Note: I briefly talked about The Mirror Workshop (a Teal Swan Event in NYC) in a recent post, “The Lesson of the So-Called Bad Personality” under the two subtitles, “An Unexpected Experience at the Bill Foss Akashic Records Event: Justifications vs Sincere Apology” and “Poverty Consciousness to Prosperity Consciousness.” Image on right found next to link => services.runescape.com (thank you)

UPDATE (inserted at top)

The following is a reply I shared for a comment left by one of the viewers (Allyson Sixx Costello) of the video, “Teal Swan’s – Mirror Event” (Note: This reply comment doesn’t show up when I’m not looking at it via my Google account; I think Teal’s team might have ensured that it doesn’t appear to others. I’m pretty sure it’s not the content that YouTube has a problem with, since I’ve read plenty of harsh comments to Teal before, and they’re visible for everyone to see) :

Damn. If I knew just a little sooner that Teal was coming to NY on April 20-22, I might’ve been able to arrange going. I’m literally less than an hour away from Central Park. Sh*t S*it Shi*!!! 😤

Allyson Sixx Costello: You’re probably over this by now, but just in case you’re still wishing you had gone (or if there’s anyone else who feels the same way), I will share some of my own personal experiences from having attended this event during April of 2018 at NYC.

Though there were some positive moments, there were also some unhealthy moments where Teal upset some people by the following things she said and did, and even didn’t do:

– Teal said that females who aren’t in the category of hot or butt@$$ ugly—basically, somewhere inbetween, which many females probably are—are very dangerous; hence, Teal doesn’t trust them. This is a very dangerous and not necessarily accurate message to teach since it creates separation among people rather than unity.
– Teal said that if you spend time alone, and don’t hurry up and form relationships—with the strangers at the event or just about anyone—you could end up spending the rest of your life alone. One of the event members had just left two, abusive relationships prior to this event—an emotionally unavailable boyfriend and a very manipulative and controlling mother—so hearing Teal say this really upset her, and she didn’t show up for Day 3 of the event.
– Teal demanded in a serious tone (and facial expression), “Don’t listen to any other spiritual teachers,” which contradicts what she shared in at least one of her videos
– When Teal approached one of our groups, she walked up to a couple, stared at the woman (wife) with a serious facial expression, and then turned to the woman’s husband and gently held his hand for a couple of minutes while looking into his eyes in a soft manner; this was an awkward experience
– one of Teal’s team members (the Latino female) claimed that everyone in our group had certain thoughts and beliefs that were the exact same, and that we didn’t care about our inner child, which wasn’t true; and I called her out because I refused to allow her force her own beliefs onto me, especially since I’ve been doing inner-child work for years prior to the event, and the event itself was meant to be a free-spirited, fun trip
– On the second day of this event, everyone at the event (except Teal Swan) went on a two-hour walk at Central Park, followed by a three-hour lunch break
(so 5 hours on Day 2 of the vent WITHOUT Teal Swan is a lot, considering she’s the person everyone paid a lot of money to go see)

So is this 3 day Mirror Event worth between $600+ – $900+? In my opinion, absolutely NOT. Perhaps 1/4 of that price (for the beneficial moments) considering one also has to pay for a round trip plane ticket, hotel fees, transportation, drinks and meals if traveling from out of state (or even out of country).

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The following are subtitles to this post (which I’ll continue to work on when I feel inspired to):

Poor Choice to Rich Choice
- A $200 Difference Between Hotels
- Back to Back Issues
- Letting Go of Resistance/Going with the Flow
- Bonding with Interconnected Souls
- Seeing the Surrounding Abundance
The Divine Dichotomy of a Very Bad/Great Day
- Three Wrong Bus Rides
- Three Kind and Helpful Strangers

The Calm, Cool and Collected/Anxious and Agitated Rapid Notetaker
The Free-spirited, Hysterical, Bawling Female Who Couldn’t Take it Anymore
The Amazing Gift from Painful Eyes/Peaceful Eyes
The Inconsiderate Energy that Caused a Deeper Appreciation for the Considerate Energy
Very Competitive Meets Very Competitive
Deeply Heartfelt, New Friendships
Moments of The Twilight Zone in NYC
- Short, Female Version of Husband’s Oldest Son at Workshop
- Hilarious, Female Version of Christopher Walken at Workshop
- Great Vibes, Male Version of Alicia Keys at Hotel
- Sassy, Gay Version of Kat Williams at Starbucks
Transmutation, Transformation, and Integration of Rude Energy
- A Story of Two NYC Cab Drivers
- A Story of Two NYC Shuttle Drivers
- A Story of Staff from Two Restaurants
Seeing Aspects of Self in All Who Shared Their Stories
Red Flags that Triggered Dark AND Ignited Light in Me
- WTF Teal?! (UPDATE inserted 10/27/2018: Post, “Embracing and Integrating the Benefits of Both Solitude and Interactions with Others“)
- Effortless, Bold, Life-Changing Decision
- Unexpected Reflections
- The Sudden Flow
The Teal-less, Two Hour Park Walk + Three Hour Lunch Break
An Exercise that Brought Out The Fireworks of Emotions
- An Initial Receiving of Very Angry Energy
- The Justifier Who Judged Justification
- A Teal Staff Member Who Raised My Blood Pressure with BULLshit
- The Volcano/Tsunami Effect
- Release & Peace
Certain Teal Teachings and Expressions that were Untypical and Disadvantageous
A Closer Look at ‘Spiritual Catalyst’ Teal Swan (Literally and Figuratively)
- Update inserted 9/29/2018. The following is a comment I shared for the video, “What Kind Of Supportive Are You? – Teal Swan“:
  - Woman, you threw me off for a sec with this video’s intimidating, thumbnail image! 😀 That pic looks like you’re a member of one of the three letter agencies in the middle of an intense interrogation session, and you just got done sensing some BULL$hi+, and you’re about to call that person out.Just FYI Teal: When I saw you in person (real close) for the first time at one of your events, I couldn’t believe my eyes. I even had to remind myself not to stare too intently ’cause that could come off as a creepy weirdo.When I returned home, I shared with my husband that your seemingly flawless, somewhat shimmering complexion appeared otherworldly. I continued that you’re very gorgeous in pics and videos, but in real life, you look like you would be a perfect fit for one of the beautiful, courageous, and bold fairy roles in the movie series Hobbit, and I think Lord of the Rings as well.I embrace all aspects of you within the contrast/duality/polarity of the so-called good and bad, right and wrong, light and dark, etc., but I must share that whenever you get all goofy, silly, straight forward (with a crazy@$$ look), smiley, giggly, and/or laughing your @$$ off, it’s like a BIG BURST of sunshine! ^_^ Remember that! 😉Thank you Teal and team for another mind and heart opening/consciousness expanding video. Your precious existence and loving contribution to your Multidimensional self (earthly and otherworldly physical selves)/Self (Source: Soul/Spirit within), interconnected humanity, Mother Earth, merging worlds, and beyond, is deeply appreciated, and will always be treasured.
An Interesting Incident with the Intense Guy Obsessed with Teal Swan
Strengthening the Foundation of Healthy Boundaries
Deep Understanding, Compassion, Unconditional Love, and Gratitude for Teal
- Raw Authenticity
  - Update inserted 9/9/2018: The following is a comment I shared for this video, “How To Be Authentic – Teal Swan –“:
    - I’m very grateful that I had the golden opportunity to witness you Be authentic at your Mirror event in NYC—freely, fully, and unapologetically expressing much of your whole, rainbow spectrum of Multidimensional self (physical self)/Self (Source: Soul/Spirit within). Though there were a few moments where I found myself judging you, I later realized that it was too easy for you to only Be what general society considers right and good. Thank you Teal for all that you amazingly are, and all that you generously share with humanity and beyond.
- Dealing with Some Pain-in-the-Ass Students
- The Unsupportive Mother Who Doesn’t Show Up
- Empowerment vs Disempowerment
- The Later News of Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome
  - If I recall correctly, I came upon a reading (that was helpful) within this blog, Raven Stars Healing Room, while having sciatica issues and was curious about a metaphysical interpretation. I shared a story within my blog, though I don’t recall the title. Perhaps this post, “METAPHYSICS OF THE FASCIA/CONNECTIVE TISSUE ~ RESISTANCE“can be helpful to those with the above syndrome.
- Generous Gifts Shared with Humanity and Beyond
Plane Ride Soul Connections
- The Elderly Lady from Sedona with Allergies
- The Geologist Who Overcame His Fear of Flight
- The Helpful New Yorker on Her Way Home
- The Slow Speaking, Highly Intelligent, Teenager

The Free-spirited, Hysterical, Bawling Female Who Couldn’t Take it Anymore

We did various, unique exercises at this event which were highly stimulating, deeply heartfelt, triggering (in a beneficial way), upsetting (due to fear being instilled), and/or fun.

But there were at least two exercises that didn’t quite feel light; and sure enough, several other females shared their own perspective of these red flags as well.

After this particular exercise (and during lunch time), one of the females I befriended shared that she just sat down at one point because the exercise didn’t feel good. Reminder: Feelings are the language of the soul

I didn’t even think to do such an empowering action, but I highly respected and admired Roxanne for trusting and following her inner guidance.

Teal had all of us slowly walking around inside the church, imagining that we were all judging one another as we passed each other by, the way we usually do she said (which was the first red flag, because that statement wasn’t accurate for everyone).

There were so many serious expressions passing by, and understandably so; but I couldn’t help but smiling every now and then because 1) forcing a stern expression while looking at strangers pass by wasn’t natural for me, and 2) I felt like I was being pressured to do something that I had no desire to do.

After several minutes or so, one young female just busted out crying hysterically. I initially didn’t know what to do because a part of me didn’t want to interfere with Teal’s exercise, but another part of me just wanted to do what comes naturally.

For about a couple of minutes, no one approached this female who seemed like she was in a lot of pain. So I gently approached her and hugged her as we sat down in one of the chairs—something I would even do for a stranger while out and about.

At one point, Teal shouted for everyone to stop or freeze. She then asked in a very serious tone something to the effect, “Do you know who’s the healthiest person in this room?” She then answered that it was the female who was crying because she was being authentic.

After the event, and throughout that day, that same female—who seemed free-spirited at times—busted out crying even more hysterically, which then made me wonder if she was going overboard to gain attention.

Teal’s statements initially made me feel as though something was unauthentic and unhealthy with me for reaching out to that female; but I now realize that I simply chose to be authentic at that time, and it doesn’t matter that Teal or anybody else wasn’t able to see it, and even recognize it.

I recently expressed my deepest gratitude and farewell to Teal Swan, shared in post, “Embracing and Integrating Aspect of Shadow Self Who’s Afraid to Be Alone.”

I’m deeply grateful that Teal has shared a lot of profound teachings in the past, but I’ve noticed a pattern lately that she’s becoming very arrogant and one-sided over subjects that will be beneficial to be perceived as a whole; and I strongly sense that a few of her biased, narrow-minded perspectives are due to the projection of her own deepest fears.

The Strange and Intriguing Vibes of Teal Swan’s The Mirror Event/Workshop

Teal Swan’s The Mirror workshop was the first major spiritual event I’ve ever experienced besides the tiny room event shared in post, “The Lesson of the So-Called Bad Personality” under subtitle, “An Unexpected Experience at the Bill Foss Akashic Records Event” and Barbara Marciniak’s small event, that were both held in Sedona.

I’ve come across several readings in the past about Teal Swan and her team being a cult, but I just brushed it off at the time because I thought they were just judging what they feared (the unknown).

However, the feelings I experienced those three days, at this event, made me realize that perhaps those who came to this conclusion weren’t completely full of $h!+.

The best way I can describe the ambience of this place, as well as Teal and her team, was that it reminded me of the opposite of Light and Love at times.

Teal’s volunteers, certain hard-core followers (one who was very obsessive), and her team members—besides Blake and the Latino female who seems to be the motherly figure to Teal, telling her to count down when Teal was panicking backstage—had a vibrational frequency that seemed very passive and desperate, like sheep anxious about a nearby threat.

And Teal’s vibrational frequency at times seemed like an aggressive wolf who treated her team members as inferior to her—the dominant tone she used when she talked to them—though she managed to conceal it well by occasionally shouting out to her team in a cheerful way (I think it was, “Go power rangers!”).

I’ve even seen her treat her team members this way in a few of her YouTube videos, but gave her a benefit of a doubt that she purposely did so with loving intentions.

Granted, I did share comments for these videos to let her know how jacked up she was being towards them just in case she wasn’t aware of it.

Teal mentioned in one of her videos that people are often disappointed in her because they’re expecting a mother-like nourishing type of vibes from Teal, but she stated that it’s not her.

I wondered if that has anything to do with her not embracing and integrating this aspect of self because it still feels foreign to her (i.e., her mentioning at this event that her own mother doesn’t even come to her events, which probably revealed her lack of support for Teal).

I have no doubt that Teal is very capable of expressing this loving, compassionate, and warm aspect of her to her followers and team members.

Surprisingly, Teal did seem really cold and unapproachable half of the time throughout the three-day event. I even wondered at one point if Teal’s body had been hijacked by another entity that wasn’t so loving.

Afterall, Teal had said some crazy@$$ BULL$h!+ that was obvious she was trying to instill fear in others, which seemed so unlike her.

While at Barbara Marciniak’s first and last event (at least for me)—though I still respect and admire her for a few of her books from back in the 90’s–Barbara talked about negative entities taking over another’s body (a topic I don’t like to focus on too much); and I instantly had a flashback of the moment that I wondered if that had happened to Teal since she looked the same as her videos (but better), but strangely didn’t feel like the same being.

I also wondered why she chose a church for the location of this event when she has clearly spoke against the church and other religions that are mostly fear-based.

I wanted to think positive, so I chose to trust that she was intending for her or us to ground higher energies into that place; but I don’t know for sure.

I’m very grateful that I went to this event despite some of the not so pleasant vibes that I experienced. I realized that my intuition (Master Teacher within) had served me very well when I had absolutely no desire to join the Teal Tribe.

Prior to this insight, I did wonder a few times why I wasn’t drawn to join Teal’s spiritual community since I enjoyed watching a lot (but not all) of her YouTube videos that were very helpful.

I now fully trust that I was simply meant to extract what highly benefits me, and discard whatever doesn’t, the way I’ve been doing with all outer teachers that show up in my awareness—whether people, readings, videos, etc.

Note: This section turned into its own post, “Strange Observations and Feelings About Teal Swan, Her Team Members, The Mirror Event, & Her Tribe“

Transmutation, Transformation, and Integration of Rude Energy

A Story of Staff from Two Restaurants

I shared the following four star reviews about six to seven months ago for the restaurants sweetgreen (311 Amsterdam Ave, New York, NY 10023) and Sal and Carmine Pizza (2671 Broadway, New York, NY 10025):

Review for sweetgreen already shared in post, “Embracing and Integrating the Benefits of Both Solitude and Interactions with Others.”

Review for Sal and Carmine Pizza:

I read a handful of different comments, but I was drawn to check this place out due to my curiosity; and I’m glad I followed my inner guidance—despite the not so inviting, recent, negative reviews—because I was reminded of an unexpected, priceless, ultimate, life lesson.

Initially, the young guy making a pizza didn’t exactly come off as warm and fuzzy friendly, so I can understand why certain people expressed what they did.

However COMMA when I took a brief moment to see beyond the outer “rough” surface—by shifting from limited, human, physical mind perspective to the unlimited, Soul/Spirit, Multidimensional, expanded perspective (consciousness)—I was able to truly SEE a human being busily doing his best to do a good job as fast as he can (and who knows how many other personal and/or work-related stress factors, that we all go through, have influenced his not so happy appearing demeanor).

I tried the freshly-made Grandma’s pizza, and it actually tasted like one of our back-in-the-day grandmamas had made it with love (though she may not be smiley on the outside).

To my great surprise, when I asked the same guy a question before leaving, he seemingly transformed into a genuinely friendly, enthusiastic, and helpful being.

I initially thought, “Who is this guy?”; but I then trusted that I must have shifted into a parallel Earth reality once I chose to see the bigger picture (aka open my mind and heart/raise my vibrational frequency).

I gave him a big tip and his face lit up even more, and he sincerely thanked me. Like all of us at times, he just needed a break in life from all the super busyness and various stress factors.

I was recently reminded that humanity has experienced much CONDITIONAL love throughout human history; hence, there are many wounded souls/wounded wounders who havent healed on deep levels.

But I trust than we, as humanity evolving on all energy levels of our being—physical, mental, emotional, financial (poverty consciousness to Prosperity Consciousness), and spiritual—can choose to Be our full-potential/Multidimensional Selves/Wounded Healers who choose NOT to intentionally hurt self/others because we’re aware that we’re all interconnected parts of the whole (like trillions of cells within one body), and we’ve learned that it doesn’t FEEL good to be hurt by another (to include from the judgmental aspect of ourselves).

I have no doubt that we can help make our lives on this planet a little more smoother, more peaceful, abundant, wise, free, and happier by practicing to unconditionally love more and more aspects of ourselves (since True Love starts from within)—the duality/polarity of the so-called good and bad, right and wrong, dark and light, etc.—which helps us to embrace more and more of interconnected Life within this Universe and beyond.

The Divine Dichotomy of a Very Bad/Great Day

In the past, whenever someone asked me how my day went, I would reply something to the effect that it was good or bad.

However, on April 20th of this year, I had a bizarre set of experiences that would initially leave me baffled and speechless to that same question.

Continuing another day…

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The following is a section from the post, “Understand the Divine Dichotomy in All Things” related to this subtitle:

“It’s important to learn about Divine Dichotomy and understand it thoroughly if you are to live in our universe with grace. Divine Dichotomy holds that it is possible for two apparently contradictory truths to exist simultaneously in the same space.

Now on your planet people find this difficult to accept. They like to have order, and anything that does not fit into their picture is automatically rejected. For this reason, when two realities begin to assert themselves and they seem to contradict one another, the immediate assumption is that one of them must be wrong, false, untrue. It takes a great deal of maturity to see, and accept, that, in fact, they might both be true.

Yet in the realm of the absolute—as opposed to the realm of the relative, in which you live—it is very clear that the one truth which is All There Is sometimes produces an effect which, viewed in relative terms, looks like a contradiction.”

– Conversations with God, Book 3 [Note: I did enjoy this book years ago]

“In ultimate reality there is no such thing as good and evil. In the realm of the absolute, all there is is love. Yet in the realm of the relative you have created the experience of what you “call” evil, and you have done it for a very sound reason. You wanted to experience love, not just “know” that love is All There Is, and you cannot experience something when there is nothing else but that. And so, you created in your reality (and continue to do so every day) a polarity of good and evil, thus using one so that you might experience the other.

And here we have a Divine Dichotomy—two seemingly contradictory truths existing simultaneously in the same place. Specifically:

There is such a thing as good and evil.

All there is is love.”

– Conversations with God, Book 3

Updates

5/30/2018

The following is an excerpt from a post published at a later time, “A Farewell List to Ultimate Freedom“:

Teal’s Event in NYC (The Mirror Workshop of April ’18): I only wrote and published subtitles for the recent post, “A Treasure Chest of Experiences from The Mirror Workshop Trip in NYC.” This was more than likely due to the need to further process all of it and/or not wanting to deal with it anymore. I may continue recording what I had experienced…if I feel like it. Overall, it was a very beneficial trip (and not just the event); however, there were a few moments and teachings that didn’t feel right at all.

Teal revealed to me that I really enjoyed her full presence, vibes, and teachings via most of her videos that I’ve watched so far (by herself), but not so much in person (to include a few teachings stated at the workshop that definitely didn’t feel good)
- One Example: A blond, female who considered herself a hottie, shared with Teal (on stage) that she’s been having problems making female friends due to them being catty. Teal shared some good tips, but at one point, seemed to drive off the cliff like a mad woman (and not in a Thelma and Louis kind of way). She (Teal)—being blatantly honest I suppose—shared her way of handling this problem that she’s very familiar with, which is to only befriend females who are either “butt-ass ugly” or very hot; BUT she doesn’t befriend the females inbetween the former, two categories since “they are the most dangerous.”
- After their baffling, narrow-minded, misleading conversation—that can actually prevent good friendships from developing, due to putting people in unnecessary boxes—I raised my hand to share how that’s NOT always the case; but I guess it wasn’t meant to be.
- In addition, I—and apparently other females in the audience (I found out later from three, new temporary friends)—couldn’t believe Teal would say something like that; after all, one of her main, go-to team members who was standing nearby, is a fat (border-lining obese), so-called, not-so-attractive (according to general society) female. How would her and like others feel upon hearing that? None of them were hotties, and since they work for her, they’re also not in “the most dangerous” middle category. UPDATE (inserted 8/24/2018): A video that provides a deep understanding of why Teal had said the above => “What Relationship Do You Have? ( An Enlightening Self Awareness Exercise) – Teal Swan“
Despite Teal being an @$$ during a few moments of the three-day event, I chose to embrace her as is, and only tune into what I highly resonate with (her soul-igniting videos that are still helpful). I’m still very grateful for her existence and her contribution to humanity and beyond.

9/9/2018: “How To Be Authentic – Teal Swan –“
- The following is a comment I shared for this video: I’m very grateful that I had the golden opportunity to witness you Be authentic at your Mirror event in NYC—freely, fully, and unapologetically expressing much of your whole, rainbow spectrum of Multidimensional self (physical self)/Self (Source: Soul/Spirit within). Though there were a few moments where I found myself judging you, I later realized that it was too easy for you to only Be what general society considers right and good. Thank you Teal for all that you amazingly are, and all that you generously share with humanity and beyond.

Updates

10/1/2021

Last post about Teal Swan: “Farewell to Spiritual Teachers Whose Energies & Teachings Feel HEAVY Now“

9/17/2021

I shared the following comment for Teal’s question, “If you are confused about the truth of someone, mentally put them on mute and watch their actions as if you were watching a silent movie. What do their actions say?” (note: image on right came with the message):

Teal, some of your actions at your NYC event surprisingly (and initially) seemed to convey adjectives that I normally wouldn’t use to describe you within your YouTube videos (especially the earlier ones), like: cold, distant, unapproachable, sarcastic (but not in a funny way), patronizing, fear-instilling, manipulating, demanding, controlling, etc.. However COMMA I wondered later if this unusual way of being was due to whatever challenges you had going on at the time, to include your last divorce (which I wasn’t aware of at the time, but was later happy for you since I felt that you deserved more of a matching, compatible partner). Anyhoo, we can all be ANY of the neutral aspects within WHOLE self/Self (to whatever degree), so even though I was a bit disappointed in the overall experience—because I had chose to spend a lot of money on the entire trip, to include the event, airfare, hotel, etc. based on my growing trust for you over the years—I’m now grateful that this theme resurfaced, in Divine perfect timing and order, so that I can SEE (with CLARITY) the bigger picture; and that is, it’s time to fully embrace and integrate these “negative”/”dark”/unknown aspects within others/self. It’s funny that the younger version of you seemed like the Light Goddess, and the more mature version of you seem like the Dark Goddess, and it’s also time to simply and fully SEE you as BOTH within ONE. You are deeply appreciated Soul sister. 😉

UPDATE (inserted at top)

The Free-spirited, Hysterical, Bawling Female Who Couldn’t Take it Anymore

The Strange and Intriguing Vibes of Teal Swan’s The Mirror Event/Workshop

Transmutation, Transformation, and Integration of Rude Energy

The Divine Dichotomy of a Very Bad/Great Day

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