.
Update
Inserted 9/4/2018 from post, “Finally Embracing the ‘Systems Buster’ Aspect of Self Reminded by the Pleiadians”
Note: Image on left above appears very similar to what I looked like in the above dream; hence, I was excited when I came upon this image later; image found next to link => Mysterious Earth (when I uploaded the same image a while back in a different post—don’t recall title—it was saved as “Pleiadian female.” But this one is saved as “Sirians”; so, whatever, I suppose it’ll come to me when I need to know this information. UPDATE (9/4): While adding a few updates today, I noticed the paragraph on the right side of this female being’s top head—starting with “In another dream.” It instantly reminded me of a pyramid, which then reminded me of Sirians who built the pyramids (like Thoth, who was also Atlantean; related stories shared in next post). So perhaps the image above is indeed a Sirian female (rather than a Pleiadian), and the dream I had was a Sirian female extension of Multidimensional self (earthly and otherworldly physical selves)/Self (Soul/Spirit within).
Update post: “Where is This Rare, True Love? Here is the Most Profound Life Lesson & Wisdom“
We Are Much More Than We Realize
After reading the daily message from Trinity Esoterics (Divine guidance that I highly resonate with), I was reminded that although I do inner work on a daily basis in various forms (to include my blog, dream work, visualizations, and overall expanding consciousness), and strive to Be a higher vibration version of Self (who we truly are) whenever I interact with others and/or go out in public, I sometimes find myself feeling as though I haven’t accomplished much.
I realize that this stems from reminders from this physical world that I’m not enough, to include still not being able to manifest enough money to take care of my so-called financial issues doing what I enjoy doing (just freely Being and going with the flow of life), which then led to having to deal with court issues as well.
However, I trust that the above message will help me to Be centered and grounded again, and not lost and worried that whatever I do isn’t enough, and whatever state I’m in isn’t enough.
I AM enough in every present Moment of Now, and whatever situation I’m in, I co-created as my Multidimensional Self for the highest benefit of all aspects of Self. The following section is a helpful reminder from the Pleiadians in the reading, “A Conversation With The Pleiadians“:
Usually when you are angry, you are angry because you feel that you had nothing to do with what occurred. Think back on this. There is no point in feeling angry with yourself. If you make the agreement with yourself that your self will always create one opportunity after another for a good adventure and a good time, if you live your life that way then you must trust that everything that you create is along that plan. It is being consistent with what you know […]
The assignment continues, our task continues. Your task is vastly accelerated. Your work, all of yours, will go more inside of yourselves [<= This sentence reminded me to always remember to value my inner work]. The days of ongoing outside gatherings are at an end. The energy, everything that you seek, comes from spending time with yourselves. Those of you who are making the greatest leaps and the greatest accelerations are making the deepest commitment [<= I have a feeling that this sentence about ‘deepest commitment’ may no longer apply to me since I haven’t been what would usually be considered ‘the best of me’ lately, like not always eating healthy food, no longer exercising, no longer doing breathing exercises, no longer chanting mantras, no longer spinning, etc.; or, perhaps I’m judging myself rather than embracing what IS; perhaps I’ll bounce back in due time] to have your bodies altered, to consciously change your speech patterns, your thinking patterns, and to begin to go within, into quiet time, and to begin to hear what is being broadcast to you. You are all receiving the data. The problem is that you will not consistently accredit yourself with what you know [<= This sentence and the previous sentence reminded me of what I sensed about Thoth and Hathor]. It is this that we constantly push you towards. “
Prior to those two dreams of the names Thoth and Amun, I had a dream about a very vivid hawk or similar looking bird (which I learned/remembered symbolizes Hathor—see post, “Finding a Pot of Gold After the Dark Storm“).
They’re all related to ancient Egyptian Gods, which I sense may also be some kind of reminder of my soul’s connection to them in past lifetimes/parallel realities, rather than the mere symbolic meaning behind them.
Dream #5:
Dream of Anunnaki and 144
The following recent dream was recorded in my journal dated April 28, 2015; however, I left out the full interpretation because it contains ego-identity related personal information (e.g. birth date) that can be used against me in this physical reality:
These group of women were setting up something in rooms, which appeared to do with makeup, and the sales of it. I recall staring at a picture of a woman with straight, black, matte hair who seemed to have flawless skin. I wasn’t able to see her face close up though. She appeared Caucasian.
At one point, I noticed that they were giving out free samples of eyeshadows, which was a small kit that included various shades of blue eye shadow, and a tiny bit of white.
I asked a Caucasian looking older lady if I could have a sample if they still had them available, and she replied, “The Anunnaki don’t wear those colors.”
I recall feeling as though I should know who they were, but still asked her, “Who are the Anunnaki?” She replied, “Us,” as though she was referring to me as well.
In another dream, or related dream, I was handing out cotton pads soaked with some type of cleanser, to a group of people, and then helped some young male being wipe his face because he wasn’t doing it thoroughly.
When I woke up, I had several thoughts. I wondered, if they truly were the Anunnaki in my dream, perhaps they appeared as human (especially a woman) so that I wouldn’t be frightened.
Perhaps the message that the Anunnaki don’t wear various shades of blue (which reminds me of the Pleiadians) was to help release my doubts of where I come from, and the belief that my soul may be Pleiadian since I most highly resonate with them, if I had to choose a particular group within the members of the Family of Light.
It’s confusing because I read that the 7 aspects of Hathor is the Pleiades, whom I most highly resonate with as well.
I’m going to do myself a favor an un-confuse myself right now. The bottom line is…it doesn’t really matter that I know where my soul comes from anymore.
If I’m meant to find out, I will in due time, If not, I’ll just keep in mind that what matters most is what kind of soul I choose to Be during my existence here and afterwards.
Perhaps me wiping off a male being’s face was symbolic of wiping off the mask of my ego self/personality self/who I think I am, as opposed to who I truly am.
UPDATE (in this light green section only) inserted 8/10/19: The following is an excerpt from yesterday post (that I updated today), “An Increase of Uplifting, Empowering, and Inspiring Abundance Showing Up in Outer World” (<= click on link for further insights):
I don’t recall if I had updated this blog with further thoughts—I just remember recording the details of this bizarre dream that I was able to recall—but there were some unanswered questions from my recollection.
Some example questions that were either asked or not:
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- Who are the Anunnaki?
- Are you implying that I’m one of them or you all?
- So if they don’t wear these colors, then what colors do they resonate with or prefer?
- Did I dream of a group of female beings setting up make-up stations because the Divine Feminine essence within me is communicating to me to let go of the need to only think of myself as highly resonating with the color blue—that reminds me of the Pleiadians and/or Blue Ray Beings that many humans respect and admire—but not with the Anunnaki who are often portrayed as the not so loving E.T.’s; hence, my need to conceal these aspects of who I also am?
I also highly resonate with Thoth, the ancient Egyptians, and Atlantis who are supposedly Sirian, and yesterday I found out about Anunnaki-Sirian in the reading (which answered many questions that I wondered about and was also confused about) => THE SERPENT OF LIFE & WISDOM (http://www.vibrani.com/serpent.htm) which I trust I came upon in Divine perfect timing and order). In addition, I’ve recently had a strong urge to buy the book, The 12th Planet, which is about the Anunnaki.
On April 1, 2015, I came upon a set of numbers that were spot on with my personal life, and I then came upon a reminder that April 1st was “The Day of Hathor” which made me pause in silence for a while.
I was also reminded of what I also read (in the link above) about Enki and Thoth sometimes represented as dragons (flying serpents), which then reminded my of dream of a dragon staring at me, which I wrote about in post, “The Meaning of Dragon in My Life.”
Recently, I went on a trip with my husband to take care of some personal business. I ended up staying in a hotel room #144.
It didn’t occur to me when the lady handed me the key, but shortly after my husband and I arrived in the room, I silently thought about the room number, which reminded me of the 144,000.
I had a strong feeling that the number itself was some form of trigger/reminder since it’s a very significant number within various groups of beliefs, though I trust that the Christian religion may have misinterpreted the full meaning of 144,000, as shared in post, “Dream of Monad.”
That night, while laying in bed with my eyes closed, but not really in a mood to meditate, I saw rapidly moving blue light within darkness, or dark shadows moving within blue light, however way I choose to perceive them.
When I do intentionally meditate at home. I see blue lights within darkness (or dark shadows within the blue lights) move at either a slow or medium pace, but never fast.
I had a feeling that the room itself was definitely no coincidence—since I don’t believe in coincidences anymore, but rather, Divine synchronicities—and that I was meant to experience the strange energies there. Plus, I’ve been experiencing more intense inner body vibrations lately.
And sure enough, last night or sometime this morning, I had a dream that I was going through a phone number list (recording of old phone numbers), and I wanted the one that included 144 in it, which happened to be my old phone number (only in dream) in Hawaii.
This section of paragraphs in red inserted on June 11, 2015, after remembering a reading that I had come upon a while back, but forgot about => The following is the intro section from a reading that I had briefly checked out (due to its complexity) a while back titled, “Esoteric numbers and Esoteric Cycles” from the Humanity Healing website, and gives a better understanding of 144, 111, 222, 333, 444, among others sacred number codes that I often see:
In my work with English gematria [a Kabbalistic method of interpreting the Hebrew scriptures by computing the numerical value of words, based on those of their constituent letters] I unveiled the following:
NINE IS THE KEY = 144 = THE SECRET KEY (1+4+4=9)
THE VIBRATIONAL FREQUENCY OF NINE = 333 (3+3+3=9)
The number 144 is itself a significant sacred number and fits right in with part of the title of Burgoyne’s book “The Light of Egypt…” In esoteric tradition, the number 144 is associated with the concept of Light. Further, it is said that the Great Pyramid in Egypt was originally covered with 144,000 sheets of highly polished limestone. These glossy sheets of limestone reflected the light of the sun with such a brilliance that the Pyramid shined like a beacon that could be seen for many miles across the great desert.
By the way, I use the simple serial code of A=1 through Z=26 to activate this gematria system.
However, I think I saw a former, female Army coworker (at my unit in Hawaii) say to me that I couldn’t have that number, without making eye contact.
I wondered what this dream meant. That perhaps, I can’t have that sacred number code activated within me because I’m not ready to or I’m not meant to receive it?
I thought about what the female coworker avoiding eye contact reminded me of (besides her good qualities); afterall, she made the strongest eye contact of all the females I had ever known in this physical reality.
The thought, “jealousy” popped into my mind, and I then recalled that I sometimes felt that she was jealous of me with her indirect comments and ways of being, though she wasn’t outwardly catty like some other females.
So I wondered, was that the shadow aspect of the Divine Feminine within me? I read a while back, that when we don’t fully honor our Divine Feminine within us, the shadow aspects can show up in our realities—whether in physical reality or dream state—to get our attention for healing and transmutation.
The following dream interpretations in blue are from http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/e2.htm, and my personal interpretations are in orange:
To dream that you are applying makeup suggests that you are trying to cover up or conceal an aspect of yourself. Alternatively, it indicates that you are putting on your best face forward. You are trying to enhance your self-image and increase your sense of self-confidence. The dream may also be a metaphor that you need to “make up” with someone. It is time to forgive and forget. (Since I wasn’t ‘applying makeup,’ am I supposed to forgive the Anunnaki for whatever happened in past lives? Thank you Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Twin Flame, for clarity.) I AM intending to forgive the Anunnaki and myself at the deepest level of my Being.
To dream that you are putting on eye shadow suggests that you are trying to create an air of mystery ( http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/e2.htm). In addition, since I wasn’t actually ‘putting on eye shadow,’ but wanting to receive it, perhaps I was going to continue creating an air of mystery, but the Anunnaki were assisting me not to. Perhaps I was ‘creating an air of mystery’ as though I’m not sure of where I come from although I intuitively know that I have a very high resonance with Hathor, Thoth the ancient Egyptians, Atlantis and Lemuria.
I know why I doubt. My ego self doesn’t want to believe that I may possibly be 1) related to the infamous Anunnaki whom I don’t fully remember, and 2) a delusional narcissist for even thinking that I’m somehow related to these cosmic beings of royalty.
In addition, my husband and I recently saw a French movie (with English subtitles), He Loves…He Loves Me Not, for the first time, and it was about a woman obsessed with being in love with a married man who didn’t even know her, let alone have an interest in her. However, in her mind, they were madly in love.
I learned a new word from that movie, and the following is from Wikipedia:
Erotomania is a type of delusion in which the affected person believes that another person, usually a stranger, high-status or famous person, is in love with them. The illness often occurs during psychosis, especially in patients with schizophrenia, delusional disorder or bipolar mania.
Since I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder (not Type I, the most severe), and have come to the conclusion that my state at the time was merely a dis-order (unbalanced male and female energies within) that was preparing itself to become order (order after chaos) through a spiritual healing process, I no longer concern myself with societal ‘s countless, earthly negative labels.
However, I was reminded that our outer world mirrors our inner world (which I get reminded more often lately)—that we co-create our reality with our thoughts and feelings, and that our higher self/soul/Spirit brings to us opportunities for soul growth in every present Moment of Now.
I wondered if I had come upon this movie because I was somehow like the main, female character with my secret, seemingly delusional belief that I had and continue to have an intimate soul relationship (i.e. Twin Flame reunion getting ready to manifest in physical reality) with some ancient supreme being like Thoth and/or Enki (as mentioned without specific names like Sumerian in the Pleiadian book, Bringers of the Dawn: Teachings from the Pleiadians) as possibly reincarnated Hathor—due to at least 33 seemingly supporting personal facts, and due to dreams of a male being with the same voice that I hear whenever I read the book, The Emerald Tablets of Thoth – The Atlantean, as well as the dreams of Thoth recorded in post, “Choosing Balance and Harmony Over Duality” as well as other posts.
The following is from http://in5d.com/pentagon-secret-the-anunnaki-are-returning/#:
“Enki (as in comet Encke) was a Sumerian God who was later referred to as Ea (as in why our planet is called EArth). Enki was the deity of crafts, mischief, water, seawater, lake water, intelligence and creatio […] In the Sumerian tale, Enki disobeyed his father, Anu, and loved the human creations. Enki and Anu have been at war ever since this betrayal. Anu was one of the “creator gods” who manipulated our DNA to make us slave workers who would mine the gold on this planet for the Anunnaki. This is most likely the reason why the Roman Catholic Church is in possession of so much gold. According to one source, it is estimated that the RCC owns 60,350 metric tonnes of gold.”
The following is from the reading => Anunnaki Ties to Comets ISON and Encke
“With two well known celestial objects on the horizon, one must question why the comets ISON and Encke were given those particular names.
The word “on” is associated with the word An (pronounced “on”), as in Anunnaki, and one of their leaders, Anu (ON-nu). The prefix for ISON would be IS, as in Isis who is the same character in folklore as Inanna and the Sumerian Goddess, Ishtar. So, if you seperate the word ISON to become IS + ON, you get Ishtar, of the Anunnaki.” http://in5d.com/pentagon-secret-the-anunnaki-are-returning/#
I was reminded that => Sumerian Nin-Khursag/Hathor: Mother of Innana/Venus//Ishtar/Mary Magdalene
I realize that the dream experiences of Amun, Thoth, hawk (Hathor), dragon, rattlesnakes, crocodile (or alligator), white serpent, etc. are more than likely parallel realities that my Multidimensional Self is experiencing, where everything—the past, present and future—is happening in every Moment of Now.
This explains why at least two images of Hathor that I’ve seen so far…instantaneously, eerily and shockingly looked familiar to me (like similar to one of the versions of me in the past). Perhaps Spirit is reminding me to look to the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine within me—my Twin Flame within—by using the images of Thoth and Hathor as role models.
I realized that I highly resonated with Thoth and Hathor energies when one magical day, an influx of personal information throughout my life/pieces of puzzles effortlessly came together, along with number synchronicities such as seeing 3:33 (right after reading that Hathor was Thoth’s wife a long long time ago). Since that miraculous day, additional insights were added to this mysterious occurance.
This seemingly crazy-ass happening—which I recorded all the details in my journals and saved references under bookmarks— tells me that I’m gradually remembering who I truly am.
However, I’m still a little confused as to what’s really going on. Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Twin Flame, I ask you to assist me to Be discernment, clarity, inner-truth, inner-knowing, inner-wisdom, and inner-guidance, and I thank you ahead of time.
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I googled “Anunnaki and 144” out of curiosity and my yearning to know the truth, and I was drawn to the book, Blood Prints of the Gods: The Human Bloodline of the Anunnaki, and noticed that the bottom of page 144 reads, “Human Bloodline of Anunnaki.”
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After deciding to be done with the whole Anunnaki and 144 subject for the day, saw 5:44, and an interpretation below is from ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes.
Angel Number 544 is a message from the angels to view yourself in a higher light – as your true Self. Put your efforts towards the things in your life that embrace and enhance who you truly are, your lifestyle choices and your life in general. Be prepared to make necessary changes that will bring auspicious opportunities to advance you along your path, and trust that these changes will bring ‘better’ into your life in all aspects. The angels are assisting with boosting your self-esteem and self-belief at this time.
Angel Number 544 asks that you acknowledge the determination, discipline and hard work you have put towards your endeavours, and know that they will have long-term benefits. You have worked steadily and consistently towards your goals and aspirations and the angels encourage you to keep up the great work you have been doing. Stay grounded and focused, safe in the knowledge that your angels surround and support you along your life path.
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The following is from my journal dated March 19, 2015 (Thursday):
While reading, “The Return of the Anunnaki (A Review),” I noticed 4:44 and was immediately reminded of the main message of the repeating sacred number code, “All is well” from the website ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes.
I thanked my Family of Light/angelic realm and then noticed the next song playing (that just started the same time as I saw 4:44) was called “Angel” by R. Armando Morabito on the playlist “2-Hours Epic Music Mix | Most Beautiful & Powerful Music – Emotional Mix Vol. 2.”
While continuing to read, I noticed 4:55, which not only reminds me to find my own niche (from the website ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes), but that it may also have something to do with Galaxy 4555—which may be why I often see 4:55 and 5:55 often.
Of course, 4:555 can’t be shown on a digital clock, so this may be the best way to communicate this sacred number code, perhaps a continual reminder to my awakening cells and DNA. We shall see.
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Added May 15, 2015
A very helpful reading that I trust will assist us to release old and outdated beliefs that block us from tuning into our Divine birthright of abundance, prosperity, wealth and Divine power—all of which are tools meant to be used wisely and with Unconditional Love/Unity Consciousness to better serve Divine Spirit/All That Is, Mother Earth/Gaia, humanity and beyond => Becoming a Prosperous Teacher, Part I
The following is a section of the reading above that reminded me how polarity can teach us great wisdom (e.g. the experience of feeling hatred toward another/self—which stems from fear energy—can lead us to the experience of deep understanding, empathy, compassion, unconditional forgiveness, unconditional acceptance, and/or embrace, which can then lead to the experience of profound unconditional love/unity consciousness):
“My feeling about this one is: money and fame give people power and the more they become powerful the less they can be manipulated. The systems of earth are designed to keep us powerless. In order to do so they need to indoctrinate us in beliefs that support their agenda. Of course we agreed to this before we incarnated so that we would have to work our way out of a state of powerlessness in order to understand our power. I don’t believe we can truly understand power until we have experienced powerlessness. In addition, we cannot lead people out of a state of powerlessness unless we have had the personal experience of finding our own way out. So, I do not feel any of us are victims here. We just need to see these beliefs and those who perpetrate them from the highest perspective, thank them for the lessons and move on […]”
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Added June 24, 2015
Bashar on Simplicity, Abundance and The Natural Self : I love this very helpful, empowering, and inspirational message from Bashar (channeled through Darryl Anka), as well as the video, The Absolute BEST 1-hour BASHAR (Anka) Interview, that provides a clear understanding of channeling itself (something that probably everyone does at some point, even as our own Spirit within expressing through us).
The following are some intention statements that I co-created with my Beloved I AM Presence/Christ within/Twin Flame within, after watching the above Bashar videos:
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